dumb song i wrote yesterday

just woke up, already in the ground
i'm so fucked, never made a sound
everything keeps getting worse and worse
keep this up and i'm gonna need a hearse
wanna buy a gun
kill myself for fun
i'm not the only one
we're all so done
it feels like hell inside of me

you're making me another casualty
you're killing me, fatality

fatality
let's go

i fucked up and it's got me down
have no luck and i'm gonna drown
spinning round and round i go
where i'll end up i don't wanna know
wanna run away
need to leave today
but i've got no way
i'm not okay
this fight can never be won

i don't wanna play this game anymore

FATALITY!

it feels like i'm running out of time
i'm behind everyone in my life
i wasted all my fucking years
now thinking brings me to tears

i'm stuck here sitting on my own
whining into my microphone
i don't leave my house anymore
and i don't fucking care at all

i fucking hate myself
i got no friends and no one else

everyone hates me
no one seems to care
i don't even know
life without despair
why am i still here
why do i live on
i'm just some retard
with no one to call on

hate myself

Damaged

No Turning Back

Lyrics:

When's the third act in this story? 
The introduction drags on and on 
On and on 
What a letdown... (Letdown!)

Everyone's ahead while I'm stuck in a battle 
That I could never win
Or even make a single dent...

And I will never lay down my arms 
My suicide is staking everything 
So that I could take that future for myself 
Whatever it may take
Even if it kills me 
It's all worth it in the end 

Rest assured that
It's all for the greater good 
Even though I know 
It's never enough 

(Since I have nothing else to give)
(This is my final gamble)
(There is nothing else in me) 
(To satisfy, to culminate)
(In anything of beauty)

This is all that I wanted 
Since I don't have anything else to give 

And I will never lay down my arms 
My suicide is staking everything 
So that I could take that future for myself 
Whatever it may take
Even if it kills me 
It's all worth it in the end

It's Not Suicide If You Call It Sacrifice

no love

(lyrics below) Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/3ExGB125JobAjvf5QPLSYo?si=knpZYBv5R6Ox5CdL5nZMAQ

If they all hurt me
Why shouldn't I do the same? 
I keep it all in a bottle 
As I sit around, twirl and waddle

Into walls, smash my body on the concrete 
Put a brick on the gas and leave me in the backseat
I guess you were right all along

It doesn't hurt as bad in my head
With blood-soaked towels around my bed 
I guess you were right all along
It doesn't hurt as bad in my head
With blood-soaked towels around my bed 
I guess you were right all along

And I wanted you to suffer 
Just as much as I did 
But now I just want you to watch me,
Yeah, I just want you to watch me

Pour my guts out on your shirt
Self myself ablaze, for you it wouldn't hurt 
But to me, this means everything 
This means everything to me 

It doesn't hurt as bad in my head
With blood-soaked towels around my bed 
I guess you were right all along
It doesn't hurt as bad in my head
With blood-soaked towels around my bed 
I guess you were right all along

Your eyes, my pain
Your eyes, my pain

Watch Me Hurt Myself (And I'll Be Yours)

a grave for two

The After Dark

Raven's Flight

Can I get 
into heaven 
Knowing what
I’ve done 

Shut out
And locked 
away 
A lowly 
heretic 

Shut up
You’ll never change
You’re just
Waste of space 


Will I ever 
Be forgiven 
For the lines
I crossed 

Shut out
And locked 
away 
A lowly 
heretic 

Shut up
You’ll never change
You’re just
Waste of space 

Worthless


No hope 

No one 
I can 
Speak my piece 
To 
Confused 
What the fuck
Am I doing here 

No air 
At the edge
Of the atmosphere 

my lungs 
Collapsing in 

Is this 

Art
Or the 
exodus 

The waves
Came crashing 

I stare at
The desolate
Wreckage left

But I’m still asking 

Can I get 
into heaven 
Knowing what
I’ve done 

Shut out
And locked 
away 
A lowly 
heretic 

Shut up
You’ll never change
You’re just
Waste of space 

Will I ever 
Be forgiven 
For the lines
I crossed 

Shut out
And locked 
away 
A lowly 
heretic 

Shut up
You’ll never change
You’re just
Waste of space 


Spread your 
Wings ascend 

It’s all that 
I ask of you

I

Wanna see the light 

That’s hiding
Behind the truth

Damaged

DethTwink