A slow-burning descent into digital captivity.
“Stay Awhile” reflects the transformation of connection into commodity, where freedom is promised but attention is harvested. A haunting composition shaped by analog synths, glitch textures, and cinematic atmosphere. The voice cuts through with quiet urgency — spoken, sung, unraveling. There’s no cage more effective than the one we choose ourselves.

Lyrics:

the promise was freedom
but we were the price

it started in wonder, a simple thread
where voices connected, not sold or fed
we spoke like gold, no goal in sight
a place for words, for wrong and right
no weight, no push, just breath and thought
but that bright room is already lost

stay awhile
this isn’t a trap

stay awhile – the feed is calling
stay awhile – your time is falling
stay awhile – it won’t take much
just your gaze, your soul, your touch

then came the scroll, the endless run
a like, a click, a viral stun
the screen a stage, the mind entranced
as time slipped out like thinning chance
a platform wired to wants and speed
the human form now just a feed

the loop breathes slow
and memory blurs

stay awhile – the feed is calling
stay awhile – your time is falling
stay awhile – it won’t take much
just your gaze, your soul, your touch

the market breathes but leaves no space
for thought, for pause, for human grace
searching for self in endless glass
but all we find is what will pass

image by image, frame by frame
we chase the light, forget our name
the net shines bright but cuts through skin
it offers freedom, locks us in
the phone burns hot like frozen flame
we lose ourselves and feel no shame

stay awhile
you’re almost real

stay awhile – the feed is calling
stay awhile – your time is falling
stay awhile – it won’t take much
just your gaze, your soul, your touch

your silence is noticed
but not by them



Stay awhile

(Verse 1)
Midnight glow from my phone screen
Another meme you know I've seen
We're talking circles, saying nothing new
But I hang on every word from you
The city lights paint patterns on the floor
I've never felt quite like this before
My heartbeat's drumming a frantic pace
Just a silly smile I can't erase

(Pre-Chorus)
But when we're in a crowded room
I'm overwhelmed by this perfume
Of doubt and fear, a hazy cloud
I can't seem to say your name out loud
My mind's a storm, a tangled wire
Am I a fool playing with fire?

(Chorus)
'Cause I don't know if this is real or just a fantasy
One moment you're the only one I see
The next I wanna turn and run away
And pray I'll see you another day
This back and forth is messing with my head
Replaying every single word you said
Is this a game I'm doomed to lose?
Or are you someone I can't bear to refuse?

(Verse 2)
You talk about the future and your plans
And casually you touch my hands
A simple gesture, nothing more
But my defenses crumble to the floor
I picture us a year from now
And then I start to wonder how
I let myself get in this deep
Secrets that my heart can't keep

(Pre-Chorus)
But when you look at me too long
I feel like everything is wrong
I'm not the girl you think you see
There's so much more inside of me
My mind's a storm, a tangled wire
Am I a fool playing with fire?

(Chorus)
'Cause I don't know if this is real or just a fantasy
One moment you're the only one I see
The next I wanna turn and run away
And pray I'll see you another day
This back and forth is messing with my head
Replaying every single word you said
Is this a game I'm doomed to lose?
Or are you someone I can't bear to refuse?

(Bridge)
Maybe I'm just terrified to fall
To give a little and then lose it all
It's safer here behind my screen
Living in the moments in between
But you're a risk I almost want to take
A beautiful and sweet mistake

(Chorus)
'Cause I don't know if this is real or just a fantasy
One moment you're the only one I see
The next I wanna turn and run away
And pray I'll see you another day
This back and forth is messing with my head
Replaying every single word you said
Is this a game I'm doomed to lose?
Or are you someone I can't bear to refuse?

(Outro)
To refuse...
Yeah, I can't refuse...
What do I do?
Oh, what do I do with you?

Still me, but different

What do I do with you (Garage Remix)

What do I do with you

[Verse]
I've been waiting all night to show you my other side
And when I come out to play I can't be tamed
Got a couple of tricks in my back pocket
You'll like 'em
I only need you to know one thing
One thing

[Chorus]
I can be the girl next door
I'll be your fantasy
And if you give me the keys
I will take the wheel
And you'll see there's a secret wild side in me
Beast within
Beast within

[Verse 2]
I like to drive it fast
Love to see your face like that
I'm gonna break your heart
I'm a man-eater
You'll never wanna go back once you have a taste of that
I only need you to know one thing
One thing

[Chorus]
I can be the girl next door
I'll be your fantasy
And if you give me the keys
I will take the wheel
And you'll see there's a secret wild side in me
Beast within
Beast within
[Bridge]
The beast within
I don't play it safe
No
The beast within
I don't play it safe
No
The beast within
I don't play it safe
No
The beast within
I don't play it safe
No
The beast within
I don't play it safe
No
The beast within
I don't play it safe
No

[Chorus]
I can be the girl next door
I'll be your fantasy
And if you give me the keys
I will take the wheel
And you'll see there's a secret wild side in me
Beast within
Beast within

Old.dance

beast.within.rmx

Da-da-da, in the fading light
Da-da-da, yeah, it feels so right
Da-da-da, in the fading light
Get ready for the night!

[Verse 1]
At five o'clock, I'm pouring tea, my pinky in the air
I talk about the weather with a sophisticated flair
With pearls around my neck, I smile, so gentle and so sweet
The perfect British lady, from my head down to my feet
"How do you do?" and "Lovely day," is everything they hear
But honey, that's the daytime show, now listen to me, dear

[Pre-Chorus]
The sun is down, the moon is up, I feel it in my soul
It's time to lose the sweet control and let the good times roll!

[Chorus]
Oh, oh, oh, in the city's glow
I'm not the girl you think you know
Oh, oh, oh, watch me as I go
Putting on a different show!
Lady by day, but when the night is calling out my name
I'm in a different, shady lane and playing my own game!

[Verse 2]
I trade my fancy little hat for something black and tight
I'm heading for the city streets, beneath the neon light
No more polite conversation, no more holding back my tongue
Tonight I feel electric, and I feel forever young
I walk into the crowded club, I own the atmosphere
The girl you met this afternoon has simply disappeared

[Pre-Chorus]
The sun is down, the moon is up, I feel it in my soul
It's time to lose the sweet control and let the good times roll!

[Chorus]
Oh, oh, oh, in the city's glow
I'm not the girl you think you know
Oh, oh, oh, watch me as I go
Putting on a different show!
Lady by day, but when the night is calling out my name
I'm in a different, shady lane and playing my own game!

[Bridge - etwas melodiöser, aber immer noch tanzbar]
Day and night, night and day
I love to live my life this way
A little nice, a little naughty
Come on, join my secret party!

[Outro]
Da-da-da, in the city's glow
Da-da-da, putting on a show
Da-da-da, yeah, it feels so right
Get ready for the night!


da.da.da

[Verse]
She walks through the night like a whisper's ghost
Eyes like fire but her smile is toast
She’s got secrets in her pocket
No map to find
Every step she takes
She’s leaving you blind

[Chorus]
Shady lady
Where you going tonight
Shady lady
Slipping out of sight
She’s a shadow on the wall
A flicker in the glow
Shady lady
You’ll never really know

[Verse 2]
Her laugh cuts the air like a silver knife
She’s the queen of the dark
The thief of life
She’ll take your heart and leave you the shell
She’s a riddle wrapped in a kiss from hell

[Bridge]
Was it love
Was it luck
Was it all a game
You can chase her shadow
But it won’t take your name
She’s the spark in the ash
The truth in the lie
Shady lady’s gone before you say goodbye

[Chorus]
Shady lady
Where you going tonight
Shady lady
Slipping out of sight
She’s a shadow on the wall
A flicker in the glow
Shady lady
You’ll never really know

[Outro]
She’s the smoke in the air
The cold in the heat
Shady lady
A stranger you’ll never meet
She’s the story untold
The lock with no key
Shady lady
Forever a mystery

sha.dyl.ady.rmx

sha.dyl.ady

[Verse]
They all fall like dominoes
How could you ever say no
To a woman in gold
When the room gets dim
And she steps in
You'll understand

[Chorus]
She's a shady lady
Not your regular kind of baby
Shady lady
She's a lover of sorts
She won't look back
Shady lady
She's a shady lady
Shady lady
Shady lady
She's a shady lady
Shady lady

[Verse 2]
See her walk in
Smell her perfume
It's almost hard to consume
With that walk of shame
With a name like hers
She's been told a few lies
But not enough to stay wise

[Chorus]
She's a shady lady
Not your regular kind of baby
Shady lady
She's a lover of sorts
She won't look back
Shady lady
She's a shady lady
Shady lady
Shady lady
She's a shady lady
Shady lady

[Bridge]
When the lights go down
You know where she'll be found
And the music's loud
But it can't drown her out

[Chorus]
She's a shady lady
Not your regular kind of baby
Shady lady
She's a lover of sorts
She won't look back
Shady lady
She's a shady lady
Shady lady
Shady lady
She's a shady lady
Shady lady

shady.lady

[Verse]
Hey
I have a secret I want to tell you
And if you promise not to run away
I'll show you something

[Pre-Chorus]
I love my home
I love my family
But the people there don't love me
I love my home
I love my family
But the people there don't love me

[Chorus]
So I don't come around often
When I do
I come in late at night
Wearing all black
Doing things you don't like
You might have heard about me
I'm the Shady Lady
And it's alright

people.there

[Intro]
Bright lights. Fading out.
Street noise. No more shout.
Green grass. All around.
New world. I have found.

[Verse 1]
No fast train.
Just slow lanes.
Morning sun.
The night is done.
See a sheep.
The silence deep.
I can't sleep.
A promise to keep.

[Pre-Chorus]
The clock ticks.
So slow now.
My heart picks.
A new vow.

[Chorus]
City girl, village life.
Cutting through, like a knife.
Lost the map, found the star.
Doesn't matter where you are.
[Synth-Riff]
Na-na-na, in the green.
Na-na-na, a new scene.

[Verse 2]
Muddy boots.
Deeper roots.
No high heels.
How it feels.
They all wave.
They know my face.
I must be brave.
In this new place.

[Pre-Chorus]
The clock ticks.
So slow now.
My heart picks.
A new vow.

[Chorus]
City girl, village life.
Cutting through, like a knife.
Lost the map, found the star.
Doesn't matter where you are.
[Synth-Riff]
Na-na-na, in the green.
Na-na-na, a new scene.

[Instrumental break]

[Bridge]
In the quiet... I feel the beat (the beat... the beat)
No more concrete... just my own two feet (two feet... two feet)

[Outro]
City girl, village life.
Cutting through, like a knife.
Lost the map, found the star.
Doesn't matter where you are.

city.girl

[Intro]
Sunrise. New day.
Old school. My way.
Young face. Lost pace.
In this place.

[Verse 1]
The bell rings.
A new sound.
My heart sings.
Lost and found.
They look now.
I see them.
Don't know how.
A strange dream.

[Pre-Chorus]
The beat comes.
In my soul.
The drum hums.
Take control.

[Chorus]
Back to school, in the light.
Back to school, feel the night.
Lost in time, feel the rhyme.
One more chance, one more time.
[Synth-Riff]
Na-na-na, school again.
Na-na-na, feel no pain.

[Verse 2]
New lesson.
Old story.
My confession.
For glory.
I read slow.
They type fast.
I must go.
Future past.

[Pre-Chorus]
The beat comes.
In my soul.
The drum hums.
Take control.

[Chorus]
Back to school, in the light.
Back to school, feel the night.
Lost in time, feel the rhyme.
One more chance, one more time.
[Synth-Riff]
Na-na-na, school again.
Na-na-na, feel no pain.

[Instrumental break]

[Bridge]
In the music... I find my way. (my way... my way)
A different time... a different day (new day... new day)

[Outro]
Back to school, in the light.
Back to school, feel the night.
Lost in time, feel the rhyme.
One more chance, one more time.

school.again

I’m dirmardor.
My songs arise from artistic zombiosis – fragments, data-light, and dark rhythms. This is the musical side: tracks from my eight ongoing projects, ranging from AI-driven synth layers to electronic gloom and real song ideas. I, dirmardor, and my world, Mahvarion, are united. You can find out more in the link tree.

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Stay awhile

dirmardor

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