fucked up songs to plug hole in soul

September 2021

thoughtform collective - September 2021

Vibes III

work

love sick (prod. Cyfal) *OUT EVERYWHERE*

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DEVASTATE (PROD. KAISER)

https://linktr.ee/Rivilin

Through the breeze past the trees can you hear me
calling calling for a remedy
you should know better, know  better stay away
everything I love turns to stone knowing im in this alone

heartbreak yeah you take just a part of me
in your pocket keep me close as you fall asleep
cut me down cut me down like im nothing
please just stay away this will never be something

so what do you know what do you see what do you feel
are your emotions just for me yeah are they real
blame my mental state for reasons why im not enough
blame the chemicals for why you ignore me a lot

learn to not let anyone in, I know its toxic, no
it hurts everyone I call a friend
but its the only way I know I won’t be let down again
so we just repeat the cycle of me just building up my walls until they come crumbling down

piling the up drugs to numb myself
you don’t like competition so you leave me on the shelf
until your ex-boyfriend hits you up asking where you’re at
yeah I don’t get it why I was used, I don’t understand why you think it’s ok

just to abuse someone who had best intentions
I didn’t get it but I tried to be there whenever you mentioned that
you were going through hell I wish that you could just tell
me what was really on your mind when you said I was empty

Cast Aside Time

foolish「shinju + taylor morgan」

THANK GOD & THANK YOU ALL <3

Lyrics: 

Damn, Damn, Damn 

I’m high as fuck off your love, let me hear your tone 
You telling me to move on, can you pick up your phone 
I wanna show you that I’m different, I know you been alone 
You won’t give me a chance to prove that I am the one 
This the letter to the girl that’s been shot down broken 
Put a wall over emotions, let me be your token 
I can make you feel better, move in slow motion 
Baby let me take a sip of your potion 


Okay
You got my eyes, my attention 
You think you ain’t the only one i’m messing with 
Baby you should know how it is 
I understand you don’t trust, but you should think positive 

Like Okay
I been walking thru a lonely road 
And I wonder if you love me so
Overthinking got me moving slow 
Cause you been asking shit you already know 

Damn girl
You look so fine today 
I remember seeing you on my insta page 
I had to get to know you better, hope you think the same 
Middle fingers to your ex so he don’t get in the way 
You told me you been dropped, fucked up mistreated 
Fuck them, Ima show you what you shoulda been leading 
Girl we winning taking big dubs forever 
Your hearts cold but I’ll give you mine to sub as a sweater

potion of hearts (prod. Cyfal) *OUT EVERYWHERE*

lil dovas x pitfall - party rocking (prod. kyuro & lil dovas)

lyrics:

i fell too
i wanted to save myself
i wanted to wait for a sign
that you want me too
every day
i ran away from myself
i wanted to wait for a sign
that you want me too

a sign

Shoutout to @danielsgone, @miyorator, @navvvi, @the0000, @lvstforpain, @ssjcxrpse, @stvrfire & @dhaelo for additional vocals at the end, wouldn't have anyone else help me burn the world down.

WITH: @LVSTFORPAIN & @DANIELSGONE
PROD: @SSJCXRPSE
MIX: @ZYROM & @LVSTFORPAIN
ART: @C3OF

LYRICS:
[LVST]
People make me sick
Always leave me hungry straight sucking
Up on a dick
Always about cuffing ain't fucking with any bitch
I ain't trust no person, no human I won't give in
Always catch me in a bad habit
Like a jackrabbit I be jumping I ain't passive
Molasses knee-deep in acid
They call my ass a faggot
Like damn it, you got me laughing
Yo pussy passive rapping ain't happening pick up the actin
Please pick up the action
Please pick up the action
Killing every faction I fraction the ones that back in
You ain't working hard you be lifting without ya back in
Your mix got hella highs but where the fuck is all the back end
You can catch a backhand
Acting like hoe
You ain't own a pole you super sweet like oreo
You gon hold her hand and take that bimbo fucking home
Get no fucking dome got no respect you brittle boned

[SAINT SLEEP]
I've been steady losing hope
In the people on this planet
I just hope they fucking vanish
Every day that pass I just seem to get a little sadder
People on the street asking why my skin is suffocation blue
Get the fuck up out my face
Had with your ways I just hope you waste away I be counting down till its doomsday
Mark it on your planner and your calendar we playing ding dong ditch on the gates of heaven
Population control blow this mad world into pieces
Worn out places with these worn-out ghosts
Everybody walk off of the cliff looking for a job post
Jaw broke when they took a bite out of what's left of my hope
Push the deadline back close the shop for good we ain't ever selling shit again
Fishing through the bargain bin looking for my soul but I spent all my savings on a pole

[DANIELS GONE]
Picking up the pieces
Corner slang diseases
By the seasons
Niggas wanna stick
But carry no adhesive
Done with preaching to you niggas
I've accepted all the dumb and heartless
How am I gon trust you?
When you filling up your lungs with carbon
Dopamine fiends
High off ya ego
We don't share no commonwealth
Puerto Rico
Sticking needles like mosquito uh
On the social feeding your libido
All these kiddies filling in as a placebo
Shut the fuck up
Homie you was pussy from the jump
Niggas fuck around and flexing fake pumps
Snorting coke
Brain muck
Cancerous
I think I feel a lump
Fuck around and disappear like trump
Sick of feeling shrunk
Sick of being piled with the junk
I don't want them corny niggas in my bunk
Hella chatty when you drunk
Fake woke role-playing as a monk
Everybody got they shit but no spunk
No spunk
No spunk

[OUTRO]
If you wanna see the world burn say ayy ohh
If you wanna break some bones say ayy ohh
If you sick of living brittle say ayy ohh
If you wanna disappear and know nobody cares say ayy ohh

Black Lotus Emporium

Brittle Bones ft. LVST & daniels gone

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Brittle Bones ft. LVST & daniels gone [prod. cxrpse]

ty luna for art so real
https://twitter.com/oni_core

https://open.spotify.com/album/6xIiy7Xmgf7W5uzdITRWR4?si=n-xEkO4DQAutXboTU517dQ&dl_branch=1

Spotify

don't go

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗

@buffalobang

those words u speak to me
never tells me the truth i need from u
in true honesty 


i can’t keep going in circles 
my heart hurts from something so simple 
it’s u away from me 
in true honesty 

i can’t help it 
it’s ur touch tht i need
i can’t fight it 
it’s my heart that bleeds
those words u speak to me 
never tells the truth i need 
from u from uuu

i can’t keep on going in circles 
my heart hurts from something so simple 
it’s u away from me 
in true honesty 

buffalobang :
if i could
then i would
its not that easy atleast not for me
if i could
then i would
eventually ill find what i need
give me 
your word baby
tell me
im all u need
even if it isnt close to being true
i need to feed this thought of me and you
seal these
lips shut and kiss
me if
if i say please
i really wish u felt the way i do
i think that if we try we’ll make it through

in true honesty w/ buffalobang (twintails x remghost)

thoughtform 🧠 🌻

exec: nitro
prod: 
* nitro (executive producer, instrumentation 1-5) (background vocals; 1) (co-writing; 3)
* caspy (vocals; 1)
* horosha (vocals; 2) (mixing; 2-3)
* novagarden (vocals; 3) 
* mkultra (vocals; 3)
* sparko (vocals; 3)
* tofu (vocals; 3-4) (co-prod; 3) 
* kxly06 (co-prod, instrumentation; 3) (mixing; 3 and 4)
* jay hollin (vocals; 5)
* ucif (vocals; 5)

daydreamers / goodbyes (w/ jay hollin & ucif)

midnite hour (w/ tofu)

demons (w/ sparko, mkultra & kxly06)

fragment (w/ horosha)

the bonfire (w/ caspy)

Kid Mango x Sydcxx - Running circles

cutter [prod. triplesixdelete]

Deftones - Smile

Somethings

KINGDØM:

so why don't you count some sheep?
it'll all be over soon
'cuz darling counting on me
is a bet you're gonna lose

and i know you don't care about 
all the things you pick and choose
yeah i wrote this for you,
i wrote this for you

yeah everybody said we'd make it
spend a couple racks we smokin' thraxx down in the basement

the high's the only bitch that i been chasing
i'm a demon shawty silver casings

OCHIKONDA:

baby i know that we're gonna make it
gave you all my heart you shall not break it
i know you're missing me you cannot fake it
lying to my face i fucking hate it

yeah i can feel it in my veins

KINGDØM:

i know you're missing me

OCHIKONDA:

i know i'm going insane

KINGDØM:

escape reality

OCHIKONDA:

moving reckless with no pain

call it noble

i'll kiss u in the rain </3

missing me - kingdøm x ochikonda (+deadspyro) *432Hz*

prod. nxcturnal
mix/master/vox [blvckehart, vqcant]



love you guys 

lyrics:
You choose a gray love
Can't make amends with the pain and the devil inside
You try to escape, but it's all in your mind
I sleep with my pain in my dreams at night
Just benzo tap my veins till' I seem alright
Isolate, no
Try to sedate, no
Try to wake up
Can't pick a trace up
You'll lose yourself always choosing to chase the same love
You choose a gray love
The black and shameful

Staring my death
Straight in the face
Gaze off the bridge with the pain in my brain
Signal is switched off to powerless
Showering down
Shroud full of darkness
Hourglass pourin'
Hoping my life would not jump off that terrace
Hoping my life would not break off in edges
Loosing my sanity, panicking
Praying for something to take me to heaven
But God isn't answering
Where is our God?
Where is my feelings they're all fucking gone
Trapped in my mind but I'm so fucking lost
Hopeless demoted
My shit's fucking blowing the pot up and open
Hoping my life doesn't end with the barrel or potions
Nauseous
I'm slumping my posture is gone with my happiness

I need some help with the way that I'm running my life
I need some sleep when I go lay in bed every night
Insomniac pledging his life towards a dream
Hoping my mind would connect all the seams
Split and I'm fraying
Decaying enslaved in a wave of dysphoria
Uh
Wake up to nothing my days push together
Evading my room wit my pain on my sweater
Chasing my mind and a dream
I won't have either they both always leaving
Beating my fists to the wall
Blood on knuckles to stop what I've thought
Tears on my face
Dead in my brain
There is no point to keep rapping this way
Killing myself through these words
Tired of trying to help all the hurting

Can't make amends with the pain and the devil inside
You try to escape, But it's all in your mind
I sleep with the pain and my dreams at night
Just benzo tap my veins till' I seem alright
Isolate, no
Try to sedate, no
Try to wake up
Can't pick a trace up
You'll lose yourself always choosing to chase the same love
You choose a gray love
The black and shameful

Black and shameful
Gray Love
Try to wake up
Can't pick a trace up
You choose the gray love
The black and shameful

GRAY LOVE w/ blvckehart

4th and final single from our upcoming album, "Lost Dogs".

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Acid

enjoy what my fucking pain creates love u

Bad Whore

Merch

Bad Whore feat. naisujonez & BloodyMouth (prod. Frevel)

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Lyrics:

Every time I hear your name
Every time I walk down the street
Every time I meet a blonde lil thing
Nice titties, lil ass, drunk, throwing on me (which is often)
I tell everybody that you're crazy
Knowing that I'll prolly hit it next week
And I know a couple homies prolly gonna try to fuck you
But it's cool cause you're gonna tell me, I hate you
Nah, I'm playin, I don't miss you though
Tell the truth, I might be lying, I don't love you, though
I'm in denial, fuck (let's change the subject)

Mothafuckas know I'm busy, so they putting down deposits
Know the money my priority, they wanna be important
Got the homies trippin, I ain't ever bought a pair of jordan's
I been rocking vans since them shits were 40 dollars
Kid done copped em every color, gettin into some entanglements
She fuck the homie, I ain't trippin, get a badder bitch
They don't know me, say they love me, I ain't hearing it
Plot twist, I said it first, cause that's all it ever is
Yeah, that's all it ever is
Still thinking about you

Every time I hear your name
Every time I walk down the street
Every time I meet a blonde lil thing
Nice titties, lil ass, drunk, throwing on me (which is often)
I tell everybody that you're crazy
Knowing that I'll prolly hit it next week
And I know a couple homies prolly gonna try to fuck you
But it's cool cause you're gonna tell me, I hate you

Nah, I'll prolly never fuck you cause I know that bring some problems
If I'm really being honest, you ain't really what I wanted
Never loved you in the morning, I was just a lil lonely
We ain't really vibe, that's why I never tried
You just a waste of time, n now I'm making time
I can make it rhyme, puffin pine, get you off my mind
Took some signs from the guys, now I'm lookin at the odds
And I finally realized, reminiscing through the lies
That I'm better off alone, better in my zone
Better with progression, told a bitch to get the message
I been grinding for my mama, she ain't really get to stepping
I been reading through the lessons while I'm counting up the blessings
My obsession, oh, oh baby my obsession is not you
And if I'm being true, I could prolly find better
This what brought me to this letter, we ain't doin shit together
We ain't doin shit to, yeah (yeah)
We ain't doin shit together
I said I'm grinding for my mama
I ain't really with the drama
I ain't really with the drama, nah

Every time I hear your name
Every time I walk down the street
Every time I meet a blonde lil thing
Nice titties, lil ass, drunk, throwing on me (which is often)
I tell everybody that you're crazy
Knowing that I'll prolly hit it next week
And I know a couple homies prolly gonna try to fuck you
But it's cool cause you're gonna tell me, I hate you

i don't miss you (feat. tony lxve) // prod. sproutz

Lyrics:
i need someone to cut me down, when im high feelin good while im off in the clouds, cause i know
i been living a lie so far and i know it dont change the way things really are

got a summer hoodie on, cause im hiding my scars
shawty say she wanna see em, wanna know who you are
yeah but you dont wanna know, just wanna hear my guitar
say she wanna hear my voice, while we fuck in her car

im on the fence boutta end it all
im too alone and i drown in the dark
im just a ghost watch me fade away
i don't exist unless you tell me that ill be okay
x2

ill rest in peace when i get off the phone
ill rest in peace when you leave me alone
ill rest in peace when i pay off that loan, or maybe ill just fuckin die and leave it all for my soul

ill rest in peace cause i know that you happy
ill rest in peace shoutout all of my family
i know i said, please dont get me a grave, i wish i saw my funeral i know it musta been great

i ain got no friends (i ain got no friends)
i just got these meds (i jus got these meds)
i only love my bed (only love my bed)
like im drake but im worse im finna go on a bend

cause im bleeding from my wrist and people think im absurd
if they hear my thoughts i know they hear shit they never heard

im on the fence boutta end it all
im too alone and i drown in the dark
im just a ghost watch me fade away
i don't exist unless you tell me that ill be okay
x2

ill rest in peace cause i know that you happy
ill rest in peace shoutout all of my family
i know i said, please dont get me a grave, i wish i saw my funeral i know it musta been great

Summer Hoodie

summerhoodie

Thaliana(Prod.shinju)

Members
@KidMangx
@adjacen7artist
@yungmercykill
@lxrdk
@prod3two

Kid Mango x Sydcxx - Running circles

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