produced by: caps ctrl

vocals,mixing,mastering and artwork: birdbay

Lyrics:

(hook)

i’ve tried to relax and i sip earl grey
i just wanna check the facts i don’t wanna be fake
i, need some peace, some love from everyone else
i’ve been doing the numbers and i’m getting out

i’ve tried to relax and i sip earl grey
i just wanna check the facts i don’t wanna be fake
i, need some peace, some love from everyone else

(verse)

i’ve been under the pressure i’m tryna do my best
i’ve been tryna be myself i’m doing my best i swear

i’ve been down, i’ve been down, i’ve been down again

i’ve been losing my crown when i falling in

i don’t wanna be apart of your one sided history 

i don’t, i don’t wanna be apart of your history 
or atleast not the story that you’re telling
i don’t really wanna like it but i have to 

(hook)

i’ve tried to relax and i sip earl grey
i just wanna check the facts i don’t wanna be fake
i, need some peace, some love from everyone else
i’ve been doing the numbers and i’m getting out

i’ve tried to relax and i sip earl grey
i just wanna check the facts i don’t wanna be fake
i, need some peace, some love from everyone else

earl grey [caps ctrl]

i'm in pieces
pick me up from the ground
put me together and break me again
And i guess
this is a looping cycle
that has no end
She brakes me
and she folds me
and forgets bout my existence
then says she's sorry
and asks me for forgiveness
i cry , i cry
and I try to deny
but I can't win the fight
between her head and mine

In the middle of the night
I'm guided by the streetlights
and they make me realize
that those eyes were never real eyes
what was truth turned to lies
what was truth turned to lies
what was truth turned to lies ~

In the middle of the night
I'm guided by the streetlights
and they make me realize
that those eyes were never real eyes
what was truth turned into lies
what was truth turned into lies
what was truth turned into lies
what was truth turned into lies

streetlights (splashgvng)

@leftquietverified
my vocals were mixed & mastered by: @chain_trash

(casperrr)
fall asleep while i'm crying
dreaming about me dying
blade on my wrist it's slicing
falling baby i'm falling

take what's left from me 
brake what's left from me 
show me your true colors 
and baby make me bleed

(leftquiet)
this so deep where im lyin
fall below the seams
the trees are slowly dyin
my rest to the sleep    
i numb the pain
with novocaine
but all i do is hear you weep
wish you'd go away
to slow the pain
cause i can't have this on repeat

my ashes are driftin
from burns that i have sinned with
my body cant handle
this shit i think im goin down

im floatin asail now
my vessel tippin over
the limits have broken
the stream has taken course

(casperrr & leftquiet)
take what's left from me 
brake what's left from me 
show me your true colors 
and baby make me bleed

Take What's Left From Me (ft. leftquiet) (prod.IOF)

swear on my life

Produced by @horoshavibes
Additional guitars by @sainttomorrow

LYRICS
I left flowers at your grave
As if just to say
Though you may be long gone
Your memory remains
Wish that you were still here
Wish I could take your place
But I'm in need of closure
So I've decided not to stay

They say it was an accident
You can never really plan for them
So when all your friends left mass exodus
You stayed behind like my happiness

All of the trauma she endured at your hands
Was it enough to push her over the edge
Many nights I laid awake
Soaked with regret
For the love that I had left
So today I'm leaving these

I guess that bastard got 
What was coming to him 
They read your diary and saw all the things he did 
But that won’t bring you back no
There’s no solace here in that 

I wish someone had listened 
When you said you wanted to leave 
So now I’m taking the last bus out of this town 
And I’ll keep your memory with me on the breeze

Said I'd come back for you
But I never did
I turned my back on you
I'm such an idiot
But I can't be held to promises
That I made when I was just a kid

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I've Decided Not to Stay (Prod. Horosha & Saint Tomorrow)

v v v
yeah i know
no one knows my name
but i keep on trucking 
i just hope the work 
pays off or fucking something
but if it dont i wont be suprised
hell or nothing and left to die
stayed up every night for a year straight
studying my mixing and studying my membrane
always thought that i was fucking insane
never had no one to relate to, yeah yeah
never had no friends 
still fucking dont
i always end up alone again
and thats my fault too
i push them away
i push them away
please dont put any worth to my name
i swear to fuckin god i dont deserve that shit 
yeah im just a sad ass girl trapped in her room and shit
never leave my room unless i really fuckin have to
i dont know
i dont know
every night i smoke, man it got me feeling slow mo
throat burns, red eyes, and i feel like shit
feel like i wanna crawl in a hole and dip
say you really dont want me to do that
if you really dont want me to, please try and stop me
(try and stop me)
(try and stop me)
uncomfortable like always
always fuckin sweat
always fuckin stress 
about some dumb fuckin shit
always miss my boyfriend
always miss my dad
just wanna feel decent
how hard is that?
how hard is it to feel like im normal?
how hard is it to feel like im clean?
how hard is it to feel like kai?
how hard is it to feel alright?
aye, aye, 
no one knows my name
but i keep on truckin
i could just repeat that shit 
but i feel like workin
and i feel like nothing
hopefully im something
maybe ill find out one fuckin day but
not soon
yeah i was in marshall and u called me
said ur in asheville, can you meet me soon?
and i hit u back, said "im down, im down, im down"
always really am but you dont understand
look at twitter once then you go and advance
babe i think your heads clouded give me a chance
you look fucking flawless how you are boy dont trip
ay one grand for a trip (one trip)
just to hold my boy in my arms real quick (real quick)
yeah its real fucking tuff long distance relationship shit
yeah but its real love thats the shit you dont get.

hell or nothing (pekarot)

produced by caves 
completely non profit

lyrics

U say he loves u like I somehow don't 
these words still hurt from out her perfect mouth
oh trust I'm happy that it all worked out

she said ur broken promise I don't mind
these conversations happen late at night
these empty bottles stack a mile high
my dart went out I think I need a light

I think our vices help us sleep alright
wrap my wounds make sure u wrap em tight
so every night I get to flying kites
Canna banner I fly this shit so high
my dart when out I think a need a light 
so she's a whore? I guess ur prolly right
still I can't change the way I feel inside
I am these broken promises and we are just alike

does it hurt that we won't talk again
she screams u lied n I said now n then
but why u acting like u innocent
I'm still choking up on all the words I thought I could of said

she said ur broken and we r just alike
these conversations happen late at night
look how u've grown look how the time will fly
my dart went out I think I need a light

we're just alike
late at night
these coversations right
they happen all the time
and from a mile high
I throw these bottles I
but still the time just flies
we're forced to say goodbye 

just alike (caves)

lyrics:

k shit this is goin too far
ion know who u r
why the fuck r we hanging
all i can think's get the fuck out my car
i would rather go lonely
i would rather go smokin
been doin this 3 damn years
whats a week or two to sit on it hard 

i could not walk that tightrope
much less stand up right woah
she knock me over with words
as they bounce from my brain off the sides of my skull
once it sinks its jus pain
so i take walks in the heaviest rain
i won't admit that it hurts
i'll stick it out jus for her

-

the light dips low
my heartbeat slows
i know its over
and i am at her mercy 

k shit this is goin too far
ion know who u r
why the fuck r we hanging
all i can think's get the fuck out my car
i would rather go lonely
i would rather go smokin
been doin this 3 damn years
whats a week or two to sit on it hard 

i could not walk that tightrope
much less stand up right woah
she knock me over with words
as they bounce from my brain off the sides of my skull
once it sinks its jus pain
so i take walks in the heaviest rain
i won't admit that it hurts
i'll stick it out jus for her

all strangers (autrioly)

https://open.spotify.com/album/76XDGbeLgdXtHXABbBZJEl

wore me out like an accessory '/

produced by @jolst
featuring @xobroken

lyrics:

[@lottaheart]
am i over it?
or will i ever be?
if i could i would erase you from my memory
i cant forget what you did or what you said to me
you took me and wore me out like an accessory

and now you're dead to me
don't wanna see another message that you send to me
now who am i?
im someone else
where were you when i was crying out for help?

you were nowhere to be found
(to)catch me while im falling to the ground
you just treat me like a clown
you wont help, you only let me down

i'll just smile and wish you well
i feel broken cant you tell
i've been sad inside
where my soul resides
since you put me through this hell

[@xobroken]
shoulda known that there was no fixing this
asking me what's wrong but she aint listening
we all know the story but she keep on twisting it
i know when i'm gone she aint ever missing me
one second she hate me, next second she kissing me

sending mixed signals fucking up my head
putting me through hell, tell me what is that?
only want you but you looking for the next
i dont think that im over it

[@lottaheart]
am i over it?
or will i ever be?
if i could i would erase you from my memory
i cant forget what you did or what you said to me
you took me and wore me out like an accessory

and now you're dead to me
don't wanna see another message that you send to me
now who am i?
im someone else
where were you when i was crying out for help?

you were nowhere to be found
nowhere to be found
you only let me down

THANKS 4 LISTENING!

accessory w/ xobroken [jolst]

@nothingnowheremusic
@killbreanna

what if it’s too late to go back
if it’s too late i won’t know that
maybe today i can photograph
my own suicide wit da kodak

2g of sticky i roll that
to let out the feelings i hold back
sellin my life it’s on rollback
i don’t ever want my soul back
so

believe me i’m okay
i would never lie to you no
believe me there’s no way
that ima let you walk out the door

stand in the doorway
blocking you from leaving your home
you belong here close to me
don’t you leave me out in the cold

don’t leave me out here to rot
don’t believe me when i say i’m okay truly i’m not
i want you back more than i thought
but now it’s too late for me i could never save you a spot

can’t save that spot for you it’s not mine to be savin
i’m not meant for you my heart is truly vacant
i can’t be there for you cant be your safehaven
i don’t wanna do this i refuse to be complacent

its too late, to save, my sanity
you cant, expect, any change

too late (nothing, nowhere. x kill breanna)

love y’all
little holiday song for u
happy new year everyone

lyrics:
i been feelin down, i been under the weather
gray skies, snow falling, now i feel a bit better
i got coffee in my hand and im wearin a sweater
i can only hope next year will be a little better
i been feelin down, i been under the weather
but i know everything’s okay, i just gotta remember
that everything is temporary and this isn’t forever
i can only hope that next year will be a little better

5 days till i’m home free
sidelined with my homies
bye bye to the old me
chilled out by my lonely
curfew till morning
life’s pretty boring
ain’t got no warning
now back to the story
im sat by the fire
fridays im higher
can’t fuck with liars
im sad and im tired
christmas was last week
but im still relaxing
im chilled out at my house
so if you want beef then don’t @ me

come save me
im falling
don’t waste my time
if im calling
im waiting
for something
to change my life
cuz im stalling

i been feelin down, i been under the weather
gray skies, snow falling, now i feel a bit better
i got coffee in my hand and im wearin a sweater
i can only hope next year will be a little better
i been feelin down, i been under the weather
but i know everything’s okay, i just gotta remember
that everything is temporary and this isn’t forever
i can only hope that next year will be a little better

come save me
im falling
don’t waste my time
if im calling
im waiting
for something
to change my life
cuz im stalling (x2)

maybe next year [capsctrl]

with the life i’m given, i’m healing.

@lovelessgroup
@butaneband

maybe next year [capsctrl]

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