this is real but I'm younger😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

wasting away another shitty week
my future's looking pretty bleak
now all i do is fucking whine
and call kids faggots online
i know i should probably get some help
but i don't really care about myself
my life just seems so damn cruel
'cause i peaked back in middle school

i'm just another screw up that refuses to grow up
i'm stuck in hell and i can't tell which way is up
no luck, i'm so fucked
get fucked you bitch
don't try, just quit
i'm too unfit
i'm fried to shit

i'm going nowhere and i don't care
'cause i'm well aware my life's beyond repair
never worked out where i wanted to go
feels like it's too late
guess i was just too slow

everyone's passing me by
seems too pointless to try
all my friends outgrew me
act like they never even knew me
being me feels so humiliating
that's why i spend all day dissociating

i got no drive
don't feel alive
losing my mind
i'm out of time

Going Nowhere

you called me cute, i said "ok"
i'm sorry i just didn't know what to say
i feel embarrassed all the time
every time i open my mouth i want to die
there's something wrong with me

don't talk to me
i don't know how to speak
i'm on a twenty one year retarded streak
so leave me alone
i never pick up my phone
i hate it here and i want to go home

i know that i'm really awkward
when you talk my fucking head hurts
i can't even look you in the eyes
i really wanna fuck you but i'm too shy
there's something wrong with me

Don't Talk to Me

dumb song i wrote yesterday

just woke up, already in the ground
i'm so fucked, never made a sound
everything keeps getting worse and worse
keep this up and i'm gonna need a hearse
wanna buy a gun
kill myself for fun
i'm not the only one
we're all so done
it feels like hell inside of me

you're making me another casualty
you're killing me, fatality

fatality
let's go

i fucked up and it's got me down
have no luck and i'm gonna drown
spinning round and round i go
where i'll end up i don't wanna know
wanna run away
need to leave today
but i've got no way
i'm not okay
this fight can never be won

i don't wanna play this game anymore

FATALITY!

Wasting My Time

uhhh

i'm alone again and i just want out
some girl's looking at me
now i'm freaking out
you must think i'm schtewpid
like i'm new to this
like i won't do shit
i know i can't trust you
leave me in a ditch 'til my corpse turns blue

everyone is trying to kill me
you can all just stop pretending
all your lies are never-ending
unload the clip until it's empty

all my so-called friends had to get cut off
i just didn't want to get my head sawed-off
you might think i'm crazy
well yeah, sure, like i guess, maybe
i've been so sick lately
i can never tell if you love or hate me

every1 is tryin 2 kill me 0_o

featuring @luvwillow

i'm sorry i fucked up
i'm dying to make up
yeah i know that i suck
i'm sorry, i'll shut up

didn't mean to push you away
since we stopped talking i've decayed
i'm about five years too late
i gotta move on for god's sake
i'm sorry for ghosting you
didn't know what i was supposed to do
this was all so new
think i had a chance but i ruined it
made you feel like shit
i always miss

i'm sorry i fucked up
i'm dying to make up
yeah i know that i suck
i'm sorry, i'll shut up

i never thought i'd be this way without you now
i'm sorry that i messed it up
i know that it's all of my fault
and nothing ever seems to go right
i lost you and now i lost myself
just know that i'm trying to make amends
just know that i mean it when i say...

i'm sorry i fucked up
i'm dying to make up
yeah i know that i suck
i'm sorry, i'll shut up

im sry i fcked up ft. luvwillow

feels like i'm wasting time
always rotting online
looking for what i can't find
i'm not too bright
don't wanna die a slow death
don't wanna leave you bereft
seems like i'm dead
dreams are all i have left

am i the only one to never make it out?
i wanna see the sun before i hit the ground

with every breath i take
don't know why i wake
grown numb to the taste
a disappointing fate
misery breeds apathy
i don't wanna bleed anymore
anymore

am i the only one to never make it out?
i wanna see the sun before i hit the ground

ngmi
i never tried
ngmi
lay down and cry

am i the only one?

ngmi

twenty one
i'm not who i thought i'd be
everyone is so far ahead of me
everyday i drown in misery
dead by 30? yeah, probably

so slow down
i'm on my own now
stuck in this dead town
there's no way out
don't know where i went wrong
yesterday feels so far gone
time keeps moving on
i'm somewhere i don't belong

twenty one
i'm not who i thought i'd be
everyone is so far ahead of me
everyday i drown in misery
dead by 30? yeah, probably

twenty one

wasting away as hours turn into days
everything's changing but i'm still the same
lie on the ground with my face in the dirt
if i feel nothing then why does it hurt?
daylight murder
falling under
all work and no play
praying for some better days

dull boy having no fun
with your mouth on a gun
knowing you're not gonna make it
don't care about anyone
you're too scared to run
so give up and get wasted

now i'm turning blue
never wanted to end up like you
but here i am with blood on my hands
don't think i ever really stood a chance
watching the world through tired eyes
makes you wish for a quicker demise
i know that i can't make it right
maybe tonight will be my night

i'm so boring
forever mourning
hate adoring
and lesser for it

dull boy having no fun
with your mouth on a gun
knowing you're not gonna make it
don't care about anyone
you're too scared to run
so give up and get wasted

dull boy

feels like forever
since i've been together
can't take the pressure
so fuck it, whatever

dead bodies all around me
they're pilling up, i'm drowning
i'd care but i'm too drowsy
no one gives a fuck about me
so i do not think
and i do not dream
i lie down and rot
i tear at the seams
it's too late, forgot what everything means
i don't care about anything

lying face down
nobody around
another hole in the ground
lost and never found

feels like forever
since i've been together
can't take the pressure
so fuck it, whatever

whatever

i think there's something wrong with me
nobody seems to disagree
i just can't take it anymore
wanna slam my head against a door

why do i hate being awake?
guess my life was a mistake
why does everyone have to hate me?
i'm getting sick of being me

i'm sick of waking up
everyday's the fucking same
so sick, i've given up
i've only got myself to blame

it's hard to believe that i'm still here
and it's getting worse with every passing year
now i don't like anybody that i know
they're all just better at letting go

twenty one

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