to get older

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https://defsharp.bandcamp.com/album/tides-b-sides
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what's the matter with you? - DJ Speedy Pete Remix

jaded - 2th one

sinkholes

Maybe she was gone for a bit
And afraid to admit she was wrong
And maybe she let go just to quit
And moved out to where she belongs
She thinks she fell in love with a witch
The way he spells out that she's wrong
I feel like he's too evil for it
Cast aside with a magical wand

Chalked up driveway
It feels like an ocean
Caught me looking sideways
Provoking emotion
Ask what's the commotion
I’m stuck in place
Don't know where I'm going
You say it’s all for my sake
So I still stay here frozen
While this gap keeps on growing

This feeling I’m loving must fall
The holes and blood on the wall
Reminding why we once fell out of love
I’m tired of reads and blocked calls
Reminding me of all my flaws
Try to tell me again what to think of

Maybe she was gone for a bit
And afraid to admit she was wrong
And maybe she let go just to quit
And moved out to where she belongs
She thinks she fell in love with a witch
The way he spells out that she's wrong
I feel like he's too evil for it
Cast aside with a magical wand

charmer

"i have all the problems i need right here !"

(featuring @bhproducer & @singin-in-the-rain)

written and produced by self discovery, bh & stormkloud
mixed and mastered by self discovery

// lyrics

[bh]
i'm feeling like i'm spinning right back uh
i'm sorry if i'm losing my track but
i'm escaping all these places
i am mentally trapped in my head and it's killing me
everybody knows where i'm at uh
oversharing, that's my bad
i hope that i don't fall behind the race
i'm going at my pace i'm going at my pace

there's a place that's not too far from here
it's been chewing at my gums
it's been ironing my brain out
now i'm missing half my folds
there's a better place i wanna be
on the list that's on my phone
send a letter back to you when i get home

[self discovery]
put me out
in those same old states
it's been too long
i'll spend one more day
to cut my teeth on just what's familiar to me
carve my jaw on unassuming
trials and tribulations
could be mild if i were stationary
minding the gaps like stepping stones
cause why should i have to go the extra mile

[stormkloud]
how do i fix myself and
how do i call for help
i'm scared
all familiar but i feel it
i know this has to quit
so how do i pump the brakes
yeah we could just sit and wait
right here
so i wonder if there's time for me
to stop and realize
it's not really something i can change
and i'm sick of wasting all my range
when new places get old
and old faces i told
to watch out for greatness
oh, how bold !
i think i'm better off
sticking to what i know

[self discovery]
there's a place that's not too far from here
it's been chewing at my gums
it's been ironing my brain out
now i'm missing half my folds
there's a better place i wanna be
on the list that's on my phone
send a letter back to you when i get home
but i'm scared i'll be the last one left
to share my story
i'll bite my tongue
it's for the lore
should i be wary
of whom i've shared my side
prepared to be the last one left
in purgatory
i'll hold my tongue
it's for my story
it's fair to say that
guilt has been my guide !

put me out
in those same old states
it's been too long
i'll spend one more day
to cut my teeth on just what's familiar to me
carve my jaw on unassuming
trials and tribulations
could be mild if i were stationary
minding the gaps like stepping stones
cause why should i have to go the extra mile

spawnpoint ! (feat. bh & StormKloud)

Leave it all in a pen and a paper
(Your thoughts are not your now
The times you fought made you alone now)
Though she falls, he still feels he can save her
(In time you'll find a way out
It's crossed your mind, was it your own doubt?)

You always tend to think of what you lose
Now she writes about the things you used to do
Just a pen is what she thinks of you
And another night the story's in your view

Read those lines
That you wrote for another
Friendship or lover?
Take your time
Remind me you're stubborn
And reach for the cupboard
Just grab a knife
Or smash all the dishes
And break what I wish is
The last time
Fore you make an addition
You write what you listened

You always tend to think of what you lose
Now she writes about the things you used to do
Just a pen is what she thinks of you
And another night the story's in your view

Author

https://fanlink.tv/ifyourewithme

originally made for FORM's 'All Nighter 9'


miocene memorial garden
@cash-official @acloudyskye @viznode @suji_scared @ejtheloser @shameless_wav @jhlofficixl @gethosyne

visuals by @gethosyne, @suji_scared @viznode & https://x.com/_exaflares


I hide the words again from myself
Knowing no one else is there, to tell
And always fighting, to understand you

And I get dizzy
Just staring out there
So if you're with me
Could you just give me a sign
Cause it's been ages and I
(I'm still alive)
Haven't really been fine

Wait
Feeling lost, can you say we're bound to fate?
Scared of losing everything along the way
I can't change
Chasing a ghost that won't show face
Pile up these dirty leaves
Pointless things ah yeah
Convenient that
There's things I have to tell you

And I get dizzy
Just staring out there
So if you're with me
Could you just give me a sign
Cause it's been ages and I
Haven't really been fine
You took all the time from me
Just passing me by
Show me some life

I keep us tied to each other
Your face in all the places I've been
Still stuck around all the corners
Staring out there

Hide your words
Obscure my face
An empty place
It doesn't even matter
I throw it all away
To escape your face
It fills me with dread
Cause it doesn't even matter

Tell me now
What if we couldn't take —
Call it out
Feeling of echoes
No one knows

listen to me
How did it go
when it fell
out of my reach
Reach out to me
Hopelessly waiting
Wandering out sight

Didn't waste my time
Watering all these dead flowers

Don't go chasing this
Don't go chasing this
Cause I wanted you to know
There's a fire outside your door
Engulfing everything

Just for now
Just for now
It wouldn't matter anymore
Until the dust settles clear

Just for now
Just for a moment

So fingers crossed
Left behind

IF YOU'RE WITH ME

i'm forever grateful, but i still fucking hate you

you ask what's on my mind
like you even care
you say that i seem "a little distant lately"
all the things i keep from you
carry too much weight to bare
so i say "i'm fine" and turn my face away
(ohhh) and i don't wanna hurt your feelings
(ohhh) no i don't wanna be the reason
(ohhh) that tonight you're barely sleeping

WE CAN TRY IT AGAIN !
JUST LET ME KNOW WHEN !
WE CAN TRY IT AGAIN !
CAUSE I THINK I'M SCARED TO BE ALONE, AGAIN
WE CAN TRY IT AGAIN !
WE CAN TRY IT AGAIN !
CAUSE I THINK I'M SCARED TO BE ALONE, AGAIN

by now you've already given up
wish there was something i could say to make it okay, but there's not
and i hope somewhere out there, you find everything you want
so i'll wish you the best as you wait for something better yet to come
lets go!

WE CAN TRY IT AGAIN !
JUST LET ME KNOW WHEN !
WE CAN TRY IT AGAIN !
CAUSE I THINK I'M SCARED TO BE ALONE, AGAIN
WE CAN TRY IT AGAIN !

jaded - 2th one

defsharp

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