Livestrean  5

@lilhappylilsad

Art by: @neversince

Lyrics:

ye i love you, and i want u to smile
get the drugs boo, ye lets smoke and get high
drippin blood tho, i got death on my mind
got this urge hoe, wanna cut till die

and i dont want to, but i fuck it all up
i feel so damn low, cant control it at times
and it hurts you, i dont want u to cry
cause i love u, and i want u to smile

lil happy lil sad - smile (prod. nciku)

Cover Art Credit: http://vsco.co/rosieshulman

You completely destroy me
You destroyed me like you never knew you could
I'm not over you and I never will be
The thing about love is that simple things like her lips and her eyes break my heart
They're not mine and I don't know who's they'll be
Her hair is therapy to my cold and brittle heart

I used to find safety in her smile
I used to feel warmth in the look on her face
I've been left an empty shell to whither and fade away
I used to think of all the things that we'd be
Now I only think of all the things that we never really were

I used to call you mine but now you just don't know
What am I left to do but stand here in the cold
All I've got left are some photos of you and your voice stuck in my head
Saying how you'd be there always and forever until the very end

You were everything to me, and you always will be
Deep in my heart that aches for the sound of your voice
But no longer will I have the choice

I'm sorry for anything that I've done
For the person I've become that you learned to love but then turned your back like a setting sun

If I hurt you I pray that you forgive me
I mean all the words that I say please believe me

And see me as the person you always knew I was
I've never been perfect not in a single way
And that day that you saved me is when I fell from grace
I only needed you and I pushed everyone else away

So now I'm left alone
To live this life all on my own
And I hate the fact that someone else is holding you close
And how you broke my heart when I needed you the most
I've always been too scared to be properly diagnosed
Because you were my pill but now you're nothing but a ghost

And I still have your pictures and that letter you wrote
Where you said that you loved me and you'd never let me go
And you saved me from myself and that's something I hope you know
But you cut me down so quick and I've never been so low

And my stomach aches with every breath of air I breathe
Because you were the one that gave me everything I need
But now this pain won't subside I just can't believe you chose to leave
You were my reason for living how could you do such a heinous thing

I was like a boat that got carried out to sea
And I trusted in your waves, that you wouldn't harm me
You protected me from the storm and gave me a chance at life
And I love the way you cared and asked if I was alright

But something died, something changed and I sunk to the ocean floor
You no longer wanted to hold me up and I drowned from within my core

And every essence of my being is still just too afraid to fight
Because I'm terrified to keep on living without you by my side

And all the things that people said I guess this whole time they were right
Love can never last this way when the flame burns too bright

But I hope you're happy

I hope you're doing fine

I love you still today

Just like you were still mine

I still love the way you laughed
And the things you said to me
You'll never leave my heart
Nor my memory

I just wish I could understand
Why you had to leave
I can't do this on my own
I need you here with me

But you've turned into a ghost
And you're nowhere to be seen
And I can't hear your voice
I won't see your message on the screen

We won't have a family
We won't have a house
We won't raise our kids
You won't be my spouse

We won't grow old together
Like we always planned
You disappeared forever
And alone here shall I stand

you completely destroy me

fats'e - apathy (ft. guccihighwaters)

Powfu - Douchebags

[Pre-Chorus]
Mirror, mirror, on the wall
Find the ugly, in them all
Point them out and let them fall
Destroy their minds and show their flaws
I'm insecure, I need help
I can't find love, for myself
I pray to God, I'm deep in hell
Lord heal my scars, defeat this spell
Cover and hide it
Ashamed of my face
I hate my reflection
I see a mistake
There's too many voices
inside of my brain
I look like a monster
Don't care what you say

[Verse 1]
Deep inside, I really try to hide
But I can never run from myself
I see a monster when I look into the mirror
This cannot be good for my health
I feel like a slave, trapped in my hate
Praying to God, I can't find my escape
I don't wanna be me
Look in the mirror, and see all the ugly things I can't erase
I scare myself, I'm a ghost
I face my demons at home
I think I'm fat, yeah, I'm gross
No love, I deserve to be alone
I know that there's somebody feelin like me
Just know that your beautiful, beyond belief
The mirror is neutral, control your own leash
Cause you can't believe everything you ain't seen


[Chorus]
Cover and hide it
Ashamed of my face
I hate my reflection
I see a mistake
There's too many voices
inside of my brain
I look like a monster
Don't care what you say
Cover and hide it
Ashamed of my face
I hate my reflection
I see a mistake
There's too many voices
inside of my brain
I look like a monster
Don't care what you say

[Verse 2]
I could have all the fame in the world
But I'd still hate myself
I try to learn to love my body, but degrade myself
Waste myself
Sometimes I really wanna change myself
My face breaks out, and my hair's going bald
Man, I suck at school
I wanna hang myself, and erase myself
Dear God, I know that you created me
And I appologize for my thoughts
He made me for a reason, I need to believe it
Cause you showed me love within all of my faults
You paid up the cost, that's blood on the cross
You showed me direction whenever I'm lost
So why would I turn around from you
And treasure my demons
Whenever you gave me a cause?

[Pre-Chorus]
Mirror, mirror, on the wall
Find the ugly, in them all
Point them out and let them fall
Destroy their minds and show their flaws
I'm insecure, I need help
I can't find love, for myself
I pray to God, I'm deep in hell
Lord heal my scars, defeat this spell

[Chorus]
Cover and hide it
Ashamed of my face
I hate my reflection
I see a mistake
There's too many voices
inside of my brain
I look like a monster
Don't care what you say
Cover and hide it
Ashamed of my face
I hate my reflection
I see a mistake
There's too many voices
inside of my brain
I look like a monster
Don't care what you say

on spotify!

mirror, mirror

not worth saving

with @cloudhighcomeup
produced by @prodbybrody

lyrics: https://genius.com/Thebreathingbackwards-alive-lyrics

spotify

alive (ft. cloudhighcomeup)

SOBER

producer: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCf3y4VT_13VNvU1NAWnfn7w

original song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sdeMXjttA-c

lyrics:

you can see the dread in my eyes
cause I'm struggling to survive
and you think that I'm okay
cause I won't let you see my true face

and you feel like there is no help
feel like I'm trapped in my own head
I want to see my happy end
can you save me, from my own dread

i'm not okay x4

I am not heartless, I just can't feel nothing
I may seem bit cold, like inside of a coffin
you left me, no problem
I've never been flawless
And no, I'm not okay

hear the voices, see the demons
feel the coldness, seeking for treatment

and you feel like there is no help
feel like I'm trapped in my own head
I want to see my happy end
can you save me, from my own dread

i'm not okay
i'm not okay

I'm not Okay

spotify/itunes

i'm not okay [prod. raspo]

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/6O2tl9h3DBFUMszA998yOA?si=i002dkXqS_2ejPBNjYJuYA
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/fi/album/bittersweet-single/1524489140
YouTube: https://youtu.be/SjZRDhOr_P0

[Verse 1]
No, I'm not trying to compete
With anybody but it's hard to breathe
And it's been feeling bittersweet
Because you always make me weak
I don't wanna stay here and I need to get out of this
house, this town, this city I'm around
It's been hard without you lately
I can't live on a 'maybe'

[Chorus]
I'm losing my sleep for you
I've got to get up, back on my feet and who
Is gonna pull me up, because it's hard to move
I would lie if I said I didn’t miss you
I just wish you’d miss me too


[Verse 2]
I’m sitting by sea all alone watching the water glow
With a seat next to me which is empty ‘cos you’re gone
Filling the sea with my tears ‘cos I regret I let you go
The weather’s getting cold, I need someone to hold
Me closely ‘cos I don't wanna be lonely tonight

[Chorus]
I'm losing my sleep for you
I've got to get up, back on my feet and who
Is gonna pull me up, because it's hard to move
I would lie if I said I didn’t miss you
I just wish you’d miss me too

Bittersweet

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lyrics -
you said 'don't fall in love again'
'it wouldn't be the same' you said
but i'll just move along i guess
'cos nothing really changed
you're still the reason that i left
oh i'd give up every ounce of my capacity
to see the world
with someone that i barely know
oh my fear of new beginnings yeah i've overgrown
and i wanna fucking love again
instead of this incompetence

and all the memories drove me to insanity
got me thinking is existence all just make believe
'cos nobody really cares about the way i'm feeling
and i
just wanna fucking die in your arms

and i'll wait
all this time wasted for another day
no blood left to bleed, but i'll find a way
bridge view, kim wilde, 1982
top down, el camino, i could be there soon
no heart for the faint
best believe it now
cloud 9 on the cards
i ain't coming down
oh i always fade away when i'm wanting you
oh i always fade away when i'm wanting you

and all the memories drove me to insanity
got me thinking is existence all just make believe
'cos nobody really cares about the way i'm feeling
and i
just wanna fucking die in your arms

die in your arms

i love decks + grayfox so much

lyrics:

[medium sean]

I was standing in your driveway 
after driving hours just to see you on the highway 
caught you by surprise you could say it's just a blind date 
I just wanna show you that I'm really fucking trying 
when I say I love you swear to God I'm never lying 
won't you kiss me on the forehead 
tell me that we'll make it thru the rain when it's pouring
I just wanna see you every day I'm never bored and 
I just wanna go back to when I could sleep in your bed

[decks] 

i keep waking up
its a stupid cycle
i sleep thru days and stay up all night
id do anything just to make things right
if it'll bring me back to your bed tonight
i got visions replaying of every minute
saying if i loved you i should've said
i missed my chance every day i regret it x2
perspective has fucked me up
yeah ive said it before but im fucking stuck
id drive for hours to see your face
maybe then i could matter or mean something

[grayfox]

i went drinking with your friends
you know that i dont like them
kiss me one more time i beg
as your lips touch mine you said
if im being honest you never fucking got it
everything i said was a lie and you bought
flowers for my head kill yourself in the garden
i just wanna sleep yeah even tho im not him
losing my head
losing you losing my friends im mess
i can't do anything right now im stressed
perspective fucked me up shoutout to decks
boyfriend is next
fuck out my texts

prod northeast lights

kiss me on the forehead pt 2 (feat. decks + sendflowrs)

this song was produced/mixed/mastered by heylog

lyrics:
im popping all my cells
where are u now
tell me this is real
cause i love to doubt
i just wanna lay on here
farther from the place ur near
i heard your whisper in my ear
3 words that ive always feared

ur easy to fall in love
i honestly cant get enough
get enough
but hey
youve pulled me away
from the bullshit and pain
i hope that i could do the same
i never been on this page
but tell
tell me this is true
i cant stand being lied to
but you
you wont admit
all the things you did

someone put me in my place
im tired of my mistakes
are u sure wanna love me
baby its too late
i just wanna lay with u
fall back in my dirty shoes
no one even has a clue
i like u cause u think im cool

ur skin and bones feelin mine
thrift shirt reflect off the light
clear frames with big pretty eyes
pretty eyes
but wait
will i see u today?
i already miss ur face
can u call me by my name
i cant go another day
but i
i was in need for your love
i guess i asked for way too much
but you
you wont do shit
you stole what i gave

shelter

lyrics:

baby i loved u and thats why im mad
i got this knife in the spine of my back
friendships i loved but i knew wouldnt last
girl lemme think while i do all the math
storm on the ocean is my kinda view
thinkin about u if only u knew
i drip my dirty on top of my shoes
my jeans are dirty but really they new
baby dont worry cause i gotta plan
i put my feet in the miami sand
im on a plane to her current location
i hit her phone when it touches the land
sure i was bummy but still im the man
i had no hope till it came from my hands
i couldnt let it go fuck up my currency
baby do u even know who i am

tell me ur up
cause i got a lot i could say
i wouldnt play
im just saying whats up
looking it her on the walk to the party i remember her face when the
moon lit it up
baby i think im in love
girl let me know u feeling the vibe
cold winter nights
i put my hand on the side of her thigh
i couldnt lie
u got me love drunk
u got me fucked up
she left a hole in my heart for a minute that i couldnt fill up
just give me a reason
i swear she change with the seasons
girl u dont make it too easy
baby u keeping me breathin
but lately i find that im wheezing
im not him but i promise im strong
in the dark we can all get along
in my heart u will always belong
in my mind u cant do me no wrong

baby i loved u and thats why im mad
i got this knife in the spine of my back
friendships i loved but i knew wouldnt last
girl lemme think while i do all the math
storm on the ocean is my kinda view
thinkin about u if only u knew
i drip my drank on top of my shoes
my jeans are dirty but really they new
baby dont worry cause i gotta plan
i put my feet in the miami sand
im on a plane to her current location
i hit her phone when it touches the land
sure i was bummy but still im the man
i had no hope till it came from my hands
i couldnt let it go fuck up my currency
baby do u even know who i am

currency_119 (scottysplash)

storyboard of two years (Prod. CapsCtrl)

you don't gotta worry about me 

https://soundcloud.com/crackxlizard
https://soundcloud.com/caspr

i just wish that you'd talk like you used to
is it too much to wish that you want me too
is it too much to wish that you'd follow through 
and it kills me 
i just wanna see you in the morning 
i keep feeling down, and i'm sorry
i just keep breaking, you don't gotta worry 

no you don't gotta worry about me 
you don't gotta worry about me 

oh oh
baby don't go 
i just wish that you wanted me a little more
oh oh 
baby don't go
i just that you wanted to hold to hold me close

breaking (prod. cracklizard x caspr)

CHORUS (Snøw & Powfu)
tears are falling
always crying
you keep calling
love is dying

i’ve been stalling
i’ve been trying
i can see our
love is dying

SNOW
i know that you’ve been calling
ignoring you is best for me
dont tell me you think i believe
anything you’d have to say
anything
anything
you’d have to say

POWFU
never gave me love
never gave me what i needed
saw me falling down
but then you chose to leave me bleeding
wonder why i hate you
girl i got too many reasons
all over the map got emotions like the seasons

SNOW
dont say i
dont say i didn’t try
so many restless nights i
hearing you cry your mind
i swear you love to fight

COZYBOY
i swear you love to fight
you love to cry
you never give it up
in the middle of the night
you love to be right
you dont care to even try
you love to be right
so i gotta say goodbye

love is dying (Snøw, Powfu, & cøzybøy)

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