Still Alive

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[verse 1]
The spirits of a boy, can be crushed here,
Single bed in a cold house, roof leakin’ in fear.
Learned to fight young, learned to move in the dark,
Every step that I took felt like a walk in the park.
Knew hunger too well, stomach talkin’ all night,
Turned pennies into meals, prayin’ hard for the light.
Hand-me-downs, shoes talkin’, holes in my jeans,
But I still had a dream bigger than these cracked-up streets.

Dodged the dealers, the killers, the ones out for blood,
Learned to spot trouble fast when you raised in the mud.
Ain’t no father at home, just the weight on my back,
Tryna find a way out but the odds never stack.
Still, I’m here, still breathin’, still chasin’ my lane,
Ain’t no shackles on my feet, ain’t no loss in my name.
Ain’t supposed to make it, but God had a plan,
So I 
lift up my hands, ‘cause I still get the chance.

[chorus]
(Thank God I’m still alive… ohhh, I’m still alive… ohhh!)
I done walked through the valley, I done stood in the fire,
Had a gun to my head, and I still survive!
(Thank God I’m still alive… ohhh, I’m still alive… ohhh!)
Felt the cold grip of death, heard my heartbeat fade,
Every breath was a prayer, every night was a crusade.
(Thank God I’m still alive… ohhh, I’m still alive… ohhh!)
Ain’t no rewind, ain’t no second chance in this life,
If you still standin’ now, then you won that fight!
Thank god, I’m still alive.

[verse 2]
I’ve seen kids get lost in the smoke,
Some ran with the pack, some never came home.
Some took a shot, some got shot,
Some names live on in the walls they forgot.
Ain’t no safe zone, ain’t no warnings at all,
You could slip in the summer, never see the next fall.
I been out past dark, heard the whispers in the night,
Felt the fear in my gut when the steel caught light.

The Fuckin’ hunger, it got hands it’ll push you to sin,
Tryna flip somethin’ quick, just to make up rent.
Tryna make it out, but the ropes pull tight,
When the thieves get hungry you be ready to fight.
Grew up fast, had to learn to read the signs,
Had to know when to stand, when to dip, when to hide.
The hood got rules, but they change too quick,
Ain’t no fuckin’ guide, you just born into the mix.

[chorus]
(Thank God I’m still alive… ohhh, I’m still alive… ohhh!)
I done walked through the valley, I done stood in the fire,
Had a gun to my head, and I still survive!
(Thank God I’m still alive… ohhh, I’m still alive… ohhh!)
Felt the cold grip of death, heard my heartbeat fade,
Every breath was a prayer, every night was a crusade.
(Thank God I’m still alive… ohhh, I’m still alive… ohhh!)
Ain’t no rewind, ain’t no second chance in this life,
If you still standin’ now, then you won that fight!
Thank god, I’m still alive.

[verse 3]
Homies turned ghosts, and the streets don’t cry,
Houses burn slow when revenge feel right.
I been lucky, been blessed, been spared by the tide,
Coulda been another one buried inside.
Coulda been me—Lord knows I was fuckin’ close,
Almost 
followed that path, almost gave up my ghost.
Coulda been another fuckin’ name that the news just read,
Another Mama cryin’ over dirt on a stone.

Every scar, every wound, every time I got hit,
Every loss I done took made me stronger than this.
I seen both sides, the good and the bad,
And I know now, I was built to outlast.
Every friend that I lost, every tear that I shed,
Every time I felt close to layin’ down with the dead-
Somehow, I survived, somehow, I’m still here,
So I whisper my thanks through the pain and the fear.

[chorus]

Still Alive

Loves Worth It

[verse 1]
I was lost in the night, heart wrapped in chains,
Thought I’d never feel the fire, never love again.
Then you crashed through the dark like a raging sea,
Took the walls I had built and set me free.

You were lightning, you were thunder, you were wild, untamed,
Every touch, every whisper set my soul in flames.
And I swore I would never fall so hard,
But here I stand, torn apart…

Yet still I give you all my heart…

[chorus]

Because love is fire, love is war,
Love is everything worth fighting for!
It lifts you up, it pulls you down,
Takes you high, then spins you ‘round!

But I surrender, take me whole,
I’d rather burn than lose control!
Love, you win, I bow to thee,
Take all I am—set me free!

[verse 2]
Oh, the battle, oh, the scars,
Every word we threw like shooting stars!
But even in the storm, even in the fall,
I’d rather fight for love than feel nothing at all!

I see it in your eyes, I hear it in your breath,
The way you hold me close, afraid of what’s left…
But love is fearless, love is wild,
Love is the heart of every child!

So take my hand, don’t be afraid,
Let’s dance in the fire we both made!

[chorus]
Because love is fire, love is war,
Love is everything worth fighting for!
It lifts you up, it pulls you down,
Takes you high, then spins you ‘round!

But I surrender, take me whole,
I’d rather burn than lose control!
Love, you win, I bow to thee,
Take all I am—set me free!

[verse 3]
If this is madness, then let me be insane,
I’ll take the pleasure, I’ll take the pain!
For every wound, for every scar,
Love, you make us who we are!

So light the sky, let the world ignite,
Let love be the force that fuels our fight!
No regrets, no fear, no shame,
I’ll shout it loud—love’s my name!

[chorus]

Because love is fire, love is war,
Love is everything worth fighting for!
It lifts you up, it pulls you down,
Takes you high, then spins you ‘round!

But I surrender, take me whole,
I’d rather burn than lose control!
Love, you win, I bow to thee,
Take all I am—set me free!

Loves Worth It

Candlelight Letters

[verse 1]
You liked sugar in your coffee, just a pinch, never stirred
I wrote that down the morning after — second page, second word
You were humming in my hallway, I was barefoot on the floor
Didn’t know how much I’d miss you till your echo closed the door

Told myself you weren’t for keeping, just a flame I had to feel
But every candle flickered softer when you left and took the real
I never sent these words to find you, I just wrote them to survive
Now they whisper from the paper like they’re somehow still alive

[chorus]
Candlelight letters, never lit
Just ink and hope I couldn’t quit
Folded my heart in the margin tight
Maybe love just reads better by candlelight
Candlelight letters, left unsent
Pages full of what I meant
And if you ever hold them to the flame
You’ll hear my voice — callin’ your name

[verse 2]
You used to fix my crooked necklace, said the clasp belonged in back
And I’d pretend that little moments never threw me off my track
But I was memorizing seconds, like they’d vanish in the breeze
So I scribbled them on napkins, between silence and reprieve

You deserved a song, not silence — but I was better with a pen
So I turned our days to verses that the wind could read again
I wasn’t brave enough to mail them, wasn’t broken all the way
But tonight I lit a match — and let the chorus find its say

[chorus]
Candlelight letters, never lit
Just ink and hope I couldn’t quit
Folded my heart in the margin tight
Maybe love just reads better by candlelight
Candlelight letters, left unsent
Pages full of what I meant
And if you ever hold them to the flame
You’ll hear my voice — callin’ your name

[verse 3]
Years have softened all the edges, but your laugh cuts just the same
Found a photo in my drawer, and your eyes still frame the frame
I forgave us both in pencil — ‘cause I knew I’d change the lines
But this letter stayed untouched… like some truths don’t age with time

If you read this in the quiet, with the lamp turned low and gold
Let each sentence wrap around you like the arms you used to hold
I don’t need a “me too” message, or a call across the years
Just a minute of your heartbeat, where the past still reappears

[chorus]
Candlelight letters, never lit
Just ink and hope I couldn’t quit
Folded my heart in the margin tight
Maybe love just reads better by candlelight
Candlelight letters, left unsent
Pages full of what I meant
And if you ever hold them to the flame
You’ll hear my voice — callin’ your name

Candlelight Letters

Half The Moon

[verse]
I memorized your playlist, learned your sleep routine
Sent good morning messages you never really read, it seems
Held the door, held my breath, held it down through every doubt
While you held back the pieces you were scared to live without

I thought I saw forever in the silence that you gave
Told myself love’s quieter when it’s something we both crave
But I was writing futures while you circled other names
Now I see the missing weight — and I won’t wear that blame

[chorus]
You gave me half the moon
But I brought the whole sky
I lit up every corner
Still couldn’t meet your eyes
You kissed me with caution
Like love was some old wound
And I stayed tryin’ to fill you
With only half the moon

[verse 2]
You’d change the subject gently when the talk got too real
Kept your truth behind a curtain I could never quite peel
I kept folding tiny moments into songs you’d never hear
And loving you felt holy — but you kept your altar clear

Told my friends you were just “busy” when you missed my highs and lows
But deep down, I was shrinking in the space where trust should grow
There’s a price to being patient when they don’t show up in kind
I was loyal to a maybe while you wandered through your mind

[chorus]
You gave me half the moon
But I brought the whole sky
I lit up every corner
Still couldn’t meet your eyes
You kissed me with caution
Like love was some old wound
And I stayed tryin’ to fill you
With only half the moon

[verse 3]
You might not have meant to hurt me, might’ve thought you gave enough
But love that pulls in pieces just ain’t the kind I want to trust
I don’t hate the way you held me, I just hate how much I bent
To be worthy of a whisper, when I needed your intent

Now I’m walking toward my sunrise, even if I go alone
Learned that giving isn’t grace if it just leaves your spirit thrown
If you ever look for me in songs, just know I left too soon
Not because I didn’t love you —
But ‘cause I needed more than half the moon

[chorus]
You gave me half the moon
But I brought the whole sky
I lit up every corner
Still couldn’t meet your eyes
You kissed me with caution
Like love was some old wound
And I stayed tryin’ to fill you
With only half the moon

Half The Moon

I don't wanna (with Aura Daniel)

Til The Beat Done

[intro]
Well I been broken, rebuilt, and sharpened like steel.
You ever love so hard it turned violent?
Ever trust so deep it dug your grave?

I ain’t here to play the hero or the villain — I’m both.
So fuck your rules, your apologies, your little safe zones.
I ain’t sorry for who I became.
And I ain’t done yet.
Let’s get it.

[verse 1]
Fuck ‘em if they talkin’ — I ain’t hearin’ shit today,
Same snakes that dap you up be plottin’ where your sister stay.
I’m ten toes in it, bulletproof spirit,
Ridin’ with a Glock and a ghost that won’t quit it.
Bitch, I was raised on liquor and lies,
Mama cried while I learned to read pain in her eyes.
Now I’m cuttin’ through fake like a blade in confession,
Every scar on my name is a motherfuckin’ lesson.
I don’t do sorry — I do war and redemption,
Put my fist through the face of your passive aggression.
Got a fine-ass ride and she twisted like fate,
Pussy wet like revenge, and she ride while I skate.
I ain’t no saint, but I’m real to the core,
Pull a rat out his hole, leave his dreams on the floor.
Ain’t no warnin’, I move like a rumor with teeth,
Tatted truth on my soul, buried love underneath.
Life’s a bitch in heels with a switchblade tongue,
She moans when I bleed — got me fuckin’ where I come from.
Ain’t no peace signs here, just a middle one raised,
For the cops, for my pops, for the block that betrayed.

[chorus]
Ain’t no saints, ain’t no rules — we just sin smart.
Load the clip, blow the truth through your bitch heart.
Fuck peace — I want war with a velvet touch,
Bad bitches, hard liquor, and a soul that won’t hush.
Ain’t no sorry, ain’t no tears for the weak ones,
Life chose me, now I fuck it till the beat done.
Say I’m wrong, say I’m lost — still I won’t bow.
I was born in the dark, and I own this now.

[verse 2]
She said talk dirty — I said, “How ‘bout honest?”
Bent her like karma and fucked her like a promise.
Got lust in my lungs and a deathwish smile,
Got trust issues thicker than a DEA file.
Bitches love power, I give ‘em that raw,
Got ‘em beggin’ in the whip like they sinnin’ the law.
I don’t text back — I leave ghosts on read,
She say I’m toxic, but still come give me head.
Dick game fatal, like a verse with no edit,
They scream my name when I’m deep — that’s poetic.
Backshots and backstabs, all in one night,
She bite down like betrayal, then ride like a fight.
Can’t cuff me — I belong to the flame,
Fuck a title, I got bars that remember my name.
I’m the truth you scared to say, the thought you suppress,
The preacher with a pistol and a chain on his chest.
Tell God if he’s listenin’, he better brace,
‘Cause I’m comin’ for heaven with a grin on my face.

[verse 3]
I spit verses like last rites, bless ‘em with bars,
Got a cross in my closet and sins in my scars.
Every line’s like a blade that undresses the fake,
I give ‘em real, they choke — can’t swallow what I make.
I’m a preacher with a mic and a Glock in the pulpit,
Make the devil say damn when I empty the full clip.
I seen heaven in the curves of a sinner’s hips,
Fell in love with a lie, now I’m dancing with sins.
I don’t need a chain — I been shackled by fate,
Now my soul wear scars like a .40 wears hate.
Call me a fuck-up — bitch, I’ll take that crown,
Still strapped, still cursed, still holdin’ shit down.
Play Judas once, get smoked on repeat,
Got a trunk full of rage and a mask on the seat.
So fuck your peace talk — I was bred in the fire,
Every verse a bullet, every breath my empire.
From the cradle to the casket, I spit with no fear,
If they take me out now — carve “God” in my ear.

[chorus]

Til The Beat Done

Doors To The Moon

[verse 1]
There’s a clock inside the comet
And it’s counting down in light
I saw my shadow on the ceiling
Falling faster than the night
Gravity dreams in whispers
That pull the breath from sound
Every second folds like paper
But never hits the ground

[chorus]
Are we echoes, are we flame?
Are we just the voice without the name?
Floating through a thought we never chose
Chasing moons that never close

[verse 2]
The world is stitched in orbit
Round illusions we obey
And every thought I thought was mine
Was just the static in the gray
I watched the past collapse in waves
A thousand years too soon
Time grinned beneath the fabric
And carved a door into the moon

[chorus]
Are we echoes, are we flame?
Are we just the voice without the name?
Floating through a thought we never chose
Chasing moons that never close

[bridge]
The light bends slow, and so do we
Time unthreads us carefully
A satellite with no return
A soul too late to learn
If we fall beyond the now
Will we ever know the how?
Or will we blink, then disappear
Into a thought that can’t be clear?

[verse 3]
I tried to write a meaning
But the ink began to float
It spelled out truths I couldn’t read
Then swallowed every note
The mirror showed me backwards
The sky showed me delay
And in between, I lost myself
Still orbiting the day

[chorus]
Are we echoes, are we flame?
Are we just the voice without the name?
Floating through a thought we never chose
Chasing moons that never close

Doors To The Moon

Ghosts In Glass

[verse 1]
The wind rewinds through broken halls
Where laughter once would breathe
A clock without a pendulum
Still counting out belief
The wallpape peels like memories
That never learned to fade
I sit inside the echo now
And wait for yesterday

[chorus]
Are we ghosts inside the glass
Waving backwards through the past?
Will the sky still know my name
When the silence learns to last?
I wore the years like second skin
But they never let me in

[verse 2]
They taught me how to measure time
But never how to spend it
I filed away the finer days
Then wondered where they went
I chased a sun behind the fog
And named it something true
But every name I gave the light
Just led me back to you

[chorus]
Are we ghosts inside the glass
Waving backwards through the past?
Will the sky still know my name
When the silence learns to last?
I wore the years like second skin
But they never let me in

[bridge]
And if the stars forget to shine
Will we forget we tried?
A faded map, a fraying thread
Still tangled in goodbye
I’d give it all to turn around
But forward’s all I find

[verse 3]
I found your voice in dying tape
Distorted by the dust
You whispered things I used to be
Before I gave them up
The mirror’s not a liar now
It’s just an empty frame
I speak, it blinks, but won’t reply
Like you — it plays the game

[chorus]
Are we ghosts inside the glass
Waving backwards through the past?
Will the sky still know my name
When the silence learns to last?
I wore the years like second skin
But they never let me in

Ghosts In Glass

Keyholes


[verse 1]
Found a keyhole in a ripple
Floating sideways in the air
It talked like it knew me
And then whispered, “don’t you dare”
I turned my thoughts into a feather
Slipped it in like it belonged
Now I’m dancing with the ceiling
And the floor has all but gone

[chorus]
Through the keyhole, past the glass  
Where colors breathe and voices pass  
The mirrors bloom, the meanings bend  
You lose your start, forget your end  

Where stars drift low and thoughts expand  
And nothing’s quite the way you planned  
Don’t look back, don’t ask how  
You’re in it now, you’re in it now  

[verse 2]
The rabbit speaks in riddled echoes
Sipping tea that sings in waves
A melody with teeth and fingers
Pulls me further into haze
The clouds here bloom in violet spirals
And the fish all speak in chords
I tried to ask them why I’m here
But they just danced and drew a sword

[chorus]
Through the keyhole, past the glass  
Where colors breathe and voices pass  
The mirrors bloom, the meanings bend  
You lose your start, forget your end  

Where stars drift low and thoughts expand  
And nothing’s quite the way you planned  
Don’t look back, don’t ask how  
You’re in it now, you’re in it now  

[verse3]
Breathe the maze into your bones
Let go of what you’ve always known
All the doors were always one
You are the key — now be undone
Whispered clocks that never tick
Minds that bend but never break
Fall forever, fall for play
And wake up on the other side of gray

[chorus]
Through the keyhole, past the glass  
Where colors breathe and voices pass  
The mirrors bloom, the meanings bend  
You lose your start, forget your end  

Where stars drift low and thoughts expand  
And nothing’s quite the way you planned  
Don’t look back, don’t ask how  
You’re in it now, you’re in it now

Keyholes

Learning Me Again

[Verse 1]
Woke up late, forgot to eat,  
A shadow standing on my feet.  
Mirror don’t reflect my name,  
Same skin, but it don’t feel the same.  
I used to dance just down the hall,  
Barefoot, bold, ten feet tall.  
Now I freeze when silence speaks,  
Counting seconds, losing weeks.

[Chorus]
I don’t feel like myself anymore,  
Like I left her crying behind that door.  
She was sunlight, full of fire—  
Now I’m ashes dressed in quiet attire.  
I wear the face, I fake the grace,  
But I miss her laugh, her fearless pace.  
I don’t know where I started to fade…  
But I’d give it all to feel her again.

[Verse 2]
My friends don’t ask the heavy stuff,  
And I don’t tell them when it’s rough.  
I learned to joke, to spin, to cope,  
To wear mascara and give up hope.  
I used to write in purple pens,  
Now it’s deadlines, bills, and “depends.”  
I used to sing like no one heard—  
Now I choke on every word.

[Chorus]
I don’t feel like myself anymore,  
Like I left her crying behind that door.  
She was sunlight, full of fire—  
Now I’m ashes dressed in quiet attire.  
I wear the face, I fake the grace,  
But I miss her laugh, her fearless pace.  
I don’t know where I started to fade…  
But I’d give it all to feel her again.

[Verse 3]
Sometimes I hum a melody,  
And think she’s humming back to me.  
Like if I sing it soft enough,  
She’ll crawl back through all this stuff.  
There’s a photo in a dusty box—  
Eyes that spark before the loss.  
If I ever meet her in this haze…  
I’ll hold her close, and let her stay.

[Bridge]
Beneath the noise, beneath the mask,  
There’s still a girl I didn’t ask—  
To wait this long and still believe…  
But today I felt her breathe.

[Chorus]
I don’t feel like myself no more—  
But I just cracked open that old door.  
And in the quiet, I heard her hum,  
Like sunlight breaking through the numb.  
I wear the face, but now with grace,  
And feel her strength in every place.  
She never left — she lived within…  
And now I’m learning me again.

I don’t feel like myself anymore,  
Like I left her crying behind that door.  
She was sunlight, full of fire—  
Now I’m ashes dressed in quiet attire.  
I wear the face, I fake the grace,  
But I miss her laugh, her fearless pace.  
I don’t know where I started to fade…  
But I’d give it all to feel her again.

Learning Me Again

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