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lyrics:

The only evidence is locked in these old photos and still it barely is
And maybe its just me but I cant see us one with victory if that is what were up against
Let us sleep on it tonight

From the west I could feel the wind
It tore the sail and now we sit in the Atlantic
I see the shadow of the beast ahead
With clear sight and I accept it
My feather weight frame couldn’t manage
We chose our pride over the damage we expected
Its about time we had faced the hard truth
Take my body and feed it to the blue
No noise no blood no pain 
In an instant I was turned to the bait
Somehow its cold peace in the middle of the fray 
But every second I can breathe make me feel its too late
No no no never no
Even in this state I cant help but take control
Somehow every day this haunting take some out my soul
Tender thought I was seeing things until it hit his home

The struggling u do won’t help
Metal in his hands with 6 rounds
Take apart my heart with 2 shells
All that for a script of how he felt
This candle light hits me in my face
I hunger for her blood I need a taste
The flesh is tender right around the waist
On the sea ur moral compass is erased

The struggling u do won’t help
Metal in his hands with 6 rounds
Take apart my heart with 2 shells
All that for a script of how he felt
This candle light hits me in my face
I hunger for her blood I need a taste
The flesh is tender right around the waist
On the sea ur moral compass is erased

un1d3ntifiable r3mains ft guardin (branwen)

produced by jpjp
vocals + lyrics by heylog & i'm geist

lyrics:
your caught around my throat
i don't think you wanna know what i know
you remember we were close
now i don't call you a bro anymore
watch out i might contain hostility
you say u know but you don't know me
i guess i'm used to it
people that i know always abusing it

i'd kill the old me
a lot has changed so i'd do it in a heart beat
through the veins, through my skin
subtle scarring
what was left in the past
know it hardly
i had a job and i failed to kill the old me
a lot has changed so i'd do it in a heart beat
through the veins, through my skin
subtle scarring
what was left in the past
know it hardly
i had a job and i failed to kill the old me

so long, won’t accept my defeat
i know i’m running out of time
but i can’t even breathe

lost cause, threw me into the sea
it’s not what i wanted to be
they prayed i drowned in the deep

but i’m holding on
there’s so much left inside of my head that i’m fighting for
what went wrong?
cause i seem to have lost myself amongst the dying stars

what went wrong?
cause i seem to have lost myself amongst the dying stars
what went wrong?
i seem to have lost myself amongst the dying stars

i'd kill the old me
a lot has changed so i'd do it in a heart beat
through the veins, through my skin
subtle scarring
what was left in the past
know it hardly
i had a job and i failed to kill the old me
a lot has changed so i'd do it in a heart beat
through the veins, through my skin
subtle scarring
what was left in the past
know it hardly
i had a job and i failed to kill the old me

through my veins, through my skin

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heylog & i'm geist - through the veins, through my skin (jpjp)

produced by me and @heylog

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lyrics:

I’m broken, I know that
I’m trying to get up
I’m falling apart
That should be enough

showing my good side
Have to keep my composure
But always get angry
I’m tryna keep it closed

Tell me something
I’ll ignore it
Always angry
I’m just broken

Take it out
On people that I care about
Always sorry
For all the stuff that I have done

Someday I’ll fade
Away, regrets
Still there 
6 feet in the ground
With me

Don’t need you to
Pity me, I don’t
Deserve anything
Oh anything at all

on a borderline to kill all things i obtain
all i gave was kindness, u don't provide the same
i leave it all inside but man i'm bound to explode
i'm holding in my blood that just might come out my nose

i don't really see a point in this
ima cut you and your stupid friends
before i hang up get the bye bye
no voicemail i got the right mind

ima bleed out if i don't cover up
my wounds hurt, they're all deep cuts
so i stg u need to stay away
behind my back i could feel ur blade so

stab me good and cut my face and gouge out my eyes
staring at a wall i've stared at too many times
the way the shadow shapeshifted its way in the light
sinking to the floor cus it turns out i was right

broken

broken (feat. heylog)

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Artist:
@hiraethsry

Produced by @sinxi

Lyrics:
u don’t wanna listen 
ik u can’t really take it
talk to me for hours baby
convos getting basic
hira just reply to me
im sorry i can’t save it
im nothing worth investing in 
my stomachs always aching

its hard to try when nobody cares
i know you said you want forever
now nobody’s there
but u never had to lie to me
that’s somebody’s bed
u said u never had the time for me 
and fucked him instead

feel like you’re wanting me dead
the feelings are gone; i regret
leave me alone in the back rooms
putting ur marks on my head
fear i know nothing about you
ur laying on my chest
told me you left cause you had to
but you’d do it again

embarassing
you let me down
5 minutes til ur back again
you let me drown 
so dont tell me what i deserve
you dont care 
left in the state that you put me in
its not fair 
stg im an idiot

i dont think i ever liked you
im unconcious but i thought you
where different that youd care for me
cause i bled all my blood for you
and we haven’t talked in months
cause i don’t open any messages
i left it all behind 
so i’ll be waiting on my own again

hiraeth - nobody cares

produced by hiraeth and heylog <3

You’ve got nothing to say to me
I’m drowning in the ocean
Always complain to me
I’m dealing with my own shit
Filling my vacancy
(Just breathe)
If I died tomorow I bet nobody’d even notice

harder to breathe
when ur around I’m losing focus
Trying to speak, the words can’t seem to leave my vocal
Getting likes on ig
cause ur half naked in the photos
I’m dying to sleep, if I wake up im meeting god bro

Stay closer to me
I swear that nobody can touch you
if they tried
I’d grit my teeth and fight them all for you
I’m tryna hide, stop tryna reason what I been thru
It’s not my time, I’d kill anyone laying next to you

never should've went for u
and i ain't know your friend exists
if that was the case i would restart and go for her instead
what a shame
u let your life to pieces
who's to blame
(you)
you're the only reason i can't focus
got me losing sleep
and shit oh how i own it
tell that b-
she can drink bleach
you let it out there in the open
u show yourself no respect
and i wonder if u know this

i'm tired of preaching cus babe it really-
babe it hurts from underneath
all the wasted memories
don't go down, get off your knees
it's not the time for any pleasing

bleach ft. heylog

@sadboykana 
@tnvr555 

// kana 
always on these fucking drugs
cause its the only time i open up right
hiding in the fucking sky i
hide myself from others eye sight
love it when i’m in the night light
no one’s awake to see me cry right?
cutting up my skin, im pale white
paper thin when the blades slice
hope that i die
and i
swear to god it’s been like five nights
curled up in my bed like snow white
look at people through my phone light
and i swear to god it must be so nice
don’t know when my fucking soul died
bruises on my heart i’m cold i
keep looking out onto the night sky
swear to god this is my last night

trust me, i’m ok
just got some problems that wont go away
just got some issues keep coming my way
promise im great
just need some space
else i’ll just break

// geist 
else i’ll just break
i just want to wake up in a home that feels like home
paper thin, can’t cut i’d hit a bone
i can’t fight this feeling anymore
sick of always coping on my own

sick of always fighting every night
intrusive thoughts they rip apart my mind
i just want a love that fills the night
the way i felt staring into your eyes

and i need space
but i’m ok
trust me i’m not lying
i’ve got friends
who hate my face
and they’re no good at hiding it
i’m blacked out in the benz yet once again
self-destructing till i meet my end

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trust me, i'm ok w/ kana [tnvr]

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lyrics - 

give the kinda love that i need right back
kinda on the fence but i'll take my chance
tired of the mistakes making me sad
can't get the thought of you outta my head

where do i go?
who can i trust to leave me alone
put on a show then go home
dying to know
i hate and i loathe
written in stone the words saying
'love you'

i'm missing all the memories
i can feel your soul slowly making less of me
safe to say it hurt to watch you leave
now there's no one left to help me here

you're feeling alone on a friday evening
try to hold on love i'm trying to see you
i know you're hurting, you stumble bleeding
i'll keep you whole
you're scared 
you can hold my hand
we'll walk alone, no light to guide
but i know where your heart is
and i know how you're feeling now

let go don't cry just

you're sick to death of me
you hoped i feel the same but it's
just too much to leave here
i'm dealing with the shame of it
thinking that you loved me
i cry and medicate
it's just too much to intake
i'll try my fucking best i
didn't wanna calm down
i'm tryna come to terms with it
molded my emotion
to feel like you're controlling it
so what's it gonna take right now?
gotta keep my feet on the ground

now that love has washed away
contemplating life and i’m sure you can relate
and i’ve seen better days
recently been bitter what’s the point if i ain’t gonna make it in life
i’m always stuck by your side
and can you do me the same
and stay close to mine

don’t leave now i still haven’t kissed you
when you walk out my house i already miss you
let’s snuggle here in the back of my car
our eyes meet the galaxy, we’re counting the stars
my dad says i need to be home before eleven
but she does not want me leave, “logan stay a second” 
a couple hours isn’t very long to spend that time with you
and i finally got the gut to lean in and kiss you

mistake w/heylog

i want you to see me like i'm nothing more than flesh 

w/ @heylog

prod: https://soundcloud.com/eric-godlow
master: https://soundcloud.com/ezraspandora 

looking back baby,
i already was hollow
toss it back 
way too fast 
till i get through the bottle
i don't wanna leave this club
i just wanna drink 
until i throw it all up
(lock me up)
want you to squeeze until i'm leaking out blood
i wanna see just how it feels to go numb
i wanna feel it on the tip of my tongue
let's fuck it up until we're going out bad 
let's break it all apart until there's nothing fucking left
cause i want you to see me like i'm nothing more than flesh 
and i want you to tell me i'm a waste of fucking breath
oh i'm terrible 
i'm the reason you're falling 
unbearable 
i'm the bones in your closet
i still just wanna see you get out 
there's nothing left for me to be now

damn it all 
pray for what 
there's nobody there
(i'm too far gone)
tell me why 
i wanted you then 
i want you now

heylog:
i'm chillin at a party, why'd i decide to go out
wish i just stayed home but i been stuck inside my house
i don't even care, i'd much rather be sober
she hung around the bottles and i could tell it broke her
i'm glad i can't relate cause i've never had that problem
you told me i'm rude for that but hey, i'm being honest
i would never lie to you, just want you to stop it
i could up and go, i've got plenty of options
quit talking, ur just holding me back
it's safe to say, tonight ur getting trashed
take a second to breathe, ik ur sad
you don't have to drink it away, could you relax
she phones her girls for a ride at 3am
can't even walk to her room, she needs a hand
throwing up all the time, she's used to it
friday night rolls around and repeat it

tip of my tongue (w/ heylog) (prod. eric godlow)

prod. me
(capsctrl on acoustic guitar)
<3

lyrics:
what was it like to fall in love with me?
asleep in the morning, awake in the night
i'll take it all, i'll face it all, im in deep.
no saving me now.

cry more
days spent stumbling onto who i am, what i want
lace up, run far
running into what i am, fuck who i was

take your time, take your time
save your breath
its all a lie, all a lie, its a test
waking up, waking up all over again
waste of lungs, wasted lungs i am.

if youd listened to me who knows what we could be
(stop it now its dark in here)
so tied up on things that we didnt even mean
(stop it now i've had enough)
said you know me the best but you dont know me at all
i was depressed and didnt bother to call out to you
so much changed so fast but im right here
please dont give up

what is it like to fall out of love with me?
i feel so annoyed and, i dont know why
i took it all, i faced it all, i was in deep
dont start from the beginning just end it

cry more
days spent stumbling onto who i am, what i want
lace up, run far
running into what i am, fuck who i was

who i was

prod. ocin
guitars: yhello

Come catch a feeling while we’re watching a lightning 
But nothing excites me, baby I try to hide it 
I think about you, let’s make love on the highway 
Can we get inside babe 
You know time won’t stop flying 

You know me I 
Could never stop 
I’ll do it or die 
Can’t lose you and cry 
The pain in our back 
It hurts 
Now we’re laughing it off 
Now we’re laughing it off, oh 
The pain in our back 
It hurts 
Now we’re laughing it off 
We keep laughing it off, ya 

Kill time when we're driving 
It's both of us finding 
A reason to separate 
Your past is behind me 
I don't open up 
Don't wanna be judged 
Don't wanna be looked at 
I blame my gut 

I love you and you know that 
Even if you don't love me back 
I pray at night to hope you're well 
And pray again for my own self 
If I had a wish and that would be to see you laugh 
Cause I guarantee that you'll receive a smile back 
Now we both sitting there just laughing it off 
I want you to know that you were all I got 

You know me I 
Could never stop 
I’ll do it or die 
Can’t lose you and cry 
The pain in our back 
It hurts 
Now we’re laughing it off 
Now we’re laughing it off, oh

laugh it off (ft. heylog)

cover art by my mother 

all the songs in the flesh alb r jus gone be released as singles

sewerperson "lights r on but no ones home" covered in the song

mix & mastr @fleshgolem
lyrics

fillin up th cup 
i feel my body start to ache
evrything telling me to stop
even see th walls starting to cave
and they love it, a body piled function
don’t wanna cause fussing but it’s building up coz every day i see my grave

this aint who i am
but ima act like this is why i am 
my perspective starts to change in where i stand, looking out th window pane
look i dont blame u for thinking im not keen staying 
but i dont hav a plan, anywhere on this dirt feels same

sink to the floor, coz it’s the norm, 
don’t u touch my skin
it’s all been stored, i’m now reborn
coz i can dump my things
yelling fuck it, pressing on my stomach
i can feel it coming but i’m not fucking stopping
 till i’m turned out in 

look at my face, see my state i jus kno ur confused 
i need space, cannot wait let’s take a break on the moon
i’m in pain, still in shock, lost in thought and i’m bruised
u saw me thru th glass and then just left me bleeding out in this hotel room

i saw the lights on but i knew that no one else was home
look at the nikon and check the camera roll, i'm all alone
feel the bottle pop, spew it out, opening in the mouth
i'm a cyclops when it comes to seeing no one else
okay, okay

i feel my ears pop when i take the lift up to the spot
in the function, sipping on this ace and rolling pot
i'ma punch in, even when i'm geeked, i'm on the clock
like a pumpkin, i'm lit up and my body start to rot

i'm an asshole, okay, well, i know, so you can leave
what's the point, though, in coming to the function if you cheesed?
i'm in street clothes but my guys in masks and they don't ski
i don't need throat, i just need a girl who proud of me, okay

know i act tough i just need someone to see i’m not ok
the whole domineer off i’ma just leave it to fate
cut my feelings off coz that mean i’m not suffering the same
sure it isn’t real but when i smile i still feel sane

i still feel sane, but mostly when im on a subs
get apifannys that turns my wants in to musts
i get a lot dreams but w my habits theyre all stuck 
i got these goals but w these habits theyre all fucked

i'm an asshole, okay, well, i know, so you can leave
what's the point, though, in coming to the function if you cheesed?
i'm in street clothes but my guys in masks and they don't ski
i don't need throat, i just need a girl who proud of me, okay

lights r on

lights r on (flesh)

Been alone for a while i felt helpless 
didn't stop mean to question your intentions
you should've given a part of me lesser
i lost a half when i left your possession

oh i say im fine when im not 
cus i left the best part of me 
2 thousand miles away 
i swear to god when i get free 
i'll fall into ur eyes again 
surrender every enemy 
left in the trenches of war would you lay with me 

don't let me go 
i want more and i've given it all 
to the girl i adore 
im never enough 
no im never enough 
FUCK
ive tried to live it up 
but i feel like im nothing at all 
baby im such a dissapointment 
leave me with the ocean 

take me home where i belong 
i cant take it no more
a part of you evolved with me now i spread ash on the floor 
just wanna see you and im sorry love youre all that i want
ive waited years and now the months are getting harder to trust

trust
to trust
oh love youre all that i want
want
want

oh love youre all that i want

she says bless you everytime i ever open my mouth
and god i miss you theres no words to explain how

take me home where i belong 
i cant take it no more
a part of you evolved with me now i spread ash on the floor

bless you

blame

produced by drmabeats
feat guardin
thanks for listening <3

FANGORIA feat. guardin (prod. drmabeats)

cover art: Joey600

lyrics:

somethings never end
me n jabari tap in something sacred in the wind
that just cause we friends
ion expect you understand
underneath these lights inside club she hold my hand
lime mixed in my gin
baby i want that again
smoke floats up in the pitch black sky
my eyes roll back and i start to fly
blood falls out when i try to cry
at least im safe when im up so high

life works so differently
without half of me in my company
i got parts in place
of my memories
you see circuitry in my extremities
electricity
in my arteries
big crystal core
for my centerpiece
im feeding off of its energy
i transfer out my humanity for this shit
you got options
girl u got to
hear me when im talking to you
not to often
we was ok but when we were
it was so fun to love you
ill evolve
activate myself inside this tent come one and all
i smoke too much sticky its impossible to fall
if you dont take the shot then its impossible ball
if you dont hold her down then go find someone to call
lately somethings changed inside my soul im feeling off
sit inside my room and started seeing thru the walls
fire in my throat just keep on burning thru the halls
coughing up this sute and scales are poppin out my jaw
ancient foreign texts begin to pop up in my thoughts
symbols of the void begin to surface on palms
thought i had sometime before im back where i belong
hope my shorty know i wont gone for very long
i promise u the first to see me soon im layin low
la summer nights are always harder when alone
love you see you soon is always harder from the phone
fixing what we got is even harder from the tone
answer me i know u fucking home
i just want you to see what i hide
im 12 feet tall from the thighs
pale blue skin no eyes
the flesh doesnt treat me right
crack skulls just to eat their minds
and i dont even like to fight
but she dont wanna hear it
damn

i was home alone in a jam
rain hits my face i remember who i am
jabarionthebeat you already know we going in
comets out my window touching down to scorch the land
i was in my zone going ham
she told me i changed she dont remember who i am
but i could feel the chakra in my hands
i just got some sewage on my pants

me n jabari tap in something sacred in the wind
that just cause we friends
ion expect you understand
underneath these lights inside club she hold my hand
lime mixed in my gin
baby i want that again
smoke floats up in the pitch black sky
my eyes roll back and i start to fly
blood falls out when i try to cry
at least im safe when im up so high

breaking the exosphere (jabarionthebeat)

Debut album out 10/31 on Halloween!
Thanks for listening friends, this was a really fun track to make
<3
Shoutouts
@sewerperson
@sorrow_bringer
@iofmusic

And on a side note THANK YOU FOR 50K on Loveless
You guys are awesome!

*lyrics by request*

(Fearce)
Cant believe my eyes
Look how far we made it
told to never cry
now we just get faded
might see you at my show
too high to even notice you

someday came suddenly
another feeling gone
always time to leave
timing
dont mean a thing
when everything gets lost
it was just a dream
but 
all of its so vague now
can you help me figure out

so many stories i couldnt remember
when all i could think of was falling asleep
you distance yourself from the past and the present
now all that you're left with exists in a dream

but we're so much farther
than the people we used to be

(Sewerperson)
black ash
seeing thru the serpents eye
whip lash
i could barely sleep at night
breaking the walls of my mind
baby i had enough
chained to the pole by her side
baby im giving up
and i never leave
i just fade into the background
they aint let me breathe but i promise you i am now
 ever since i known her she cant help the way she stand out  
baby ill see you in your dreams and i promise you ill stand down
woah
lights on top these buildings offer shelter from the snow
i cant even decide just where the fuck i wanna go
far away from anybody i would ever know
i could feel this tingle in my hands before they glow

broken (feat. heylog)

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