shout out to https://soundcloud.com/slothboipapi for jumping on this track <3

Yeah, take a step back see the faces under yeah they scream
get my life back from the ones who say they're real to me
feel the train tracks vibrate under as you intervene
get a flashback, realize now that  suicide is free

memories stack, like a knife it slices and I bleed
(I FEEL FREE)
realize now that, the options there if I just want to leave
(FOLLOW ME)
feel my spine crack from the pressure of the stress it creaks
(I FEEL FREE)
flick a match down watch the embers burning at my feet
(FOLLOW ME)

cut up slice down, I don't want to talk now
(DOWN THE HOLE)
change up lose faith in a god who betrayed
(NO, NO)
everything that we tried to be
(ANIMALS)
we're just human yeah why can't you understand
(WE’RE ANIMALS)

how cruel could you be, to give a body to someone so weak
(DOWN IT ALL)
it's not like you to intervene, then why’d you put a curse on me
(FOLD, FOLD)
deteriorate, fatigue, chemistry wasn't your expertise
(MAN THE ZONE)
you lied, then left, guess this father never cared
(BURN IT ALL)
 
is this it is this all I have to show yeah im done
burnt alive in this hell, guess the anguish yeah it won
watch my soul start to leave yeah guess he had enough
I should have left with him I guess we'll say im just shit out of luck

what's the point when the sky it bleeds and starts to take control
lacerations scar my skinny  guess my heart yeah you just stole
hit me up, hit me up, and say that my love was a joke
the emotions in my throat, they start to swell as I just choke
 


Burn the world ash I’m doing god a fucking favor
Watch me self destruct and I’ma send you to your maker
All together now let's walk to hell it's getting cold
Know the devil waiting, keeping on saying, that we gotta go

I ain’t giving up
God ain’t give a fuck
Seen a light

Spoke a lot of words
Nothing in return
Wouldn’t bite

Why the fuck I try
Urging me to fight
For a light

Broken by design
Not a fix
When you redefine

I ain’t giving up
God ain’t give a fuck
Seen a light

Spoke a lot of words
Nothing in return
Wouldn’t bite

Why the fuck I try
Urging me to fight
For a light

Broken by design
Not a fix
When you redefine

I ain’t giving up
God ain’t give a fuck
Seen a light

Spoke a lot of words
Nothing in return
Wouldn’t bite

Why the fuck I try
Urging me to fight
For a light

Broken by design
Not a fix
When you redefine
 
is this it is this all I have to show yeah im done
burnt alive in this hell, guess the anguish yeah it won
watch my soul start to leave yeah guess he had enough
I should have left with him I guess we'll say im just shit out of luck

what's the point when the sky it bleeds and starts to take control
lacerations scar my skinny  guess my heart yeah you just stole
hit me up, hit me up, and say that my love was a joke
the emotions in my throat, they start to swell as I just choke

Lazarus Ft $lothboi

Rollercoaster

Rivilin:

I know anxiety lives in me 
if I stay here will I lose my mind I think I've already passed that time
plagued by derealization feel like im looking through a fucking glass
feel like this ain't my body im just in a dream will death wake me up

these drugs no they don't mean shit when this body doesn't feel even real
can’t keep up a fucking job it feels like im just blessed with bad luck
try to explain it to someone but they don't understand
like why can't I be normal for a second so I can feel human

my body on this cold concrete no furniture fucking around
convinced these shadows on the walls are out for me till im in the ground
take a step back id like to realize that im ok it's just my perspective
It cus feels like im living in my skull like nothing is real and this is all a dream

till I take my life and I wake up, maybe then ill be happy in this place
my psychologist doesn't get it, no amount of therapy can change what I feel
I tell my mother that im ok, that im just going through a rough patch
this is my reality, ill fake a smile and say that im fine

floating above this city,
if I let go will I suddenly fall then can I wake up
to me, this place isn't pretty
I feel disgusted when I see myself suicide’s not enough

there's a constant battle in me
gravity has given in hear the wind roaring as I collide
with the concrete end it quickly 
my eyes snap open breathe heavy, every time I die I wake up

Coaastgxd:


Every time I die I wake up
Every time I die I…

This time I'm just fine running away
And I'd sell my soul just to better the days
I never get a hold of this, I throw it away
I never know what to say, I make the same old mistakes

I been playing in traffic with my emotions and 
I'm closer to a rope than I been in a fucking minute, oh
Every time I think I'm getting better, I end up fucking sendin'
Now I'm back to the motherfucking beginning tho

Can't sleep and I can't wake up
"Life's tough, get a helmet and, shit, man up"
I been stuck and I'm spinning my tires up in the mud
Going nowhere fast, The ash floating over the sun

Rivilin:

my body on this cold concrete no furniture fucking around
convinced these shadows on the walls are out for me till im in the ground
take a step back id like to realize that im ok it's just my perspective
It cus feels like im living in my skull like nothing is real and this is all a dream

till I take my life and I wake up, maybe then ill be happy in this place
my psychologist doesn't get it, no amount of therapy can change what I feel
I tell my mother that im ok, that im just going through a rough patch
this is my reality, ill fake a smile and say that im fine

floating above this city,
if I let go will I suddenly fall then can I wake up
to me, this place isn't pretty
I feel disgusted when I see myself suicide’s not enough

there's a constant battle in me
gravity has given in hear the wind roaring as I collide
with the concrete end it quickly 
my eyes snap open breathe heavy, every time I die I wake up

Scarlett FT. Coaastgxd

Follow $lothboi: @slothboipapi
Follow Rivilin: @rivilin
Prod. Grayskies

Watch on YouTube: https://youtu.be/xrW21bT-yUA

Lyrics:

Shine
Darkness
There’s people inside
Mind broke
These voices they lie
Telling me
I already d!ed
Liars
I feel so alive
Liar liar
The pants on fire
Higher higher
My mind in the fryer
Live and d!e here
Filthy s*x and desire
Loopty doopty
I’m spun like a dryer
Oh no yeah I’m spun out
Aye
High dose till the sun out
Yeah
Walls talk in the fun house
Yeah
Shadow people won’t get out
F*ck

Yeah deceiver
Dissembler
Has the noose become too tight
Are you hanging from the doorway
Are you screaming to the night
Just a cheater
A gambler am I fishing for a life
Am I searching for the truth
Tell me how to outrun a lie

You put the knife in my mouth
And you shake it all around
Can you tell me what's real
As I spit blood on the ground
Just a creature
Remember the facts that come in dreams
Am I fumbling for another pill
I swore that I'd get clean

I see your body dance up in the sky
So lifeless but you give a smile
And you say
It's ok
It's not like our life
Really mattered here anyway

40 stuck between
In the back seat
Dumb geeked
They capping ain’t the same
I'm a fact sheet
Trust me
Wide up and awake
Love a night shift
Create this
And lately I been dreaming wide awake
Imma make it

Liar liar
The pants on fire
Higher higher
My mind in the fryer
Live and d!e here
Filthy s*x and desire
Loopty doopty
I’m spun like a dryer
Oh no yeah I’m spun out
Aye
High dose till the sun out
Yeah
Walls talk in the fun house
Yeah
Shadow people won’t get out
F*ck

Yeah deceiver
Dissembler
Has the noose become too tight
Are you hanging from the doorway
Are you screaming to the night
Just a cheater
A gambler am I fishing for a life
Am I searching for the truth
Tell me how to outrun a lie

You put the knife in my mouth
And you shake it all around
Can you tell me what's real
As I spit blood on the ground
Just a creature
Remember the facts that come in dreams
Am I fumbling for another pill
I swore that I'd get clean

So the sandman will sing
Feelin' stress issa mess drowning neck deep
Take my hand and search with me
Hearing shrieks in the walls calling me sweet
I wake up see him in my screen
Shadowed eyes in the back, help I can’t sleep
The shadow people wont let me leave
All the same need a change looping last week
Looping last week
Filthy in the back geeked
Shadows on the wall
I’m feeling like they trynna grab me
Cult up in the cut deep
Roots in different countries
How the f*ck we get here from the bottom
Now we up sheesh

SHADOW PEOPLE

$LOTHBOI x RIVILIN - SHADOW PEOPLE

Yeah, yeah

flip a coin and lay it on my eyes
I can tell that you're not surprised
little bones just overgrow
and you think that its fine to just cheat

I guess it’s true that loves bittersweet
think of him when you're just on me
it's like my fingers snap and start to break
this is just more than I can take

im pacing back and forth inside an empty room
where the door is always closed until the ghosts are going home
where the devil on my shoulder says I look pretty lost
as he gives a big grin my stomach fills with disgust

but I gave in, and I let him 
and he tormented me again
so I came home to nothing 
yeah what was there to expect

I stay alone in my bed
I guess that's just for the best
don't go out I don't eat
I can't take it, I just sleep

wake up again, don't exist
bury the shame in my head
I just sit there I don't breath
I just smile now I can't leave


every day it starts, the doubt becomes a hole
always stay at home but scared of being alone
and when you open up you find your let down
smother up your face so you can't make a sound

when reflections come through,
and the distance between us is unfathomable
when the mental states true,
and I hate this existence, it's unexplainable

so where does that leave me, I don't know
the emotions are crushed down, below
so then it's bottled up inside 
scratching at the walls where it cracks and I find I can't hide

but I gave in, and I let him 
and he tormented me again
so I came home to nothing 
yeah what was there to expect

Wake Up Again

Pseudo - Red on the Inside

Darth Rose:
Insta - www.instagram.com/real.darth.rose/
YouTube - www.youtube.com/channel/UCiyDQmFkkDKy...
Twitter - twitter.com/DarthRose3
My Discord - darthrose
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Producer :
youtube - https://www.youtube.com/@lilportal
Insta - https://www.instagram.com/prod.lilportal/

cover art:
Insta - https://www.instagram.com/venusminui/

Lyrics :
I feel like I'm falling apart
my homie mixing codeine with sprite now
is this another night of getting fucked up 
please save me now
 
yeah

but my friend keep on hittin your dm
like he next in line
wish you gave me more time yeah
its not worth it in the end 
I will save myself 
you're not worth the pain
 
was it worth all the time 
and all the money I spent  
all the feelings inside I kept deep within
I just don't know If I could relive this shit over again  
but I guess Its better this way
 
I hope that he will buy you what I couldn't affoard 
and I hope he treats better then I could I guess
but my mind is a dark place I thought I could escape
with you by my side everything felt okay

It's bold of me to think you could change 
putting poison in my veins I hope it all goes away
I hope It goes down the drain 
like all the feelings I ever had for you
oh yeah yeah yeah

inside my mind, it's like I'm frozen in time 
and I can't seem to feel a thing 
(bitch I can't feel a thing)
I guess I'm fine doing line after line
will my mind be alright
guess Ill sleep on this shit again

but my friend keep on hittin your dm
like he next in line
wish you gave me more time yeah
its not worth it in the end 
I will save myself 
you're not worth the pain

I hope that he will buy you what I couldn't affoard 
and I hope he treats better then I could I guess
but my mind is a dark place I thought I could escape
with you by my side everything felt okay

It's bold of me to think you could change 
putting poison in my veins I hope it all goes away
I hope It goes down the drain 
like all the feelings I ever had for you
oh yeah yeah yeah

Save Me [prod.lilportal]

Imma dig down
And then I'll dig deeper
Laying in the ground
To sleep with the reaper

Bury me now So I can forget it all
Swallowing pride the dosage will get it wrong
hold tongues I meant what I said
Fucked up with a moments regret

Nose bleed, as I hold the line 
Faceless can't identify
Won't last forever so I'll take my time
Past the limit and I'm terrified

Craving too much
Been hating the taste of my blood 
Thinking of life with these pills
It's so empty, oh well

I dont care if im alone in the end
I'd rather be dead near My friends

As my skeleton rots away 
I've been forsaken 
The verge of resurrecting

Bury me now So I can forget it all
Swallowing pride the dosage will get it wrong
hold tongues I meant what I said
Fucked up with a moments regret

Nose bleed, as I hold the line 
Faceless can't identify
Won't last forever so I'll take my time
Past the limit and I'm terrified

NOSEBLEED (prod. sunsad)

Walking on a tightrope in the end
Been looking at the way down from the air
It may be time to ease the pain
Broken stride caught in the rain

Just leave me to die
I let my soul weep
Paralyzed that part of me
Blind eyes that can't see
All the shame within
Dark days are too loud
Uneasy right now

Baby will you stay forever 
Dont rip my heart out
Before it's empty 
Cause you're worth more than life
The shattered glass of mine
Reflect a better time

If I don’t do something right
I may disappear
I’ve been lining up the white
Look in the mirror
I couldn’t see my reflection
My course in need of correction
I’ve been hanging by a thread
Don’t look at me unravel
You’ve been running through my head
I’ve been kicking up gravel
To keep up with you
We made it through the summer
Make no sudden moves
No telling what I might do

Just leave me to die
I let my soul weep
Paralyzed that part of me
Blind eyes that can't see
All the shame within
Dark days are too loud
Uneasy right now

Baby will you stay forever 
Dont rip my heart out
Before it's empty 
Cause you're worth more than life
The shattered glass of mine
Reflect a better time

Pseudo - Red on the Inside

Daid

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