i let go of what made me whole
and dug myself a deeper hole
i fucking hate being alone
but it's all i've ever known
there's nobody left to care
so why the fuck am i still scared?
i don't think there's any coming back from this

i can't find any bliss

can't take living in this skin
did my life ever really begin?
sink into my cold sheets
don't wanna wake up this week

i'd ask you to stay
but you're too far away
i don't know if i can take another day
i wanna find a way
to not be so afraid
maybe then i could fix this mess i've made

i'm the worst of lovers
we'll never find each other
i'm a jerk, i'll suffer
and you'll just find another

Bliss

dumb song i wrote yesterday

just woke up, already in the ground
i'm so fucked, never made a sound
everything keeps getting worse and worse
keep this up and i'm gonna need a hearse
wanna buy a gun
kill myself for fun
i'm not the only one
we're all so done
it feels like hell inside of me

you're making me another casualty
you're killing me, fatality

fatality
let's go

i fucked up and it's got me down
have no luck and i'm gonna drown
spinning round and round i go
where i'll end up i don't wanna know
wanna run away
need to leave today
but i've got no way
i'm not okay
this fight can never be won

i don't wanna play this game anymore

FATALITY!

Wasting My Time

featuring @luvwillow

i'm sorry i fucked up
i'm dying to make up
yeah i know that i suck
i'm sorry, i'll shut up

didn't mean to push you away
since we stopped talking i've decayed
i'm about five years too late
i gotta move on for god's sake
i'm sorry for ghosting you
didn't know what i was supposed to do
this was all so new
think i had a chance but i ruined it
made you feel like shit
i always miss

i'm sorry i fucked up
i'm dying to make up
yeah i know that i suck
i'm sorry, i'll shut up

i never thought i'd be this way without you now
i'm sorry that i messed it up
i know that it's all of my fault
and nothing ever seems to go right
i lost you and now i lost myself
just know that i'm trying to make amends
just know that i mean it when i say...

i'm sorry i fucked up
i'm dying to make up
yeah i know that i suck
i'm sorry, i'll shut up

im sry i fcked up ft. luvwillow

feels like forever
since i've been together
can't take the pressure
so fuck it, whatever

dead bodies all around me
they're pilling up, i'm drowning
i'd care but i'm too drowsy
no one gives a fuck about me
so i do not think
and i do not dream
i lie down and rot
i tear at the seams
it's too late, forgot what everything means
i don't care about anything

lying face down
nobody around
another hole in the ground
lost and never found

feels like forever
since i've been together
can't take the pressure
so fuck it, whatever

whatever

pov you will never be @dethtech

i'm alone again and i just want out
some girls looking at me
now i'm freaking out
you must think i'm stupid
like i'm new to this
like i wont do shit
i know i cant trust you
leave me in a ditch til my corpse turns blue

everyone is trying to kill me
you can all just stop pretending
all your lies are never ending
unload the clip until its empty

all my so called friends had to get cut off
i just didn't want to get my head sawed off
you might think i'm crazy
well yeah sure like i guess maybe
i've been so sick lately
i can never tell if you love or hate me

every1 is tryin 2 kill me 0_o

Lyrics:

They told me I could be anything
So I became nothing
But this won't do, this will never do
This will never do

When options are infinite
You're stuck in a limbo
Of stagnation and inaction
I won't forget

The times when I was
More than just another adult 

They told me I could be anything
So I became nothing
But this won't do, this will never do
This will never do
Guess it's my fault 
I'm a broken adult
Still don't know what's good for me 

Stagnation 
Kills me deep inside
It's all on me 
It's all on me 

They told me I could be anything
So I became nothing
But this won't do, this will never do
This will never do
Guess it's my fault 
I'm a broken adult
Still don't know what's good for me

They Told Me I Could Be Anything So I Became Nothing

a grave for two

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Lyrics: 

Tell me, does everyone 
Get to pass a part of themselves on?
And on and on and on and on

No, I don't have much to give
Don't I deserve a future? 
All my life spent on the computer

Might as well be gone 
If all I get is

F in natural selection 
It was never my intention 
To rot away and die alone 
I can't do this on my own

I deserve nothing
I deserve nothing 

Spill my blood on the ground 
Six feet in the dirt, I won't make a sound 
If no one sees a future in me
What's the point of going on?

F in natural selection 
It was never my intention 
To rot away and die alone 
I can't do this on my own

F In Natural Selection (feat. Hatsune Miku)

featuring @dethtech

i won't see angels when i die
let it happen, let me lie here
i'm done trying to be like you
keep pretending like you didn't steal my heart
you'll take all i have and take all my memories

these blood stained eyes can't see your face
i can't stop the blood

when i'm dead ill write to you in dreams
roses dying, light the cigarette, i'm a bloody mess
i should've known our love would end in tragedy
i watch the tears fall from your eyes, i'm so heartless

buried deep beneath your skin
lies the hurt that broke you
clawing from within
god knows the height i've left to fall
all i can see is you've gone cold

when i'm dead ill write to you in dreams
roses dying, light the cigarette, i'm a bloody mess
i should've known our love would end in tragedy
i watch the tears fall from your eyes, i'm so heartless

i can't sleep when im with you
she had the wings of an angel
but that girl was a devil in disguise
i saw her wings were broken
so she just stood there as i died

i wont see angels when i die, they'll laugh as i fall

i wont see angels when i die, they'll laugh as i fall ft. DethTech

i'm breaking down all the way to the bone
so little left for me to sacrifice
the burden's out of my hands
these scars serve as reminders
of all i'm made to withstand
GOD DAMN

they laid my body out on the ice
praying one day the rot will subside
never the easy way, i'm counting every day
still i'm waiting for you to arrive

buried under six feet of concrete
cut me off from the heat
anything to help me sleep easy
this fucked disease is eating me
festering, eating me, festering

how long can you keep up this disguise?
i'll cut out your tongue to end your lies
they laid my body out on the ice
praying one day the rot will subside
never the easy way, i'm counting every day
still i'm waiting for you to arrive