lately my room's been a mess
decaying with every breath that i take
seem like the more that i get
the more problems i have on my plate
remember themm days with no stress
i wish that i knew how to make it go away
i been blowing through my checks
but all of this money ain't
really helping with the #PAIN

empty bottles on the floor
couple pills inside the drawer
can't be bothered anymore
being alive is like a chore
empty bottles on the floor
couple pills inside the drawer
barely helping anymore
think i'm dead- at my core

wonder if they get the message
it's hard for me to express it-
not sure where i'm headed
but i probably won't make it to heaven
closer to hell than i've ever been
killing demons in my presence
tryna count all of my blessings
but every night the void beckons
if there exists such a thing as a god
he should know better than to test me

lately my room's been a mess
decaying with every breath that i take
seem like the more that i get
the more problems i have on my plate
remember themm days with no stress
i wish that i knew how to make it go away
i been blowing through my checks
but all of this money ain't
really helping with the #PAIN

lately my room's been a mess
decaying with every breath that i take
seem like the more that i get
the more problems i have on my plate
remember themm days with no stress
i wish that i knew how to make it go away
i been blowing through my checks
but all of this money ain't
really helping with the #PAIN

empty bottles on the floor
couple pills inside the drawer
can't be bothered anymore
being alive is like a chore
empty bottles on the floor
couple pills inside the drawer
barely helping anymore
think i'm dead- at my core

empty bottles on the floor
couple pills inside the drawer
can't be bothered anymore
being alive is like a chore
empty bottles on the floor
couple pills inside the drawer
barely helping anymore
think i'm dead- at my core

empty bottles

concrete (pr. Wonderlust)

deadfish - blame (slowed and reverbed)

amv w/ lyrics:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pWEiXUjQd8g

vocals:
https://soundcloud.com/plslovejai
https://soundcloud.com/lilbooj

production:
https://soundcloud.com/irby314
https://soundcloud.com/jolst

mastered by https://soundcloud.com/diamoonofnhg

lately i been

STREAM

love jai - lately i been (ft. lil booj)

everything by me

Lyrics:
happy birthday baby
no one else cares lately 
at least thats what u told me im crazy
dont u dare
i do nothing but stare
at the photos our hands
interlocked i cant stand 
why would you say that
now i just cant
couldve gone without knowing 
are u proud cuz its showing
ive already moved on 
cuz you wanted me gone 

its not my fault
i told you id
keep you in my heart
but when u push me away
do u really think I could stay?
I just hope your okay 
okay okay okay
i hope ur in a better place
it sounds so cliche

I shouldve been what she needed
not at all what we wanted
i wonder if you act conceited 
now that im right where you want
 
i feel so pathetic
i always reject it
i got nothing better to do
suffer think of you
wonder what to do
was I wrong about us?
god my head hurts so much
bring it all onto me at once
i just want it done
we both fell out of love  

*You havent changed
You just think you have*

swear i gotta heal all over again
i should hate you atleast thats what you said
hope what you said comes true
dont wanna think of you
you never had a clue
what to do
you'll always think im rude
i never quite got used 
to being alone or loving you

I'm not heartbroken anymore >,<
shoutout Mrs. Shea
shoutout resident evil

happy birthday

Self produced, old track re-released

(lyrics)

AlmostChristmas

track 1
+ @jolst
bg vox on hook 2 by sarah andreu

lyrics:
its noon on a monday
the year changed its number
and i missed all of its calls
i’ll be present someday
but filling that hunger
ain’t easy as i once thought

i check the time, pace
around my room, wait
for something more (or)
less around me
i’ve got a high gauge
i’ll check the fine space
and see a step back
is something wrong?

another year gone devoid of pride
within the meaning, another died
its without a doubt in mind
you need a change of lens

i need to breathe
i need to find someone new
i need to see
that i’m not living proof
that i just drag people down
they’re dancing around
bystander from your point of view
a fallacy
i won’t be part of a ruse
you can’t believe
you’re really telling the truth
i’m walking around
head straight to the ground
bystander from your point of view

you choose when you’re lonely
i won’t see your number
‘cause i’m giving life a shot
i’m no one and only
i’m like any other
i meant to, but i forgot

another lie staged
within my eyes, say
you hate it when 
you’re without me
i need to find space
i’ll make it five days
and check out
all my surroundings

another year gone devoid of pride
within the meaning, another died
its without a doubt in mind
you need a change of lens
i don’t think we will ever subside
a losing battle, a chance to cry
the pattern scares me i cant lie
i don’t know when it’ll end

i need to breathe
i need to find someone new
i need to see
that i’m not living proof
that i just drag people down
they’re dancing around
bystander from your point of view
a fallacy
i won’t be part of a ruse
you can’t believe
you’re really telling the truth
i’m walking around
head straight to the ground
bystander from your point of view

BYSTANDER



★hope my heart will start to mend..★

[producer]
@xysoftshade

[nitecore mix]
https://soundcloud.com/pogchampswagepicfrfr/lethargy-prod-xysoftshade-nitecore-mix

lyrics:
intro:
don’t know what they expect from me
have a stable life by 23
i’m trying my best but no one seems to see it
and i don’t get much rest…

hook:
i just don’t know where to go
all this time nothing to show
time ticks by but never slow
paralyzed and turned to stone

working hard right to the bone
but i guess i have never grown
what i’ve done i’ll never know
paralyzed and turned to stone

bridge:
when im waking up, i don’t feel enough
but i have to keep on going forward
and i know its rough, you can call my bluff
now im just surrounded till im cornered

if i told you everything
i don’t know if you’d believe it
walk around a zombie 
yeah i swear you have to see it
everydays the same
and i swear to god i mean it

if i told you everything
you have to swear you won’t repeat it

now im falling down again
tell me will this ever end
ive been trying to pretend
hope my heart will start to mend

bridge:
you tell me i’m dreaming now
you tell me i’m dreaming

repeat hook:
i just don’t know where to go
all this time nothing to show
time ticks by but never slow
paralyzed and turned to stone

working hard right to the bone
but i guess i have never grown
what i’ve done i’ll never know
paralyzed and turned to stone


★lethargy★ (prod. xysoftshade)

pictures of you in my hands
im burning myself again
when will i get over it
(i cant move on like this)
cuz i just cant seem to quit
quit

calling me back
"youre not alone" but my hearts still attached
breathe in your smoke until im out of breath
keep bleeding my dry im just waiting for death

When i die dont bury me in tons of dirt
cuz ill just cry youll hear me weep beneath the earth
im not alright but im sure youre just fine
youll move on in due time and ill die just for nothing

(why wont you)
quit calling me back
"youre not alone" but my hearts still attached
breathe in your smoke until im out of breath
keep bleeding my dry im just waiting for death

please tell me how much longer do i deserve to suffer
im cutting myself till bleed
(please)
baby wont you
baby wont you
baby wont you let me leave

(why wont you)
quit calling me back
"youre not alone" but my hearts still attached
breathe in your smoke until im out of breath
keep bleeding my dry im just waiting for death

empty bottles

demxntia 🌐🖤

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