common courtesy

5/7

https://defsharp.bandcamp.com/track/to-get-older

to get older

Stream

https://defsharp.bandcamp.com/album/tides-b-sides
https://defsharp.fanlink.to/tidesB

jaded - 2th one

glass fort

hyacinth --- artwork by @reksi420 --- additional guitars by @buzit0

you're my hyacinth  
that got away
from our promises
our promises

you're my hyacinth
growing out of place
I hope to god you'll stay

and i remember
wishing you were down by the lake
oh no
couldn't keep you up from drowning away
at all
finally gave up on your life
so don't wait
it's all good

now it's november 
and we're sitting outside in the rain
our voices tremble
you're whispering
!that's not what you said!
and i remember 
hoping that it'll come to an end
as we sway in the wind
close our eyes
as we sing 
about

and i can't believe 
your safe in my arms
time stops
to breathe
so just sway in the wind 
and don't worry
cause you've become so sweet
close your eyes 
fall asleep
have i found what i need?
as it rains down
i'm feeling all the pressure in my veins
now
i'm holding every moment to my chest
hearts beating with no rest
i've finally found my end

you're my hyacinth  
that got away
from our promises
i'll promise it

you're my hyacinth
growing out of place
I hope to god you'll stay

<3

hyacinth

with https://soundcloud.com/hanirl :)

then I sit down

put away my cellphone

do it for my health

then I'm gonna tell nobody 

the way I've felt

tell tales

tell everybody that I'm doing well

I'm not

okay, still sitting down

open up my laptop

can't talk now

is what I tell my friends 

because I'm writing about 

everything, every thought,

every scene, every now

and then

I write about how

my thoughts pull me down

why are they so loud?

Why are they so mean?

Fierce and hostile, I fear I've lost sight 

Cause years of my life

I'd feel the gaslights

Kept wasting my time,

my friends would ask why

my tears won't pass now

I block it all out

just shut myself down

It's so much more than what I wrote

what I wrote isn't all empirical at all

I'm gonna get out of my head

soak up the sunlight

and fall in love with life again

it's so much more than what I wrote

So you read what I wrote from

most of the week where I hoped for

nobody to pose if I'm honest about

what's on my mental

I won't pretend to

act like I don't dread 

the palpable potential

that I will only end up

like what I've tried to end but

if I tried and I failed

would you probably feel

like I've fallen to my own virtues

this isn't a goodbye, it's far from that

I don't want you to worry, time won't hurt you

it's so much more than what I wrote

what I wrote isn't all empirical at all

I'm gonna get out of my head

soak up the sunlight

and fall in love with life again

fall in love

and fall in love with life again

fall in love

it's so much more than what I wrote

playwright w/ han.irl<3

https://fanlink.tv/ifyourewithme

originally made for FORM's 'All Nighter 9'


miocene memorial garden
@cash-official @acloudyskye @viznode @suji_scared @ejtheloser @shameless_wav @jhlofficixl @gethosyne

visuals by @gethosyne, @suji_scared @viznode & https://x.com/_exaflares


I hide the words again from myself
Knowing no one else is there, to tell
And always fighting, to understand you

And I get dizzy
Just staring out there
So if you're with me
Could you just give me a sign
Cause it's been ages and I
(I'm still alive)
Haven't really been fine

Wait
Feeling lost, can you say we're bound to fate?
Scared of losing everything along the way
I can't change
Chasing a ghost that won't show face
Pile up these dirty leaves
Pointless things ah yeah
Convenient that
There's things I have to tell you

And I get dizzy
Just staring out there
So if you're with me
Could you just give me a sign
Cause it's been ages and I
Haven't really been fine
You took all the time from me
Just passing me by
Show me some life

I keep us tied to each other
Your face in all the places I've been
Still stuck around all the corners
Staring out there

Hide your words
Obscure my face
An empty place
It doesn't even matter
I throw it all away
To escape your face
It fills me with dread
Cause it doesn't even matter

Tell me now
What if we couldn't take —
Call it out
Feeling of echoes
No one knows

listen to me
How did it go
when it fell
out of my reach
Reach out to me
Hopelessly waiting
Wandering out sight

Didn't waste my time
Watering all these dead flowers

Don't go chasing this
Don't go chasing this
Cause I wanted you to know
There's a fire outside your door
Engulfing everything

Just for now
Just for now
It wouldn't matter anymore
Until the dust settles clear

Just for now
Just for a moment

So fingers crossed
Left behind

IF YOU'RE WITH ME

JUST FOR NOW
https://ffm.to/jfn

miocene memorial garden
@cash-official @acloudyskye @viznode @suji_scared @ejtheloser @shameless_wav @jhlofficixl @gethosyne @envyline

As days
gone by 
I see your shadow walking
Surrounding my mind
In a dream  I cried
Beneath the star you cherish
Fading over time

(can't let go)
Just for now

(of hope)

Just for now


When I saw you with her
It felt like a volatile powder keg in the dark
When I saw you with her
You didn't dare to say that there was nothing wrong


Could I be your savior?
Swoopin' in and save you from hurt
Until then  I can't save you
Just for now

Just for now  just for now
Feeling like you're  feeling like you're gonna riot
Just for now  for now
How long can you hold out the pain?
Just for now


As I trace the line
Will we find our place in time?
As we say goodbye
In the silence  our hearts confined
Are we out of time?
As we're losing touch
Our love is fading
(Fading) 




I can tell you're not happy
After everything you told me
Standing helpless
How can I face everything
How could you bring me between
How could you?
(I don't blame you)


When I saw you with her
It felt like a volatile powder keg in the dark
When I saw you with her
I didn't dare to say that there was nothing wrong


I can't be your savior
Coming in to save you
Watching from afar I know you've had it rough
But it's not my fault that you gave up
I can't be your savior
Coming in to save you
You're not the only one around that's had enough
It's not my fault I've given up