prod dead yami

know i always been afraid of heights

lamb shanks at spiros

spark

clock out just to be unsatisfied
i hate how they act when their not around me
i think that they care but its synthesized
now all i can trust is this synthesizer

so what do you expect from me
i can only do so much
having trouble keeping it all going
itll never be the same as it was

take it all theres nothing left
take it all theres nothing
their hands they pull me off my bed
its fine i guess, their not a threat

digesting all the things you said x2 
ill hate their guts until im dead
thats what i get, gave you my best

and its not even like im over anything
maybe can we resume
come back in, ill freak out, my actions
breed catastrophe
don't care anymore im done, dont care anymore i won
dont care anymore, dont care like before i was

so upset, with myself, i regret everything, everything, everything
that ive done
tried my best every time, im depressed every night, every night, every night

threat

@1cfx
@xodazed
@user-247374841
@bupcoy
@endlessly-654227871

freak ay freak

like a pear w/ cfx, dazed?!, ashthekidd, bupcoy, & endlessly [prod. carti]

album mode

everything by me

words:
u know its ur decision to 
actively stay in darkness
wake up but you’re still sleeping the
cycle will keep u nauseous
your boyfriends a fuckin pussy n
ur fake smile is hard to look at
i know what u been missing and
how long your hearts been vacant 

gets tough to play fair
always acting like i dont care
we can but we can’t
and u think ur selflessness is worth a damn

my eyelids cant stay up
our time is limited fuck
waste time and have enough
ill take my severence now
u dont know who to trust
pipe down and listen once
u say u want new luv
whats new bout giving up

always complain in circles and
tend to exhaust excuses
its like you love to bicker and
realize ur just as useless
clearly im too impatient and 
can’t even bare to listen
if i told the truth too candid i
just know youd go ballistic 

gets tough to play fair
and this time genuinely i dont care
we can but we can’t
and u think ur selflessness is worth a damn

my eyelids cant stay up
our time is limited fuck
waste time and have enough
ill take my severence now
u dont know who to trust
pipe down and listen once
u say u want new luv
whats new bout giving up

severance

#aftrrLife
prod me and dsi

whenever im wrong i just end up mistaken
i cant do no wrong if its up i cant make it
feed off my energy buddy just face it
u do what i do but the swag aint for taking
find a new method ur pockets outdated
im close to the bread i could almost just taste it
ttd had to take a step back
made em boys proud know i got they back
feel like b miller i gotta spin back
for my brother my woadie its simple as that
flex ona net everybody just cap
and they hating each other no love where im at
nothing to lose ima take what i can
and i know that much true ima push the advance
pushing thru all of this pain fr
i cannot fw no snake fr
look at the world i live in its covered in lies
this shit it aint a surprise
righting my wrongs but im losing my pride 
and they come and they go but i stay on my side
tearing my heart with the music apart with the money inside
im playing my part i would die for this shit
if u took what i felt would u still be alive

remember them days i used to cry bout it
talk down ill die bout it
fake love they lie bout it
head high my mind crowded
headshot the scope mounted
drum rounded
drop dead he dumbfounded
me vs the world im surrounded
keep up the score im counting
my brother told me that ima prevail
i gotta keep going ill never give out
almost let up i done been thru a lot
for the ppl i lost im making it count
spending my money making it back
do it again til my pockets fall out
wash everybody ima put em in a drought
see em all talk im eyeing em out
im getting higher n higher
run me a lap not tired tired
telling my truth no liar liar
im getting higher n higher
run me a lap not tired tired
chasing my trail u desperate dire
turn up the city i broke off the locks
hop in that mazi i skrt off the lot
stick to myself cant fw no thot
follow the plan im the shot caller 
hold me a band u dont know nada

https://ffm.to/aftrrlife
prod aftrr

what should i do
i know ur missing somebody else too
we could break all the rules
we got something between me and u

hard times got me trippin bout somebody new
all eyes tryna see what way ur body move
we outside, conversations bout whats bothering u
u confide in me
u confide in me
woah oh, if i lose it ima find my way
and we know everything good always ends this way
take it slow, turning back i keep my pace
i keep my pace

is it something to see
then come ride with me on the road
gritting ur teeth
ok im putting on a show
is it something in me
if so then just let me know
im touching hundred degrees
the way u touch on me slow
is it something to see
then come ride with me on the road
gritting ur teeth
ok im putting on a show
is it something in me
if so then just let me know
its hot like hundred degrees
the way u touch on me slow

what should i do
i know ur missing somebody else too
we could break all the rules
we got something between me and u

looking for a piece of mind
she said she dont wanna tell no lie
what u doing, what u doing tonight
bring it home, we can go inside
woah oh, if i lose it ima find my way
and we know everything good always ends this way
take it slow, turning back i keep my pace
i keep my pace

is it something to see
then come ride with me on the road
gritting ur teeth
ok im putting on a show
is it something in me
if so then just let me know
its hot like hundred degrees
the way u touch on me slow

what should i do
i know ur missing somebody else too
we could break all the rules
we got something between me and u

stream

Somebody Else

im feeling it now

project file breakdown: https://youtu.be/eSwd2ZLMSHA?si=h1SbVUIdfoZ3i4B9

produced/mixed by @daywxtch, @siahhenderson
written by @daywxtch, @siahhenderson

samples used:
https://youtu.be/b-Ruwu4OaZA?si=kM9hNiNo_EGjb79n
https://youtu.be/xJjIZmHHLyU?si=vKqJmXFQ3mn7UgHD
https://youtu.be/13-Wn02ESDo?si=ogytjyfWVMSo_Ro0

lyrics:
[@daywxtch]
you stay in the backseat with your partners
don't know how to respond, this shits all new to me
pose with different faces like an actor
pretty as a bitch, but you're not her
thought it, journaled it, wrote it
in the shower, thought i knew you
rough draft, threw it
what the fuck is new to you?

is it bad that i still get scared with the lights out?
shrink and hide under my pillow until it's bright out
i escape to places that i've never been
sybau (bruh), badge up on my chest
i'm a veteran
better know that i keep it with me
dumb tricks that i keep up my sleeve
why does no one else say "please" but me?
put me behind
it's driving me insane, got no one else to blame
i stay the same, i stay the same

(gay sing moan)

i wish i could lay right next to you
you're not around and in all honesty that really sucks
look past, forget and feel numb
i wish i could be just like you
i'm on my own and in all honesty that really sucks
look past, forget, and feel numb

[@siahhenderson]
heard you wanna leave me in the past tense isnt what i want but i expected it
every shot you take it missed a veteran
lonesome hours in my skin

idk whats happenin brain got clipped
soft lips my coma screw it oh
ik my orders

yeah now you dont care bout what you say to me threw me to the side threw me to the fire she said baby can you prove to me
that im in the right
please dont keep it inside

why am i pleading
head screwed off
traumatic sequence man without a soul
fires burnin all i own

(VETERAN REFRAIN)

[@daywxtch]
i wish i could breathe life into you
i can't communicate, it really sucks
i people please and hope it sums to love
i wish i could meet in the middle with you
you don't respond and in all honesty that really sucks
i look past, forget, and feel numb!

YOU'RE NOT HER.

DIVE OFF.
IF YOU THINK WHAT I HOLD FOR YOU IS WRONG.
I'LL DRIVE OFF, YOU DON'T WANNA SEE ME ANYMORE.

patience, i love more than anyone
(i know that we don't talk)
ain't no erasing, you know more than anyone
(i know that we don't talk)
is it bad that i still get scared with the lights off?!
we're in the center and we don't talk!?
don't take initiative, so it's my fault

repeat repetition, but THERE'S NO DRAW!!!!

i wanna go to places i've never been
displaying wins on my chest like i'm a veteran
i'm saying i want to make them proud.  
_______________________________________________________
ꀤꌗꍏꀤꍏꃅ 41:10 (NIV), "꓄ꃅꂦꀎ ꀸꂦ ꈤꂦ꓄ ꎇꍟꍏꋪ, ꎇꂦꋪ ꀤ ꍏꂵ ꅏꀤ꓄ꃅ ꌩꂦꀎ; ꌃꍟ ꈤꂦ꓄ ꀸꀤꌗꂵꍏꌩꍟꀸ, ꎇꂦꋪ ꀤ ꍏꂵ ꌩꂦꀎꋪ ꁅꂦꀸ;
 ꀤ ꅏꀤ꒒꒒ ꌗ꓄ꋪꍟꈤꁅ꓄ꃅꍟꈤ ꌩꂦꀎ, ꀤ ꅏꀤ꒒꒒ ꃅꍟ꒒ꉣ ꌩꂦꀎ, ꀤ ꅏꀤ꒒꒒ ꀎꉣꃅꂦ꒒ꀸ ꌩꂦꀎ ꅏꀤ꓄ꃅ ꂵꌩ ꋪꀤꁅꃅ꓄ꍟꂦꀎꌗ ꋪꀤꁅꃅ꓄ ꃅꍏꈤꀸ."

veteran

had to start this year off with something different than usual, im hoping to drop every month :] i love you thank you for pressing play

crazy

prod. aftrr

https://open.spotify.com/track/02BBd8UXRmVG97yhTZJtiL?si=e500a6382d31475f

like a pear w/ cfx, dazed?!, ashthekidd, bupcoy, & endlessly [prod. carti]

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