my life is in ruins

@emotionals
@prodpitfall
@ways15xx

7pm the sunlight beams on my face
8 floors up i hope u give me a break
asking me why do u look so afraid
idk what to say
im scared my feelings have changed
moving on
moving on
do it wrong i swear i do it wrong

7pm + emotionals + pitfall (ways)

https://spirame.bandcamp.com/album/lifewaste-demos-unfinished

Lifewaste (demos/unfinished)

spira me - Hide

https://genius.com/Spira-me-cherished-lyrics

spira me - Cherished prod. with3r

i hate that this is what i gotta do to wash the pain away

smoking everyday so i dont feel insane

but sometimes i just think where the fuck did all of my time go

where the fuck did everything in my mind go

its like i had to put it in the gutter for you

everything i said you couldn't see through

only saw red when it didnt invovle her

sometimes life gets hard i wanna grab a revolver

put it to my neck and blow off my fucking head

cuz everything you told me was so mislead

holding onto false promises in my head

i wish that i could get all the blood that i lost for you right back

and get this silly knife right out my back

feel like everyone has their own attack on me and i hate it

and i hate it

really do

but i guess theres nothing i can do

can do

can do

ooh

a moment of realization prod violet

footsteps 

made with @nevereverbeen
prod neverbeen aswell.

lyrics:

me:

do u want me 2 forget?
do u want me 2 live on?
carve ur name into my chest
i dont know where i belong 
she dont know what i been on
everything i do jus seems 2 go wrong 

this is never ending healing
would u ever even listen?
do u even wna hear me?
can u tell that im breathing different?
can u tell that theres drugs in my system?
can u tell that i been keepin my distance 
(can u tell that somethings missing)

neverbeen bridge

me:
is there something wrong w me?
dont follow in my footsteps
itll take u somewhere u dont wna be
dont say i didnt warn u 
u can put the blame on me 
its safer in the background
some place where u r far from me now

i tried to tell u 
u dont wna live in my footsteps
all the pain that i been thru 
can u tell why i keep my distance
just listen 
they say just stay persistent
my hearts 4ever achin 
this is hell the place we live in 

neverbeen outro

i loved making this song @nevereverbeen is so talented. blow him up 

##BBEWITCH

footsteps w/ neverbeen

me and @crvnchyy had to run it back
prod @erdo and @fozo2

lyrics:
talk shit!
you should rlly stop the chatter 
you getting pressed 
bout some shi that doesn’t matter 
I don’t wanna talk 
cus u ain’t ever matter 
ion fw sending txts 
imma send a letter 

they like where been at?
I’m doing better 
Ion respond to a txt w/o a header 
she was fuckin w me 
until I met her 
she told her old nigga that I hit it better

crvnchy:
dont fuck with satxrn cuz you know he keep a dagger
she double taps my pics ye i think she likes my swagger
in the club of a benzo
watch her put u in the friendzone
laugh at that boy cuz he lookin like a reject
if i miss a target then there mustve been a defect
i dont wanna talk unless money is the subject
i dont want no top bitch just give me respect 
they like where u been at? im doin better
if thats yo girl go and get her
had to run it back me and satxrn trendsetters
free all my homies in the pen writing letters

stop pretending like yk me 
said u in love 
well I js gone have 2 show me 
stop tryna hit my phone 
youn wanna know me 
ian fw that ho less she tryna blow me

letters 💌 w/ crvnchy

nicky - love isnt enough (dec & dimpleb)

prod @lynyou
cover art @trustt

@lynyou
i got 2 racks on my body i got 2 racks for my twin
i cant switch up on nobody thats a mf sin
i feel like im chosen bitch all i do is win
dropped a bag on these jeans then i do that shit again
i just walked right out the bank boy i dont gotta play pretend
i got money coming fast bitch i cant even count to 10
i just walked right out the bank boy i dont gotta play pretend
bitch dont hit me up again boy im not ur fucking friend

@trustt
if i cut you off throw you out and you still complain
this is why i dropped you little bitch  don't taint my name
showing my true colors i hope god decide my fate
breaking through the canvas when i spray em i see paint
i got jewels on my body and especially my waist
that percent of hating i got all of in my bank
all that time you wasting i can tell you got no play
im so done with winning i got nothing left to say 

@deepinparis
if you cant catch all this shit im saying you not listening
how am i supposed to count these racks when i cant count to 10
i just took a break to come back better than ive ever been
ive been going too damn hard i need to ease it up a bit
i got so damn rich remember the day it clicked
you said you think its out of reach i know it never is
maybe you wouldnt sound so bad if you put effort in
when i get up on the mic im leaving an impression bitch

Now on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/6bqM7kPXrsyBnNRQmqodYI?si=f9941c1c5d93463e

first half prod @erdo + @jaseybounded
second half prod me + serenity

lyrics:
yea i keep it tucked
yea u talkin all that shit
lil bro u doin what?
yea u know i got a temper
boy dont push yo luck
mac11 get to sprayin
jus to teach him sum
im a blind man
keep that cane (K) (caine) and dat stick for fun

glock9 get to pinchin
why they hit me up for fts
i got no interest
fuck what they been sayin bout me
bitch they out my business
i been steady up
bitch lets talk wit my statistics

check, huh, check it
im too fuckin reckless
ha, got designer on my jacket
ha, yea i dont like no fakes round my bread bitch
ion make shit personal
i like to keep it seperate

ha, po po po pour another
ha yea ha po po po pour another
one
ha yea ta ta tab on my tongue
ha yea fu fuck dat function
up

i dont like no extras
boy jus pay attention
i dont like no extras
please jus pay attention x2

yea
i dont care bout brokies
boy what u say dont affect me
i dont got no patience for ts
boy do not test me
im laughin
a&rs be watching all my moves
im attractive
if u were them you'd wanna sign me too
im fuckin active

pack dat blunt
idc if u pass it or catch it
groupies tryna fuck on me
idc they too ratchet
its tragic
take another tab up in the lab
i been crashin
blue bills in the bank
i fuckin walk in and cash in

count it up
i love dat bag
married to the fuckin cash
type shit bitch
i made a rack i dont care
fafafa
u not tuff u play the act
talk dat shit u gettin packed
talk shit u wont leave intact
i know dat

i dont like no extras
i dont like no
yea
i dont like no extras
please just pay attention
margiela on my steppers
please just pay attention
no i dont fw extras
fuck outta my mentions

extras (erdo jasey me serenity)

prod me

you took it all and left
no baby i'm so tired of the way you make me feel
my life has been hella boring
look at me i'm a fucking mess
i lost all capabilities of making something right
i'm starting to think the worst
i know it's not healthy but this feeling is a curse
i liked when we talked about the shit that made you laugh
now i'm stuck on the little things i'll wait until i crash
who will take the blame?
if i look back in two years am i the same?
yeah i love my life because i treat it like a game
everyone that I've ever encountered is insane (but who am i to-)
at the end of the night
i miss how you liked
i know its not right but it keeps me up all the time

took it all

prod me

.
 i'm so nauseous in here i feel like kafka's prophet

i've been lost in my ways that's why i'm locked in often

used love the way it was till you told me that i lost it

i keep two inside the cellar cause the monsters speaking nonesense

and you're everything i want cause you're everything i'm not

do you still think about those days when we used to one on one

and i know that he's the one but i miss it when we talked

you stole everything i want, you stole everything i wanted

i see you in everyone

is it everything you wanted

i try to hide but it's still following me

now i'm just lying on the floor

is it the same for you

tryna find a name for you

i see it when i'm next to you

take me out don't let me breathe

you can find me at the same tree

been walking in the dark, but you're still guiding me

(i've been trapped in, i feel like i'm trapped in)

my life is in ruins

dethc0r3