Polaroid (feat. guardin)

Sometimes I don’t like who I am
Sometimes I love it 
I got feelings that I always regret
Wish I could love me
I know both of us don’t want this to end
I want ur lovin
And we both know that we can’t be just friends
Yeah, so fuck it 
x2

I want this shit forever I don’t wanna let it go
I keep fuckin up a bunch but lately I’m not alone
And I think that I overreacted when we got home
But u woke me up, I didn’t wanna talk, just leave me alone

Sometimes I don’t like who I am
Sometimes I love it 
I got feelings that I always regret
Wish I could love me
I know both of us don’t want this to end
I want ur lovin
And we both know that we can’t be just friends
Yeah, so fuck it
x2

You’re my everything 
I think that it’s clear to see
I don’t fuckin do shit unless I got you here with me
Am I throwing my life away?
I don’t care 
I don’t wanna be a waste of fucking space again
Cuz that would be the death of me

my everything. (prod. saint mike)

the tallest man on earth - honey won't you let me in (guardin cover)

ive been waitin all my life 
been waitin for the sunshine
waitin til its my time
wishin i was alright
i been fucked up all night
i see u in the moonlight 
and damn u lookin so fine
yeah u lookin so fine
x2
baby we could get away
i cant stand another rainy day
my lifes in such a disarray
i dont know how long i can stay
im here without u
got fears about u
dont wanna doubt u
i know ur feelings true
i know that i love u
i really care a bout uive been waitin all my life 
been waitin for the sunshine
waitin til its my time
wishin i was alright
i been fucked up all night
i see u in the moonlight 
and damn u lookin so fine
yeah u lookin so fine
x2

i see u in the moonlight (prod. dercept x gavin hadley)

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i am quickly realizing
all the problems that i'm facing
all exist inside this hatred
for myself my thoughts are racing
is there anybody out there
feeling dim, dark & depleting
what is safe cause all i fear is near
& death i'll soon be greeting
i truly wish the flickering would stop
& i could catch my breath
but this films left on repeat again
somehow you soon forget 
you've damn near downed your second bottle
drunken words in full effect
these sober thoughts have always lived here
driving by until they wreck

i'm fucking numb
(yeah)
you don't know a thing about the terror that i breathe into my lungs
and i don't know a thing about myself other than what is soon to come

i think the sky is falling
but it's my imagination
overcasting on & off again
to form a new foundation
hopefully i reconstruct myself
it might take quite a while
obsolete upon comparison
these scars all stretch for miles
i'll never find the person i was then
he's buried deep below
subterranean inhabitant
i hope he likes the snow
did the soul inside his body
ever find his way back home
am i talking in third person
yeah i guess we'll never know

i'm fucking numb
(yeah)
you don't know a thing about the terror that i breathe into my lungs
and i don't know a thing about myself other than what is soon to come

dim, dark, depleting

i just wish i could see u  (prod ryini)

killing me slowly (prod yungspoiler)

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fuck my life
fuck my health
you don't care so i'll go fuck myself
fuck this job
fuck this car
every song that i write just coexists with a scar
and i've got paragraphs about the shit that i will never say
cause it'll kill you just to hear me whine and bitch all fucking day
maybe the grass is green in other states where i choose to reside
maybe a glimpse of light will formulate and catch my fucking eye
and maybe you'll hear this when you check my page and ask if i'm alright
cause i've been afraid of all the darkest places lying in my mind

i will convince myself i'm dying but then act like i'm just fine
my mind's a scary fucking place and i can't fix it while i drive
but my car is lucy in the sky with diamonds going sixty five
and you're just a pot hole maybe yoko ono screaming by my side
is this the end of things i'm strumming strings just trying to decide
cause i am afraid of me so save me please i beg you just to try
i'm losing my purpose lifes a circus they said please enjoy the ride
my seatbelt is broken eyes wide open as my body starts to slide

if i escape the wreck i'll disconnect from everyone online
i'll pack my belongings i've been longing for this moment my whole life
i'll disappear for months no mentions of my status or a clue
i'm fine don't you worry there's no hurry to return to what i knew
it's hard to calculate these conversations if i'm being truth
-ful i wanna congregate all that relate to everything i spew
in midst of my disconnect i'll stay in check & keep in touch with few
as long as i'm open im just hoping that it's something i'll get through 

cause i'm a fucking wreck
oh what the heck
why do i even try
i lie in the grass
high off my ass
& watch the clouds just pass on by
if life has a purpose
i am nervous
to unravel what is mine
i'll trip & i'll travel
down the rabbit hole
& ditch my bags inside

ditch

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//いいんだよ//

sample is be kind by alex g

no amount of words could ever express my love for you guys. thank you so fucking much for every single comment, like, conversation, etc. i live for this music & to know i've got that much support behind me is insane. you blow my mind. i love you guys.

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https://genius.com/guardin-take-away-the-pain-lyrics

lyrics

take away the pain

prod me <3

lyrics:
she said, 3 facts i, still cry too
i'm losin' faith in my ability to like you
i'm losin' touch with who i was and now i fight you
to be honest we should probably say goodbye soon

and now i'm drunk and i'm peekin at your homescreen
makin sure i'm still there, hopin you'll still hold me
and now you're drunk and you're thinkin bout the old me
where did all the time go, why do i feel lonely?

and now we're drunk and were listenin to cars pass
thinkin bout the good days, will they ever come back
and now we sulk, while we listen for the rain drops
listen for the thunderstorms and hope the fuckin pain stops

this is not a tik tok hit, or a mainstream slap
its the hook verse hook on how my heart collapsed
this is not a dance real slow, if you love me don't go
i've been tryna find some peace down every road we go

why do we fight every evenin
i'm sorry i woke you from sleepin
i'm spillin my guts, so my head don't combust
you're the girl of my dreams you're the one i believe in

i went from holdin you close
to someone you used to know
i remember gettin fucked up
i remember lettin go

she said, 3 facts i, still cry too
i'm losin' faith in my ability to like you
i'm losin' touch with who i was and now i fight you
to be honest we should probably say goodbye soon

and now i'm drunk and i'm peekin at your homescreen
makin sure i'm still there, hopin you'll still hold me
and now you're drunk and you're thinkin bout the old me
where did all the time go, why do i feel lonely?

and now we're drunk and were listenin to cars pass
thinkin bout the good days, will they ever come back
and now we sulk, while we listen for the rain drops
listen for the thunderstorms and hope the fuckin pain stops

homescreen

just a lil' something for halloween

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crept right through my head in the dead of the night
it was the night of the dead all your skeletons gon put up a fight 
and if you really wanna go down this road
be aware of what it takes from your soul
cause the price you pay might fray your connection to life

i was in the back of the whip felt the breeze through my coat
we were passin' on the purple in a circle just to keep us afloat
started swervin' lane to lane i hit the breaks i swore i saw me a ghost
and all my homies think i'm crazy they keep saying that i'm doing the most
but what they say don't matter cause i know i saw it right
like a deer inside my headlights haunting highways through the night
i opened my car door and clenched the keys so fucking tight
then i braced myself for what's to come cause morning never might

crept right through my head in the dead of the night
it was the night of the dead all your skeletons gon put up a fight 
and if you really wanna go down this road
be aware of what it takes from your soul
cause the price you pay might fray your connection to life

my everything. (prod. saint mike)

doan