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demxntia

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interrealm

Stuff I listen to on a daily basis.

she could do better 💤

dope art by www.instagram.com/dattebasas/ as per usual
and shoutout yools for the cute voice that plays before i start serenadin yall lmaooo 
ty both of yall for blessin my tracks

and uh

accurate lyrics for once:
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take me back to the days of our adolescence 
skipping class everyday never learned my lesson
i was walking back home on these roads fulla holes 
with the wind passing by feeling cold 
yeah that was the night that we met at first
would we still talk in a few years? i wasn't sure 
it didn't mean much bc of how young we were 
now im biting my tongue at the thought of her 
i wish that my feelings were fake
but i felt pain when she said his name 
and ik that my feelings ain't fake
cuz i go insane, when i hear his name 
she sayin she fine but ik she's tired 
it's funny cuz ik that she ain't the greatest liar
she seems to glow brighter 
at times that i dim 
guess i cant beat conversations w/ him but

she could do better 
and i know it 
yeah 
ay if u listenin
just know 
that u can do better 
and u know it 
lemme ask u

so why u still fuckin w/ lames girl
u know hes not in ur lane girl
know i wont do u the same girl
seein u drives me insane girl
does he make u laugh in the same way? 
when he's on the phone aint it dull and grey? 
u havin more fun when u w/ me babe
do u feel content? or is it just okay?
tell me why u still fuckin w/ lames girl
u know he's not in ur lane girl
know i wont do u the same girl
seein u drives me insane girl
does he make u laugh in the same way? 
when he's on the phone aint it dull and grey? 
are u havin more fun when u w/ me babe?
do u feel content? or is it just okay?

don't settle for less when u know u the best
be true to urself is my only request 
i already know u not easily impressed
i aint mean to hurt feelins but i must express 
that he ain't worth ur time theres no need to be stressed 
i love everytime that u rockin ur dress u a blessin 
yeah i can do anything he can
and i can do everything he can't

u can do better and u know it babe 
u could do it better and u know it babe

one more time

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she knows

and we're back on the same page
that we have been left on 
denying my feelings that 
i don't want to act upon
i hate when i'm numb but
it's worse when i feel 
the fact that i'm writing 
this song makes it real 

but um...

what've you been up to? 
are you fine like you told me? 
cuz i normally wouldn't care 
but i guess that's the old me 
when you tell me you're sad
and you've had a bad day
it's all that i'll think about
i'll feel the same way as you

do what you do
got me head over heels for you 
your laugh is my favorite song
it's played in my mind all the time 

(all the time) 

and i can't seem to
get it out of my head 
every night i lie
alone in my bed 
overthinking everything
till i'm dead, oh 

(and i'll watch as the sun 
rises from my room)

every night i lie
alone in my bed 
overthinking everything
till i'm dead, oh 

(and the only person that
i wanna talk to is...)

every night i lie
alone in my bed 
overthinking everything
till i'm dead, oh

goodnight

overthinking.

cop if ya want

Th Project

leaning (prod. ric & mixed matches)

nowhere (prod. ric & mixed matches)

I'm face down, won't you pull me from the bottom
I always got something I can't explain
So for a second I will turn away
Try to figure out what's inside of my brain
That's been eating me away
I got ten ice packs for the bruises I got every day
For the last few years and the last few months I been so so
So alone so alone Just walking through these empty worlds
You see me in your photographs but thats not me no more

So tell me you'll look for me And I promise I will look for you
Yea you say there's a place for me, But you're lying when I dream of you

So spare me a moment, Just to feel my heart beating
I've been waiting forever just to drown in this feeling
I don't wanna cry, Feel like everybody's watching me
Trippin like this as if anybody knows of me
Ima keep it cool when i'm chillin next to somebody
Feelin like a nobody I'm living like a nobody

So spare me a moment, Just to feel my heart beating
I've been waiting forever just to drown in this feeling
Is it too good to be true let me know now
Ima give it up real quick for the show now
Are you wishing for me?
Don't you wanna be free?

Yea i'm face down I been holding on for too long
Been killin myself everynight for another song
What's even for I do all of this just to make it through
I don't even care who's watching Ima do the shit I do

I got so much love so much love yea all around the world
But i'm still such a nobody, But I still got somebody
To make me feel something I guess that's all I ever needed

So spare me a moment, Just to feel my heart beating
I've been waiting forever just to drown in this feeling
I don't wanna cry, Feel like everybody's watching me
Trippin like this as if anybody knows of me
Ima keep it cool when i'm chillin next to somebody
Feelin like a nobody I'm living like a nobody

So spare me a moment, Just to feel my heart beating
I've been waiting forever just to drown in this feeling

Like A Nobody (Prod. Otvaje)

stream/buy

ULTRA

SPOTIFY// 
https://open.spotify.com/track/5bSvjzV87qFNb7dpXnRDpA?si=kQ6k9ZYDSo-P3d3B3G5uSA

INSTRUMENTAL// 
@demxntia

VOCALS// 
@leorinda
@infamousgertrude
@demxntia
@gehrmvn
@scummusic
@sushisai

FLOOR

WELCOME @sinxi TO DYING IN THE CUT

SPOTIFY//
https://open.spotify.com/track/63xV9PixBmulSadgHQiFvQ?si=-7N-w9ZlQ3SeQeThHpPCIQ

INSTRUMENTAL//MIXING
@sinxi

VOCALS//
@kaiyko
@infamousgertrude
@demxntia
@sushisai
@itsyungvan

FALL

another ceiling i don't recognize
another feeling and i'm petrified
i've been flying out just to stay inside
i never listen to my own advice, no

what the hell have i been doing?
makin up excuses, i don't wanna do this
so what the hell have i been doing?
i been stuck inside a room with
way too much to lose

but it's worse at night
something's gotta give
i don't wanna die but
i don't wanna live
it gets worse at night
something's gotta give
i don't wanna die but
i don't wanna live

tryna be strong is my weakness
what's a life with no meaning?
help me get rid of this feeling
i'm not alive i'm just breathing

no, oh
don't go
no, oh
i'm alone

something's gotta give

DRIVEWAY

LISTEN ON SPOTIFY: https://open.spotify.com/album/59CywC3libzFJgQYO33do5?si=Mdfv-LICRJi2IahZ0dof3g

ALL TRACKS WRITTEN, RECORDED, PRODUCED, COMPOSED, AND PERFORMED BY COLLIDING WITH MARS EXCEPT TRACK 1 PRODUCED BY COLLIDING WITH MARS + OCOENIA AND TRACK 2 WRITTEN AND RECORDED BY COLLIDING WITH MARS, DEMXNTIA AND FATS’E

ORIGINAL ARTWORK BY ADRELIX AND COLLIDING WITH MARS

MIXED AND MASTERED BY POLEARM
ADDITIONAL VOCAL ENGINEERING BY LEORINDA

DEDICATED TO YOU

COLLIDING WITH MARS IS CHRISTIAN JAMES + GOLD

SANDGEM TOWN

S/O https://soundcloud.com/93feetofsmoke 4 the beat
S/O https://soundcloud.com/demxntia 4 mixing 
S/O my bf 4 helpin wit da cover txt :,)
LOVE YALL THX SOOO MUCH 4 LISTENING!!!
LYRICS:
Tension! Tension! Is building in my heart again
Chemical inside my brain are constantly calling it off
Feelings get a hold of me and I say things that I don't mean but hey
There's no such thing as perfect in reality
~I don't wanna go back so baby let me take my time
I don't wanna see your face or hear your voice don't hit my line
And ima do what i wanna do from now on
Sit back in my car with the music up loud
And i don't care if you're proud of me or watching me
~Cuz i've been up all night startin fights with my thoughts again
Tell me where it ends, oh my god, Here I go again

Tension's all that i've known and I won't let go
Cuz i'm alive, All day and night
Tension's all that i've got so I just can't stop
Cuz i'm alive, All day and night
Darlin' why am I fallin for you again?
Found you deep in my heart, where you've always been
Even if i'm cryin I can keep on dancin to the beat of my heart
With the tension in my head

Tension! Tension! Is building in my heart again,
I think I should let you go cuz maybe it's just for the best
But you go and pull me right back
I don't wanna have to fight this again
I'm stuck cuz I can't go without a happy ending
~I am better off on my own, but I don't wanna live without your soul

And ima do what i wanna do from now on
Sit back in my car with the music up loud
And i don't care if you're proud of me or watching me
~Cuz i've been up all night startin fights with my thoughts again
Tell me where it ends, oh my god, Here I go again

Tension's all that i've known and I won't let go
Cuz i'm alive, All day and night
Tension's all that i've got so I just can't stop
Cuz i'm alive, All day and night
Darlin' why am I fallin for you again?
Found you deep in my heart, where you've always been
Even if i'm cryin I can keep on dancin to the beat of my heart
With the tension in my head x2

SPOTIFY

TENSION! (PROD. 93FEETOFSMOKE)

I want to get better but I don't know what the fuck to do...

Written by: @itsyungvan
Mix/Master: @sinxi
Production: @youngburial
art by: @digitalyams

Lyrics-
I’m standing on this road alone
it’s impossible to feel anything when you don’t know how to cope
No, I don’t want to let you in
If I let you peek inside I’m afraid I’ve let them win 
I’ll never let them win
I’ll never let them win
Oh now I’m wasting my time, wasting my time with you
I don’t know how to tell you but I, don’t wanna be friends with you 
I’m living a lie, I’m living my life in blue 
I want to get better but I, don’t know what the fuck to do
So I write down all my wrongs and I burn them
I’ve done people wrong, yeah I’ve hurt them
That’s why I can’t let you be my friend
I’m afraid that I’ll hurt you again
So I write down all my wrongs and I burn them
I’ve done people wrong, yeah I’ve hurt them
That’s why I can’t let you be my friend
I’m so scared that I’ll hurt you again
I’m embarrassed 
I’m ashamed
I’ll never heal if I never admit that I have this pain x4

how to cope

how to cope (Prod. Fats'e youngburial)

OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO HERE
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pbnrnTJpvB0

shoutouts 2 @kaiyko as always!!

let me have a minute to get
my head on straight
i really haven’t been myself
for almost 28 days and i think
what a bummer could November really be?
i think there’s something that my eyes can’t see
cuz lately i’ve been getting so upset
with almost everything 

i don’t wanna be a villain
in this story of mine (neither do you)
i don’t wanna be a perfect person
that’s just a lie
but you keep taking all the words that
keep falling out my mouth
i don’t think you see what my
problem is even all about

oh, what a lie 
that we live
it’s alright to be 
alone sometimes
what a life 
that we’re given
it’s alright to to be 
alone sometimes

efforts wasted
and so am i tonight
feelings faded
like everything in my life
different faces
i’d rather stay inside
been gone for ages
so why’d you stay tonight?

i don’t wanna miss you
i don’t wanna need you
i don’t wanna feel like
i’m nothing without you
i don’t wanna miss you
i don’t wanna need you
i just can’t pretend
that i’m perfect without you

oh, what a lie 
that we live
it’s alright to be 
alone sometimes
what a life 
that we’re given
it’s alright to to be 
alone sometimes

and i don’t wanna
live a life where
i’m feeling sorry
so baby take all
my mistakes
and blame it all on me
cuz i’m not you and
you’re not me
so we can just 
call this a tragedy
but then i’d be
lying once again

it's alright w/ kaiyko [MUSIC VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION]

PRODUCTION//MIXING
@demxntia

VOCALS//BY
@demxntia
@sinxi
@twotwntytwo
@sushisai

WHEN I'M ALONE

[demxntia]
girl your love take me higher
got me burning up; you the wood to my fire
fit the match
of all the things i desire
uh from your hair down to your attire
round two when i'm tired run it back like
girl you know i make u sing like a choir
i know you shy you don't gotta keep quiet
you know i love it can't deny it
layin next to you in the night baby so serene
when you're next to me
feelin so carefree
and what's in between
so serene
when you're next to me
feelin so carefree
and what's in between
won't you stay here
a little bit longer
with me tonight?
won't you stay up
a little bit longer
with me tonight

[dion dugas]

baby what you doing
moving?
talk a lot of shit what you proving
you’ve been looking out of town
got to choose then lose him what you want to say
let me get a second i’m texting I’m on the way
a quarter past five with 9 lives to pay
i should of took a flight to relight a way
seen you on a night to relive our days
maybe i’ve been thinking out a loud
wondering if i would of gone, yeah
would i be the one that was alone, lonuh
instead of you, i feel like i was wrong
broken, sulking, hoping sounds of your voice
in the dark kept me open
don’t say if you really do mind
i find that we always decline
one day we should really rewind
cause lately i feel crazy
without you

[demxntia + dion dugas]

won't you stay here
a little bit longer
with me tonight?
won't you stay up
a little bit longer
with me tonight

serene//rewind [feat. dion dugas]

HEAR ME OUT

i just wanna brighten up your day
i just wanna make ur clouds go away
help u see the sun on the other side
wipe away the rain drops from ur eyes

i can see the pain inside ur eyes
u can see the void inside of mine
baby can you tell me what’s on ur mind
happiness is hiding behind the lies

my intentions never show too well i know
i always feel i gotta fix it on my own
i try my best to end the vicious cycle
it’s not enough i’m in denial 

i just wanna brighten up your day
i just wanna make ur clouds go away
help u see the sun on the other side
wipe away the rain drops from ur eyes
i don’t ever mean to make u cry
i just wanna know how u feel inside
if im overthinking i apologize
wanna be the best for u and i

raindrops

hello (prod. kassgocrazy & thislandis)

i did im just being a brat about it though

i never cared about you

King Tap (prod. Yung Skrrt x Umru)

red_door (prod. orchid)

shinigami - nice cock freestyle (LEAKK)

@whereisnomu very lovely song
kind of a cover of @limeboiler small version
prod @limeboiler
lol 
<3

INTENTIONS

DYING IN THE CUT