constant-running demo project of pitched down throwaway or unfinished ideas

dear diary

the silhouette of you

auckland city, rainy

conflicted about a girly 

lyrics:

u the type of girl that loves to talk about you 

brown hair short temper mini skirt ya fucking freckles 

i know 

you love yourself 

texting other guys as well

so do you care for me 

do i regret it

or will it hurt too much 

true adolescent 

a touch of fluorescent light 

ya kinda pretty and u doin it right but

a couple girls that wanna put up a fight

so dont u go

n you'd never know 

so dont u go

n you'd never know 

x

dear diary 003: rain rain go away come again another day

the tree outside my window.

this is how my brain feels at 1am

lyrics:

so I lie 

every night

and think about my life

a blink of an eye

it goes by

wondering when I’ll die

stop me from thinking

and so 

it goes

the same

each day

this game

we play

stop me from thinking

and the wolves come out to play

but my thoughts remain the same

and I dont know nothing

but I wish I knew something 

to make it all go away

dear diary 001: stop me from thinking

sunset blvd, golden hour

painting a picture in my head 

lyrics:

we’re counting the stars in the sky

and I still can not figure out why 

Why my head hurts when I think of you 

Got me saying shit that I’d never do 



shout outs my **** she was the best that I never had 

Just like the text that I left that she never read

and stop overthinking it she gonna write back any day

driving thru the sunset on the ride back yesterday 

i remember you used to call me 

i remember when we’d fight 

you’d remember my stories 

and you’d always be right 

i’d wonder if i was boring

but you’re too polite 

i think about that shit like every night 

while 

we’re counting the stars in the sky

and I still can not figure out why 

Why my head hurts when I think of you 

Got me saying shit that I’d never do 

and i’ll stare at the moon on my flight 

and i’d wonder if we’re matching sight

catch your eyes glistening through the moon 

got my hands swinging like my

fucking moods 



She’s not the one 

I’ve fucked it up once or twice

She’s got a gun 

Like cupid came to life 

She’s just for fun 

But i’m falling for her fucking eyes

she grabs my hand

now its creeping up her upper thigh

We’ll count the stars

no, i’ll trace them on your freckled neck 

I’m not a star yet

But we can just pretend 

I’m not in love 

so I put these feelings to rest

and these ain’t about you

I just write what sounds best

dear diary 002: starlet

sitting in my dads car, 10 years old

I wonder if she'll know these are about her

lyrics:

love my father and my mother i don’t think about them too much

got me wondering if you loved me like you love yours or if you

gotta problem with your father like you got one with me too

it’s alright yeah i get it i don’t really know mine too

but i know you 

you’re kinda cool baby 

i like your shirts

they match your shoes

you’re something new

and i been thinking if you loved me like you do

cause i know that i’m gon get right 

might feel shit tonight

dancing in the moonlight 

turn off that phone light 

get drunk in the night 

something in my eye 

who the fuck is that guy 

he needs black a eye

dear diary 004: when i try to sleep you pass my mind

inside my head a few years ago

the best love song/lyrics i've ever written no cap, wrote this 2016
thank u george

lyrics:
take your heels off, girl 
you've been running through my mind

travel across the sea 
we can do it any time

if you'd like to see the beach 
i'll take you there
for this love affair

cause i'd like to keep you safe by my side

with you in my arms 
is all i can think of
let's turn off all of these lights
and watch the stars out at night 
they twinkle under the moonlight

you turn to me scared
you've never slept in another bed but yours
and that's okay
you'll be fine if you stay with me

you never thought you'd be this happy all the time
i'll take you out on a date
pick you up just after 5

and if you plan on leaving me
well darling that's just fine
i will take you out tonight and i think you'll change your mind

with you in my arms 
is all i can think of
let's turn off all of these lights
and watch the stars out at night 
they twinkle under the moonlight

you turn to me scared
you've never slept in another bed but yours
and that's okay
you'll be fine if you stay with me

cause you are the one
the one i sing to 
we dance to elvis in your room
i pick roses when they bloom 
just for you 
because i adore you

and if you don't know by now that's fine 
i'll still make you happy all of the time

buy you things on my card, wedding rings, take my heart
just for you, i love you, what must i do to win

your passion and admiration
a vacation or conversation
it's all yours if you'd like it to be

dear diary 005: hopeless romance

middle of the night driving with u 2 god knows where, 2021


blinded by the big city lights, and love


lyrics:

superstar (repeats)

okay i’m feeling like a pop star 

but i ain’t dropped my album yet 

got me feeling like a rock star 

when your lip bites my upper lip 

and i think i need a new car

cause i gotta jump start again 

and idk where the fuck i am

and idk this place we in

but i guess you know where the fuck we heading too 

i mean i don’t care cause it’s just me and you

lost my conscious the first time i met you

lost my friendships the first day i met you too

I promise to never leave again

lost my head when I fell in love again

hold my hand as we'll run to the end

popstar

dear diary 010: popstar!

dear diary 011: N/A

NOT A DEAR DIARY

lyrics:

it’s 12 am on a saturday

I think I need a panadol

To make my head okay 

And what did you mean when you messaged me 

Saying that

Its all too much 

Cause my heart can’t stand that sound

I promise I’ll be good to you

Tell you nothing but the truth

anything you wanna do I can make 

That, happen, girl

I just need a second

Fuck 

your tongue don’t taste how it used to

and these songs don’t sound how they used to

but i still the same you

but we’re not the same two 

and you used to rip off my t shirt

yeah my jeans all stained from the bleachers

it makes me miss the old you

i need you like i used to 

then i picked a fight knowing that i’d lose 

but it’s worth it

cause you’re perfect

girl 

and someone needs to treat you right 

i  just want you for tonight 

loving  you would be so rude

your face lights up my mood

in my bedroom


and so i’ll meet you on the other side

so leave that guy

yeah leave him behind 

he won’t mean shit to you

and all the things that i didn’t say

that i wish i did

start to fade away

i was feeling yellow now i’m feeling grey

when i see you don’t know what to say 

*hook reoccurs*

used2theoldu

city rat at night

first thing i've written since finishing EP yikes

lyrics:

it was the same weekend 

i was the same, weakened by 

all these thoughts that i think at night 

all these thoughts that just pass me by 

i don’t care if these lullaby’s that i write 

never make it from my heart to your eyes 

i’ll drink some more just to cover up all your lies 

i’ll drink some more to be by your side by your side 

if i close my eyes will i die

dear diary 012: if i close my eyes will i die

self pity vs self doubt

present tense about past events 

lyrics:

i can’t feel myself 

when you’re not around 

i think time will tell

i think i need some help 

i turned seventeen last week 

but i still think out loud 

i should’ve ended it last week 

but i didnt know how 

i’m scared you’ll runaway 

i’m scared i’ll runaway 

i hate you for the day

or hate that you won’t stay

dear diary 013: weak, last week

@stupidrichkid

demo burner account
unfinished or throwaway ideas

soundshifter on the master sometimes
or i ran out of storage on main sc lol hi

dear diary 011: N/A

uhh ok