She Said... (What You Got To Say)

Real or Fake (Remastered)

-Additional vocals added
-Mix improved
-Remastered

This is meant to be a messy song to try and get through a song celebrating its own mistakes. We spend a great deal of our lives trying to paint this perfect picture of ourselves to people, a learned helplessness maybe amplified by celebrity image. In reality it's our mistakes that make us and allow us realise what we want from life yet we only really share and show an interest in each other's "successes"

Success is a mindset, no matter what we believe in the world of materialism and a meritocracy based on things. Many depressed rich people and happy poor people prove this concept everyday. Success is a feeling of contentness with your universe in my view and we could maybe learn more from each other with more real value if we didn't advertise fake versions of ourselves so much. Nobody is perfect but every day many millions of people see how "the grass is greener" for all of their followers on social media. For the majority of content offered, it's a fake selective reality. People will question themselves being taken in by this striving for these false depictions of their peers people project. Social media is anything but that. It was a great idea and can be a positive thing for humanity but until profit is removed from this connectivity it only amplifies vanity in us and unrealistic targets that people strive for. Who wants to be the abnormal perfect image of a friend!

If aliens read us by our online profiles! They'd be pretty shocked when they see who and what we really are most of the time!

Fuck perfect and fuck social media. Poisoning our planet 🫡🌍♻️

Lyrics

//Who are you?🤷🏽‍♂️
Agnostic 'ism to me!🤷🏽‍♂️
Who are they?🤡
Anointing fake...📣

Where to follow?🤷🏽‍♂️
Most where seems stale and hollow☠️
Just points being raked💰
Personas faked🪞
Self matrix make!👨🏽‍💻
Blue pill to take🅿️
Where's the mistake?//:⤴️
I know no-one perfect💔
Yet that not many project💩

I made a mistake✅
Let's celebrate🥳

Who are you?🤷🏽‍♂️
Who are they?🤡
What ya make?💰
All I'm seeing is fake🤡

Who said it was a simulation?😆
Self assimilated monsters emerging,💀
Insular and sieved from the sun,🌑
Their blue pill gone,🌑
It's just Merovingian,.🤎
Self matrix made...👨🏽‍💻
You wanna fight?🤌🏽
Fight thee...🧘🏽‍♂️
Cause I'm free.🫠
Blue pill seed. 👨‍👩‍👧‍👦
Knead blue pill need🔆
Seed truth now seed🔆
Feed youth now feed🔆
Peace proof proud Peace🔆
Knead blue pill need🔆
Selfless senscient deed🔆
Feed dullest free🔆
Plentiful with me🔆
Plentiful if you🔆
Plentiful with truth🔆
Feed youth🔆
Now, feed youth🔆

Who are you?🤷🏽‍♂️
Agnostic 'ism to me!🤷🏽‍♂️
Wheres the truth🔆
How can lies roam free🌑
Who are you?🤷🏽‍♂️
Agnostic 'ism to me🤷🏽‍♂️
Tell the youth🔆
Truth is light to takel🔆
A good mind matrix made🔆
Ahhh😌

Real or Fake

whatshouldinamethissong.m4a

dear diary 011: N/A

city rat at night

first thing i've written since finishing EP yikes

lyrics:

it was the same weekend 

i was the same, weakened by 

all these thoughts that i think at night 

all these thoughts that just pass me by 

i don’t care if these lullaby’s that i write 

never make it from my heart to your eyes 

i’ll drink some more just to cover up all your lies 

i’ll drink some more to be by your side by your side 

if i close my eyes will i die

dear diary 012: if i close my eyes will i die

disconcerning

diffident 

lyrics:

to you am i a pretty face 

acne scars on my neck 

and i hate this place 

that i’m stuck here in

i can’t help but feel ill

and when the lights turn off 

it’s just me and you

i know i talk too much 

to tell you the truth 

that i feel i 

need to realise 

i need to spend time 

by myself by myself

dear diary 017: plastic

original demo I sent to @yukithedogman for verse ideas etc.

lyrics:

cause you’ve been on my mind for a minute now

crying in the shower got me feeling down 

i used to catch the bus now I run the town 

but it aint been the same 

and i’m the one to blame

i used to catch the fucking 955 to your house on a Sunday

with the sun out 

and i’d lie lie lie to your face 

about where i been 

where my head 

cause i’m losing it

like i’m losing you

but i gotta calm down 

do i have to kill this shit to make you fucking proud

and we’ll ride til we die on this suicide tide

on the carpet in my car or my stained glass eye

and i’m driving really fast i don’t really know why 

imma shut my fucking my fucking cause i’m boutta tell a lie

oh my god *solo* (2018)

girl it’s true
yeah i’m in love with you
please let me stay with you
we’ll do what lovers do
oh baby let me lay with you
girl how I ache for you
why do you play with me
I wander aimlessly 
oh baby I just want to die
when you look in my eyes
and then I start to cry
inside my head

let me lay with you

my short simple version of "The Hearse Song"

The Worms Crawl In (cover)

driving home but we're not talking

Ball Boy

@stupidrichkid

demo burner account
unfinished or throwaway ideas

soundshifter on the master sometimes
or i ran out of storage on main sc lol hi

dear diary 012: if i close my eyes will i die

uhh ok