SHITS HARD OR AM I LOL THE SYMBOL LFAMOOOOOOOOOO FEMINIENEMEMEM AS HELL SO FUNY

guitar @pekarot

she lacking empathy she gone tomorrow
see what is left of me, me and my sorrows
think you might be dead to me, you left me a bottle
and a blue pill that i don't wanna swallow
body's got a fleeting feeling and i got all my sorrows
how do i stop this feeling of feeling real hollow
know you love me but you tell me that I'm acting hostile
i might crash this car cos I'm going full throttle
stop drinking your life away your grasping at a bottle
i think i might hide away and talk to you tomorrow 
i know its not healthy but I'm full of sorrows
i bet you wouldn't help me if i left tomorrow

paint me a picture that's hard not to swallow
when your with him i feel like being hostile
i like the idea of moving to a castle
lets build some high walls, fuck I'm an asshole
your growing in mold, the more that u hassle
do what your told, before that i let go

she lacking empathy she gone tommorow
see what is left of me, me and my sorrows
think you might be dead to me, you left me a bottle
and a blue pill that i don't wanna swallow
body's got a fleeting feeling and i got all my sorrows
how do i stop this feeling of feeling real hollow
know you love me but you tell me that i'm acting hostile
i might crash this car cos i'm going full throttle

tomorrow

je te tieandrai dans mon coeur jusqu'à ce que je puisse te tenir dans mes bras.

lyrics:

shiki
I see why you left, this is awful
I don't wanna die anymore, I just want you
Kiss me while I'm dying inside of this bottle
Fall in love with strangers, now my heart is a hostel

Left my love on the east coast
But I don't wanna be alone, I don't wanna be alone, no
And you can text me good morning, but we're in different time zones
And I know that you don't care like I do
I'll find another one just like you
I'll find a new one, call her your name
Black my eyes and paint my face a new shade of grey
I ran away, in East LA where none of my love can get in the way
And baby, I don't think that you could save me
But thank you for trying

I hope you don't know it's about you when you hear this
But I knew you'd listen, only reason I wrote this
And I would bleed for you if I thought you would notice

I'm too scared to dream since I saw you
I told you I would move to New York and write a novel
But I'm still in my mom's house
The one that you warned me about
The one you said was haunted
I'm nauseous, I can't stop heaving
Who would want this? I'm still bleeding
Hide my ribs like, yeah I'm eating
Come save me, this room is freezing

skele:
I know why you left, this is terrible
As I was writing this, I wanted to let you know
It's getting really hard to let you go
I wanted five more minutes baby, just so I could hear you talk
Cuz everything I knew just fucking fell apart
You never really cared, you just played the part
And now you're gone, it's all my fault

hostel w/ skele (love,matt x chris marek)

produced by hiraeth

remember to wash the socks u came in

And its so obvious
How can you not see me
See me
If I ran away would you need me ?
Played your last messages on repeat
This the last time that you’ll see me

So let me down
Pull me out
Of this hole im in
Baby would you cave it in 
What is happening
I can’t believe I shat again :p!!
Blood is everywhere
Im crawling out of bed again

Fuck with me for the last time 
This the last night
Fights getting outta hand now
But its alright
Fuck living ima die now 
Its about time
Thoughts sheltering my mind out
From the outside

Trying to run from the past
Tell me how hard does it get now
Living to die in a bed
No in-between to forget now
Call me when all of it ends
Im putting a gun to my he’d now

Fuck with me for the last time 
This the last night
Fights getting outta hand now
But its alright
Fuck living ima die now 
Its about time
Thoughts sheltering my mind out
From the outside

Fuck with me for the last time 
This the last night
Fights getting outta hand now
But its alright
Fuck living ima die now 
Its about time
Thoughts sheltering my mind out
From the outside

newmaker

just a vent, very drunk rn 
shoutout my brother @jolst on the production



tell me baby does he write you songs? 
blood all on my pillow when i wake up shit is wrong
i been takin 30’s got me itchin i can’t stop 
every time i think i got a hit it start to flop
i wish that i never saw those numbers from the start 
try not to let it bug me but i can’t lie it hurt my heart
i spill my soul on the mic n go smoke a dart 
shoutout to big veins we just alike in that regard 

everybody write bout doin drugs, it’s ok
but u ain’t ever threw up in ur sleep it burn ur lungs
i been sippin lean for 4 days babe im havin fun, ay
feel my heart beatin in my chest i’m dying young
and words are powerful theyll kill u like a gun 
watch the shit u speak cus ur whole life it becomes
people love to talk their shit but watch em when i run
when i fly to USA im landin with a punch 

i got G.E.R.D
regurgitation ): 
might pop a 40
and float away and
can’t stand you phonies
so go away yea
got good friends round me
but they won’t stay, yea 
and i’m used to that 
always been the same 
since a small boy i been
always filled with hate 
but i love my momma 
and i love my dad :)
and i’m thankful daily
for the shit i have 

maybe life is okay
maybe it’s not that bad 
i got someone who loves me
can’t argue with that <3 
i still get so fucked up
til i can’t call a cab 
i been tryna love myself 
but i don’t love me back 
i still wake everyday 
with shit on my shoulders i’m a heavyweight
get away
from all the negative things i always say 
fill the page
with shit i would think but i would never say
care+ in my drink 
but i been tryna get in better shape 

i can’t even think yea 
baby i’m just sitting here recording with a drink yea 
shoutout to the gang 
that’s double L all on my krink yeah 
shoutout to the goat jolst 
can’t wait till we link yeah <3 (love u bro) 

n i still wear a hoodie 
even when it’s hot
pull it over my face
so u can’t see me rot
baby take your hood down
girl i’m self conscious
everybody talkin money $$$
don’t know what a job is 

i guess this is what they call 
a r- release 
i just love you all so much 
that i can’t even speak
i feel fuckin worthless
but you’re all helping me
this one for the soundcloud
ima go to sleep … 

(love u all bro i get a lil soppy when i am drunk sorry )

maybe its not that bad (jolst)

produced by autrioly 

completely non profit

lyrics

he keeps their heads in a box
under a key and a lock
her face is dripping with snot
the butcher rips us apart
he throws my bones in a pot
soups now smelling of pot
u make me laugh while I rot
choking on smell like a cock

he keeps their heads in a box
under a key and a lock
her face is dripping with snot
the butcher tears us apart
he throws my bones in a pot
soups now smelling of pot
u make me laugh while I rot
choking on smell like a cock

lately I just wanna sleep more
I been smoking weed more
I been getting blisters up on top of my hands and feet more
I just need to record
airing out these deep flaws
I just felt like moving on and I ran out of deep words

maybe I forgot that I was born for this
couldn't sell a soul that wasn't mine to give
sport a flowrs hoodie that doesn't fit
2 years I'm in UK bro we can link n shit

shoulda figured out that I'ma pessimist
I got uber eats bags stacked pyramid 
shirt n tie, uniform, yeah apron fit
even with artist block bro I cannot miss

everyone gather round yeah look at this
veins broke down again blew this bitch
bone broke plaster knuckles split
murder it yucky like I took a shit

I just saw the future I decided I don't like it
throw away the map if there's a way then I can find it
I just need somebody who can show me where the light is
I just got these images burnt inside of my eyelids

he keeps their heads in a box 
under a key and a lock
her face is dripping with snot
the butcher rips us apart
he throws my bones in a pot
the soups now smelling of pot
u make me laugh while I rot
chocking on smell like a cock



secretsauceshh (autrioly)

shoutout to everyone in this song ily all :) <3
prod. sorrow bringer (goat)
mix: epitome, kanashi, autumn, casperrr
master: epitome

EPITOME:

if you look into my blackened soul 
you’ll see i’ve begun to decompose 
and with nothing but a rope around my neck
i’ll hang in the gallows dead
hold back the tears you’ll shed
leave all the words unsaid
i was hanging on by a thread
it’s better off instead 
that i’m 6 feet deep beneath the surface
i’ve said this once i know i’m worthless
i fall short of being perfect 
can you show me that i’m worth it
am i worth saving?
my body’s decaying
my flesh is rotting 
i feel like a zombie
i think the ends approaching
i feel it upon me
now i know i’m not worth saving 
i’m trying but it doesn’t seem to be enough
no one gives a fuck
i don’t even know what i’ve become
(can you tell me what i’ve become i give in too easy oh the end has just begun)

KANASHI:

Ion even know what I’ve become 
shits got me so fucked up…
And pls don’t wake me 
I’m busy taking a break from life
Ion wanna be a part of this anymore 
One foot in and the other out the door 
Cuz nothing lasts forever 
So just toss me like a wrapper on the floor…

AUTUMN:

i can't tell tonight apart from all them in the past
i can speak, i can breathe, but my brain is gonna gache
if you feed off of me, hope you like consuming trash
waking up inside this bed 
is something i'd rather not have
i'm tearing at my skin
could it get much worse than this
that's the only thing i'd ask
besides when you'll text me back

CASPERRR:

don't you text me back 
please i don't wanna relapse
feel this agonizing pressure on my chest
i can't breathe,i can't eat i can't get no rest  

fucked up, over what u told me
u left and now i'm lonely 
got 5gs and smoked that whole shit, holy-moly
u really said i was ur only
that guy was just a homie 
and now im dyin slowly, lonely

epitomeoffailure x kanashi x autumndropsdead x casperrr - blackened soul (sorrow bringer)

chapter ii

produced by ztope
completely non profit

lyrics 

dragged by our feet
through the snow
the watchman saved our lives
and welcomed to his home
he has advice to give
he thought you needed some
this is no way to live
what have we become

the watchman lives to keep his lantern lit
he smells of edelwood and cigarettes
inside the forest you won't meet your death
beware the beast
this innocence is on his breath

he said they will turn on us
and we will burn to dust
we will get lost inside the forest
either one of us
so are you scared of us
cus we were left to rust
u think you care that much
this is what's left of us

don't let your mind disconnect 
from the world that you been living in
no I'm alright in the forest 
I'm at peace with all the denizens 
so keep your eyes on the track 
tho I know they feel like wandering
no I'm alright: it's an act
you just can't let doubt start setting in
several souls I know
well they left years ago
they took the lonely road
and they got lost in hope
so I'm a lonely rope
she left a lonely note
this is our only home
you're all I have to hold

decks

well I was born in blood and guts but who was counting
spoilt what I thought was mine to drown in
hold ur breath for as long as it's allowing 
the last of us are here for u
but now's it's go
go sleep in the snow
wake up to visions I'll never remember
I know now
where do we go
sickened and feeling ur losing ur tether 
it's part of the path that we take
born into hate and decay
everyone here is the same
look at the mess that we made

several souls I know
well they were once my home
they found a new one tho
and they got lost in the snow
so im your only hope
it's hard to let them go
I wish I'd never known
but now on forced to cope

betweentheveinsandi 

he said they would turn on us
and we would burn to dust
we will get lost inside the forest
either one of us
so are u scared of us?
cus we were left to rust?
u think u care that much.
this is what's left of us.


left of us ft. decks (ztope)

[+ Tosha]

1st - @user-411557229 
2nd - @northshoremusic 
3rd - @emptychest 
4th - @torvamia 
5th - @strivemusicau 
6th - @caspywaspy 
7th - @soulfadexo 
8th - @x1fern 
9th - @noxious-nights 
10th - @navyxower 
11th - @shizukesaaa 
12th - @hoeplessboy

Holding Onto Something [+ Tosha x Kev]

im so tired of the rain and the pour
i wanna slow down take a smoke in the porch 
and live life with the art that i forge
cuz im afraid of death and it's comin for us
im so tired of the rain and the pour
i wanna slow down take a smoke in the porch 
and live life with the art that i forge
cuz im afraid of death and it's comin for us 

fucked n im not high
baby got my heart tight
with all ur lies 
why don't you act right?
mind aint alright
that's why i can't sleep at night
shits hard or am i~ 
swimming against the tide

i pray to see u once again
either its heaven or hell 
i hope ur resting well 
dad ur my fucking champion
will love you til my lifes done
till earth does its last turn (2x)

im so tired of the rain and the pour
i wanna slow down take a smoke in the porch 
and live life with the art that i forge
cuz im afraid of death and it's comin for us
im so tired of the rain and the pour
i wanna slow down take a smoke in the porch 
and live life with the art that i forge
cuz im afraid of death and it's comin for us(2x)

slow down, take a smoke in the porch (lavendertxwn x pekarot)

prod by caves 


click click 
light up the cannon 
smoke till this pain stop
or i kick the can and 
this blunt heal my wounds
my new shoes from japan 
and, don’t think of her
anymore, i can’t stand it 

i know where you’ve been 
know where you set off 
i know where you get on the bus
and you get off 
she say that i’m crazy 
she don’t know the half of it 
my vision blurry
i don’t know what’s happening

she took my hands
into hers
told me “everything will be okay 
just stay right there”
i got two cuts 
on my face 
she looks scared 
but i promise i would never hurt you
baby i swear … 

you thought you got away,
i’m afraid it’s bad luck 
you just wanna drink alone 
and chill inside the bathtub 
already know she keep a key under the mat, tucked 
hope that you didn’t think that you would get away with that, love .. 
6 months have passed 
since we were matched up 
thought that you could play me, 
block my number and get gassed up 
now i’m climbing up your stairs and i’ve got bad blood
wonder if you’ll recognise my face under this mask, love 

she saw me in the mirror, frozen. 
“don’t try to run baby it’s over
i wrote you everyday for months” 
i was crying as i told her
“now i gotta do something i hate, girl yeah you know i cant control it” 
she tried to scream and shut the door,
but back in pinewood, soul was stolen

“i’ll call the cops” i said “what for” 
i just want a conversation, open up the door 
i see your heart drop on the floor 
if i can’t have you no one can, i couldn’t ask for more 

click click 
light up the cannon 
smoke till this pain stop
or i kick the can and 
this blunt heal my wounds
my new shoes from japan 
and, don’t think of her
anymore, i can’t stand it

bad luck (caves)

stream anywhere :) https://fanlink.to/read-receipts-ft-heylog

written & performed by: @lonesity & @heylog
produced by: @lonesity
engineered by: @camjmusic & @lonesity

lyrics:

[hook: x2]
i understand if you don't wanna be around me
lately i been actin' up a lot, it's unhealthy
a puzzle piece is all i am, searchin' for the right fit
how the fuck i'm finna find somebody if they all dip?

[verse 1:]
nobody wanna hang with me
i get it
i would have to agree
that i'm not perfect
but random people love me
i don't get it
don't know what they see in me
i'm just curious
i'm thinking back on what you said to me
i don't know what i am or what i'm supposed to be
in the end i'll be there when you're close to me
i doubt you'll ever get there, but we'll just wait 'n' see

[hook: x2]
i understand if you don't wanna be around me
lately i been actin' up a lot, it's unhealthy
a puzzle piece is all i am, searchin for the right fit
how the fuck i'm finna find somebody if they all dip?

[verse 2:]
nobody wanna hang with me
i get it
i would have to agree
i'm a lost person
i smile finally
but it don't last for long
99 percent of the day
i wear a frown
i swear to god i don't belong with anyone
'cause they tend to fall out of love
keep that in touch
i swear to god no one
understands me
and i end up pissing me off
it's not healthy

[hook: x2]
i understand if you don't wanna be around me
lately i been actin' up a lot, it's unhealthy
a puzzle piece is all i am, searchin for the right fit
how the fuck i'm finna find somebody if they all dip?

slow down, take a smoke in the porch (lavendertxwn x pekarot)

casperrr

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