shoutout @decago n @1altr

every day that passes by
i rly wanna die 
i wanna go 2 sleep forevr i jus wanna cry
ur presense made me feel whole
felt like i could try
n now that ur gone i rly wanna die
restarting my life i wanna fkn damn retry :) 

ik im the problem 
my life that im not solving
counting days till im not here 
cant see myself so clearly
i cant seem 2 escape these problems
i been hiding in the darkness
restarting my life wont solve em 
ik that im the issue- 

i dnt wanna miss u (miss uuu)
i jus wanna kiss u (kiss uuu)
ik im the issue (issue)
crying in my room i miss u

i dnt wanna feel this way jus anymore
i been hating myself 2 the core
i wanna die 
i wanna die baby
i dnt wanna feel my emotions lately
cant keep this 2 myself yeah i cant hide it
evry day that passes by i feel dying
my own life yeah that imma be jus ending
i dnt wanna live this way anymore

itwouldbebetterifiwasdead (decago x altr)

prod @nazzz333 x @rewind214 !!

shoutout @6vesta and my hollowed twin @1xene

@haunted_sad
i knew baby tht i could never trust u 
i knew baby tht u were a liar from the start
u broke my heart bby its all the same to me
living in a fairytale call it make believe 
i might #flatline bby what do u see in me? 
stuck in second place baby think its meant4me
idling by i been wasting all my time
im always comin back to this point tht i wna die
cryin in my head cause ik im the #issue
i wna go back 2 the better times

@6vesta
i thought u were the one for me 
blood dripping off of the sink
only tell me what u mean
why im crying all the time? 
something i dont know
im holding onto these feelings but i think i should let go 
its something different now
its something i dont feel
its something i cant show u but i promise u its real

why im lying all the time
why im falling all the time
why i give up all the time
why im cutting all the time 
x2
@1xene
in the background
background
is where i stay
yea my hearts bound
hearts bound
to this place
yeah i might drown
might drown in chardonnay
so done
so done w all this pain

take away it all
erase it all
break, girl break my fall
erase it all

ialwayswastedmytime w/ xene + vesta (rewind + naz)

#straycats @hartfxlt

I dont wanna love cos ill never have that
fall into that hole i will never get back
do not reply its ok ur on the snapchat
feel like spira me all i ever use is cashapp

and it makes me cry when u dont wanna talk 
and i wonder why i always talk alot
am i going insane i think i lost the plot
i always do things without thinking a thought

feeling bad for myself i know its pathetic
and im always in my head yea im always stressin
i just wanna be at the top where im winning
always find myself standing in the wrong position

@hartfxlt 

I'll take my leave girl its best I get going
u fade with the leaves see ur face when its snowing
inside I bleed there's no way to slow it 
can't stitch it or sow it, end is close yeah I know it 
falling apart inside and that won't change 
thought u were on my side its just so strange 
how u lie and lie and lie 
it really tears me up inside 
whole clique in the club yeah I'm with straycats 
she told me she in love baby don't u say that 
couple nights ay that's all we really have 
if i had it my way u never would've really left

Thinking a Thought Ft Hartfxlt (savestate)

@phxlxp @afterstoryx

more like this next week

########

do you see what i mean
when you fall into me
every bridge that i burn
every call that i see

when you say im the worst 
do you know what it means
can you tell that it hurts 
can you tell that i bleed?

when youre standing around
do you see what i see

push my face in the ground
youre the one that i need

nothing left for me now
as i struggle to breathe

what you give comes around
watch me kick watch me scream

you say im perfect
tell me im worth it
turn me to ashes 
say i deserve it

when im not with you 
swear thats the worst thing
you make me brand new 
know were a sure thing

the only thing i want
did i give you enough
when you see that im  down
will you come pick me up

will you come fill my shoes
and tell me why im stuck
(will u come fill my shoes)

perfect (phxlxp)

@anotherdaypassesmeby
its hard to be me
life putting me through hell
you hurt me so good
yeah, you really do it well
cuts and bruises
they begin to swell
i been lying through my teeth
i know it’s not good for myself
i been grinding my teeth
got these pills inside my mouth
i been doing way too much
and its not good for my health
when i fell down
yeah, nobody helped
hop out in that gown yeah
generational wealth
you don’t know what i’ve been through
cry so much need a tissue
yeah, what’s your issue?
hey, what you into?
yeah i really miss you
I’m not perfect
yeah, i sin too
can’t get through these issues
cry so much need a tissue
don’t know what i’m into 
but i just really miss you oh no
hey
i just really miss you oh no
@hvrting
dropping pain into this styrofoam
no friends ima die alone
day to day spending time alone
u dont kno what i been thru
struggling to cope with my issues
falling off the edge
ima slip thru
even in the rain
i would sprint to u
i was a loner
i felt like a reject
u pussies r posers
swear u all playing pretend
lying thru my teeth
kno its not good for myself
u were nowhere to be found
when i was down nn needed help
its another day
i dont kno where im waking up
racks in i b raking up
pray my bruddas make it out
not copping zips
we smoke by the pound
no i dont wan let u down
in the deep would u let me drown ??
suicidal thoughts running all around
falling i hit the ground
miss who i was around you
kno everything about you
u aint like that
i said it 
u aint show up
drop 2 pills inside this cup
i take a sip
might throw up
wish we cld never grow up
wait until i blow up
remember how they treated me
when i was still a no one

rehab ft. hvrts (diegointhedark)

@crimsonkey777

IM BACK WITH EMOPLUGG!!! <3

picknic +Key777 (irisv)

w/ @s0lemn
prod @bloodcryy
cover art by @au6ment
(x_x)
yea ima let my bridges burn down
im good at being lost n never found
issa cold world, nobodies around
why’d u say forever but you’re not here now

(._.)
im through with the life that i chose
i spend too many nights in the cold all alone
my friends turn to ghosts and my heart turn to stone
don’t try to call me, leave a message at the tone

(o_o)
pills in my sink got my eyes half closed
got death on my shoulder yea he won’t ever go
she in love with my pain yea that’s all that she shows
all this ice in my veins yea my heart still froze

s0lemn:
letting U down I cannot Let goo ,;
i cry n I shout ,, Still feel tha Same thoo -_{
its A part of me Tht u dont Wna Talk abt .
i Aint hearin sht all Bc im Noddin out ..

do U even Care abt sht dat I gota say ?? >
U were much 2Busy ill wait 4 another day '''
fallin Out , Fuckin Up ... Ion wna b the 1
u Werent there .. == Feeling dumb . Do u h8 Wat ive Become . ..

Pictures of U . the life tht We knew .. .
Spun off tha Dope idk wat 2 do . ..
droppin Fent in my drank .
Ion wna Feel ok .
i Been buzzin on em Pillz ya i Hope i die 2day 

im fallin asleep ,, Death in A dream .
u Cut out my Heart ur watchin me bleed {{{ 
count up The cuts on my Sleeve ''':
is this wat ur doing 2 me ?

burnt bridges w/ s0lemn (bloodcryY)

track 2 - #tryingtillidie

with my bro @haunted_sad

@haunted_sad  
im so hollow to the core u nvr meant it 
u ripped my heart in two i guess tht ur a liar too
its 4am bby i jus lay awake
ya ur the one tht pushed me jus far down the drain
ya each day baby ya tht jus passed me 
i dnt wanna miss u i jus wanted to kiss u
im counting days baby till im jus gone
im #tryinguntilidie till im succeeding 
but im putting my feet 4ward tryna move on
tryna move on ya baby damn without u
ya ur the one tht pushed me so far astray
cant u see baby that i trusted u?
yeah ur the one tht betrayed me.. *yeahh yeahh
cant u see im nvr alright baby?

@556renzo
u wanted me 2 lose,, girl wats up w u?
bae u were my everything,, bae i needed u
smokin allat gas tryna get away frm u
get away frm u, tryna get away frm u
i dont want u 2 come back 2 me
cause u weren't there when u're all i need
broke me into pieces, bae cant u c?
#tryingtillidie till i succeed
2 high, 2 high
smokin allat gas, imma try till i die
2 high, 2 high
smokin allat gas, till i die

#tryingtillidie w/haunted_sad (!yukik0)

prod. flocket x 49Yeezey

lyrics

can u tell me how u feel
is everything real
i cant see whats going on
i been lost up in my head
can u tell me that its alright its alright
baby yk that its not fine its not fine
x2

i cant tell whats going on between us
all this love i had for u it turned to dust
im stuck up in the past
forgot like what we had
i cant see where im at now
eyes closed vision blurry like a blackout
it hurt so deeply but im glad that its over now
(its over now, its over now its over now)

can u tell me how u feel
is everything real
i cant see whats going on
i been lost up in my head
can u tell me that its alright its alright
baby yk that its not fine its not fine
x2

(ughhhhhh)
(ughhhhhh... not fine)
(ughhhhhh)
(ughhhhhh... not fine)

how u feel

w/ @s0lemn
prod @1ppeace
art @demize_pluhh

maybe its all in my head , maybe u dont hate me
its so hard to piece together all those things u said to me
i cant b by ur side cuz i js know id set u back
i can feel ur terrified , all my shit is fckin wack

set u back ,, i dont wanna do dat
im having flashbacks , i cant accept that
please forgive me , i dont want u to cry
u know how much i hate saying goodbye ,,

s0lemn:
n I js Got high , ,
ion Wna tell U how i Feel inside .; .
but im sry I Tried [{
I can Stay the Same if u think Datz Fine .. .
come back2Me I dont Wna sit & Doubt ..;
Its Bad4me I cryY wen Ur not around / /
Pourin Up sum Drank ,, Ion wna Think . .
I should stay Away .. We Are Not tha same [[\

i Was feelin Uu but uU aint Wna say nun ..
I luv Drug abuse . . I js wna Feel numb [ '"
Heard Ur voice n I want it2stop .  ,, ,
Suuicide yaa I think dat Alot ./ ;

set u back w/ s0lemn (prod. ppeace)

demize