produced by tiedforsilver and ryan kelly
mastered by nate2timez
written and mixed by epitomeoffailure
artwork by melmige

lyrics:

looking back at my life, in black and white, all i see is the past
since hindsight’s is perfect and clear i knew i’d never last 
staring in a bathroom mirror, while life just keeps on going by fast 
i bury my face in my hands all night and scream this 
world is trash 

i just lack the confidence to get over myself today
the demon on my shoulder telling me that he gon have to stay
beggin me to fuck up and to give into my selfish ways
but i could never do it even with a mind to mold like clay

terrified, to the core i think i might be paralyzed
petrified although i can’t help but fucking wish for more
problems keep coming in from right outside the open door
if i looked outside this balcony would i see you by the shore 

pages i cant seem to read because im in the dark
tell me can we shine the light before i fall apart
please patch up these bloody wounds around my blackened heart
as you can see when left to me they start to form up scars

i just need comfort
in this moment
i still suffer 
in the slowest 
ways
i’ve lost the number when counting up my days
now this regret is what i’m smokin to the face 

terrified, to the core i think i might be paralyzed
petrified although i can’t help but fucking wish for more
problems keep coming in from right outside the open door
if i looked outside this balcony would i see you by the shore 

t-t-t-t-terrified, to the core i think i might be paralyzed
petrified although i can’t help but fucking wish for more
p-p-p-problems keep coming in from right outside the open door
if i looked outside this balcony would i see you by the shore 

looking back at my life, in black and white, all i see is the past
since hindsight’s is perfect and clear i knew i’d never last 
staring in a bathroom mirror, while life just keeps on going by fast 
i bury my face in my hands all night and scream this 
world is trash

paralyzed (tiedforsilver x ryan kelly)

produced by jolst and metlast
mastered by nate2timez
mixed and written by me




you tip-toed
your shadow

you tip-toed past the bedroom
your shadow cast from the lit moon
shows through the window every night you stabbed my back
now when i comes november i isolate just to relax
i’ll hold on to what i once knew
regardless whether any of its true
memories scattered across my brain just like its glass
if i combine the pieces in my head i might relapse

go back to a time when i was defenseless 
oh god i must resist this
i’m playing with the damaged
parts of my mind, that might never recover
it’s hard to define, what’s black and white and color

fall leaves reminding me that it’s over
dissociated 3 months to find closure
just to figure out that life sober
isn’t what i want it sounds torture

isn’t what i want that shit sounds like fuckin torture 
thought i saw her in the background just found out it’s not her
now my heart is broken the way she ditched me at the concert
baby girl it’s all for you don’t you leave me with my heart hurt

you tip-toed past the bedroom
your shadow cast from the lit moon
shows through the window every night you stabbed my back
now when i comes november i isolate just to relax
i’ll hold on to what i once knew
regardless whether any of its true
memories scattered across my brain just like its glass
if i combine the pieces in my head i might relapse

shows through the window every night you stabbed my back
now when i comes november i isolate just to relax 
memories scattered across my brain just like its glass
if i combine the pieces in my head i might relapse

u tip-toed past the bedroom (metlast x jolst)

produced by sor
mixed by me
mastered by nate2timez
featuring popularreject

lyrics


on my own
yeah i can’t believe i did it on my own
yeah i remember when they’d never hit my phone
yeah now it seems im always leaving them at the tone
leave me alone
let me be alone
i just wanna do it on my own
they don’t know the blood and broken bones
that’s i’ve laid in front of my own home
leave me alone

there’s nothing that i want from you
there’s nothing that you want from me
so please just please just go away 
and save some room for better days
now all that shit is history
so save it in your memories 
and just know that, that one mistake
will be the one you can’t erase

all these word were hidden underneath the floor
on the wood it’s written you can’t ignore
mistakes are unforgiven unlike before
i’ll be the one your missin right too the very core

(popularreject)
i don’t know
if im ever gonna make it out this hole
i don’t think ill make it out this rut
what the fuck
think it’s best that i shut up
i got smoke inside my lungs 
i think ive really had it
i hear your voice inside my head 
it says im so dramatic
none of these people have my back
i turn around they stab it
now i’m all off track im crashing
i don’t even really know what happened 
i’d puff puff pass but shit i am…

on my own
yeah i can’t believe i did it on my own
yeah i remember when they’d never hit my phone
yeah now it seems im always leaving them at the tone
leave me alone
let me be alone
i just wanna do it on my own
they don’t know the blood and broken bones
that’s i’ve laid in front of my own home
leave me alone

on my own w/ popularreject (sor)

produced by ryan kelly & tiedforsilver
mixed by me
mastered by nate2timez 

lyrics

when you were by my side you made me have to stand tall
now that you’re not here anymore i’m thinking of ending it all
i can’t calm down these thoughts they weigh heavy on my soul
i’ve been pacing, going back and forth my body has taken a toll

you use to have my back when i had to stay strong
now i can even relax with myself im too gone
ive been breaking my back just to try and hold on
and frankly its a fact that im not meant to last long 

i can hardly think from the pressure in my brain 
and lately i can’t i breathe with all the shit you didn’t say
the silence made me leave in a rushed and panicked state 
and you know i made poor decisions when leaving that place 

and i just lack the will to get you out of my brain
thinking bout you every day got me going insane
and if i could i would but i don’t seem to have a say
please just walk away just get out of my face

hollowed
it’s your strength i barrowed 
to get me out of here
in a sudden flash everything was gone in sight
all i’ve ever loved before vanished from my eyes 
now i’m starting over and im cutting all the ties 
in a world that is cold that i might just fucking die

i left that night and nobody seem to give a fuck
i’ve been inside of my mind all night i think i  need to sober up
cant even numb the pain with all these drugs i couldn’t smoke enough 
might as well just give into these thoughts and roll up, spark another one

bitch you think i’m having fun 
then you must be fuckin dumb
no, you must be on one
if you thinkin i wasn’t numb 

the smile seems real but it’s fake alright 
just wait till im your poltergeist 
cause one of these days im gonna die 
you’ll feel bad for me when the light leaves my eyes

i can hardly think from the pressure in my brain 
and lately i can’t i breathe with all the shit you didn’t say
the silence made me leave in a rushed and panicked state 
and you know i made poor decisions when leaving that place

i can hardly think from the pressure in my brain 
and lately i can’t i breathe with all the shit you didn’t say
the silence made me leave in a rushed and panicked state 
and you know i made poor decisions when leaving that place

when i left (ryan kelly x tiedforsilver)

produced by wetmall & luffy
mixed by me
mastered by nate2timez
featuring flesh

lyrics

been too busy smackin my face off the concrete 
i’ve had plenty but i won’t let it get the best of me
i pour this liquor in my cup knowing it won’t make me feel complete 
i feel disgusted with myself that’s why i always need company 

do you know how
you broke me down
when you turned around
and left without a sound

no fixing it now
you said it out loud
my minds like a crowd 
makin me wish i was in the ground 

flashbacks to my hometown 
in the memories i begin to drown
thought i had them blocked by the clouds
still im suffering with no one else around 

do you know what im supposed to do
when all i ever see is pics of you
in my heart and in my mind i know it’s true
what is it i’ve got to lose 

(flesh)

i dont wanna hurt no more
i wish i could be proud
idk how
whats the right way?
ive been feeling deep down
that there never was one in the first place 
mess it up again
mess it up again
i dont rly know myself one bit but
i could play pretend
i could play pretend
i dont even want to
thats just what im used to

and i know its not all
as bad as i make it out to be
but i hope that past that
it doesnt change what you think of me
but i get why they leave
dont know why i feel like i gotta push all my friends away
i keep on walking towards the light i swear im getting closer 
i looked inside of me and all i saw was darkness and pain

get back on my feet
i guess its okay
safest place i know
stay out of my way

flashbacks to my hometown 
in the memories i begin to drown
thought i had them blocked by the clouds
still im suffering with no one else around

do you know what im supposed to do
when all i ever see is pics of you
in my heart and in my mind i know it’s true
what is it i’ve got to lose

disgusted with myself w/ flesh (wetmall x luffy)

produced by secre swallowtail & heyrick
mixed by me
mastered by nate2timez 
featuring AVXiD

lyrics

and there’s so much that i wish i could’ve told you
i wish i could’ve told you, i wish i could’ve told you
but you’re out of touch and you were my only crutch 
and i just wish that i could hold you
but it’s your ghost i would go thru

those cloudy eyes couldn’t hide the truth
between me and you there was something new
and now the colors fade from their vibrant hues
look back on better days like oh what a view
i look back on the past
cause i wish it would last
oh the future is sad
these thoughts are driving me mad

and there’s so much that i wish i could’ve told you
i wish i could’ve told you, i wish i could’ve told you
but you’re out of touch and you were my only crutch 
and i just wish that i could hold you
but it’s your ghost i would go thru

it’s your ghost i would go thru
it’s your ghost i would go thru
it’s your ghost i would go thru
it’s your ghost i would go thru

(AVXiD)

monday mornings 
turns to tuesday evenings
im laid out on the pavement
do u even wanna see me
shawty do u even love me
its like u never wanna hold me
all these things that u had told me
idk why u dont duck me

im a dead body rotting
u can hear it when im calling
when i die hide my body
in your walls

when im gone
hold on
im the ghost u pass thru 
in the halls

it's ur ghost i'd go thru w/ AVXiD (secre x heyrick)

produced by dianasty 
mixed by me
mastered by nate2timez 

lyrics

pour another cup i’ll ignore my problems
writing songs is pointless if no one wants em
like leaves in the fall i am left here decaying
“he will never make it” is what i hear them saying

i’ll say goodbye
i’ll leave here for good tonight 
“why won’t you hold on tight
i feel you letting me go for life”
is what you whispered in my ear
if you look deep you’ll see i’m near 
but for reasons you can’t hear
i must fall behind, yes i will disappear

there’s no way that i can think of words lately
and it’s been driving me crazy
minds been blank and the fog has made it
hazy 
why’ve i been crying out daily

that i needed help when no one ever hears me
i been by myself but still i want some company
even in bad health i don’t need your sympathy 
dying never felt so right but im lonely (so)

i’ll say goodbye
i’ll leave here for good tonight 
“why won’t you hold on tight
i feel you letting me go for life”
is what you whispered in my ear
if you look deep you’ll see i’m near 
but for reasons you can’t hear
i must fall behind, yes i will disappear

yes i will disappear 
you won’t see my face for years
don’t you shed anymore tears
just let go of all of your fears

i’ll say goodbye
i’ll leave here for good tonight 
“why won’t you hold on tight
i feel you letting me go for life”
is what you whispered in my ear
if you look deep you’ll see i’m near 
but for reasons you can’t hear
i must fall behind, yes i will disappear

why won't u hold on tight (dianasty)

produced by Vito
mixed by me
mastered by nate2timez

lyrics

another day where i wake up at 12pm
i hate myself, im a waste now and i was then
im still around but im careful where my time is spent 
hush, not a sound, let the silence slowly take you in

i was war with myself but i think that i’ve lost
a piece of my soul fell to hell and i can’t pay the cost
blood on my coat from the wounds that i cant cover up
im sinkin the boat cuz id rather drown then live corrupt 

i run, away from most my problems im like a loaded gun
it just take one whole shot to ruin all the fun
you’ve had at my expense don’t waste your breath i’m done… done, you fuckin won

another day where i wake up at 12pm
i hate myself, im a waste now and i was then
im still around but im careful where my time is spent 
hush, not a sound, let the silence slowly take you 

i feel the warmth of your hands wrap around me now
i feel my body start to levitate above the ground 
i close my eyes and numb my brain and shut my jaw-dropped mouth
cause i listened when i hear the void speak “not a sound”

now we might as well go back to the beginning 
see if anyone else was ever listening 
and if they weren’t i’m sure the sight is very sickening 
a life in solace is probably never happening 

another day where i wake up at 12pm
i hate myself, im a waste now and i was then
im still around but im careful where my time is spent 
hush, not a sound, let the silence slowly take you in

12pm (vito)

produced by metlast & nihil
mixed by me
mastered by nate2timez 

lyrics

god i hate it when your not here
why did you have to disappear 
loneliness hurts and i might fear
for the worst since the pic’s obscure 

ive been lying on my death bed don’t you know
so if you’re calling im not pickin up the phone 
it’s been hard to see the days pass my from home
here without you lost, confused, and all alone 

no one can help me (no)
no one can save me
i just have accepted
that im beyond saving
you should’ve expected 
or seem this all coming

my minds been infected 
since birth we’ve been fighting 
for nothing but violence 
has been what was taught 
we’re looking for silence 
in a self-boiling pot

mistakes became reasons
for why you had left
and as time changes is seasons
still my life’s a mess

god i hate it when your not here
why did you have to disappear 
loneliness hurts and i might fear
for the worst since the pic’s obscure 

ive been lying on my death bed don’t you know
so if you’re calling im not pickin up the phone 
it’s been hard to see the days pass my from home
here without you lost, confused, and all alone

i h8 it wh3n ur n0t h3r3 (metlast x nihil)

Featuring @failure404
Produced by SVI
Guitars & drums composed by THORNMAIL
Mixing, additional vocals by @horoshavibes

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