prod. caspr
engineered by skrwd
mixed and mastered by Patrick Gardner

I swear I care, I'm feeling lost when you're not here
I just wanna talk about it, can we talk about it?
I swear I care, I'm feeling lost when you're not here
I just wanna talk about it, can we talk about it?

I just wanna talk about it but you don't hit my phone up
I got too much in my system, fucking throwing up
I've been working every night, just have to count it up
Tell you I miss you, but you don't wanna speak much
I feel so lost when you're not here
I can't fucking sleep when you're not near
I swear I care, but we don't even talk and it's not fair
I've been losing my mind and I'm holding onto you
Trying to figure out a way to give it back to you
Overthinking every word I ever say to you
I'm trying my best, don't know what else to do
I'm so scared you'll leave me here, I worry so much you'll disappear
I just wanna talk about it, you don't wanna talk about it

I swear I care, I'm feeling lost when you're not here
I just wanna talk about it, can we talk about it?
I swear I care, I'm feeling lost when you're not here
I just wanna talk about it, can we talk about it?

I haven't seen you in weeks, you're not too far from the city
You tremble when you speak and I know it's on me partially
Talk to me softly, tell me that you want me
Laying in my bed, yeah, longing for your heartbeat
When I'm with you it's not so bad but every time you leave, I just get so sad
You're the only one that knows me like that so I'm so scared that you won't come back
You're the roof over my head, eyes got me focused
Every time I inhale your scent, I'm in heaven
You're the one I'm flexin, not even a question
Tell me what's on your mind, maybe it'll kill the tension
We'll be alright, only a matter of time
Even from far away, you're the color of my sky

I swear I care, I'm feeling lost when you're not here
I just wanna talk about it, can we talk about it?
I swear I care, I'm feeling lost when you're not here
I just wanna talk about it, can we talk about it?

swear w/ skele (prod. caves)

shoutout to everyone in this song ily all :) <3
prod. sorrow bringer (goat)
mix: epitome, kanashi, autumn, casperrr
master: epitome

EPITOME:

if you look into my blackened soul 
you’ll see i’ve begun to decompose 
and with nothing but a rope around my neck
i’ll hang in the gallows dead
hold back the tears you’ll shed
leave all the words unsaid
i was hanging on by a thread
it’s better off instead 
that i’m 6 feet deep beneath the surface
i’ve said this once i know i’m worthless
i fall short of being perfect 
can you show me that i’m worth it
am i worth saving?
my body’s decaying
my flesh is rotting 
i feel like a zombie
i think the ends approaching
i feel it upon me
now i know i’m not worth saving 
i’m trying but it doesn’t seem to be enough
no one gives a fuck
i don’t even know what i’ve become
(can you tell me what i’ve become i give in too easy oh the end has just begun)

KANASHI:

Ion even know what I’ve become 
shits got me so fucked up…
And pls don’t wake me 
I’m busy taking a break from life
Ion wanna be a part of this anymore 
One foot in and the other out the door 
Cuz nothing lasts forever 
So just toss me like a wrapper on the floor…

AUTUMN:

i can't tell tonight apart from all them in the past
i can speak, i can breathe, but my brain is gonna gache
if you feed off of me, hope you like consuming trash
waking up inside this bed 
is something i'd rather not have
i'm tearing at my skin
could it get much worse than this
that's the only thing i'd ask
besides when you'll text me back

CASPERRR:

don't you text me back 
please i don't wanna relapse
feel this agonizing pressure on my chest
i can't breathe,i can't eat i can't get no rest  

fucked up, over what u told me
u left and now i'm lonely 
got 5gs and smoked that whole shit, holy-moly
u really said i was ur only
that guy was just a homie 
and now im dyin slowly, lonely

epitomeoffailure x kanashi x autumndropsdead x casperrr - blackened soul (sorrow bringer)

𝐢𝐥𝐲 𝐛𝐫𝐲𝐬𝐨𝐧<3

𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚣𝚞𝚔𝚎𝚜𝚊.
come around
ik im a fuck up jus a let down
but we could run away my love, from this town<3
gaze inside her eyes been filled w/ hate now
need 2 stay down
really need sum backup
u know ur the only one i want luv
cant fkn take this aching make my chest numb
you the one i want luv

𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚊𝚕.
cant even snap back 2 this snapchat
got 80 ounce in this backpack
making lame shit on this old mac
while my friends out in their pontiac
how are you so contagious
holding back on my anguish
'cardi rocks when im anxious
blood n mud on these pages
she dont talk but her eyes flirt
louis v n that black skirt
pulling up in that chrysler
bloody shirt n my chest hurts

𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚣𝚞𝚔𝚎𝚜𝚊. 𝚡 𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚊𝚕.
come around
ik im a fuck up jus a let down
but we could run away my love, from this town<3
gaze inside her eyes been filled w/ hate now
need 2 stay down
really need sum backup
u know ur the only one i want luv
cant fkn take this aching make my chest numb
you the one i want luv

ep w/ bry soon also~ if you've read this far then thank you all sm for all of the support this past year, and just in general if you listen to any of my stuff. it genuinely means the whole world. ily all sm<3

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let_down w/ residential. (ushanka boy)

prod @nate2timezz <3

hope you enjoy
thank you for listening, like seriously, so much
gotta keep moving, somehow

irregulation; my heart, it still beats though
necromancy like i'm beyond the grave
sleeping a 14, or i'm up for days
but either way, i'll still feel the same
i'd rather feel burnout over withdrawals
repression, it kills me a lot, i can't sing it off
and it never stops
never stops
and it never stops
it never stops

how'd another worm get caught in the rain?
sun come out to enhance that pain
shame, shame
all that you wanted was someone to save
now that you're lost, you treat them as god
paying your dues, they've been clogging like clots
don't care about being 'part of your mirage
fuck an applause, this all i got

that weight upon the water's nothing more than just a storm
so what we drinking for? 
what we drinking for?
those ideals are everything you've only felt with utter scorn
so i can't take no more
i can't take none

fluid ghosts, i can feel them haunt my bones
i cannot break through the drapes though
radiation burn my halo
don't you go ask how my day goes
you're not concerned anyway
you're plastic as legos

quiet down while break the seal
'cause i'm numbin' down from what they claim is real
every day i wake just to fuckin break, then rejuvenate
i'm in shock, kinda like an eel

hit em with a swift so fast like an aipom
they went from a real to fake in a day; gone.
rollout like an autobot, waiting for december sun
who am i depending? 
honestly, not anyone anymore

so, you like to target? 
trust me there's no need to implore
inside my cartilage, there's already arrows galore
you're my narcotic, the thought of you imposes me warmth
or so i thought it; ultimately leaving me sore


irregulation; my heart, it still beats though
necromancy like i'm beyond the grave
sleeping a 14, or i'm up for days
but either way, i'll still feel the same
i'd rather feel burnout over withdrawals
repression, it kills me a lot, i can't sing it off
and it never stops
never stops
and it never stops
it never stops

so i can try to fill in all the blanks
when shrouded in mirage, i'll take the blame
poison in the pot,
love it 'till you hate the fact that you forgot
what mattered anyways

aipom (nate2timez)

hold me like this one will be the last time 

prod: michael harrison and gavin hadley 
master: @onlyfriendyeah

i took a trip out to vegas 
and you had lost your wallet 
i think we both tried to save it 
i think i knew i can't stop it 
cause baby we were breaking 
so many cracks spread without 
and by the time that it had split 
we had planned out a house 

i can't love you enough 
i'll try my best till it's done
baby you're all that i want 
i wish you'd tell me that once

i'd give up everything i have to fix the things ruined
but i just can't make myself put my heart through it 

i don't want it to stop 
i can't feel it all 
i don't want you gone 
i ran right through the wall

tell me everything
you want it too
i can't be your rendezvous
even if i tried 
i couldn't even if i wanted to
i always lose 
it's the truth 

i don't think that we can try again
now there's no me without you 
and baby i know that you lied again 
cause that's just what we do 
tell me that everything will be alright 
hold me like this one will be the last time 
kiss me so softly, i'll cry the whole night
grab on my body and look in my eyes 
look in my eyes

i can't love you enough 
i'll try my best till it's done 
(did i say too much, did i say too much?)
baby you're all that i want 
i wish you'd tell me that once

icantloveyouenough

prod by me
enjoy<3

lyrics:
i wish i weren't so kind to people i dont know
they step all over me got dirt all on my throat
and as the time flies by i think that i might choke
this rope it follows me, it follows far from home
these bones have yet to see the depth of all these trees
this forest i will go, its right beside the creek
ill meet you here again when time passes you by
ill wait for you instead of passing on my life

as i walked thru the green of the spruce i heard your laughter
please tell me to stop im afraid of the after
every time i talk it just feels like it don't matter
every time i walk i feel my bones slowly fracture
why does everybody use me then just push me aside?
babe is there a reason you cant look in my eyes?
i cant talk to anybody, not even my closest
so i had to ask myself why do i even try?

if only you would focus 
(it gets hard)
then you could see what matters most
its not that hard to notice that you've been talking to a ghost

im losing my damn mind man everyone just acts the same
you cant tell me how to feel, please dont tell me its okay
you ain my friend you ain my bro so i don't care bout what you say
i do this shit all by myself while you sit back and waste the day
my throat is getting tight, it's so hard for me to speak
these woods are dark till dawn, so how could i even see
in the morning when you come looking for me don't be surprised if you find my body hanging by the creek

by the creek

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nico north - Skin

i reach, for air
i'd scream, but the sound's not there
i wait for a wake
right around when i jump from the brink

draining all the joy out
seem always annoyed now
constantly devoid, how the moment pales my skin
had it sorted out,
now my soul's just sore, ouch
they say i'm a solider,
i just never peek my head out of these trenches

nothing's really here for me
it hurts to laugh
it hurts to speak
there's nowhere else i'd rather be,
than put at rest with nobody
if time should wind a single hand,
then who am i to reprimand
the data flow that leads my stand
of former thoughts and severance

met with bloody stares
spirit broke the mirror
tumbled-down eyes glare
"it always could be better"

the toad in my throat drowning notes 'till they're gone
if they crash, should they float to return to this pond?

if i'm stood a stance of lax
consider that form of attack
procrastination ticks away until delay becomes a gift
given all i am is shit
sat distraught over some bricks
counting melodies won't counter how i feel when nothing sticks

i reach, for air
i'd scream but the sound's not there
i wait for a wake
right around when i jump from the brink

draining all the joy out
seem always annoyed now
constantly devoid, how the moment pales my skin
had it sorted out,
now my soul's just sore, ouch
they say i'm a solider,
i just never peek my head out of these trenches

trenches

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it's so ugly
i let everyone control me 
and i can't think 
so i just lay awake and worry
blurry
your words just cut me , have some mercy
you never fail to leave me scars
that's why i'm hurting

it's why i'm hurting
i can see your eyes
i know they're burning
and i can't feel you in the dark
i know you're lurking
you really love to see me bleed
i'll close my eyes now
you really love to leave me scars
so bring the knife out

(flowrs)
knife out, knife out
baby bring the knife out 
and i’m so fucking sick of this
i guess i’ll say goodnight now
and i know you’re laying with him 
so i’ll scratch my fucking eyes out
you’re tryna match his breathing
he’s asleep, i’ll fucking cry now
gave me 3 chances, 
blew em all i guess i’ll strike out 
your rope is weak, this fucking hole i’ll never climb out 
she told me “never go to sleep with all the lights out”
cus she won’t show me mercy, wants me dead, i guess i’ll die now

epitomeoffailure x kanashi x autumndropsdead x casperrr - blackened soul (sorrow bringer)

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