Paradox - Dev

prod @flojy
w/ @counterxo + @6cainhurst
sfx @s0lemn
cover w/ art from @user-867146503
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@s0lemn
i can tell u rn ,,  i js wna b inside .. ; / 
u dont get how i feel ,, [ ur lookin from the outside. . ']
feelings dat i design ,, js so i dont fxckn cry .. ; 
u can tell by how i look ,, ,i dont wna b alive :p .. 

ik ur leavin me . .  but where u goin2 ?. ., ?/
u told me we were meant 2b ,, but ion kno u .. ; /
js let let me hold u ,, 4 1 last time .. , <
js say ur sorry2 ,, but u dont gota lie .. 

im tryna b wat u need ,, but i nvr found out [  ' [
girl its hard bein me ya ": > i always fckn doubt / /. ,
bb ima pout , ,, n think of wat we was . . .
i could try now . .; ;  but u dont wna budge .. -

@counterxo
I just need one final kiss
In case I don’t remember this night 
I know that I’ll miss you
I can’t sleep this doesn’t sit right
erased me off your list 
and now it’s like I watched a wish die
So I need to say
You haven’t found Romeo, you haven’t settled
And your father said stay away from Juliet
You were cryin on the staircase,
cause you can’t let this go 

@6cainhurst
once again, i let u down again
in the end it feels like i cant win, even for a second
i got a confession;-; i rly luv the way u turn your tears into a blessing

cz i can't, for a second,cant get a breath in, but its all good
heads a mess im sry girl im haunted

ur on the town w ur bf, hes upset 
says u dress loose, doesnt give u respect
he doesnt trust ur feelings like i do (i do)

@s0lemn [outro]. / 
i stg ima kms but u dont give af. . . .
ima ball til im nothin ,, cuz we alwayz turn 2 dust  ;; '
i was thinkn w my <3 but u only think of lust , .;  <
u gon ask y we apart .. ,
ur js fckn hard2 trust .. .: [[ [
(つ﹏<。)(つ﹏<。)(つ﹏<。)(つ﹏<。)(つ﹏<。)(つ﹏<。)(つ﹏<。)

feeling by design w/ counter + cainhurst [flojy]

prod @bloodcryy + @ssj5-junk
sfx @bloodcryy + @ssj5-junk

@s0lemn
ion wna stop i got 2much dope ,, : p/ //
got another sack 2day i hope i croak. . /. : ['/
bby i done smoked2 much i js got paranoid .. ..
idgaf least i feel ,, i can fill a void. . .

save tht x2 ,, ion wna hear shit . ,,  ;_
dis is payback : {{ wen i cut my wrist . ,, ;+
dont say tht : // . .  u dont wna feel me . . ,l;
dont play tht . ,, cuz ik u h8 me .. .

btch ik u h8 me . . : | ion wna think rn cuz i took 2. . .
 all i evr want but u alr knew ,, 
all i ever think is2 take ,, consume .. . 

i cant even move btch im spun .. .
alone in my room it aint fun ,; l
wats coo is u h8 me ,, i cant rly change dat. . .
ion wna face it but ik i cant h8 that ..: [[

@bloodcryy
u kno i rly hate that .. .: /
got red marks from the leash dat u put me on .. /: p
no matter wat u told me}[ =
ull always b the one . ., , ,
still get sick from the fact dat u said dat / /. . ,
thought u was the 1+ =[
but ur rly just a setback ./ /. ';[
dont wana falsify // . ..
u kno wat happened ,, ,
yea u kno im not cappin. . ./ /.} [
memory saddened .. .: (


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fill a void w/ bloodcryY [bloodcryY + ssj5]

prod @ssj5-junk + @bloodcryy
sfx @s0lemn
cover w/ art from @user-867146503

its a Shame tht idk . . . how ur Feelin : /. , ,
is it time Dat i must go .. ?? do i need 2Stay  . .? / + -
die sittin Solo , , ; its Like i Want2 . ..
try But ik that .  .. = = 
u Dont feel the Same ; [ / / /

i Was trapped In my head ya i think we Was Alike ... 
nvr Kno How2Feel cuz i Drown it ina Pint . . ,
y i feel Incomplete ?? ..,.; i js Wana get it Right / / .
I Admit my defeat . ,, U can say dat u Was right .. . 

u can Say dat u was right  .. , i Been so low .. ion wna Make a Fight[[[
lemme Down low cuz im rly Fuxkin High :p  . .. 
on The downlow . . , Should i even fckn Try ?? ., ; 

i Nevr do ,, u Know i feel the Shame ... = - [[
I wanted Uuu .. . but do uuU feel the Same . ..
drug Abuse . , , .; its Calling 2 my Name . . ,
i Knew the Truth .. ., .; [ i Wanted u 2 Change .. , .

admit my defeat [ssj5 + bloodcryY]

˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥𝒹𝒾𝑔𝒾𝓉𝒶𝓁 𝓇𝑜𝓈𝑒𝓈˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳

prod @spaceboyry + @counterxo
sfx @s0lemn
w/ @counterxo

@s0lemn
im sry ,, i couldnt change 4u . .,
but bb i adore uu ., .
i think ive had enough im carvin pieces dat u tore thru . .
@counter
I’ve acted strange towards you
I was so lost before you 
It’s time for both us to just admit that we ignore truth
@s0lemn
saw u back down ,, i cant recall uu . ./
im left wit nothin ,, who can i talk 2 ?? .{
im such a let down .. ig i owe u  . .. 
ur wat id die 4 . .. js lemme hold u {{ _
@counterxo
Baby once it’s over I don’t think that we can retry
Crazy when I’m sober I don’t even want to be alive
Save me as I’m lowered into my grave cause I’m dead inside
Lately it feels like that I don’t know her cause I can’t confide 
it’s true
@s0lemn
i get lost by tha thought of u . .
ion feel ok until im high ,, i hope its fine w u . . .__
man im sick of livin wana die u kno ive tried it 2 .. {
i js get a sickness wen i speak or catch a sight of uu _ ;}
@counterxo
Feel like I’ve tried everything 
Nothing ever feels new
Used to think of wedding rings 
Now my fingers turn blue 
It’s been way hard to bring my all when it’s for you too
I’m still flying with you, you’re my wings I can’t bare to lose 

I lost my mind
when you weren’t here
when you weren’t here
I fought back time
but the end’s near
To be clear, I’ll let you know

cant recall u w/ counter [spaceboyry + counter]

˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥𝒹𝒾𝑔𝒾𝓉𝒶𝓁 𝓇𝑜𝓈𝑒𝓈˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳

prod @neohnq
sfx @s0lemn
w/ @counterxo

@s0lemn
im boutta fade out .. , + i thought dat u shld kno / /.
i cant even stay now ..,, u make me wna go ))
xanax wen tha days hit .. ion wna feel like sht : {
need a conversation ,.. cuz u made me feel like dis  .. ,

i js dont get it bae .. i wanted u 2care . ..
ima give my all still u act as if i wasnt there .. ,{
i loved us ...{| ofc u h8 me .. 
i was seein wat it wasnt .. , ina daydream .{ "

take it back . ._- wanted u 2show u need me . { "
dyin fast >< only u who coulda saved me __+
droppin so much dope ,.. i js wna feel ok / /.
girl im dyin soon ..// hopin tht it is 2day +++ =

@counterxo
I need some peace of mind
You just took a piece of mine
Just know I can’t be fine 
Wasted love and wasted time 
I should’ve seen the signs
Your hold on me has lead me blind
Is it the drugs that bind 
or is it feeling left behind?
Tried to distract from the feeling now I’m strung out on the floor
Lied to get back because dealing with the issues hurt more
Tied to you but the healing took much longer than before 
Hide to comfort myself but the pain’s hard to ignore

seeing what it wasnt w/ counter [neohn]

˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥𝒹𝒾𝑔𝒾𝓉𝒶𝓁 𝓇𝑜𝓈𝑒𝓈˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳

prod @flojy + @ripwarheart
sfx @s0lemn
w/ @counterxo

@s0lemn
do u even care how i feel 4u .., ?
ima b myself , . do u h8 me 2 ? ., 
xanax 4 my health , dats tha way i choose  . ., + 
bettr off alone  ,, / dats tha way i move .. ,,

way i do  ,, u would nevr get  ] [ //
tear monsoon  -  ,, all my clothes r wet  .. ,)
false haiku ,,  all ur wordz r torturous
snake in the grass  . . i can tell ur poisonous . ,l

do i quit  + 00 where i am rn . . ."
laugh it off , ,. hilarious . . but i frown . ,<
bury it .. put my <3 in the ground . .{
cherish this .. wen ur not around . }}

stay close by me so i dont feel . .,<
do u fake who u r ?? . ,ya, so real ..: {
fell asleep ona bar  . ,, _ hope my cutz heal >> 
k-pin ,, tramadol ,, dats my whole meal . ..

tell me how2feel cuz u tell it right >_ < ,,
i been up 4days ,, ) havent seen the light  .. 
only smokin dope .. im not even high : L
i js need a way out || \ thought of suicide .. .

@counterxo
I had to realize, I can’t ever see us just as friends
Can’t wait another night, hoping that you’d call me back again
Feels like I’m left to die. Lost it all and don’t know where it went
Don’t wanna see you cry, broken, but I’m here for your defense

It makes no sense making all this progress just to fall
You left a dent and put the needles through me like a doll 
there’s evidence, you can see my poems on the wall
I never meant to keep the phone on silent when you call

You let my hand go then my heart shattered like glass
(like glass, like glass)
Now you’re dancing all alone, so much time passed
It goes so fast

all my clothes are wet w/ counter [flojy + warheart]

prod @mxsui
lyrics:
yeah i'm sorry for my mood swings
don't let it get to me
yeah i swear you were my everything
buy you that wedding ring
yeah i swear i'll get you anything
yeah i'll give you all the best of me
yeah i want you in my world
yeah you get what you deserve
yeah you the best up on this earth
baby please just know your worth
if you leave i'll feel the worst
yeah i swear you'll get that louis purse
yeah i swear you got me in a curse
yeah what you do it works
we'll hit the mall get you a skirt
we in the rover and we skrt
yeah you so bad my vision blurs
yeah i used to be reserved
until i met you
yeah when i'm with you
i know what to do
stuck together like some glue
yeah when i'm with you
when i'm with you
yeah yeah when i'm with you

it wouldn't be my world without you in it (mxsui)

prod @spaceboyry
w/ @user-674380855
sfx @ssj5-junk

@s0lemn
bae I Blacked out Im sry .. [
i got2much d0pe In my Pocket its On me : p . /.
where u Wana go bae ?? js call Me - -_
ima dummy ..
i <3 D0pe,,, i <3 $$$$$$$$ / //

Watchu tryna Get @ ??? /. Do u Kno A better Way .> ??
ima D0peHead i mite Try n die 2dayy ., ,
damn .    I js took an Addy wish i Had another Xan .. .
Struggle EvryDay im Nvr Knowin who i Am . .__ =\
Omg Im2High I hope i Cut right ., ,. : p
stay Inside Gettin Fried ion Wana see Tha light ' '.
sniffin Blow ion Wna come Down .._- [)
i Bet ur happy if im Rly not Around .. [[

Evrythin yall do is Fake .. I call it A Masquerade ]]
i cant Lie abt Myself im not @whyhaze ; p
send ur Heaven str8 2Hell ill do it any Way ===
i Keep a K up in My Closet We can see it Spray-------
Cosplayerz Why yall talkn ??? u Aint even on shttt .
Heard A second of Yo song & its fuckin Nonsense : /
i Done came up Out the mud U dont Rly want this +
go & Cry2yo parents So dey Buy u new shttt .

@user-674380855
Huh, Okay, Heard yo song it's nonsense 
she gon give me head she Gimmie dat throat I told ha top dis,
ima keep spendin my bread I Kant go broke like baby girl watch this,
this chop it got lead & it's gon blow crisco pop shit,
baby I pop dis xan and get in my zone, I get nauseous,
talkin bout he top 10 don't know what he on, lil nigga ya not shit, 
Big bro he blowin hot shi, 
bingo she on the thot list,
baby I'm in dat benz you know dat im gone jus told her to hop in,
nigga I woke up 4 bandz in my face you went to go clock in,
she gon bend it over no handz in my face I told ima lock in,
runnin up da bread no plans for today im tryna go drop 10,
thuggin in da trap 4 friends 
it's da gang I told her that's my twin

#SmokingOnSomeWhyhaze

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hellbound w/ yrn j [spaceboyry]

Crying These Tears (prod. Cprcash)

There For You w/ s0lemn (Prod. Flojy)

I am a uni student having fun with music 
check my yt: https://www.youtube.com/@devpatel2093