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selective morality (extended)

new pants era

flower bed

bro really just bought soundcloud pro for a second account

white boy white boy

you’re better than everyone 

the type of boy to write stories

about is better

and everyone knows that

oh, don’t forget about the fact 

that they’re supposed to be another of 

thousands of other superlative people 

with money supporting them, ignoring the fact 

it’s evident

that nobody a kid with a little bit of melanin 

a mismatch within the sorority so develop big

animosity towards the ones who are mad at it

to the masses you

have everything we’ve thought wanted for 

too long. we ask that you be everything

and anything but forbearing 

when buried in the fight against

sentiment, all hiding

sentimental feelings will 

renovate into 

an emotional dystopia 

coping with the absurd 

fact that they’re supposed to be

another one of thousands of other 

hurting people

whose money’s controlling their

ignored and suppressed sentiments 

one of them goes to the kid with a little bit of

melanin 

asks them for help even though it is stretching

them thin

not knowing they’re one of the people 

who are mad at the

white boy, white boy

who’s better than everyone

so the white boy white boy

whose heads is a mess he runs

away

tried to correlate more

reasons they’re fed up with everyone

who tried to aid and support

their tendency to suppress their heart

an acquired taste

https://ffm.to/bhredblueandgreenlights

A light show of colors, the screen is my window to her sight

32723

w/ @saoirsedream

co-prod by @charliemakesmusic

lyrics
Wonder what you want from me
I thought I made it clear, don't say that it's my fault cause
You know what you meant to me
We're running out of time now
Can you feel the sunset?
Can you feel the-

I might just run it up
Did I run out of luck?
Am I about to fall backwards back to the last time, yea
That you helped me
Baby you helped me
Baby you helped me
Baby you-

I wanna write a song for you
I got stuck on the attack
Every word I say to you
You just repeat it back
It's not like I believe in you less
I'm not keeping score and I don't need you to guess
What I'm thinking all the time
Imma just keep it to myself
Never confide don't need no help
Never confide don't need no help
Baby kiss me thru the phone
JK's that's a stupid joke
Hope I laugh so hard I choke
Hope I laugh so hard I-

Wonder what you want from me
I thought I made it clear, don't say that it's my fault cause
You know what you meant to me
We're running out of time now
Can you feel the sunset?
Can you feel the-

I might just run it up
Did I run out of luck?
Am I about to fall backwards back to the last time, yea
That you helped me
Baby you helped me
Baby you helped me
Baby you-

Baby you help me
Baby you help me
Baby you help me
Baby you help me

And so I put my mind away
I'll figure it out anyway (Baby you help me)
Do you even know who I am?
Do you even care? Do you even care?

red blue and green lights (w/ saoirse dream)

defsharp.ffm.to/fakedit

Slow down
you’re making it harder to know how
Do you see right through me?
You’re out of patience, I know that
I know now, now

But you’d get intimate
and you’d go through with it
what do you get from this
if it doesn’t feel like anything?
why do you drag all this shit out
when you know you’re gonna leave?
would you have faked it this much
if you really wanted me?

if you really wanted me
would you have faked it this much
if you really wanted me?
if you really wanted me
would you have faked it this much
if you really wanted me

you could’ve had me, i swear
you had me wrapped around your finger
and you didn’t even care
this keep-away shit that you do
just doesn’t feel like you’re being fair
but what would i know?
(it was never my fault)

and you’d get intimate
and you’d go through with it
what do you get from this
if it doesn’t feel like anything?
why do you drag all this shit out
when you know you’re gonna leave?
would you have faked it this much
if you really wanted me?

(if you really wanted me)
would you have faked it this much
if you really wanted me?
if you really wanted me
would you have faked it this much
if you really wanted me

I know you can walk me through it
But let go of my hand
It’s over and you don’t have to talk
I know how this ends

(Good enough)

would you have faked it this much
if you really wanted me?
if you really wanted me
would you have faked it this much
if you really wanted me

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Faked it this much

"i have all the problems i need right here !"

(featuring @bhproducer & @singin-in-the-rain)

written and produced by self discovery, bh & stormkloud
mixed and mastered by self discovery

// lyrics

[bh]
i'm feeling like i'm spinning right back uh
i'm sorry if i'm losing my track but
i'm escaping all these places
i am mentally trapped in my head and it's killing me
everybody knows where i'm at uh
oversharing, that's my bad
i hope that i don't fall behind the race
i'm going at my pace i'm going at my pace

there's a place that's not too far from here
it's been chewing at my gums
it's been ironing my brain out
now i'm missing half my folds
there's a better place i wanna be
on the list that's on my phone
send a letter back to you when i get home

[self discovery]
put me out
in those same old states
it's been too long
i'll spend one more day
to cut my teeth on just what's familiar to me
carve my jaw on unassuming
trials and tribulations
could be mild if i were stationary
minding the gaps like stepping stones
cause why should i have to go the extra mile

[stormkloud]
how do i fix myself and
how do i call for help
i'm scared
all familiar but i feel it
i know this has to quit
so how do i pump the brakes
yeah we could just sit and wait
right here
so i wonder if there's time for me
to stop and realize
it's not really something i can change
and i'm sick of wasting all my range
when new places get old
and old faces i told
to watch out for greatness
oh, how bold !
i think i'm better off
sticking to what i know

[self discovery]
there's a place that's not too far from here
it's been chewing at my gums
it's been ironing my brain out
now i'm missing half my folds
there's a better place i wanna be
on the list that's on my phone
send a letter back to you when i get home
but i'm scared i'll be the last one left
to share my story
i'll bite my tongue
it's for the lore
should i be wary
of whom i've shared my side
prepared to be the last one left
in purgatory
i'll hold my tongue
it's for my story
it's fair to say that
guilt has been my guide !

put me out
in those same old states
it's been too long
i'll spend one more day
to cut my teeth on just what's familiar to me
carve my jaw on unassuming
trials and tribulations
could be mild if i were stationary
minding the gaps like stepping stones
cause why should i have to go the extra mile

spawnpoint ! (feat. bh & StormKloud)

with https://soundcloud.com/hanirl :)

then I sit down

put away my cellphone

do it for my health

then I'm gonna tell nobody 

the way I've felt

tell tales

tell everybody that I'm doing well

I'm not

okay, still sitting down

open up my laptop

can't talk now

is what I tell my friends 

because I'm writing about 

everything, every thought,

every scene, every now

and then

I write about how

my thoughts pull me down

why are they so loud?

Why are they so mean?

Fierce and hostile, I fear I've lost sight 

Cause years of my life

I'd feel the gaslights

Kept wasting my time,

my friends would ask why

my tears won't pass now

I block it all out

just shut myself down

It's so much more than what I wrote

what I wrote isn't all empirical at all

I'm gonna get out of my head

soak up the sunlight

and fall in love with life again

it's so much more than what I wrote

So you read what I wrote from

most of the week where I hoped for

nobody to pose if I'm honest about

what's on my mental

I won't pretend to

act like I don't dread 

the palpable potential

that I will only end up

like what I've tried to end but

if I tried and I failed

would you probably feel

like I've fallen to my own virtues

this isn't a goodbye, it's far from that

I don't want you to worry, time won't hurt you

it's so much more than what I wrote

what I wrote isn't all empirical at all

I'm gonna get out of my head

soak up the sunlight

and fall in love with life again

fall in love

and fall in love with life again

fall in love

it's so much more than what I wrote

playwright w/ han.irl<3

i watch you wander the country with a fist full of stars
building your towers of honey and breaking them apart
and darling you won't regret it if you give me a piece of your heart
cause i know you won't admit it but you're painting me over your scars

sitting in the light as it dawns, you're blossoming all the flowers
lay and watch the night as it falls, i lost count of all the hours
oh the world is a tape player, write me a song
and i'll sing it to you

we watch the planes disappear and the planets embark
making a wish on a chemtrail, on saturn or mars
and darling they're crossed again, but i'm the man who made everything hard
our magnetic confluence is nothing more than a wish on a star

i could be a spark in your eyes, the space where i fly is endless
there i'm just an old satellite, searching for my repentance
oh i've been flying forever and ain't found no god
but he's speaking through you

don't look down

Who Are You

You Guys Did So Much To This Kid, He Don’t Even Care Anymore, He’s Gonna Be Himself.