hey I'm not afraid of myself OR the outcome. I'm just mad at it

3/3

YOOOOOOO HERE IT IS!!! really hope you all like this one! i had so much fun working on this one lol

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lyrics:


whats the point in talking about it
its not like its gonna change anything
so why am i so hung up about it
all these hieroglyphics man what do they mean?

(you are) a different kind of confusing
(you are) another person that im fine with losing

but why do i even care
it’s just a matter time till it all falls down again
just let me be clear
i might as well tell you here 
what’s the matter with you?

and i need to let go of all this shit
cuz i am losing myself tryna make it right
i never meant to help you
i never meant to tell you that

whats the point in waiting for nothing
it’s not like im gonna waste my time
and when am i one to lie?
im not up for talkin i just want to go to sleep 

(you are) a different kind of confusing
(you are) another person that im fine with losing

but why do i even care
it’s just a matter time till it all falls down again
just let me be clear
i might as well tell you here 
what’s the matter with you?

and i need to let go of all this shit
cuz i am losing myself tryna make it right
i never meant to help you
i never meant to tell you that

and i need to let go of all this shit
cuz i am losing myself tryna make it right
and it was just a matter of time till it all fell down again

what's the matter with you?

thing i forgot to finish

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jaded - 2th one

new pants era

@acloudyskye

fig i. If I would know you, would you know me?

Lyrics:
Were you there at the start
When the night was a part of a window
I had seen through over and over again
Every moment I’ve asked
Is this happening now
My heart has never quite sounded so loud

(Hey-a-sha-ma, Oh, My Desire!)

Hide away from this I try
Storm uncovering focused eyes
Hear your names in terms of suns
Shouting out til I was done

And it hit me all at once
Across all that came from dust
Into where every river runs
I will wait for you to go

Is this it?
Is this it?
Wait for this
Oh

(Wherever you are)

Just follow me my dear
Despite all I feared
Bright eyes stare clear
I know you’re almost here

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Cmaj, 140bpm

As If You Understand What's Going On

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As If You Understand What's Going On (ft. acloudyskye)

"i have all the problems i need right here !"

(featuring @bhproducer & @singin-in-the-rain)

written and produced by self discovery, bh & stormkloud
mixed and mastered by self discovery

// lyrics

[bh]
i'm feeling like i'm spinning right back uh
i'm sorry if i'm losing my track but
i'm escaping all these places
i am mentally trapped in my head and it's killing me
everybody knows where i'm at uh
oversharing, that's my bad
i hope that i don't fall behind the race
i'm going at my pace i'm going at my pace

there's a place that's not too far from here
it's been chewing at my gums
it's been ironing my brain out
now i'm missing half my folds
there's a better place i wanna be
on the list that's on my phone
send a letter back to you when i get home

[self discovery]
put me out
in those same old states
it's been too long
i'll spend one more day
to cut my teeth on just what's familiar to me
carve my jaw on unassuming
trials and tribulations
could be mild if i were stationary
minding the gaps like stepping stones
cause why should i have to go the extra mile

[stormkloud]
how do i fix myself and
how do i call for help
i'm scared
all familiar but i feel it
i know this has to quit
so how do i pump the brakes
yeah we could just sit and wait
right here
so i wonder if there's time for me
to stop and realize
it's not really something i can change
and i'm sick of wasting all my range
when new places get old
and old faces i told
to watch out for greatness
oh, how bold !
i think i'm better off
sticking to what i know

[self discovery]
there's a place that's not too far from here
it's been chewing at my gums
it's been ironing my brain out
now i'm missing half my folds
there's a better place i wanna be
on the list that's on my phone
send a letter back to you when i get home
but i'm scared i'll be the last one left
to share my story
i'll bite my tongue
it's for the lore
should i be wary
of whom i've shared my side
prepared to be the last one left
in purgatory
i'll hold my tongue
it's for my story
it's fair to say that
guilt has been my guide !

put me out
in those same old states
it's been too long
i'll spend one more day
to cut my teeth on just what's familiar to me
carve my jaw on unassuming
trials and tribulations
could be mild if i were stationary
minding the gaps like stepping stones
cause why should i have to go the extra mile

spawnpoint ! (feat. bh & StormKloud)

with https://soundcloud.com/hanirl :)

then I sit down

put away my cellphone

do it for my health

then I'm gonna tell nobody 

the way I've felt

tell tales

tell everybody that I'm doing well

I'm not

okay, still sitting down

open up my laptop

can't talk now

is what I tell my friends 

because I'm writing about 

everything, every thought,

every scene, every now

and then

I write about how

my thoughts pull me down

why are they so loud?

Why are they so mean?

Fierce and hostile, I fear I've lost sight 

Cause years of my life

I'd feel the gaslights

Kept wasting my time,

my friends would ask why

my tears won't pass now

I block it all out

just shut myself down

It's so much more than what I wrote

what I wrote isn't all empirical at all

I'm gonna get out of my head

soak up the sunlight

and fall in love with life again

it's so much more than what I wrote

So you read what I wrote from

most of the week where I hoped for

nobody to pose if I'm honest about

what's on my mental

I won't pretend to

act like I don't dread 

the palpable potential

that I will only end up

like what I've tried to end but

if I tried and I failed

would you probably feel

like I've fallen to my own virtues

this isn't a goodbye, it's far from that

I don't want you to worry, time won't hurt you

it's so much more than what I wrote

what I wrote isn't all empirical at all

I'm gonna get out of my head

soak up the sunlight

and fall in love with life again

fall in love

and fall in love with life again

fall in love

it's so much more than what I wrote

playwright w/ han.irl<3

Lyrics:

How many chances do I get
For you to pull me down again
Move to a place inside my head
Falling away from where I stand

I got caught chasing loose ends
You brought me further away from them
Feet on the ground and it all made sense

That I need something
That's out of reach from me
So just hold on back looking through the gaps and you'll see
What's been missing

And then it gets to me
Walls closing in, slowly
Then it's hard to breathe I will try and think of the things
We could be

I spent too long on broken things
By now it's probably killing me
Stare at the mirror never blink
The things I didn't want to see

You're scared to talk about your dreams
I'm scared I'll mess up everything
Wash down my worries go to sleep

That I need something
That's out of reach from me
So just hold on back looking through the gaps and you'll see
What's been missing

And then it gets to me
Walls closing in slowly
Then it's hard to breathe I will try and think of the things
We could be

Flares

Brian Cross & Fat Synth Presents Alpha Industries - Angels

another one from the old Nebula Collection Reimagined 

jaded - 2th one

defsharp

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