wasting away another shitty week
my future's looking pretty bleak
now all i do is fucking whine
and call kids faggots online
i know i should probably get some help
but i don't really care about myself
my life just seems so damn cruel
'cause i peaked back in middle school

i'm just another screw up that refuses to grow up
i'm stuck in hell and i can't tell which way is up
no luck, i'm so fucked
get fucked you bitch
don't try, just quit
i'm too unfit
i'm fried to shit

i'm going nowhere and i don't care
'cause i'm well aware my life's beyond repair
never worked out where i wanted to go
feels like it's too late
guess i was just too slow

everyone's passing me by
seems too pointless to try
all my friends outgrew me
act like they never even knew me
being me feels so humiliating
that's why i spend all day dissociating

i got no drive
don't feel alive
losing my mind
i'm out of time

Going Nowhere

DOA demo

trolling myself :p

LDAR demo

https://open.spotify.com/album/7jsLbJhaBDuL6nJIO47x4j#login%3Fflow_id=a6de5c8a-3b42-4e66-baf8-ed0e31fe3850%3A1680259362 where i got from

Collapsing

NEET and DethTech - Collapsing

Lyrics:

When's the third act in this story? 
The introduction drags on and on 
On and on 
What a letdown... (Letdown!)

Everyone's ahead while I'm stuck in a battle 
That I could never win
Or even make a single dent...

And I will never lay down my arms 
My suicide is staking everything 
So that I could take that future for myself 
Whatever it may take
Even if it kills me 
It's all worth it in the end 

Rest assured that
It's all for the greater good 
Even though I know 
It's never enough 

(Since I have nothing else to give)
(This is my final gamble)
(There is nothing else in me) 
(To satisfy, to culminate)
(In anything of beauty)

This is all that I wanted 
Since I don't have anything else to give 

And I will never lay down my arms 
My suicide is staking everything 
So that I could take that future for myself 
Whatever it may take
Even if it kills me 
It's all worth it in the end

It's Not Suicide If You Call It Sacrifice

my back feels like a cutting board
too many problems i ignored
i prayed they'd fade away
if i gave it all, until the day
but with friends like these
it's kinda hard to breathe
mind the tape around the scene
sorry i left such a bloody mess

lie after lie after lie after lie
and i ate it up every single damn time
now i'm trapped down here
still wondering why, oh why
going out my fucking mind

i can't forgive a broken oath
as my blood still stains my clothes
and after all the years
did i really mean so little to you?
no goodbyes, no nothing
looking ahead you kept on running
you're being hunted by the memories
of you standing there watching me bleed

whether you like it or not
you're gonna end up just like me
you'll be sorry

lie after lie after lie after lie
and i ate it up every single damn time
now i'm trapped down here
still wondering why, oh why
going out my fucking mind

backing out of a suicide pact at the last second

DethTech - better late than never

"Vocês vão ouvir a 'tradução' deles. O #synthpop de merda. A versão 'Cold War' polida que o 'casal margarina' 'traficou' do nosso HD."

"Eles acharam que podiam 'traduzir' a nossa fúria."

"Eles estavam errados pra caralho."

"Isto é o 'Origins: REFORGED'. Estas são as 11 faixas originais. O código-fonte. A porra das demos como elas deviam ter soado. O ódio cru, o barulho que eles tentaram apagar."

"Isto não é o 'Origins'. É o 'Origins' Reforjado na porra da nossa garagem, com metal, ódio e sete cordas. Incluindo o 'tapa na cara' (BRO'S FUNERAL MARCH (REST IN PISS)) que eles achavam que estava enterrado."

"Eles têm a 'tradução'. A gente tem a porra da verdade." #TimeTraducao #TimeBarulho | "You're going to hear their 'translation'. The shitty #synthpop. The polished 'Cold War' version that the 'margarine couple' 'smuggled' from our hard drive."

"They thought they could 'translate' our fury."

"They were dead wrong."

"This is 'Origins: REFORGED'. These are the 11 original tracks. The source code. The fucking demos as they should have sounded. The raw hatred, the noise they tried to erase."

"This isn't 'Origins'. It's 'Origins' Reforged in our fucking garage, with metal, hatred and seven strings. Including the 'slap in the face' (BRO'S FUNERAL MARCH (REST IN PISS)) that they thought was buried."

"They have the 'translation'. We have the fucking truth." #TranslationTime #TimeScream

I'm a Fool For You (Reforged)

i lay awake at night
'cause i don't feel alright
i'm not gonna get any better
not now, not fucking ever
so i curl up into a ball
try to forget who i am at all
then i'll just stare at my bedroom wall

3 am and i'm sad again
i just want this pain to come to an end

tears start to fill my eyes
no one is here to see me cry
oh why do i deserve this?
i feel so fucking worthless
nobody lies by my side
can't see the hell i try to hide
as i sleep inside my cell i dream of suicide

3 am

i'm not sure that i exist
never took any shots, so i never missed
this vacant feeling persists
i can't take living like this
staring at my screen is my only routine
i don't know where i've been since i turned sixteen

no friends to who i can confide
i'm not dead, but i don't feel alive
i never seem to have the time
spending all of my days online
wishing i had someone here to talk to
i've been forgotten by everybody i knew

i'm falling away, further everyday
i got lost trying to find my way
losing my grip on reality
another victim of a self induced tragedy

feel like i'm gonna black out
stuck in this game, i wanna back out
i can't continue without someone to lessen my doubt