you called me cute, i said "ok"
i'm sorry i just didn't know what to say
i feel embarrassed all the time
every time i open my mouth i want to die
there's something wrong with me

don't talk to me
i don't know how to speak
i'm on a twenty one year retarded streak
so leave me alone
i never pick up my phone
i hate it here and i want to go home

i know that i'm really awkward
when you talk my fucking head hurts
i can't even look you in the eyes
i really wanna fuck you but i'm too shy
there's something wrong with me

Don't Talk to Me

Nevada

trolling myself :p

coming second place in a one v one
logging off, i'm fucking done
you're all better than me
and i can't believe it goes on and on
nothing ever seems to go my way
still forever i'm forced to play
fucking failure

i feel like a loser without any future
cut open my head and rip out the tumour
you make me wanna fucking end it sooner
let me respawn like a first person shooter

this everlasting dread
engraved into my head
you don't get it, you never will get it
i'm so fucking dead
fuck this
you don't get it, you never will get it
i'm so fucking dead

death by screen time
another wasted life
keep your head in a vice

i feel like a loser without any future
cut open my head and rip out the tumour
you make me wanna fucking end it sooner
let me respawn like a first person shooter

how it feels to be a complete loser

Lyrics:

When's the third act in this story? 
The introduction drags on and on 
On and on 
What a letdown... (Letdown!)

Everyone's ahead while I'm stuck in a battle 
That I could never win
Or even make a single dent...

And I will never lay down my arms 
My suicide is staking everything 
So that I could take that future for myself 
Whatever it may take
Even if it kills me 
It's all worth it in the end 

Rest assured that
It's all for the greater good 
Even though I know 
It's never enough 

(Since I have nothing else to give)
(This is my final gamble)
(There is nothing else in me) 
(To satisfy, to culminate)
(In anything of beauty)

This is all that I wanted 
Since I don't have anything else to give 

And I will never lay down my arms 
My suicide is staking everything 
So that I could take that future for myself 
Whatever it may take
Even if it kills me 
It's all worth it in the end

It's Not Suicide If You Call It Sacrifice

(he is cloaked to me
the voices give me nothing)

losing myself for you was my one mistake
delusions dragging me down, can't bury my fate
leaving everything behind 
you'll never see my face again

this is the fucking end 

take my hand and run away we'll end our lives tonight
death in each others arms sounds like bliss by your side
when i'm with you everything hurts so much fucking more
as our blood drips down on us we fade to nothingness

i love when you enjoy my pain
fucking slash my wrists for you baby
bleeding out, its beautiful
that you don't care about me at all
don't change for me now darling
my disease is my love for you
no drugs could help me get through

take my hand and run away we'll end our lives tonight
death in each others arms sounds like bliss by your side
when i'm with you everything hurts so much fucking more
as our blood drips down on us we fade to nothingness

dying 4 ur luv

(lyrics below) Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/3ExGB125JobAjvf5QPLSYo?si=knpZYBv5R6Ox5CdL5nZMAQ

If they all hurt me
Why shouldn't I do the same? 
I keep it all in a bottle 
As I sit around, twirl and waddle

Into walls, smash my body on the concrete 
Put a brick on the gas and leave me in the backseat
I guess you were right all along

It doesn't hurt as bad in my head
With blood-soaked towels around my bed 
I guess you were right all along
It doesn't hurt as bad in my head
With blood-soaked towels around my bed 
I guess you were right all along

And I wanted you to suffer 
Just as much as I did 
But now I just want you to watch me,
Yeah, I just want you to watch me

Pour my guts out on your shirt
Self myself ablaze, for you it wouldn't hurt 
But to me, this means everything 
This means everything to me 

It doesn't hurt as bad in my head
With blood-soaked towels around my bed 
I guess you were right all along
It doesn't hurt as bad in my head
With blood-soaked towels around my bed 
I guess you were right all along

Your eyes, my pain
Your eyes, my pain

Watch Me Hurt Myself (And I'll Be Yours)

my back feels like a cutting board
too many problems i ignored
i prayed they'd fade away
if i gave it all, until the day
but with friends like these
it's kinda hard to breathe
mind the tape around the scene
sorry i left such a bloody mess

lie after lie after lie after lie
and i ate it up every single damn time
now i'm trapped down here
still wondering why, oh why
going out my fucking mind

i can't forgive a broken oath
as my blood still stains my clothes
and after all the years
did i really mean so little to you?
no goodbyes, no nothing
looking ahead you kept on running
you're being hunted by the memories
of you standing there watching me bleed

whether you like it or not
you're gonna end up just like me
you'll be sorry

lie after lie after lie after lie
and i ate it up every single damn time
now i'm trapped down here
still wondering why, oh why
going out my fucking mind

backing out of a suicide pact at the last second

DethTech - better late than never

Collapse Into You

i wake up still unemployed and
make myself a cup of soylent
logon to my favourite website
and scroll through till the end of daylight

you say that i'm
simply wasting my life
oh, all my days are gone
wasted on reddit.com

kind stranger
thank you for the gold
kind stranger
am i the asshole?
kind stranger
why are my girlfriend's boyfriends all
ignoring me

my cat is so obese
post him on reddit so that he
can be laughed at by online people
dont sit here and try to tell me that i'm evil

i'm wholesome 100
you're probably a normie
who doesn't like big chungus
and browses ifunny
i saw a kid who liked fortnite
so i bullied him to suicide

kind stranger
thank you for the gold
kind stranger
am i the asshole?
kind stranger
why are my girlfriend's boyfriends all
ignoring me