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i fucking love u devi mccallion

http://blacksquares.bandcamp.com/album/self-titled-2

get packed up
make it a list if it helps
or keep a mental index
we'll always figure it out cos

i know
y’ know
i can’t barely lift my self
i know you’ve been twisting turning n all i do is stay
but everything is alright
everything is gonna be ok
i’ll just keep repeating that as i sit on my hands and be afraid

but everything knows
it'll all turn out
i'll sink to the ocean floor
but i'll figure things out

i know you don't want me to go
but you can't help but twist and turn and stuff
but with everything and all you know everything is going to be a little rough
and i know you feel it in your bones
all i know's i feel it in my bloodstone

well i know
there's always better ways to do things
but sometimes
you gotta hold your breath and just plow through things

get packed up
you have a long day ahead
i'm not a child anymore
man it's not the first time i've been humiliated but

i know
i know
i can’t barely lift my self
i know you’ve been twisting turning n all i do is stay
but everything is alright
everything is super duper ok
i’ll just keep repeating that as i sit on my hands and be afraid
but everything knows 
but everything knows

well i know
there's always better ways to do things
but sometimes
you gotta hold your breath and just plow through things
i know
there's always a better way to sort of do things
but sometimes
you just gotta hold your breath and plow right through things

Mom - S.N. Morning

https://blacksquares.bandcamp.com/album/3

art by eddy atoms

i fuck up everything but just see how long i'll stay mad at everyone
yeah i fuck up everything and i always blame everybody but myself
i do whatever setting myself up for failure is just how i tend to have fun
yeah im slime and sleaze im really not so hard to please i just want to be loved by everyone

my whole body feels like a clenched fist
la la la la la la la la la
my whole body feels like complete shit
la la la la la la la la la

but with my perfect judgement everything i do is right
so pure hearted in this awful world why do i even try
who knows what you think about me, felt so shitty yesterday
why do i even bother when i know i will again today

i fuck everything up
me i me i me me i me me i me i

iim so sick of thinking that things will be ok
that my life will be fine someday
it's been fucking years that ive been stuck in one place
i'll always be here because its me that wrong with me

Mom - I Fuck Everything Up

https://blacksquares.bandcamp.com/album/3 
buy my albu m 

Mom - Sugar Pool

Reddishness out now : https://blacksquares.bandcamp.com/album/reddishness

i feel its gross hot breath breathing in my face 
after all this time.. no fuck that.. 
i wanna go to disneyland 
i dont wanna do more shit that i hate 
i wanna have some real fun 
i wanna see the fireworks 
i wanna prove what a stupid bitch i am 
i wanna get way too drunk in the california sun 
like i always dreamed of 
i wanna see thru to my true self 
i wanna play puzzle games on a iphone on a air plane. 

its true i know just how you feel 

i feel it too 

i'll be the thing you're thinking of 
up thru the sky and up above 
reach down to me and pull me up 
just one more time i swear ill make it worth your time this time 

so freaked out i wanna fucking scream 
please put on some tlc 
please please 
stay close to me 

i dont wanna be a concept that you put evil thoughts into 
i dont want that 
im a person 
i work real hard everyday

Girls Rituals - I Know

art by me and @ivyatoms

every year that goes by i just seem to get older
and the tide goes up and the water washes over
and i know myself less going in and out my head
going in and out my head hooded death gets a boner

fucking sickos. fucking sickos everywhere
and you got your nails long
whyd u cut off all your hair
fucking sickos. fucking sickos everywhere
are u fucking doing ok?

ill be a black crow in my next life
flying over an office park

i smash and curse this skin
oh i dig and dig and dig
pulling away at the fat and muscle
always searching further in
somewhere deep inside my body
has to be the answer to everything
somewhere deep inside my body
has to be the reason for why I’m like this

2017 / 01

Girls Rituals - Black Crow

BIG THANKS TO DEVI FOR WORKING W ME ON THIS TRACK 
SHE WROTE THE LYRICS AND SUNG THEM ND REARRANGED THE ORIGINAL 
i did backing vocals and the original track lol

FOLLOW HER ON THE WEB 
blacksquares.bandcamp.com 
soundcloud.com/girlsrituals 
twitter.com/girlsrituals 
www.youtube.com/c/blacksquares 
www.instagram.com/girlsrituals/

Lyrics:
biohazard 
like it matters 
U.S.A. 
radiation 
on my mattress 
im a nightmare 
you dont know me? im a classic 
she gets ocean 
she gets poison when it splashes 

when it goes around it comes around 
when it goes around it comes around 
when it goes around it goes around 
in a cycle in a helix in a spiral 

it goes higher and it spins a little harder 
its just physics it cuts easy when its sharper 
theres no condoms and theres no such thing as armour 
its just nature im a faggot fire starter 

this shit is not a joke to me 
please stay the fuck away from me 
i dont rly need anything 
i dont rly need anything 

my skin is melting off cos i just want too much, uh 
it doesnt matter cos the whole world is in love, uh 
it doesnt matter it could never be enough, uh 
i had a dream but it was just way too fucked up 

im a faggot like a nuclear sewer to the ocean 
im a faggot like a cancer coming off of a pipeline 

when it goes around it comes around 
when it goes around it comes around 
when it goes around it goes around 
in a cycle in a helix in a spiral

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CHEMICAL BURN v 2.0 (w/ Girls Rituals)

cover art by Opal Pence
http://opalpence.com/

Black Dresses - Paper Planes

Dead Natives - Keep This In Mind
www.deadnatives.com

Keep This In Mind

black.squares.media@gmail.com

when i go into my head i run away from all the world
when i go into my head i get so twisted i get so turned
i cant tell u anything
gotta keep it all to myself right now
theres a lot of shit i cant talk about

everybody wants to know ur secret
everybody wants to know whats wrong
everybody can tell ur broken
they know u dont belong

if u want to find me u can look inside ur broken heart and
if u want to suck my blood out god will help ur teeth get sharp
theres just something in my world 
thats much too big and much too violent
i cant look or look away
and im so scared i just stay silent

everybody wants to know ur secret
everybody wants to know whats wrong?
everybody can tell ur broken
they know u dont belong

2018

"Whats Wrong?"

“Centerfolds is the story of what you do during the shit times of a tumultuous relationship - the days when you’re on the outs and you have nothing left to say to the person you live with. Driving to a Walmart in the desert just to buy some flip flops; eating Chinese dumplings alone at the restaurant community table; spending the night at the Centerfolds strip club looking for someone to love; all the time just waiting for the other person to call and admit they were wrong." Strap on for some fast-paced bongo rock and a bassline you'll need tabs for!

Alright

Centerfolds

Superglue

Written and performed by Control Top 

Copyright 2018 Control Top 

Recorded, produced and mixed by Al Creedon 

Mastered by Emily Lazar 

Art direction by Ali Carter

Artwork by Japhy Riddle

Type A

April Fools

Catabolic Seed

time goes by
im confused
ive been fucked with and abused
zoning out
what the fuck
i dont care
everybody sucks
sorry.

everybodys got a melty future
whole worlds insane
whole world is useless
everybody is changing

and im over my head
and im over my head
and im over the world
now im over my..

head
my mind
nowhere
no world time

Melty Future

08-Cocorosie -  Spirit Lake

:^ )

twitter.com/girlsrituals 
art by twitter.com/azaxxii

Girls Rituals x Kite Splash - Long Weekend

pleasure cruise - the scary jokes

(rook) 
i dont want a future 
i just wanna fucking stop 
i dont want identity 
i just wanna drop dead 
this is nothing 
scared pathetic bitch's death rattle 
please do something 
id give my fucking soul to get out 
this is how it has to be 
and you just wanna fuck with me 
i know, i know, its fine :) 
this kind of slow death 
nameless sickness 
really screws up ur definition of alive 

(devi) 
i know 
its it 
its always been the same shit 
its always been the same shit 
i know 
its it 
its always been just like this... 
i know 
its it 
its always been the same shit 
yea its always been the same shit 
i know 
its it 
yea its always been the same shit 
its always been the same shit 

(rook) 
and it doesnt ever stop 
yeah it doesnt ever stop 

(devi) 
if u wanna see some shit 
then maybe u could see some shit 
ur so curious 
ur so curious 
u might see some shit 
u might see some shit 

(rook+devi) 
u want us dead? 
were sick and dying dont u know? 
u want us dead? 
were fucking sick and dying dont u know? 

(devi) 
sometimes... 

(rook) 
sometimes i know 
that hell is real 
and im there 

and it doesnt ever stop 
yeah it doesnt ever stop 

(devi) 
i just want to be so sweet and kind to every living thing on earth in all the whole wide world. so dont fuck with me at all. that would be a bad idea. to fuck with me at all? that would be a bad idea...

HELL IS REAL

(rook+devi) 
listen bitch 
u dont know 

(rook) 
LISTEN 
you think this is cute? 
you think this is something 
that i dont have to do? 
you think i want to be this way 
because i like how it feels? 
you think the drama gets me off? 
MOTHERFUCKER GET REAL 
listen, 
you think this is fun? 
every single day 
i want to run from people i love 
you think you could handle 
feeling this every day? 
yeah i'm so cute and scared and small 
but im not FUCKING OKAY 

can u make me disappear 
words dont exist for this kind of fear 
do u have a home do u have a name 
can u love someone without 
feeling so fucking afraid 

(rook+devi) 
U DONT KNOW 
MOTHER FUCKER U DONT KNOW

U DONT KNOW

by tttlllrrr and dizzy girl
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y7bdMLX_Wjk

on a perfect day 
easy to fall in love 
feeling some type of way 
while u fill me up 

i took some m but i dont think that its working 
maybe cos all the medication im taking 

with a pretty girl 
im such a needy slut 
i wanna gross u out 
with all the stuff i want 

lalalalalalalalalala 
lalalalalalalalalala 

i tried a lot but nothing really makes it better 
i cried a lot but nothing really makes it better

credits

@_tlr_ from @Grypt666 
https://twitter.com/_tlr_
https://twitter.com/grypt666
grypt.bandcamp.com 
outernight.bandcamp.com 

and dizzy girl aka @dei_genetrix
https://twitter.com/dei_genetrix
https://blacksquares.bandcamp.com/
https://blackdresses.bandcamp.com/

I TRIED A LOT BUT NOTHING REALLY MAKES IT BETTER

Mom - Joyfulthought

(devi) 

all the water in the world 
all the money in the world 

(devi & rook) 

all the water in the world 
all the money in the world 

(devi) 

can you really take it with you? 

(devi & rook) 

all the water in the world 
all the money in the world 

(devi) 

can you really take it with you? 

(devi & rook) 

all the water in the world 
all the money in the world 

(rook) 

i don't know i don't know what its gonna look like 
all i know is that nothing's gonna be alright 
it'll kill you first, it'll kill you slow 
when? WHEN? i don't fucking know 
i don't know i don't know what its gonna look like 
all i know is that nothing's gonna be alright 
it'll kill you first, it'll kill you slow 
WHEN? RIGHT NOW BITCH 
YOU KNOW 

(devi) 

can you really take it with you? 

(rook) 

ok 
sure 

(devi & rook) 

all the water in the world 
all the money in the world 

(devi) 

can you really take it with you? 

(devi & rook) 

all the water in the world 
all the money in the world 

can you really take it with you? 

(devi & rook) 

all the water in the world 
all the money in the world 

(rook) 

can you really take it? 
can 

fuck 

(devi) 

one day 
in the future 
i pray things will be alright 
i pray everybody poisoning water and hording resources will die 
and i wish we had the time to talk it out 
but we don't have the time 
as they kill us all 
over and over 
when they never had the right 

(devi & rook) 

that thing is not a person 
we can break that spell 
we can always kill something that never lived 
and if that doesn't work someone might find out where you live 
your pictures are all on the internet 
who'd really be afraid 
if the word ends? 
something that you might expect 
2019 who's really left to be afraid of death? 

(devi) 

can you really take it with you? 

umnnmnnn 

sorry 
sorry for what i'm about to say 
i don't mean it 
i really don't mean it 
i don't mean it 

i heard the government loves- 

[REDACTED] 

-i would really do some shit 
i would really do some shit 

all the water in the world 
all the money in the world 

all the water in the world 
all the money in the world 

somebody might do some shit 

do some shit 

all the water in the world 
all the money in the world 

all the water in the world 
all the money in the world 

(rook) 

i don't know i don't know what its gonna look like 
all i know is that nothing's gonna be alright 
it'll kill you first, it'll kill you slow 
WE KNOW YOUR NAMES 
WE FUCKING KNOW 

(devi) 

one day 
in the future 
i pray things will be alright 
i pray everybody poisoning water and hording resources will die 
and i wish we had the time to talk it out 
but we don't have the time 
as they kill us all 
over and over 
when they never had the right 

(devi & rook) 

that thing is not a person 
we can break that spell 
we can always kill something that never lived 
and if that doesn't work someone might find out where you live 
your pictures are all on the internet 
who'd really be afraid 
if the word ends? 
something that you might expect 
2019 who's really left to be afraid of

THANK YOU

WATER

The song is available for free download/pay-what-you-can, but please consider donating to bail funds to free people detained by US Customs and Border Patrol when that is an option. Currently federal officials are increasingly denying bond to detained immigrants, but keep this in mind should this process become clearer. This situation is very dire and cannot continue. 

From my research there's no "perfect" organization I can direct you towards. You have options like RAICES but the issue of if they can even pay out people's bail right now with the millions of dollars they have is murky. All I can suggest is keep your eyes peeled for opportunity

Thank you for listening, 
Devi 

http://concentrationcamps.us/

readsludge.com/2019/06/27/who-is-making-money-from-cbp-in-your-state/ 

readsludge.com/2019/07/03/these-nonprofits-and-businesses-are-making-millions-from-detaining-immigrant-children/
lyrics

I'll go into hell 
I'll go in to hell 
I'll go into hell 
I'll burn forever in your arms 

I can't say where I am right now 
I can't move, could you show me how? 

Is it the same as it always was? 
Am I to blame for wanting love? 

I catch a wave, I ride along 
I'm easygoing most of the time now 
I thought I was, but I was wrong 
I can't take this shit anymore now.

Easygoing

(rook) 
im bleeding out on my back 
staining the floor of your bedroom 
im laughing because it feels 
like i am finally somewhere that makes sense 
i feel so fucked up 
but i just wanna be fucked up with you 
you just get it 
im just so glad we're friends 

sometimes i just wonder who i am 
sometimes i want to kill who i am 
sometimes i don't want to feel anything at all 

(devi) 
i know ur out there, hello hello? 
im sorry i sing my prayer out of tune 
i never thought i could go to heaven 
until i died and i met you... 
is the truth just too depressing? 
my body hardly knows how to move 
crawling thru the dying soil 
i think i see 1 flower bloom 

(rook) 
and all those years 
just wanting to run away 
i never dared to dream 
that i could ever feel safe 
if i could tell myself 
that i would feel alive again someday 
maybe id be ok 

anyway 

(rook+devi) 
dead girls dry each others eyes 
and pretend for a while that we're still alive