i dont wann know wa i said

end the year right

all plats: ffm.to/redhorse-anecdote

words:

verse
felt like yesterday
that i had all these fucking words to say
i was free and all alone
no one was gettin in my way
keep on punching thru these walls
the clock keeps getting louder
bloody hands all up my face 
jus wanna tell u that im down there

prechorus 
n im wasting my time
putting those thoughts in my head
n i was reading ur texts 
try n feel some typa way
u know ur home to me
but i always pull the plug
from my reality
let you know now

chorus (one of my best)
that im way too fucking done
get me out this rut 
am i just another anecdote
another bit of fun
standing out here in the cold
stood me up with all them missed calls
they all look at me weird now
what am i here for   

break

rap
no eye contact jus mind my business
mantras like dat were drilled into me
not enough for the cool ones like u
not soft enough for the nerds and geeks
odd one out, was a way of life
too hard to make friends thru struggle n strife
sat by the keys practicing bee thoven
before i couldnt say it right
every day i stare down the clock and dread the time ticking
mum tells me that im just being silly
cry on her shoulder im too scared to die
see pitch black it’s the last day of my life
like what would i do then
anything to get out this system
9 to 5 nightmare situation 
n now u fucked me up lets face it
lets face it

bridge
what is life 
when we're drifting apart
what is purpose 
when i cant fall in ur arms
asking all the questions 
what is all your rush
oh u distress meeeee

alt prechorus
and im going insane!
having those thoughts in my head
thought u loved me in those texts
feeling all these kinda ways
u know ur home to mee
but i always pull the plug
from my reality
let you know now

chorus
that im way too fucking DONE
get me out this rut 
am i just another anecdote
another bit of fun
standing out here in the cold
stood me up with all them missed calls
they all look at me weird now
what am i here for
repeat

ty 4 listening, love all of u
also did sum actual non-midi guitar on dis 🫢

anecdote

prod dead yami

know i always been afraid of heights

lamb shanks at spiros

i know ur mad at me or something
and talkings just way too damn hard 4 me
but you've really done it this time
but i wanna know
why cant u go?
you're talkin too loud
leave me alone
i want you out
i dont really wanna stay
i dont really wanna stay with you
you dont even wanna know what im doing
i just wanna go home with you off my mind
get online cuz we're playing all night
i can not think straight
(where are you?)
im sorry if i lost my mind
ive really done it this time
now i just want out
why cant u go?
you're talkin too loud
leave me alone
i want you out

guitars by @alkylartist

prod @31sentinel and corefish



I break bones from the stress
Body done felt inept
And my soul to the test
Flyin' right out the nest
The control isn't etched
We could put it to rest
If the toll wasn't stretched
You could show me the best

I'm walking through the space
Talking to the same vagrant
I could find a way
I could find a way to change it
Turn another tabletop
Learning entertainment
Now I'm on my way
Body burning from the pavement
Toetag, zip up that bag all around me
No track, look at that stab to arouse this heart
Trap taking in blood from a fountain
Keep looking inside, you won't get this far
Living in a basement, I cannot escape this fate

I'll fight the cost
Let it off
Put it on my tab
I wasn't lost
I just thought
That it was my bad
Moving on
Holding up
And I'm running through the same bad
Fun, moving on
But I'm running through the same bad luck

Walking through the space
Talking to the same vagrant
I could find a way
I could find a way to change it
Turn another tabletop
Learning entertainment
Now I'm on my way
Body burning from the pavement
Toetag, zip up that bag all around me
No track, look at that stab to arouse this heart
Trap taking in blood from a fountain
Keep looking inside, you won't get this far

I break bones from the stress
Body done felt inept
And my soul to the test
Flyin' right out the nest
The control isn't etched
We could put it to rest
If the toll wasn't stretched
You could show me the best, oh

I break bones from the stress
Body done felt inept
And my soul to the test
Flyin' right out the nest
The control isn't etched
We could put it to rest
If the toll wasn't stretched
You could show me the best

Toetag, zip up that bag all around me
No track, look at that stab to arouse this heart
Trap taking in blood from a fountain
Keep looking inside, you won't get this far
Toetag, zip up that bag all around me
No track, look at that stab to arouse this heart
Trap taking in blood from a fountain
Keep looking inside, you won't get this far

VAGRANT

[Production, Instrumentation, Mix & Master by myth valley aka Maxine Faith Noelle] @mythvalley
[Written + Vocals by myth valley, ghostsocial & tepz] @ghostsocial @t3pz

(@mythvalley)
you tell me to realign myself to memories
a vision's past, not mine
you're calling out for help like woe is me
right hook to my face
now I'm falling back
step close, face your fate
no more turning back
and now your crawling back to me
feed 'em lies so endless-

every word to you feels like a pushback
and it hurts the truth is I cant get back
and you been waiting for a sign here's your autograph
and when you find me all alone, I won't cross your path

(@ghostsocial)
killer lips and killer side eye
maybe I just haven’t found the right guy
screw loose, I been tryna get my head right
pony tail, you can tell me if the head’s right
call and tell me that it’s okay
I’ll be waiting for you in your driveway
dolled up, such a small town cliché
Hometown, but you use me as a halfway

(@mythvalley) (x2)
so over, i'm tired
so over, i'm falling back to shit

(@t3pz)
never once did I ever feel little
but god damn, have I ever wanted to break some shit
dead eyes said I gotta let go
tongue tied know you really wanna savor this
you're so dead to me
push back once more till you feel me bleed
just last longer like a symphony
but its all broke off
full of infamy

(@mythvalley)
every word to you feels like a pushback
and it hurts the truth is I cant get back
and you been waiting for a sign here's your autograph
and when you find me all alone, I won't cross your path

so over, i'm tired
so over, i'm falling back to shit (x4)

push back! [with ghostsocial & Tepz]

if you ever feel like you are not enough
dial 988 (USA)
dial 116 123 (UK)

heroes

production @deniaplant
guitar @underscores

lyrics:
I've been stuck in a pipe dream
The miles all I see in front of me
I've been stuck in a pipe dream
Commitment is frightening
So I'm gone

So

I spend all my time making amends
It's not enough
Spend the entire night tryna get you
To come around at all
Stuck inside a lie
And I can't get you off my mind
You know that I'd do anything for ya
(For ya)

social

pipe dream

feat. @aftrrs

[intro]
let me know if youre tellin the truth
please dont forget me 
cause i could never forget you 
yeah its best that you left for yourself and im glad
that you got all your help 
and hes there for your hand

[hook]
no i dont want you anywhere near me 
but know that its a lie 
yeah its a lie 
yeah its a lie 

cant concentrate i cant think clearly 
cause all my thoughts tell me to die
they tell me die
tell me to die 

[verse]
talk down
talk down to me 
dont tell me what you want from me
you dont give just take all of the pieces that i needed

know this wont work out
work out i need it 
takin down these drugs repeated
i dont give no fucks bout my own feelings
no i dont see them ima

act so oblivious and say im doin fine 
but its just
so fucking hard you planted seeds inside my mind
i cant waste no time im fuckin fried
no i dont want no one hit my line
u know that ive been
ive been so lonely 
ive been
ive been so lonely 

ive been
ive been so lonely 

[aftrr]
tell me if you're leaving tonight
do you know how i feel inside
change the topic, press the issue
it don't matter who's wrong or right
waiting on you to decide
wanna skip to the end of my life
who gon wipe your tears when you cry?

i'm tired of missing someone
can't believe i thought you were the one
but i can't lie, without you, it's no fun
like who am i, who have i become

overdue communications
fall through on complications
stand on two's, i don't gotta say shit
acting rude with no basis

[hook]
no i dont want you anywhere near me 
but know that its a lie 
yeah its a lie 
yeah its a lie 

cant concentrate i cant think clearly 
cause all my thoughts tell me to die
they tell me die
tell me to die 
x2

refrain

SPOTIFY

refrain ft. aftrr! (plantcham)

produced by daywatch

lyrics:
tired of thinking up bars in my room that don't make sense
sometimes don't compute and i feel like i'm not cut out for this
sometimes
and i remember when they used to come up to me crazy, like
they had no respect for me but, i got ahead
in my own little way, in my own little space
in my head

and most don't even care about the consequence, i'm tryna guide
people like me to the light but only if they want to go
cus' when you fine with your situation, you gon' stay froze
don't matter how many loving people want you to be brave
i don't think you know how long it took too pull me out the grave
took me twelve long years just to figure out i'm hazed
took me four more years for my parents to relate
took me some more overthinking just to clear the slate

oh my god, i'm sick to core
y'know that it's bad when the hatred is decor
i think that i used it as protection
i'm older now and i don't seem to get the message

i guess i hate when everything gets on my nerves and i can't get out
of my head and i get real awkward and i can't get the words out my mouth
i really hate how i talk so i put an impression on my sound
my friends say it's all in my head so i guess that i'm just full of doubt

i guess i hate when everything gets on my nerves and i can't get out
of my head and i get real awkward-
sometimes i wish all four of my friends were packed in my skin
he wishes to be himself but, i wish i could be like him

oh, i think i'm done for the night
woah, feeling like i'm soft-locked
beat boys say it's beat block
but spitters say it's writers block
big boy in a corner
big boy in a corner

but i still try

could you sometimes think about us?
sometimes think about love?
cus' i need your company
would you do it for me?
i can't

sometimes think about us
i sometimes think about love and
it feels so dumb to me
i look in the mirror and fantasize about who i wanna be

dumb mic'd up wannabe
i wanna be seen
i wanna be me
i wanna find peace
imma let life do the finding

buy?

softlock

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/5dHWIT5fxB7zBkoykyNIYS?si=ff6b79c35e5146de
all plats: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/spoder/showman

produced by plantcham
performed mixed written by me
cover art by my girlfriend 

sequel to crawler
thank you for listening like always

///
held it open like a doorman
tell me, why's it always pouring here?
she put it on like a showman
was the moment I knew I was scared
I split my head out wide
though incomplete, I try
I know that it sounds boring to you but this is my life
could you cut me some slack I
know that I'm not a good son
I'll wait till we orbit and then I'll wake up
spent 500 hours on screens in a month
let it burn up my skin so my eyes won't cry
a dumb ear I lended a thousand times
put my right hand on your shoulder darling
I'll tell you that everything will be just fine

it's alright
I've come to find there ain't a right time
so lower your conscience down
there's no use in trying to be found
could've sworn that I thought of it all
a bother so big or so small
a crawler that's stuck to the walls
if it's unfeasible then don't hurt me, falling

can hardly rest, don't let me go
my darling
this place not home
I pace around
you shut my mouth
I fall apart, it gets too loud
I don't wanna hold you
you've sewn and you've closed me up
they tried to console you
but my yells don't make a sound

my yells (my yells)
my yells have exhausted love
have exhausted love
I've had a hell of a day
wash it all up in the drain
don't make a sound
everything's gon' be okay

it's alright
I've come to find there ain't a right time
so lower your conscience down
there's no use in trying to be found
could've sworn that I thought of it all
a bother so big or so small
a crawler that's stuck to the walls
if it's unfeasible then don't hurt me, falling

can hardly rest, don't let me go
my darling
this place not home
I pace around
you shut my mouth
I fall apart, it gets too loud
I don't wanna hold you
you've sewn and you've closed me up
they tried to console you
but my yells don't make a sound

(yells don't make a sound
yells don't-
yells don't make a sound)
my yells don't make a sound
my yells don't make a sound
I'd hate to see you frown
I love you with my heart
I'd rather stay with you for now

pipe dream

denia

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