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Gotta LUV Your Home

"Had It All" is the second single from Bardie, written after years of false starts. It captures that quietly devastating moment when something you once cherished has already slipped away. Built around a muted, melodic bassline, it slowly swells into a cathartic, full-band climax with layered nylon guitars, frenzied lap steel, and raw sax. It's lyrically sparse but emotionally direct—less about telling and more about feeling.

Had It All

This is an acoustic jam of the idea. Original track is here:
https://on.soundcloud.com/7vFx9WxImqCzzUKcQq

Notes
I'm thinking of the mentalists who fascinate me in this tune as well as other things. The idea of neuroplasticity and actually wiring your brain towards a path that offers content feelings by releasing negativity just by intending it or doing the same conversely if that's your frame of mind. There lies Einstein's famous quote, "The most important decision you will make is whether you live in a hostile universe"
We decide how we feel about everything and those decisions are what let them effect our mindset either positively or negatively. I used to look at that quote as having your head in the sand on reality and that maybe thinking like that didn't factor in other people's suffering properly. But I think I get it how he meant it now. No matter what is happening that's not in your control.. You still decide what your mindset is whether it's about a war or a relationship with one other human. They can both profoundly effect you if you let them. But maybe his point is it doesn't matter what the reality is that you are processing, you still chose to manifest it in a positive or negative manner as only you can build your own mindset and only you can control whatever level of connectivity you have with that other human or that war you may be in our not... Both scenarios can suck and be a challenge but the true power is being at peace with what you do control, your own brain...

Derren Browne and Keith Barry are two great mind specialists worth a rabbit hole each.

I don't believe  what they have discovered and teach has to end with enjoying them as entertainment. We can be that if we learn our own versions of what they've found and get that positive for own own beings. It's all about mind set, not magic... It is more control over the universe of neurons we all have inside our skulls. The stuff we can and should learn to control because then we move towards the greater good with common sense


432 A - EADGAD - 96 bpm

Lyrics
One can never know
Ones suffering
It might not show
You might just get a glow & a grin

Brave faces found
We know deep down
Their light flickers sound
Pain as Earth pounds and pounds and pounds and pounds and pounds ...

So give me your pain
Let me release it
Let me find some peace for it
Give me your pain
Let me release it
Let me find some peace of it

Then it gets hard
Untenable
We disconnect
We end this fake mirrored show
We sleep
We wake
Hands tied
Joints and pills to take
We're trying to feel alive
May we all survive

Oh give me your pain
Let me release it
Let me find some peace for it
I'll be your devil drain
Let it out to cease your sore
Lets find peace for more

Give me your Pain

A world of chaos, the work of man.

threshold privacy

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The Ballad of the Golden Calf / Double Dutch Mix
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another fictionalive /+/ szalap collab - Shout-out!
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/// the ballad of the golden calf
by fictionalive: re-imagined, written & performed narration
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music you hear = two tracks:
‘lab’ + ‘samples mastered’
written, produced & provided by szalep
courtesy of szalap @kacper-razdwarazdwa
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fictionalive + szalap aka mc fukoff
arrangement & mix
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fusion of it all –
fictionalive with the popoems series and the hyper media reports
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cover art: fictionalive, that’s it
fair use only
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dropped july 21st, 2025
01:01 pm – central european hot summer time / rainy, cool breeze today
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keep shining ✨
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The story of the golden "Kalb"—better known in English as the Golden Calf—is a famous episode from the book of Exodus in the Hebrew Bible. 
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Here’s what happened:
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After Moses led the Israelites out of Egypt and up to Mount Sinai, he went up the mountain to receive the Ten Commandments from God, staying there forty days and nights. 

His long absence caused anxiety among the Israelites at the camp below. Fearing Moses might never return, the people approached his brother Aaron and asked him to make them a new god to lead them.

Aaron told the people to gather all their golden jewelry, which he melted down and fashioned into a golden calf—a symbol likely borrowed from Egyptian religious imagery. 

Aaron then declared that this idol was the god that brought them out of Egypt, built an altar, and proclaimed a festival. 

The Israelites began worshipping the calf, offering sacrifices, feasting, drinking, and dancing around it.

Meanwhile, God informed Moses of the idolatry and threatened to destroy the people for their unfaithfulness. 

Moses pleaded for mercy on their behalf, and God relented from total destruction but promised consequences.

Moses returned to the camp, enraged at the sight of the idolatry. He smashed the stone tablets of the law, burned and ground the golden calf to powder, mixed it with water, and forced the Israelites to drink it. 

Moses then ordered the Levites to punish the ringleaders, resulting in the death of about three thousand people. 
God later sent a plague as further punishment.

The story’s moral is a warning about the dangers of idolatry and turning away from faith, especially at moments of uncertainty. 

It also underscores the necessity of strong leadership and devotion in maintaining spiritual discipline. 

The golden calf remains a potent symbol, often interpreted as a lesson about the perils of faithlessness, materialism, and communal disobedience.

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The Ballad of the Golden Calf / Double Dutch Mix

A Different Kind of Light

Monkeys and Robots

Wonderful Land

Tuning 440
Timing 4/4 (Changed to 2/4 bar 49 this is to cheat the DAW into not stretching midi vs wav then anything else - delay on the beat achieves the actual step up in tempo after the timing change)

Chords // Bm  / G / Em //


JJ Calls

Praying hands
Whatever cause
Once the greater good not lost
Bored children create their fun
We shelve French horn for this fine one
"Nice one lads" We read it all!
Vacation taken
To JJ calls
Neighbour to good Mickey Moore
Find Michigan piano pure

Down the road city of cars
To Howell front deck
Dad and Guitars
We jam that love then tell the world
Love and service human highway knurled
Good bi-product of happiness sought
With Croatian fun to cloud we court

Terrell Terminator in Jungle
Predator for good
Keys like Mr Bungle
Faith in more like we could
He Thanks you
It's lifestyle
Built from a porch
Good collective friend
Keep lighting that torch

Some moments sealed, marked and moulded
Pure intention
Dark blindfolded
Howl from human to Howell good soul
Keyed keystone as collective role

JJ calls
Darkness falls
Love lit up
Just for us
Love lit up
Just for us
Love lit up
Just for us
JJ calls

JJ Calls - Session 4

Roland Effektgeräte-Test6 (thinking about the world)

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Caught in the Non Act: excerpt upcoming "a Rock-or-Die Opera"
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music: beats and tune by szalap  @kacper-razdwarazdwa
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by fictionalive
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lyrics written and 
narration provided by fictionalive
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excerpt of:
The Stage On Which You Perform: a 'Rock-or-Die' Opera 
https://soundcloud.com/fictionalive/a-rock-or-die-opera


fusion of it all - fictionalive with the popoems series and the hyper media reports
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dropped
Thursday, August 8th, 2025
time - 10:39 AM Central European
Hot Summer Time Zone
today: chaos unfolds —
clouds weep showers of sorrow,
laughter born from disbelief

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// keep shining, crazy little diamond

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"Caught in the Non Act"

At first glance, the phrase seems paradoxical—a riddle whispered in smoke. To be “caught” suggests interruption, perhaps even exposure, yet what is unveiled is the “non act,” a moment defined not by what is done, but what is left undone, unwilled, unexpressed. Here, systems of intention and volition collapse; the actor is held—and holding—precisely at the threshold of action.

I. The Paradox of Presence and Absence

To be “caught in the non act” is to be present at the site of absence. This title evokes the liminal: a threshold where anticipation, hesitation, or silent refusal takes the stage. It aligns with Zen thought—the uncarved block, the sound of one hand clapping—gestures toward meaning that reside in emptiness, stillness, and restraint.

II. Agency in Inaction

Is inaction itself a form of agency? Existentialist thinkers such as Sartre argued that even not-choosing is a choice. To be caught in the non act is to dwell in the suspended animation of potential—the lived tension before choice crystallizes into commitment. Here, the subject is not powerless but powerful in withholding, sabotaging the momentum of events through refusal or hesitation. The non act radiates with possibility, every moment of not-acting echoing futurities never realized.

III. Surveillance and Self-Reflection

“Caught”—by whom? By others, or by the self? If the non act is witnessed, it takes on the texture of surveillance: the fear or thrill of being seen not doing. It is the existential snapshot of one’s truth in the gap, the moment between mask and face, a zone often more revealing than any overt gesture. Inwards, it becomes conscience—self-apprehension at the point of procrastination, moral paralysis, or pure contemplation.

IV. Contemporary Resonance

In an era pressed by productivity and ceaseless motion, “Caught in the Non Act” resists the cult of doing. It honors withdrawal, indecision, the strategic pause, and the mysterious freedom in simply not complying, not reacting, not perpetually performing. To be caught in the non act is perhaps to find, at last, a clearing in the relentless forest of demands—a sacred ambiguity where the self can listen more closely for the next true move.

V. Aesthetic Echoes

The phrase dances with ambiguity and negative space. Like a photograph of a ghost, it suggests presences that can only be glimpsed obliquely—what remains hauntingly unfinished, the beauty in longing rather than attainment. It is the space between musical notes, the silence that frames the utterance, the spell before awakening.

Final Reflection

"Caught in the Non Act" thus stands as a quietly rebellious banner—an enigma that encourages us to ponder the riches of stillness, hesitation, potential, and refusal. It asks us: what, in this stopped moment, have you discovered about movement, intention, and meaning itself? Sometimes—the non act is the truest revolution.

Caught in the Non Act: excerpt upcoming "a Rock-or-Die Opera"

Hall Of Mystery

Cool backing track by TGuitar ==> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=106X2HpPRUs
Song inspired by Chuck Baldwin of Liberty Fellowship ==> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Uyv-Bc1xpfI&t=2354s (once in a while you find a Ministry of Truth).
LYRIC:
ISN’T HARD TO TELL (Who Controls America)
CHORUS
Who controls America isn’t hard to tell
Who controls America isn’t hard to tell
Find out who you’re not allowed to criticize
Who controls America isn’t hard to tell
Isn’t hard to tell

Blackmailed billionaires on the Epstein list
The donor-class under the iron-fist
Treason in every sense of the word
Who’s behind it all, Hey! Haven’t you heard?

Who controls America isn’t hard to tell
Who controls America isn’t hard to tell
Find out who you’re not allowed to criticize
Who controls America isn’t hard to tell
No, it isn’t hard to tell

Hollywood preachers on the television
The Wailing Wall kissed by politicians
New anti-Semitism Bill on the table
Around every corner another j*wish fable, yeah

Who controls America isn’t hard to tell
Who controls America isn’t hard to tell
Find out who you’re not allowed to criticize
Who controls America isn’t hard to tell
AIPAC and the ADL, oh-oh

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Who controls America isn’t hard to tell
Who controls America isn’t hard to tell
Find out who you’re not allowed to criticize
Who controls America isn’t hard to tell
***AIPAC and the ADL from Hell***

MAGA-Christians beginnin’ to wake up
The truth fillin’ up their coffee cup
They see now since 1948
The terror-state of Israel a hot debate, yeh!

Who controls America isn’t hard to tell
Who controls America isn’t hard to tell
Find out who you’re not allowed to criticize
Who controls America isn’t hard to tell
No, it isn’t hard to tell
AIPAC and the ADL
No, it ain’t hard to tell

Who controls America isn’t hard to tell
Who’s dumpin’ America down the wishin’ well
Find out who you’re not allowed to criticize
Who controls America isn’t hard to tell
No, it isn’t hard to tell..

Hollywood preachers on the television
The Wailing Wall kissed by politicians
New anti-Semitism Bill on the table
Around every corner another j***ish fable, yeah

Who controls America isn’t hard to tell
Who controls America isn’t hard to tell
Find out who you’re not allowed to criticize
Who controls Amerika isn’t hard to tell
No, it isn’t hard to tell..

© 2025 Renee La Chapelle – All Rights Reserved

ISN’T HARD TO TELL (Who Controls America)

From the album ”Ueomuitearukuhito”
Cover Art by Yuko Weiner (www.yukoweiner.com/ )

All Up With You (English translation)

One mistake followed another
The world that you believed in disappeared
But you are living now
The light went out
You think it’s all up with you
But you are living now
Now you are living
You feel pains sometimes

One misfortune followed another
The world that you built up disappeared
But you are living now
Now you are living
You bleed when you get hurt
You can’t fight off the urge to chuck it all up
Silly words hurt you without mercy
You became adult you didn’t want to become
You can't get away from yourself
Now you are living

The light went out
If you think it’s all up with you
You are living now
You can’t fight off the urge to chuck it all up
Silly words hurt you without mercy
You can’t stand up and crouch down
You don’t remember a destination
You became adult you didn’t want to become
You may not remember the promise you made in old days

人生は終わり

間違いは重なって信じてた世界は消えて
君は今生きてるよ
輝きは消え去って人生は終わりだって思いながら
生きてるよ
今君は生きてるよ
苦しさも感じるよ

災いは重なって創り上げた世界は消えて
君は今生きてるよ
今君は生きてるよ
怪我すれば血も出るよ
投げ出したい衝動だって抑えていられるか分からない
他愛のない言葉だって君の心に突き刺さって
なりたくない大人になって君自身から逃れられない
今君は生きてるよ

輝きは消え去って人生は終わりだって思うならば
生きてるよ
投げ出したい衝動だって抑えていられるか分からない
他愛のない言葉だって君の心に突き刺さって
立ち上がれない、しゃがみ込んで行き先なんて覚えていない
なりたくない大人になっていつかの約束なんて思い出せそうもない

Ueomuitearukuhito

All Up With You

Link

Hodges - All Up With You (人生は終わり)

KUZbeats is genre-defying "cinematic indie-tronica" that joins modern musical elements to whatever's left of the weird old world. It's searching for something. The music reflects diverse influences and tall tales from the artist’s life and travels. And it rocks.

I am a singer-songwriter, composer and producer based in Oxfordshire, UK. 

I am just finishing off the final tracks from the upcoming album 'The Supersonic Dataset' due for release in October. In the meantime I will be uploading the tracks here as I finish them :).

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