my head
is all over the place
its not getting better

i cant
seem to make a change
ill be like this forever

23
whole years i
feel retarded all the time

any longer im confined
im gonna lose my god damn mind

staring at the words again 
i cant make sense of anything 
all i see is static in my brain 
need a way to end the pain
id give the whole world to be
a normal boy eventually
instead im rotting to the core
i cant take it anymore

breakdowns
from anxiety 
i hate being alone

wasting all 
my energy 
staring at my phone

cant focus
for 2 minutes
even if i try

yet another day goes by 
and im still here but i wanna die

staring at the words again 
i cant make sense of anything 
all i see is static in my brain 
need a way to end the pain
id give the whole world to be
a normal boy eventually
instead im rotting to the core
i cant take it anymore

out to lunch

(sic)

wasting away another shitty week
my future's looking pretty bleak
now all i do is fucking whine
and call kids faggots online
i know i should probably get some help
but i don't really care about myself
my life just seems so damn cruel
'cause i peaked back in middle school

i'm just another screw up that refuses to grow up
i'm stuck in hell and i can't tell which way is up
no luck, i'm so fucked
get fucked you bitch
don't try, just quit
i'm too unfit
i'm fried to shit

i'm going nowhere and i don't care
'cause i'm well aware my life's beyond repair
never worked out where i wanted to go
feels like it's too late
guess i was just too slow

everyone's passing me by
seems too pointless to try
all my friends outgrew me
act like they never even knew me
being me feels so humiliating
that's why i spend all day dissociating

i got no drive
don't feel alive
losing my mind
i'm out of time

Going Nowhere

dumb song i wrote yesterday

just woke up, already in the ground
i'm so fucked, never made a sound
everything keeps getting worse and worse
keep this up and i'm gonna need a hearse
wanna buy a gun
kill myself for fun
i'm not the only one
we're all so done
it feels like hell inside of me

you're making me another casualty
you're killing me, fatality

fatality
let's go

i fucked up and it's got me down
have no luck and i'm gonna drown
spinning round and round i go
where i'll end up i don't wanna know
wanna run away
need to leave today
but i've got no way
i'm not okay
this fight can never be won

i don't wanna play this game anymore

FATALITY!

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Lyrics:

I’ve been thinking
About the things you say
Every morning when we awake

You act like he’s still near
You act like you need here
I wish you would make it clear
told me he disappeared 
I just can’t trust you dear
my eyes fill up with tears
You're lying to me I fear
It’s his name I hear

I’ve been thinking
About all the things you say
every morning 
About the time when we awake
I’ve been thinking 
About how it brings me pain
I’ve been thinking
About how you say his name

I woke up alone today
on the ground my cold feet weigh
take a shower, clean my face
go to work from 3 to 8
cover shifts, jim's got a date
so burnt out, and I get home late
feed the dog, and clean the plates
eat alone, then I hit the hay 

I’ve been thinking
About all the things you say
every morning 
about the time when we awake
I’ve been thinking 
About how it brings me pain
I’ve been thinking
About how you say his name (x2)

I've Been Thinking

https://open.spotify.com/album/7jsLbJhaBDuL6nJIO47x4j#login%3Fflow_id=a6de5c8a-3b42-4e66-baf8-ed0e31fe3850%3A1680259362 where i got from

Collapsing

NEET and DethTech - Collapsing

song with @edgemaster42
we've been married seven times
in my head
just wait till i get the courage
to picture you in my bed
love or not its plain to see
youre just not the girl for me
my true match is a loaded gun
pointed straight at my head
hate my guts 
why do i destroy my everything for you 
hate my guts 
why do i destroy my everything for you

Why did i fall for your atupud grace
You clearly have no horse in this dumb race
Theres no continuity in emotional promiscuity
I can guarantee that

when
i realize 
im not an object
you
fall apart
hate my guts 
why do i destroy my everything for you
hate my guts 
why do i destroy my everything for you
you fuckin hate my 
fuckin hate my guts

h8te my guts (with edgemaster42)

Dropping Out And Giving Up (Fried By Fluoride cover)

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This Final Hour

LYRICS

Fuck optics
fuck all this
bullshit I 
still live in
Fuck optics
fuck all this
bullshit I 
still live in

You say the way I see this world is so absurd
I see the way you run this world no justice served...
so Fuck optics
fuck all this
bullshit I 
still live in
Fuck optics
fuck all this
bullshit I 
still live in

You say that I should watch just what I say,
I look around these streets disgusting and deranged...
so fuck optics.


Fuck optics
fuck what you 
hear I say
you don't like
Fuck optics
fuck what you 
hear I say
you don't like

Thousands of years all burned down with but a word,
one of these years oh we're all just gonna learn...
fuck optics.

Thousands of years all burned down with but a word,
one of these years oh we're all just gonna learn
Thousands of years all burned down with but a word,
one of these years oh we're all just gonna learn...
fuck optics.

Fakeout!

Fuck Optics

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Lyrics:

I live in constant pain
but I never complain
I think i'll go insane 
these feelings I cant contain

I wish my life was greater
but im in a torture chamber 
oh no