tropes - lose, win, lose (greentop) #us

performed, written, & produced by me @mental

lyrics:

dont know how to live without ur touch
got me feeling like ive never been enough
i was helpless but i still thought i was lucky
i gave up thinking about giving up
doesnt matter even if i try my hardest
it wont ever be the way that it was
and i made my circle smaller than ur heart is
idc im prepared to collapse

every time i think, its a burden to me... keep my mind in silence
i miss every night when we talked bout nothing we still laughed and smiled
but i guess that ur onto the next thing i just dont wanna be alive
and i thought u were never gonna lie but u said u were never gonna let me cry

it was a waste of time when i crumpled up into pieces
fake smile hope they believe it
i know they rly hate me so im bleeding
heart broken crying and screaming
hole in my chest idk how im breathing
new pain but its not for a reason
new day and another ones leaving
idk how to cope with these feelings

homesick

having fun with music again, expect some more soon. :)

game in the cover art is "a short hike" .. really good i recommend it highly!

words; ;

yea i just ran it up there with my bros
n u know we ontop thats forsure
how much did i just spend? shit, alot idk
idk where to turn to, look to, idk where to go
ooo
all my brothers on go
shootin when i say so
gotta escort the payload
we just ran it up forsure
now they tryna book me for a showw
they wanna know where i go
but im tryna keep it on the low

gotta keep my head up thats for certain
and its so fucked up what u did so u know im hurtin
all of this pain u put me thru tell me, was it worth it?
yea but i won now everything good yea everything perfect
my hearts stuck dunno where to go 
everythin cold, everything froze
just tryna make it thru this life yea this shits not what i chose
i worship the ground that u walk on like its covered in gold
its a tale of times man this shits gettin old

yea i just ran it up there with my bros
n u know we ontop thats forsure
how much did i just spend? shit, alot idk
idk where to turn to, look to, idk where to go
ooo
all my brothers on go
shootin when i say so
gotta escort the payload
we just ran it up forsure
now they tryna book me for a showw
they wanna know where i go
but im tryna keep it on the low

spotify!!! ^-^

we did it (southdrug)

Desire (waystalker + augury)

prod @neohnq
sfx @s0lemn
amv - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KymvPdHRilE @bitekivibes

i could forget u but i dont wana let u down , ,.:(
ima b dead soon so im sry im not arnd.. .
u shoulda bled2 all da times dat u cut me down ..'[
ion think abt it all ion wana b arnd .. 

losin my patience}} im caught ina tie. . /|| 
losin myself like ill nevr b fine. ..
i shoulda quit it yea mayb ur right/ ./'
stop wit deceiving its always a lie ./ ';

ima feel ,, its nevr dat || i drop a pill i bring it back ..:p
i said2nevr get attached_- , , now i wana c u back :((( (.
i dont think its alwayz bad ,. ., until i c u den its tht .. 
i guess im dreamin of a time tht i nevr rly had. . ]:

ion wana face it but i had2 .. 
remembr all da times wen u left2 ,, 
problems in my cup ion wna spill . '
i dont needa speak i jus keep it real:)

cup been depleted ,./;  guessin i got caught ina high:p  / .
xan now im dreamin ..  ion wana breathe fuck my life:( / /// .
feelin so defeated how u gona leave wen i cry ?? .
ur so out of touch. .. ur so out of line||| }\]:


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ur so out of touch [neohn]

prod @guda feat @diegointhedark

yea u like me but i despise u
i still own u even if were done
im just tryna run but i cant go
trippin off an oxy i cant move
im sorry but i had 2 switch it up 
small waist t shirt 16 lines
girl yk i love that coke n that blo
ive been tryna get it but ive been so lo
whats right 4 me yk
im drownin in my lows
it seems u do not care
i kno wuts right 4 me
x2 

i dont rlly wanna stop for nun 
so just let me switxch it up now
i just wanna raise a kid
i just wanna get old
i think im built for ts n imma make it
i dont wanna lose i dont een wanna die yet
tell me does it get easier when i get older

new jeans 
2 beans make me happy 
all these pussys talking shit 
but never @ me
carve my face off my head 
imma sell it off 
popping laced clonazepam
i kno tht its wrong 

ur bitch bumps my songs 
how does tht feel 
i wear cleats 
n my shawty rocking high heels
steel bars for bones 
iron maiden 
trapping off my flip phone 
cuts on my arms fading

whts wrong idkk
i was stepping through the mud 
now i walk on marble floors
lil shawty wna fuck 
ima hit , bcome a ghost 
ima step in through the front 
brudda kick n the backdoor 

all they wna do is talk 
i jst wna b alone 
i could never punch a clock 
iv been juggin on my own
whn i looked into urr eyes 
it jst made me feel lifeless 
ive been down
hope u kno tht im trying

low @diegointhedark

prod @yourvalentin3 @sethoitae 
sfx @s0lemn

i js had a vision tht i'll die .. , 
would u help me < ? ; [ /
do u even love me ?? > ,;
do i want u 2tell me .. ? ; /.,
anytime i try i js kno tht im failing . .., 
feelin suicide .. im so sry dat im bailing .. =( 

wat am i 2do ,, i think im losin u ...
dope got me numb girl ,, 
i wish dat i waz seein u : /..  ,
seeing u.
b wit u , ,, 
omg i wna die : / .. , ,
idc how i feel ..
if its u&i . ..

ik im poppin drugz i js wna b ok ,,
do u gota go , ? cuz im wantin u 2stay : [/ / .
i cant b witout u .. bb ur my <3 . .
u said we was close .
so y is we apart ??

droppin xanx in my powerade©️ .. .
dats a potion ima mix until im in tha grave ,, l;
ik 4 a fact dat u love2h8  .. ,
is tht a tear ? idk im cryin in tha rain .. .

tha pain ,, is alwayz there 4me .. .
away . , , from wat i want 2be
& i want 2b wat u desire .. .
n i will nvr b .. 
im gettn higher , , : p


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if its u&i [valens + sethoitae]

prod @rubbishrubbish

lost time ill never get that back
heart stopped when you looked at me like that
felt like ive never even been looked at
thought i lost you all but i got you back

i used to take it like i deserved that
after a bad day i deserve that
after some pain it felt like i earned that
but nobody ever fuckin deserves that

nobody ever really deserves shit
put on this planet get taken off it
all this behavior somehow i learned it
now somehow i gotta learn stop it

wake up and check my door i locked it
wake up and break my only promise
why did i think it would be instant
why dont i ever trust the process

why cant i ever just be honest
stupid girl, i wake feelin nauseous
stupid world, everything is garbage
stupid girl, you knew you were toxic

everything is stupid little bargains
do i do good or do i feel good
so i take paths of least resistance
end up in places full of sickness

stop that
step back
dont let back
i had to hear that

feel like i feel like im different
feel like i feel like i did it
didnt i, i just wan be in it
if im kidding ill end it all with quickness

if im kidding ill end it all with swiftness
i cant be present cuz then ill wreck it
demon i demon feel it hiding
why cant i cant express it

stupid world prod. rubbish

˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥𝒹𝒾𝑔𝒾𝓉𝒶𝓁 𝓇𝑜𝓈𝑒𝓈˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳

prod @spaceboyry + @counterxo
sfx @s0lemn
w/ @counterxo

@s0lemn
im sry ,, i couldnt change 4u . .,
but bb i adore uu ., .
i think ive had enough im carvin pieces dat u tore thru . .
@counter
I’ve acted strange towards you
I was so lost before you 
It’s time for both us to just admit that we ignore truth
@s0lemn
saw u back down ,, i cant recall uu . ./
im left wit nothin ,, who can i talk 2 ?? .{
im such a let down .. ig i owe u  . .. 
ur wat id die 4 . .. js lemme hold u {{ _
@counterxo
Baby once it’s over I don’t think that we can retry
Crazy when I’m sober I don’t even want to be alive
Save me as I’m lowered into my grave cause I’m dead inside
Lately it feels like that I don’t know her cause I can’t confide 
it’s true
@s0lemn
i get lost by tha thought of u . .
ion feel ok until im high ,, i hope its fine w u . . .__
man im sick of livin wana die u kno ive tried it 2 .. {
i js get a sickness wen i speak or catch a sight of uu _ ;}
@counterxo
Feel like I’ve tried everything 
Nothing ever feels new
Used to think of wedding rings 
Now my fingers turn blue 
It’s been way hard to bring my all when it’s for you too
I’m still flying with you, you’re my wings I can’t bare to lose 

I lost my mind
when you weren’t here
when you weren’t here
I fought back time
but the end’s near
To be clear, I’ll let you know

cant recall u w/ counter [spaceboyry + counter]

GRAILS [PROD. SLAYA]

Anunnaki prod Artist

‎𝔱𝔯𝔞𝔤𝔢𝔡𝔶ℭ𝔩𝔲𝔟♱
ﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـ♡ﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـ

cant recall u w/ counter [spaceboyry + counter]

s0lemn

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