ITS THE PASSION THAT KILLS U THE NERVES GONNA DRIVE U INSANEEEE

music video
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https://youtu.be/w9Jfkvx8xbY
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prod. beamerboy
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lyrics_
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hates the only way to get through
yeah i say this quite a lot, but i cant even make a move
take a second, wait to breathe
hold, on patient 23
my anxiety was never this bad, it only seems
when i sit, and think about my future, always running free

death was creeping on to me
in my mind,, i could never say what's right
i keep pushing on the knife, let me be, let me breath
disassociate with me
climbing high, cause i cant see
where am i suppose  , to be
hate just keeps waiting, on me

hates the only way to get through
yeah i say this quite a lot, but i cant even make a move
take a second, wait to breathe
hold on patient 23
my anxiety was never this bad, it only seems
when I sit, and think about my future, always running free

you were pushing on to me
always sexualizing me
always mess a making me
just come decimate me please

patient 23

i think it’s time, i
finally stay the night 
and you can look your best
it doesn’t matter 
anything to me
i can’t do anything right 
i’ll zip up my lips cus
i don’t wanna lie to you 

so i’ll try, try 
until i cave in
in my sleep 
see familiar faces 
heart gone blue 
need ventilation 
all my bones shake with anticipation 
and you try but you cannot erase it 
time well spent, i be fillin these pages 
with pretty words that i thought would get her
i’m not the same as i was in december

my dreams are trying to kill me (bennykaay)

prodbylxcid

https://youtube.com/@prodbylxcid

i need the beamer, i need the wagon 
and i need the porsche 
money it comes real quick 
but leaves just as fast when u take a loss
girl keep hitting my phone
she need me now
i carry a cost 
whip straight thru LC im hittin up graff 
and buyin the lot 
pinewood in my cup
i’m pourin it up
i cherry the drops 
i can’t hold shit down 
i’m sorry my girl
i travel a lot 
i got expensive tastes
i ran in the spot 
and took out the crop 
im on my elden ring
i run up on opps
and slaughter the boss 
slaughter the boss 
i 
i’m sippin on care+ high up
don’t talk shit you’re a liar
throw b’s only smoke fire 
pull up all black attire
strider, not from the shire
send 10k, hit my wire 
you’re bait don’t hit my line up
you’re bait don’t hit my line 

and i’ve been running 
to the money 
these guys try so hard  
tryna be gully
i’m pourin care+
sipping on honey 
please don’t come round me
tryna be funny 

cus i, i i, 
look back at life 
sometimes i cry
like oh my god i 
got by those many times 
i had to hustle by 
got greazy
i’m not tryin 
moncleezy 
have to buy it 
stay sleezy 
i’m not lying 
GTeezy
big supplyin
real platinum 
emerald, diamonds
switch watches 
when i’m flying 
dream big 
and u can buy it 
some man are broke and healthy 
some man are rich and dying 
45 i had to fry him
big wren otn gliding ✈️

ELDEN RING

[+ Tosha]

1st - @user-411557229 
2nd - @northshoremusic 
3rd - @emptychest 
4th - @torvamia 
5th - @strivemusicau 
6th - @caspywaspy 
7th - @soulfadexo 
8th - @x1fern 
9th - @noxious-nights 
10th - @navyxower 
11th - @shizukesaaa 
12th - @hoeplessboy

Holding Onto Something [+ Tosha x Kev]

im so tired of the rain and the pour
i wanna slow down take a smoke in the porch 
and live life with the art that i forge
cuz im afraid of death and it's comin for us
im so tired of the rain and the pour
i wanna slow down take a smoke in the porch 
and live life with the art that i forge
cuz im afraid of death and it's comin for us 

fucked n im not high
baby got my heart tight
with all ur lies 
why don't you act right?
mind aint alright
that's why i can't sleep at night
shits hard or am i~ 
swimming against the tide

i pray to see u once again
either its heaven or hell 
i hope ur resting well 
dad ur my fucking champion
will love you til my lifes done
till earth does its last turn (2x)

im so tired of the rain and the pour
i wanna slow down take a smoke in the porch 
and live life with the art that i forge
cuz im afraid of death and it's comin for us
im so tired of the rain and the pour
i wanna slow down take a smoke in the porch 
and live life with the art that i forge
cuz im afraid of death and it's comin for us(2x)

slow down, take a smoke in the porch (lavendertxwn x pekarot)

introduction
prod/ft my good friend @greenwood2000
<3

lyrics:
something was stolen
something i borrowed
must’ve been open
must’ve been hollow
& open progression
is nothing but awful
i trample my thoughts
till they’re tougher to swallow

its passion that kills you,
the nerve’s gonna drive you insane
i can’t stand to look back
when the only thing there is your name
i took this as a loss
when i should’ve been counting the days
its a wish on a star
you’re the one thing that’s keeping me sane
i’m losing this game
when you’re learning to lose
well, the world isn’t spinning the same

greenwood:
I put some distance out into the worlds
And I never trip about the way that it hurts
And I think they buried me deep in the dirt
But trust me, and trust me it still could get worse

Seventeen years in a hospital bed 
And they treat me different I know what it is
And it'd take a year to explain what it did
When I got a phantom inside of my limbs

Closed down, held over
And I found the worst way to tell you
And I couldn't leave but I'd let you
And tell me you think I'll be dead soon

Held down, I'm closer
And I found the best way to end it
And I didn't sleep just pretended
And fucked up my life like your friends said

its passion that kills you,
the nerve’s gonna drive you insane
(cant take back what i said, 
im the one you can blame)
i can’t stand to look back
when the only thing there is your name
(not the man in your heart,
he had went with the pain)
i took this as a loss
when i should’ve been counting the days
(its a pattern i keep,
wish i’d throw it away)
its a wish on a star
you’re the one thing that’s keeping me sane
(i know its too late)
i’m losing this game
when you’re learning to lose
well, the world isn’t spinning the same

learning to lose

learning to lose w/ greenwood

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[AMV]: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DNv4eGItpyg 
produced by @nate2timezz & i
thank you endlessly for listening.
more to come in time
🖤

they say, "you're not alone"
but i'm weighing myself down to the bone
i'm deprived of your voice, your expressions, your tones
they scream, "don't.. go"
but i guess you didn't listen
i hope that you just missed it

i'm losing my grip on reality
i need some help or just someone around me
not a physical family
the moment feelings all erupt
they can't handle your trust
guess i was too much of a burden from the cut
but don't let yourself go and doubt on me
the ocean is howling
that's my kind of outing
you don't know the hurt that it brings
can't focus, can't breathe
i love you, but you know what i think?

i'm way too detached
you don't got my back
been tryna distract
"that boy's such a drag"
i lay in my bed; think things never meant
her hand; never leant
where have you been, love

that girl made me feel like i didn't wanna suffer
validated all my reasons
and then continued to smother
cards all on the table
the table's brittle as fuck
cause you leave with no intentions of hurting me
that's enough-

if what you say is what you mean
then fall back onto me
i'll swallow up your misery
i don't care what it brings
i'll be your puppet with no strings
just show me that i have meaning
like a matter, or a purpose
just a reason that i'm breathing
i've been wishing on the stars since a kid
they're where my arms don't reach
but my eyes look past them
the scars make a pretty constellation
they connect all i see
but at the end of the day, they still look past it

you gotta hope it lasts
you're holding yourself back
if you're falling, your wings' cracked
you gotta snap em back
and when the sky becomes the ceiling,
i'll throw rocks to make it crash
oh, don't look back (2x)

through and through
every time i break down my own recluse
just because i thought they understood me too
from my point of view
they never do (2x)

they say, "you're not alone"
but i'm weighing myself down to the bone
i'm deprived of your voice, your expressions, your tones
you've never known
but i guess you didn't listen
i hope that you dismissed it.

everlast [prod. nate2timez x autumndropsdead]

𝓵𝓲𝓯𝓮 𝓲𝓼 𝓼𝓸 𝓶𝓾𝓬𝓱 𝓫𝓮𝓽𝓽𝓮𝓻 𝔀𝓱𝓮𝓷 𝓲'𝓶 𝓷𝓾𝓶𝓫

@caspywaspy this turned out fckin incredible ilysm bro

- lyrics -
tape my fuckin mouth and blow it shut
anxious feelings every time i roll the blunt
"they don't really love you, fucking cunt"
"no one really likes it when i talk"
biting so aggressive on my tongue
life is so much better when im numb

i got so much to say
but there's no point to mention it
i love to just decay
a void marks where my presence is
am i even around?
am i making a sound?
i smoke
and then i choke
and then i fold
im going deep into the ground

tape my fuckin mouth and blow it shut
anxious feelings every time i roll the blunt
"they don't really love you, fucking cunt"
"no one really likes it when i talk"
biting so aggressive on my tongue
life is so much better when im numb

tape my fucking mouth and blow it shut
mixing different drinks with teeth and blood
nothing can erase the shit ive done

isolating myself in a wooden hut
listening to birds singing when im up
forget about the things that got me fucked

i can't keep people close
cuz of the wounds i hold
some new and some old
but none of them close
why do i keep drowning feelings
and not search healing in all of the people i know

tape my fuckin mouth and blow it shut
anxious feelings every time i roll the blunt
"they don't really love you, fucking cunt"
"no one really likes it when i talk"
biting so aggressive on my tongue
life is so much better when im numb
tape my fuckin mouth and blow it shut
anxious feelings every time i roll the blunt
"they don't really love you, fucking cunt"
"no one really likes it when i talk"
biting so aggressive on my tongue
life is so much better when im numb

all plats

somber w/ casperrr [prod. santana]

As far as I can take
As long as I've been waiting
I know it goes away
When you're gone

Waking up on the east side
But I don't know what to feel
Thinking of when you'd hold me 
The safest I'd ever been
And you don't know that you fixed me
And I don't know if you care 
So I don't think that I'll tell you
To let you know that I'm here

Things hold and things decay
I've always felt the same 
My hand against your cheek
To see you face from under your hair
I hope you know that I listened 
I'm holding onto it still
And when I know that it's over
The only thing that I'll miss

So don't get close to me 
And don't say anything
Cause with your voice so clear
I know it's over here

Wait for a break in the morning
Ask me to stay it's important
I've had these feelings before it
Spoke out to me in the forest
I put a name to a context like
All of this time and we lost it
But I just retreat where the fog is
Just know that I loved you through all this

The last trace of my body's been gone now
The best days of your life I don't know how
The last chance I could tell you but I still can't
The lights dimming but its painless you should know that

Don't get close to me 
And don't say anything
Cause with your voice so clear
I know it's over here

If It Still Matters

@lilskeleskrrt
@prodjpjp

// geist
don’t look at me and tell me no hard feelings
blood was lost, it’s dripping through the ceiling
i saw this coming from a mile away
the knife was left in my chest for a reason
but i wish you the best forever, you win
i don’t want to fall in love with hate

i just wanted to dance
when your hand’s in my hand i feel my heart is racing
lost in a trance
but now i’m alone and i rot in this basement
there’s blood on my hands
and i paint the walls red when given a chance
oh don’t give me that glance
your eyes tell me secrets my heart cannot stand

oh
the knife was left for a reason :/
oh
wish you the best forever you win...

// skele
cut me right thru
baby you don’t need a panic
watch it pour out
darling isn’t it romantic
it’s like paradise
fading out
only you and i
somebody call the surgeon
tell him that it’s urgent
on the table stained red
i told you
i think that it was worth it
this is perfect
if you hold me as i go
i’ll wait up there for certain

and you
are
the reason
that i lay awake
staying up
i’ve been stuck here for days
hold my heart
in ur hand till breaks

don’t keep telling me to let go
screaming out
i stop to listen to the echo
not enough
fucking tearing up my throat
i’ll keep going
till the blood
makes me choke
what you know
baby tell me where you go at night
empty out this bed
i’m still not feeling right
staring at my meds
i’m on the borderline
walk along the edge
i don’t feel alive

spotify

paradise w/ skele [jpjp]

I was very reluctant to put this song here since suicide is still a taboo. I wrote the lyrics tonight as a remembrance of a few friends I have lost due to suicide. I am satisfied with the result of the song, and the cover is made to illustrate good and bad days. Take note -  if you have thoughts of suicide please be open about it and seek help. Life is too precious and we all have someone who loves us. Take care!

The lyrics:

Never give up
they said
but it is my pain
it's my life 
it's my destiny

Keep the faith (they say)
I won't hesitate
I will do it now
End it all (everything)
and move into
the other side 

The afterlife will be so much
better than life I have now
I will meet my destiny
I'll meet my lost ones
I won't hesitate
I will do it now

As I take my last breath
Nothing else will be left
Just remembrance of those
who loved me (who loved you)

I see the light
I'm going to another 
dimension
good bye (I'm so sorry)
(forgive me)

Goodbye

with the life i’m given, i’m healing.

@lovelessgroup
@butaneband

learning to lose w/ greenwood

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