1/3

after months of work, i can finally present "tides" !

fanlink.to/tidesEP
https://defsharp.bandcamp.com/album/tides

linktr.ee/defsharp

moon phases

STREAM / BUY

common courtesy

offense mechanism

come on i'm sure
it always gets better
so stop this damage
i know it hurts
he left so soon
but i know he'll manage

he'll come back, and he'll be him again
i don't know if i still want to be friends
its not enough, its not enough, for me to pretend
its not enough, its not enough

and i dont know you anymore

your white lies, your white lies
leave with fright lines
i cry when light up with the sky
i almost died but i feel alive
it left me with fright lines
it left me with fright lines

i scratched up my old identity
fell in love so everyone could see
the fright lines, the fright lines, the fright lines
the fright lines, the fright lines they drew on me
caught up on emotions i didn't need
locked away for a summer of secrecy
the fright lines, the fright lines, the fright lines
the fright lines, the fright lines they drew on me

the fright lines

the fright lines, the fright lines, the fright lines
the fright lines, the fright lines they drew on me

the fright lines

the fright lines, the fright lines, the fright lines
the fright lines, the fright lines they drew on me

the fright lines remind me
the fright lines remind me

only last year
did we talk together
how it'd get better
we were right here
i looked at you
and you said you met her

im sidelined, waiting looking in
i cant tell if we even still are friends
i want it back, i want it back, and see you again back
i want it back, i want it back

and i dont know you anymore

your white lies, your white lies
leave with fright lines
i cry when light up with the sky
i almost died but i feel alive
it left me with fright lines
it left me with fright lines

i scratched up my old identity
fell in love so everyone could see
the fright lines, the fright lines, the fright lines
the fright lines, the fright lines they drew on me
caught up on emotions i didn't need
locked away for a summer of secrecy
the fright lines, the fright lines, the fright lines
the fright lines, the fright lines they drew on me

the fright lines

the fright lines, the fright lines, the fright lines
the fright lines, the fright lines they drew on me

the fright lines

the fright lines, the fright lines, the fright lines
the fright lines, the fright lines they drew on me

fright lines!

new pants era

defsharp.ffm.to/fakedit

Slow down
you’re making it harder to know how
Do you see right through me?
You’re out of patience, I know that
I know now, now

But you’d get intimate
and you’d go through with it
what do you get from this
if it doesn’t feel like anything?
why do you drag all this shit out
when you know you’re gonna leave?
would you have faked it this much
if you really wanted me?

if you really wanted me
would you have faked it this much
if you really wanted me?
if you really wanted me
would you have faked it this much
if you really wanted me

you could’ve had me, i swear
you had me wrapped around your finger
and you didn’t even care
this keep-away shit that you do
just doesn’t feel like you’re being fair
but what would i know?
(it was never my fault)

and you’d get intimate
and you’d go through with it
what do you get from this
if it doesn’t feel like anything?
why do you drag all this shit out
when you know you’re gonna leave?
would you have faked it this much
if you really wanted me?

(if you really wanted me)
would you have faked it this much
if you really wanted me?
if you really wanted me
would you have faked it this much
if you really wanted me

I know you can walk me through it
But let go of my hand
It’s over and you don’t have to talk
I know how this ends

(Good enough)

would you have faked it this much
if you really wanted me?
if you really wanted me
would you have faked it this much
if you really wanted me

BUY / STREAM

Faked it this much

DO YOU WANNA GO?

in honor of the forthcoming "lightyears" project, thank you soundcloud.com/jaronsteele for everything.
this song has kept me going forever. the least i could do is attempt to mimic a fraction of the electricity. 

this is the closest you'll get of second wave aephyn for a while. be patient but absolutely huge things are in the works.

jaron / nownever [aephyn's vision]

https://fanlink.tv/ifyourewithme

originally made for FORM's 'All Nighter 9'


miocene memorial garden
@cash-official @acloudyskye @viznode @suji_scared @ejtheloser @shameless_wav @jhlofficixl @gethosyne

visuals by @gethosyne, @suji_scared @viznode & https://x.com/_exaflares


I hide the words again from myself
Knowing no one else is there, to tell
And always fighting, to understand you

And I get dizzy
Just staring out there
So if you're with me
Could you just give me a sign
Cause it's been ages and I
(I'm still alive)
Haven't really been fine

Wait
Feeling lost, can you say we're bound to fate?
Scared of losing everything along the way
I can't change
Chasing a ghost that won't show face
Pile up these dirty leaves
Pointless things ah yeah
Convenient that
There's things I have to tell you

And I get dizzy
Just staring out there
So if you're with me
Could you just give me a sign
Cause it's been ages and I
Haven't really been fine
You took all the time from me
Just passing me by
Show me some life

I keep us tied to each other
Your face in all the places I've been
Still stuck around all the corners
Staring out there

Hide your words
Obscure my face
An empty place
It doesn't even matter
I throw it all away
To escape your face
It fills me with dread
Cause it doesn't even matter

Tell me now
What if we couldn't take —
Call it out
Feeling of echoes
No one knows

listen to me
How did it go
when it fell
out of my reach
Reach out to me
Hopelessly waiting
Wandering out sight

Didn't waste my time
Watering all these dead flowers

Don't go chasing this
Don't go chasing this
Cause I wanted you to know
There's a fire outside your door
Engulfing everything

Just for now
Just for now
It wouldn't matter anymore
Until the dust settles clear

Just for now
Just for a moment

So fingers crossed
Left behind

IF YOU'RE WITH ME

Spill

lets start :3c

Suroki, halfTrue, EyesAndArrows, maringen

Lyrics

----VERSE 1----

[WHAT'S THIS ?]

They say your body loves you so unconditionally (That's right !)
But when i break mine i hope i'm forgiven (Of course :D)
I used to think together we could be anything

But i'm not an idiot, yeh

Keep getting closer to some people i'll never meet
But still won't talk to those i've known since like 17
I'm feeling nauseous when somebody is nice to me

I must be an idiot

ARE YOU ?

----CHOR----

YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT

WHAT'S THIS ?

----VERSE 2----

Someone said they want my hands for themselves
I couldn't comprehend the things that they felt
It's not that i don't like the way that they're held , I think i'd like
It more, as somebody else

[AAAH]

Can't fake the feeling that you'll never be home again
Ashamed to say but i've forgotten just what it meant
You're nothing now, and we know who it should've been

Cos i'm just an idiot

ARE YOU ?

----CHOR----

YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT 
ARE YOU ?

YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT

[OH NO !]

----POSTCHOR----

I never change
I'll never change
I can't decide
I'll think about it
It's always been
just like you said

You wanna live ? then start !

I wanna to change
I wanna to change
Can't be this way
forever but I
Don't wanna be
Don't wanna be
(Somebody else)

----PRECHOR----

She's got nowhere to go
He didn't even notice
I thought we'd be prettier
We must not be ready yet

ARE YOU ?

----CHORBUILD----

YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT
YOU'RE NOT AN IDI - 
[OH NO !]

ARE YOU ?

----FINAL CHOR----

YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT

I WANNA LIVE

[WHAT'S THIS ?]

AND I CAN'T LET THIS GO ON     
PROMISE YOU DON'T HAVE TO WAIT
WHEN WE CAN'T BE WHAT YOU WANT
I'll STILL LOVE YOU ANYWAY

I WANNA LIVE

let's start. 


