I didn’t win…  
I didn’t stay…  

But losing home showed me another way.  
I was lost in the cold and the dark,  
But I learned that a spark is still a spark.  
You don’t need a crown to belong —  
You just need someone singing your song.  

Here I am — I’m enough,  
love is real when it’s real, not when it’s tough.  
Here I am — I’m okay,  
I don’t need a title to matter today.  
Hold me close — hold me near,  
I’m home in the Kuiper Choir, right here.  

No more fear of the warmth or the flame,  
No more running away from my name.  
Every world has a place they fit —  
and I finally found mine — this is it.  

Here I am — I’m enough,  
Love is real when it’s real, not when it’s tough.  
Here I am — I’m okay,  
I don’t need a title to matter today.  

Let the whole sky sing,  
Let the cold stars ring,  
When a lost heart finds its choir —  
That’s a new beginning.  

Here I am — I’m enough,  
Love is real when it’s real, not when it’s tough.  
Here I am — I’m okay,  
I don’t need permission to shine this way.  

Hold me close — hold me near,  
I’m home in the Kuiper Choir —  

Right here.

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There’s a booklet (14 MB) you can download here: https://tinyurl.com/24r93yse

The Court Of The Sun

A New Home In The Kuiper Choir

"Redder" is a palindrome. Like "racecar" or "level". These pieces of music ain't.

My name is Volker Redder, online I go by "docredder." It all came about because I studied biology and computer science for a long time and received my doctorate as the crowning achievement of my academic career.
As a child, I sang Bach in the church's „Knabenchor Unser Lieben Frauen“ because my mother thought it was good for my soul. And it was, until, thanks to an excellent teacher, I realized that music is like mathematics. After that, I loved not only music but also mathematics and all sciences based on mathematics: physics, biology, chemistry, computer science. So, I went straight into the natural sciences and engineering. Yes, I studied a lot. However, a university career wasn't for me. I wanted to monetize the findings of the various sciences (you can't live on air and love alone) and founded over a dozen companies. Because who wants life to follow a clear formula? I certainly didn't. In addition to adventurous entrepreneurship, the subsequent career in politics (German Bundestag), and a growing family, I was constantly picking up the guitar or keyboard, which is what you do when you want to escape the chaos of everyday life.
Should I say I'm a virtuoso? No. That would be a lie. I'm just too lazy for that. Laziness, or in modern parlance, "efficiency," is a principle for me. And so I founded my "own studio," consisting of a lot of electronics and software. The hipsters call it DIY. I call it "not wanting to act like a big shot and book expensive recording studios." I'm a one-man orchestra, a chef-d'oeuvre who spends all day producing pop, rock, indie, and ambient mishmash until he finally finds it he likes. My menu? Pink Floyd, Genesis, Supertramp, Muse, Zappa, Miles Davis, and many more. Yes, all at once. I told you: mishmash.
There are guys who write music to become famous. Then there's me. I write music to keep myself from going crazy. Sometimes it's funny, sometimes there's melancholy in it, sometimes it's stories from literature or something sci-fi. Or from Tinder dates my daughters have told me. I mean, who hasn't wondered what "being in Tinder light" is? Exactly. I wrote it down. I use everything I can get my hands on: GarageBand, samples, my voice, AI voices, Udio, VirtualDJ, everything! I don't care if purists say it's no longer art. It doesn't matter, the main thing is that my music feels like a window you can look out of and discover something new again and again.
Every song becomes a little adventure. Sometimes I start with a line, sometimes with a feeling I can't shake. It's like an escape from reality, except in the end, there's no escape. And that's a good thing. This is how I stay grounded. Okay, grounded isn't the right word either. Let me put it this way: I've stayed true to myself. And I'm grateful for everyone who listens, shares, or comments.
It makes me feel like I'm not completely alone in this madness. So if you also like songs that don't follow the rules, I'd be happy if you joined in. After all, the world is crazy enough.
You have to fight that with music. I mean, that's logical, right?