there’s a woman with the sweetest soul
said she’s free to hold if i need her when im deep in holes
sees in me some gold, all the while i see me decompose
Feel her tryna put her arms around me but my feet are cold

conversations of a deeper tone, 
only female I could ever weep to or be keen to phone
Because i Usually keep my secrets on a need to know
probably part the reason why we never seem to beat the lows


see she’s the fairest dame, that dare i say could bear my name
Together we’re a pair of flames, I pray the Lord’ll spare us rain.
And still it scares my brain, affection brings an air of shame 
cause I'm full of despair and she’s the type to try and share my pain.

And she got traumas but they never left her cornered
Now and then it haunts her but she handle heat like saunas 
Look at her in awe the hell she went through made her warmer
Make me put my wall up even though im gonna mourn her

See men were never safe for her to trust 
They either fake or filled with lust or never made her feel enough
Or even laying hands on her so much she shaking when i touch.
When she relay their wicked ways I’m feeling hatred and disgust
My mind is racing wondering why they ain’t graves or even cuffs

She don’t complain or even fuss but in her face I see the rust
Where I graze I see her blush i wanna save her from the rut
If I was braver i would say we shouldn’t be blazing any kush

The spark was rare, many women can’t compare
She offer me her heart to share, i wanna but its hardly fair. 
Darkness that i harbour harms because always i’m halfway there
My father only taught me to depart and so i park it there


I dont know if i can love back
Love ain’t just emotions, you know you must act.
Heart’s too dead and cold for her to touch that
Know me and my woes wont Win her trust back


But it’s a lose-lose.
She goes from getting used to me to feeling used too
My ego bruise at allegations that i prove true.
Im too confused to even answer for MY moves but

Maybe she’ll hear me calling through whistles of the wind
And reminisce on every kiss and every ripple in my skin
But then again she might resist due to the Blisters of my sins 
Cant get pissed if she’s dismissive, i went missing yet again

With her or without her, I can never leave the covers
Seen it with the others when the flutters turn to stutters
Wish i could erase her but we never used the rubbers
Another broken brother turning lovers into mothers

distantjay- starcrossd (rough)

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