https://soundcloud.com/heylog

lyrics:
staring at the random number
but my mind is at a blank
lookin at my computer
so i ask, "who is this"
it was my lover
how could i forget?
ur light im thunder
ill hurt u twice again
staring at the late phone call
whoops did i miss that on purpose?
yeah that was intentional
and all this distortion
girl i never wanted this
for u to go off to college
and honestly i hated it
so id never have a chance

she say that she forget everything we ever had
baby that is horrible
i think she got some problems
so u need to worry bout yourself
and theres no denying that u need a lil help
i already played the part 
so go find someone else
i know that she hates it
how i been so far cropped out in the distance
i need to stay away from u 
no its not an accident
ive focused avoiding u this whole time on purpose
im sorry not really atleast i didnt forget

i tried my best baby but this is never gonna happen
im not the one to show love, shouldve known that was a problem
i picked these flowers for u i know u probably tossed em
now i just be resting from girls n everybody
she dont really love me
she just like to attention
how am i this stupid
omg im gonna lose it
take in all this caffeine
i still have no energy
drinking all this coffee
still got no energy

she say that she forget everything we ever had
baby that is horrible
i think she got some problems
so u need to worry bout yourself
and theres no denying that u need a lil help
i already played the part 
so go find someone else
i know that she hates it
how i been so far cropped out in the distance
i need to stay away from u 
no its not an accident
ive focused avoiding u this whole time on purpose
im sorry not really atleast i didnt forget

at least i didn't forget

heylog - at least i didn't forget

prod deadfish <3

socials:
https://www.instagram.com/deadfishig

lyrics:

I need therapy
I am going numb
could you look at me
and maybe dm me from time to time

I don't think I'll be okay
I think it's needless to say
that I need someone to stay
is it bad that I'm afraid

I never wanted
to end up like that
alone and aching 
with no one to talk about stuff
that troubles me and I can't
deal it with on my own
I've been to therapy
didn't listen now I'm at the start

I never wanted to feel like a burden oh no
so sick of hearing that I'm better off dead
Don't need your pity, no
I Don't want any meds
I know I'm god damn numb
but pills just won't help

I need therapy
I am going numb
could you look at me
and maybe dm me from time to time

I don't think I'll be okay
I think it's needless to say
that I need someone to stay
is it bad that I'm afraid
x2

Afraid

prod. sleepwater, tnvr, i'm geist
@tnvr555 @imgeist

// sleepwater
heart gone i want it back
wait for you to call back
when I'm not with you heart gone black
never in love now, the fucks that
hearts set on u, want back
room to run round, seeing black
black
black
black
hearts in the ground seein bad

rotting my brain out need u stay now
lost in the ground
its just a test

// i'm geist
heart gone i want it back
wait for you to call back
when I'm not with you heart gone black
never in love now, the fucks that

the fucks that
did u find it in the trash?
cause i don’t seem to have any must have lost it in the past
and u tried to show me that it wasn’t that bad
then you watched it all bleed saw my heart turn black

the fucks that
i’m 200 on the dash
cause I’m running out of time i either save us or i crash
and i gave my all for u to stab me in the back
but u said that you would love me when my heart turns black

// sleepwater
heart gone i want it back
wait for you to call back
when I'm not with you heart gone black
never in love now, the fucks that
hearts set on u, want back

i'm geist & sleepwater - heart 404

ty for listening <3
prod. i'm geist x deadfish x hiraeth
mixed/mastered by deadfish

@imgeist
@hiraethsry
@imnotenvy
@yokaidreams
@sleepywater
@deadfishpoland

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/2MEwCgdk51OeRKs5vdbJZJ 
also up on itunes and apple music!

// lyrics
// imgeist
oh, hold on wait, tell me did i let you down
can i breathe a little swear that i won’t make a sound
and everybody’s out for blood that’s why i hate this town
and everybody’s out for me that’s why i’ll go ghost now

oh, hold on wait, tell me I’m the monster now
when you’re the one who went and filled my head with doubt
i gave up everything just to be the one left out
i tossed you my heart, you stomped it on the ground

// hiraeth
put your hands all on my body now i'm leaving
i don’t wanna hurt you bitch, i'm falling for a reason
give another reason, leave without a meaning
tell me that you love me, tell me that you miss him

i could run away and still nobody wanna know now
funny i meant everything until he wanna come round
leave it at the door and get your shit just on the way out
text him that you want him cause he knows you're on the way now

// notenvy
and i cant even look at myself dont feel the same i'm
trapped inside my own little hell you pin the blame you
took my heart it snapped and i fell you'll never say why
i've been steady feeling unwell what has this come to?
and i've been dying tryna get you outta my head
and i keep fucking crying over things you said
dont tell me that we'll ever have a chance again
cause i can't deal with trauma take my life instead

// imgeist
oh, hold on wait, tell me did i let you down
can i breathe a little swear that i won’t make a sound
and everybody’s out for blood that’s why i hate this town
and everybody’s out for me that’s why i’ll go ghost now !!!!!!!!

oh, hold on wait, tell me I’m the monster now???!
when you’re the one who went and filled my head with doubt???!
i gave up everything just to be the one left out???!
i tossed you my heart, you stomped it on the ground

// yokai dreams
you always jumped at a chance to slice up my ego
power your libido
take your time, suck the life out of everywhere that we go
emotional mosquito
she's undead never had a care
for the affairs of the living
take your heart and she grinning
as the clock strikes 10
honest men will head to bed
but she just started causing pain by the minute

// sleepwater
torment anxiety
what is inside of me
i'm broken, i'm destined to die
a loner, a puppet in disguise
soil is dirty, i'm drowning reserve me
i need you don't burn me, i'm liquid lurking

// deadfish
and i've tried to move on
yea i’ve tried to forget
but you just
seem to never wanna leave my head
so
i can never fucking see you again
you know that
i really need it to feel again

stop fucking calling and wasting my time
said that you’ll fix that, we know thats a lie
now that i’m gone you regret what you've done
when you are crying i’ll hide in my home

could you stop fucking up my entire life
telling everyone that i was just another guy
never said what you did, i’d never tell a soul
cause i'm better than this and i'm better than u

Spotify

out for blood! w/ hiraeth, notenvy, yokai dreams, sleepwater, deadfish

<3
released via: https://soundcloud.com/universalchill

featured artist: https://soundcloud.com/hiraethsry

socials:
https://www.instagram.com/deadfishig/

discord.gg/hsUwdAJknJ

lyrics:

There is something that’s inside of me
Screaming at me, tryna go to sleep
Dancing demons under eyelids
Can’t be rational when I’ve been

Awake for a couple of days
You don’t understand my struggles
Don’t pretend that you’re me
You’ve been buying a new necklace
When there’s a noose on my neck
Writing down all of my problems
Like they will go away

There is lots that I’m not proud of
I admit that I have messed up
Something’s causing all this pain
Must’ve slipped up in the past

Please don’t try to cheer me up
Don’t lie to me, I hate that
I’m aware of all my faults
And I’m trying to fix that

And I can’t stop it
Pills been pretty numbing
Been out of my mind
Excuse all my shortcomings

I swear to god it
Ruins all my friendships
I have tried everything now
Somehow I fuck it up, wow

They told me that I’ll end up insane
I think that
To say that it’s a little too late
And I just
Can’t bear the thought of not seeing the day
Where I will feel okay
Buried 6 feet with the pain

I don’t wanna lose you again
I been alone in my bed
Ive had a few dreams about you
But theyre all in my head

Scratching marks on my chest
Engrave ur name in my flesh 
So I can’t forget if I tried to
Ur gonna leave me for dead

I keep fucking up the timing 
U don’t wanna listen
U got feelings of denial
Another pot to piss in
feel like I should start to fight more
I don’t need to be religious baby
U know what I stand for
Ashes burn my eyes sore

anxious I can’t breathe
Im getting nauseous turn the lights out
Please don’t ever speak to me
Don’t act like got time now
Im fighting with myself
Im out of luck is this my karma
I can barely talk im scared of speaking when i call her

6 feet with the pain

6 feet with the pain (feat. hiraeth)

use me up to tell me that u never loved me
I feel like I’m never nothing
I’m tired can u just leave me alone
Please stop staring swear my face is fucking boring
I don’t need to be important I’m swinging until I knock him cold
Staring at the mirror
Should I be alive
I’ve got reason to believe that it’s just not my time
Maybe in another life

I only eat when I deserve to
Clouded mirror sit and stare in the bathroom
I been thru it all before I’m just like you
I never wanna let you down but I had to

I’d give up on everything to be a better me
I’ve got people streaming songs
but no one listening
Every lyric that I write, you know I fucking mean
You only hmu to make a song with me

I won’t get that mad
I’m just frustrated
I can’t seem to get a break and I just hate it
If you lived in my shoes maybe you’d get it
Why I get pissed off and I’m not patient

WRITING EVERY FEELING BUT I’LL ALWAYS FORGET
EVERYTHING I EVER DID OR EVER SAID IN THE END
BUT I’M TOO FAR GONE TO CARE
I DON’T LIKE YOU
I WISH THAT YOU’D CARE FOR ME
YOU DON’T TRY TO

produced by me
hope you enjoy <3

socials:
www.instagram.com/deadfishig/

discord.gg/hsUwdAJknJ

lyrics:

And I’m so sick of always fucking up
Always apologize, it’s the last time
Blame it on me, i’m never good enough
Lost my peace, now I lash out

Cant get rid of the taste out my fuckin mouth
Carve out my tongue, said too much, bleeding out
Doesnt matter what I do, it’s way too late
Screaming out and procrastinate

I can’t
Stay here
Mental
Dread and
Pain gets
Stronger
Isolated

I can’t keep it up, nah
Throw me out, leave me to rot
I think it’s easier that way for me
You have no say in this, so just leave me

I dont care what they say
I ignore, most of dms
I don’t know why it’s so hard to
Keep a convo, maybe laugh

Caught myself staring at the ceiling
Everyone pretends they know the feeling
7 years has passed and I’m still healing
You will never know what I’m concealing

Caught myself staring at the ceiling
Everyone pretends they know the feeling
7 years has passed and I’m still healing
You will never know what I’m concealing

blame

stream

prod. ocin
guitars: yhello

Come catch a feeling while we’re watching a lightning 
But nothing excites me, baby I try to hide it 
I think about you, let’s make love on the highway 
Can we get inside babe 
You know time won’t stop flying 

You know me I 
Could never stop 
I’ll do it or die 
Can’t lose you and cry 
The pain in our back 
It hurts 
Now we’re laughing it off 
Now we’re laughing it off, oh 
The pain in our back 
It hurts 
Now we’re laughing it off 
We keep laughing it off, ya 

Kill time when we're driving 
It's both of us finding 
A reason to separate 
Your past is behind me 
I don't open up 
Don't wanna be judged 
Don't wanna be looked at 
I blame my gut 

I love you and you know that 
Even if you don't love me back 
I pray at night to hope you're well 
And pray again for my own self 
If I had a wish and that would be to see you laugh 
Cause I guarantee that you'll receive a smile back 
Now we both sitting there just laughing it off 
I want you to know that you were all I got 

You know me I 
Could never stop 
I’ll do it or die 
Can’t lose you and cry 
The pain in our back 
It hurts 
Now we’re laughing it off 
Now we’re laughing it off, oh

laugh it off (ft. heylog)

prod. @prod-oc 

// sewerperson 
the trust was removed from you and i 
you and i 
from you i 
still I thought about how u told me its till we die
like you and i
till the afterlife
now I sit alone inside this booth and I bleed
all the words on this page leave me shameful its free
i know
oh i know
you’re still awake just like usual
just like the photos
oh I know 

uh if no one told me different I would get by
if u just shared my feelings we would be more than fine
blood all over the floorboards i cant hide
u should’ve been all mine u didn’t have to die
i will say a prayer and ill go to sleep
if I die tonight lord take my soul to keep
i was way too wavy look at my cup it bleeds
bape pink on top my hoodie with yeezys on my feet 

// geist 
yeah you come to go 
to put on a show 
watch me die alone
when i need you most 
again 
god i hate this game 
the way it ends the same 

be soft 
it’s all so brittle 
squeezed tight..
now blood leaves every pore 
swore that you were my angel 
saved me to ruin me once more 

shut up i’ve got nothing left to say to you 
i shutout every word cause you don’t speak the truth 
crossed my heart and now you’re gonna pay for two 
the sky is ripping open
swear this time we’re doomed 

please don’t look 
i cannot stomach it 
swore it’s you & i 
until my heart stops beating 
bloods all on the floorboards
never meant for this
don’t look me in the face 
cause you’re not my muse darling 

i won’t try there’s nothing to save 
i’ve learnt you’ve got no shame 
and i don’t want to know what’s his name 
i’ll put him in the grave 
i don’t need nobody to say 
who am i to blame 
i call every shot that i take 
you’re all just fucking lame 

yeah spit on my face 
once you’ll clean it with yours baby 
don’t say my name 
and watch the tone you speak to me 
i’m not the same 
person you left groveling 
on my feet again 
kill all who dare looks my way


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