Featuring @failure404
Produced by SVI
Guitars & drums composed by THORNMAIL
Mixing, additional vocals by @horoshavibes

TALK TO ME

this door's got a big lock
I don't know where the keys at
there's just a white clock
spinning fast, but it won't go passed
9:32 
it just stops and then rewinds right back
it just stops and then rewinds right back

don't go
please stay
I'll trade my days for what you have left
I'll give you every breath

this door's got a big lock
I don't know where the keys at
there's just a white clock
spinning fast, but it won't go passed
9:32 
it just stops and then rewinds right back
it just stops and then rewinds right back

everybody's calling me but I don't want to talk today
sun is out, rays are shining but I still expect some rain
I lost you to all of the problems inside of your head
I wish I saw the signs before you had left

this door's got a big lock
I don't know where the keys at
there's just a white clock
spinning fast, but it won't go passed
9:32 
it just stops and then rewinds right back
it just stops and then rewinds right back

9:32

lock yourself away where you’ll never find me
you’re not there but you’re right beside me
i can feel your heart beat inside me
and since we’re being honest girl i hate the way im feeling right now
and i can’t even feel you unless im smoking on that loud
knew you was a fan saw you posted in the crowd
i know it wasn’t easy keeping me around
there ain’t nothing left for me to figure out

and no ones really up, up in my head like this
looking back i never thought i’d shine like this
and thinking ‘bout my haters i feel apathetic, eugh
no, no they can’t get enough
feels like time is moving fast and now my rooms full of dust
and we get caught up in this jealousy, what happened to trust?
and it don’t feel the same, what happened to us?
what happened to us?
girl what happened to us?
what happened to us?
woah, what happened to fucking till the daylight?
baby, you’re okay right?
and if i lose you, you’re a needle in the hay, right?
i-i know i gotta lock away my pride
lock away my pride
lock away my-

lock yourself away where you’ll never find me
you’re not there but you’re right beside me
i can feel your heart beat inside me
and since we’re being honest girl i hate the way im feeling right now
and i can’t even feel you unless im smoking on that loud
knew you was a fan saw you posted in the crowd
i know it wasn’t easy keeping me around
there ain’t nothing left for me to figure out
ne-never find me
you’re not there but you’re right beside me
i can feel your heart beat inside me
and since we’re being honest girl i hate the way im feeling right now
and i can’t even feel you unless im smoking on that loud
knew you was a fan saw you posted in the crowd
i know it wasn’t easy keeping me around
there ain’t nothing left for me to figure out

beside mee

beside mee (kayde)

go (prod. fiftyzeros)

Prod. Michael Harrison 
Sorry I’m so experimental
Lyrics~

I’m so unspoken 
It’s all so hopeless 
This pen and pad the only way I’m copin 
Is it the tree that I drag  or the asthma that got me chokin 
No don’t come in please I’m ok  I’m just smokin 
But I haven’t seen you in weeks 
Talk back to my door as it speaks
Just checking in, can you breathe 
Answer me now and I’ll leave 

I been tryina write these tracks 
About what I feel but they trash 
Then do it again and again till I crash 
knew the caffeine wouldn’t last 
What a drag 
As I waste all the traits that I got from my mom and my dad 
I know this time it’s my bad 
I’m Haunted by all the ghosts from my past 

It’s crazy cause you’re like a poltergeist stuck in the shell of a man that you used to be 
Fuck you I hate you get out of that room shits getting old just give up on your dreams 
The puppeteers back at my door I can feel all his malice intent as he tries to tell what to think 
Like shit let me breath, quit pulling my strings

feed me to the noise

she said that i need help like what abt it luv
better let her leave than watch it fuck me up
bruises under belt, you can see the swell
cause when i dwell in mirror never see myself

take me out this season
this sunlight never seep thru
my window, and rarely see it
same here, i'm barely bleeding
baby i really wanna leave to jus stay alone
cause if we take it slow i know my brain might make u home

sitting back in my room 
all I do is wrong
big bowl high asf
imma get me gone
I forget all the things
all the time that we lost
is it bad i dont care
I don't want this at all

ive been on the bench
I cannot play
I sit this out
my lifes been such a mess
I try my hardest to figure it out

part ways time to time
like we're old clothes
started off a secret
like nobody knew
frown on my face
when was this world so cold?

it was always cold
situation I froze
I don't know what to do
I don't know where to go
I feel like a burden I cant help this tho

she said that i need help like what abt it luv
better let her leave than watch it fuck me up
bruises under belt, you can see the swell
cause when i dwell in mirror never see myself

what_abt_it w/ yungcray (flyfx)

honestly never really processed you were gone, but day by day i get closer to accepting it.

Lyrics:

S/M, & NTR, this shit was far from proper love
you know i did some self reflecting and what i felt 
it wasn't lust
oh i been missing you and lately i can't even fill my cup
only upping
higher dosages i hope they fuck me up
don't even look at other women even now at 14 months
you've seeded so deep in my head i feel like i can't even drop
i've written many songs in past tense and i'll prolly write some more
maybe spend my whole life coping bout the girl i wanted more

i guess the chapter closed a while ago it's time to end it off
but i've got fear of letting go and i can't take another loss
i know you'll probably listen in
i know you'll probably hear this song
i'm taking something over nothing cuz your memory is all i got
a couple friends i made since knowing you could vouch
that i wasn't doing well for a while by myself
and even through it all i honest really wish you well
and if you haven't hope you get shit figured out <3

rumination (prod. whyke)

lyrics

soon ill find out this shit taste like water when its late
i hope you satisfied my face stuck gray
youre gold, but i wear silver chains
yall make sure my funeral dont happen in the rain
they counted forty arrows when they made the case
i swear these crows dont do nothing for you except get you stuck
baby my cart is low so when we chill can you bring the blunt
cause im tryna smoke
im tryna smoke so much
im not the same man that you thought you knew
how better i was

i been pouring up some purple potions gotta better my flaws
youre right that i aint get the notion but still i called you
i think you think i have it easy baby what would you do if you were me
but who is me
swear im better off writing my eulogy
im so full of me
at the same time felt a decline in the way that im viewing me
im scraping up rust off my armor maybe that way i could get clean
i feel the atoms that make my being whole just fold and rot and die
she pour out red wine but she rolling brown eyes
i cant fight this battle baby theres a thorn in my side
it feels like too much energy just to try to survivie
i got none left im giving out pieces of my soul for this shit but the songs dropping right?
the songs drop on time
i fought a hard battle but the sword has dulled through time
i put this lighter to the blunt and watch it shine
it look just like a shooting star when im passing by

soon ill find out this shit taste like water when its late
i hope you satisfied my face stuck gray
youre gold, but i wear silver chains
yall make sure my funeral dont happen in the rain
they counted forty arrows when they made the case
i swear these crows dont do nothing for you except get you stuck
baby my cart is low so when we chill can you bring the blunt
cause im tryna smoke
im tryna smoke so much
im not the same man that you thought you knew
how better i was

better i was

thought u knew how better i was

scraping off the rust (p. kaydo)

w/ @user-642636378
produced by king theta
📸: cxrter

lyrics:
(cxrter)
they say i’m acing
used to the lack of, complacent
call it an anomaly, but i’m breaking
i’m stagnant by myself
so hidden in my shell
cause i’m trying to decipher what’s even implied
trying not to leave it all unsaid, i’m fine
like a semi turning cities, i’m swinging wide
satisfaction, is it fake when we say goodnight?
where's the trial run? we all just turned 21
just reminders of all things that i haven’t done
no directions, expectations of fantasies
gardening misery
yeah i’m so sorry

she said that it’s okay
i don’t get why it’s happening
just hope that i’m enough
these kinda things are challenging
but i wish that i could 
find the space and
save the day
but i’m too caught up in your eyes
i can tell it’s me, it’s what it seems
miss understood, i fall in line

(halfhearted)
and it happens to me every time
you got a two faced love, i don’t wanna try
if its all my fault, then i’ll testify
i try to break your fall when u call at night
called it off
applying pressure
wrote a song
left it on your dresser
if i was wrong, then it’s nothing new
i gotta bite my tongue when i talk to you
i’m better off now
cause i was at a loss, and i couldn’t be found
couldn't get across cause the the bridge had burned down
i’m out of options

(cxrter)
she said that it’s okay
i don’t get why it’s happening
just hope that i’m enough
these kinda things are challenging
but i wish that i could 
find the space and
save the day
but i’m too caught up in your eyes
i can tell it’s me, it’s what it seems
miss understood, i fall in line

ace/21 (feat. halfhearted) (prod. king theta)

Produced, mixed and mastered by DZO DIGITAL

[Lizzie]
Send it back, return it, I don't want it anymore
It looked good on the shelf, but now I have buyer's remorse
Your love came with a defect
I'll box it up, I'll find a stamp, print out the label
Won't hold my breath, but hoping soon that I'll be able
To return to sender

And it goes like this...
You had me 
wrapped around your finger
Easily 
We're heading to the future
And it seemed
Like we were living in a dream
Love unique
Like nothing you or I had 
Ever seen
Your angel number tattooed 
On my knee
What a memory

[DZO} 
Angel tat on your sleeve
I rep 333
I'm back like a memory
Sign for your package please
You got me stuck in a dream
I woke up, it was actually me
Maybe in another life
I could still be free
Swear your love got me trippin
I'm on that overnight shippin
What if I just came through?
You ain't gotta be so rude
Why you gotta leave so soon?
DZO on the beat, so smooth
I'm bouta make a move
I got a message to send to you

[Lizzie]
Send it back, return it, I don't want it anymore
It looked good on the shelf, but now I have buyer's remorse
Your love came with a defect
I'll box it up, I'll find a stamp, print out the label
Won't hold my breath, but hoping soon that I'll be able
To return to sender

Return to Sender (ft. DZO DIGITAL)

lyrics ⬇️ 


i like your lips my love but you dont talk
wont work at all i know im far from you
but please dont insult me
id rather you ghost me as you do
and its a shame that i cant trust a single thing you say

a dusty brain i can’t explain all of the stuff that i went thru
dropped from a crane
cant word this pain but i promise you its nothin new 
want me to blink
wake up to drink
i slowly sink i see its true
no saving grace thats all i’ll say
i cant escape when you dont prove
I know ill lose
theres no excuse 
cuz i cant shake this grave today

say it to my face
or ill be in your way for awhile girl
you dont want that for sure
yea you dont text back for hours at a time
lowkey it massacres my heart when you say that but never why

never wanna know how i feel i keep it in the back of my mind
runnin out cuz i know know that you think i wouldn’t see
but you don’t got a clue cuz you dont know me
Know i wish you could
i had all the time in the world

Dont cover your eyes
i wanna see them in the light
just once jus once
just one “more” time
i never expected you to feel like i was always what you want
know i never was know i never was
well i wish that you could see what i saw

TALK TO ME

THORNMAIL

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