Unleashed

What You Mean

Just a strange conversation I had on Twitter/X and a few other concepts rolled together:

Note: I am in nowhere near this dark a mood it's just the direction writing the poetry dragged me in.

my main website:
http://exedexes1.com

itch.io page:
http://exedexes1.itch.io

Lyrics:

As my prospects generally began to sink
I became a master of the slow blink
It seemed a better expression of calm
Than the tried and true facepalm

Every day i get closer to understanding
why Nietzsche went insane
He failed to last until the serum
of Gödel's incompleteness theorem
Or maybe it was just cancer of the brain

While nibbling on my picky bits
I stumbled into mumbling fits
Around the looming dilemma that sits
On the horizon just ahead 

Lucidity deploys a myriad of suns that melt one's mind
And then one day you wake to find
How badly you'd been left behind
Which only increased my dread

Starting as a sort of joke
I decided to invoke a sort of chant
To break me of my internal rant

Like lobbing coconades at a deka wall
I blazed a path through it all
I found my self devolving
On a hackneyed tool of problem solving

"Yes/No column, come to life"
Rectify my grum moment
By serving up the missing component
To wend my way out of the mess

Every day it's more demanding
Increasing my chances of landing 
At a place of inability to maintain
The trick's to master fear of
People that I'd rather not hear from
Or maybe it's just answering that's a pain

Insatiable truths that devour
Like maggots eating flour
Snap at my heels every hour
The trick's to find a state of grace
In weathering what i'd rather not face
Before it grows beyond what I can tame

"Yes/No column, come to life"
Resolve my little internal strife
Rid me of the pitfalls that are rife
And cut this gordian knot like a knife
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When I catch myself being a try-hard
Or an insufferable grognard
It helps to pass the time
By flattening the occasional taxi lime
But eventually I return
To suddenly learn
How to break this paradigm

310: Yes-No Column, Come To Life! released July 7, 2024

Feature.fm link to this track:
https://ffm.to/yes-no-column

SoundCloud for this track:
https://soundcloud.com/doug-stoothoff/yes-no-column-come-to-life

Spotify for this track:
https://open.spotify.com/track/6b8PnBAjLrRvNQUHYQGpSL

Bandcamp for this track:
https://dougstoothoff.bandcamp.com/track/yes-no-column-come-to-life

Douglas P Stoothoff main site:
https://exedexes1.com/

itch.io profile link:
https://exedexes1.itch.io/

Feature.fm overall Artist Bio link:
https://ffm.bio/dbx6kbg

Master Track List on SC:
https://soundcloud.com/doug-stoothoff/tracks

Artist page on Spotify:
https://open.spotify.com/artist/7EuvIQRQESX9WFtwI6GqWB

Artist page on Apple:
https://music.apple.com/us/artist/doug-stoothoff/1687430940

Artist page on Amazon:
https://music.amazon.com/artists/B0C4YK678Y/douglas-p-stoothoff

Youtube Artist Topic Channel (autogenerated):
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4WSgBZCySWQ-wAQ0GMtXag

Artist page on Bandcamp:
https://dougstoothoff.bandcamp.com/

Artist page on Tidal:
https://tidal.com/browse/artist/39485859

Artist page on Beatport:
https://www.beatport.com/artist/douglas-p-stoothoff/1155579

Artist page on Boomplay:
https://www.boomplay.com/artists/70114948

Artist page on Pandora:
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Artist page on iHeart Radio:
https://www.iheart.com/artist/douglas-p-stoothoff-40424070/

Ešrā

Yes-No Column, Come To Life!

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This song is the antithesis of my previous track, Higher. It's heavily influenced by 90s grunge, and aims to portray the lowest point in someones life, with a hint of hope.

Lyrics:

Feel the weight of the world
It's all slipping away
Lost in noise, can't be heard
Another dark and empty day
Lower, they might hear
Thoughts pounding in your head
Some things should stay hidden
Some words should not be said

Lower my expectations
Lower my guard
Trying to find salvation
But it's just so hard

Lower than I ever was, Lower than I ever was,
Lower than I ever was
Lower than I ever was, Lower than I ever was,
Lower than I ever was

Seeking light in the grey
Shadows dancing on my mind
All I've known fades away
Leaves me broken behind
They said I should get high
Changing me to something else
But I think I like this way
When I'm low I'm just myself

Lower my expectations
Lower my guard
Chasing a faint reflection
Of a life that's scarred

Lower than I ever was, Lower than I ever was
Drowning in the echoes of my loss
(Lower than I ever was)
Lower than I ever was, Lower than I ever was
No one can see the lines I've crossed
(Lower than I ever was)

Lower than I ever was, Lower than I ever was
(Drowning in the echoes of my loss)
Lower than I ever was
(No one can see the lines I've crossed)
Lower than I ever was, Lower than I ever was
(Drowning in the echoes of my loss)
Lower than I ever was
(No one can see the lines I've crossed)

Feel the weight of the world
It's all slipping away
Lost in noise, can't be heard
Another dark and empty day

Lower

The video on Roomrock : 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OC3gydWVZ5M

Someday will come the pride.
Anger will be aside.
You won’t worry for the kids.
They'll grow happy and free.

I promise you someday we will prevail baby.
I will do what it takes.

I promise you someday we'll feel secure honey.
I will do what it takes.

One day, there will be no more threats.
We'll sleep soundly. No freaks.

The future will be appealing.
We'll smile anew in the morning.

I promise you someday we will prevail baby.
I will do what it takes.

I promise you someday we'll feel secure honey.
I will do what it takes.

Someday (Roomrock version - Link to the video in comments)

Some care was taken on this track to play some extra notes as if a second pianist was playing, and in the sequencer they are played onto the same track (the Grand Piano) then a bunch of instruments are in unison after the layering was done.  After the tradition of Moebius Cul-De-Sac and a few other pieces where I have done the lead synth voice in addition to chords, I tried to keep up these extra grace notes going throughout the performance.

321 : Artificial Boredom released August 4, 2024

Feature.fm link to this track:
https://ffm.to/artificial-boredom

SoundCloud for this track:
https://soundcloud.com/doug-stoothoff/artificial-boredom

Spotify for this track:
https://open.spotify.com/track/0XTev0hKkFALY6sQRQnmC0

Bandcamp for this track:
https://dougstoothoff.bandcamp.com/track/artificial-boredom

Douglas P Stoothoff main site:
https://exedexes1.com/

itch.io profile link:
https://exedexes1.itch.io/

Feature.fm overall Artist Bio link:
https://ffm.bio/dbx6kbg

Master Track List on SC:
https://soundcloud.com/doug-stoothoff/tracks

Artist page on Spotify:
https://open.spotify.com/artist/7EuvIQRQESX9WFtwI6GqWB

Artist page on Apple:
https://music.apple.com/us/artist/doug-stoothoff/1687430940

Artist page on Amazon:
https://music.amazon.com/artists/B0C4YK678Y/douglas-p-stoothoff

Youtube Artist Topic Channel (autogenerated):
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4WSgBZCySWQ-wAQ0GMtXag

Artist page on Bandcamp:
https://dougstoothoff.bandcamp.com/

Artist page on Tidal:
https://tidal.com/browse/artist/39485859

Artist page on Beatport:
https://www.beatport.com/artist/douglas-p-stoothoff/1155579

Artist page on Boomplay:
https://www.boomplay.com/artists/70114948

Artist page on Pandora:
https://www.pandora.com/artist/douglas-p-stoothoff/ARjZ7nth7x9xvpg

Artist page on Qobuz:
https://www.qobuz.com/us-en/interpreter/douglas-p-stoothoff/18758728

Artist page on iHeart Radio:
https://www.iheart.com/artist/douglas-p-stoothoff-40424070/

Ištešrā

Artificial Boredom

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I stare, through the window, at the streets
Watching them go, like little bees.
Nowhere to go.

They seem to be pretty busy
But they must be as bored as me.

I go to the kitchen, slowly.
I want to make a cup of tea.
I can't find another thing to do.
I've been like this, since I broke up with you.

If I could go back to the shore
I would stop being bored
I could breathe and run to the sea
I'm busy being bored

What is the real purpose of this?
Sadly, I can't find my way in this mess.
Instead I drink a cup of tea.
And damn it, I will let it just be.

If I could go back to the shore
I would stop being bored.
I could breathe and run to the sea.
I'm busy being bored.

Busy Being Bored (The Shore)

“Vale of Tears” fuses the driving rhythm of drum & bass with the sheer intensity of metal - featuring hellish vocals from long time collaborator Andy Chavez.

Stream / Purchase:
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/digitaldusk/vale-of-tears

Vale of Tears

Vale of Tears (feat. Andy Chavez)

Vale Of Tears (feat. Andy Chavez)

Blue Murder

a feel-good track to get you going, perfect vibe to be uplifted and to get your mood turned  up a notch 

Jive.mp3

The first in a planned series of waltzes. This one a simple dorian mode tune, just bouncing along on various squeezeboxes. Mostly. (Picture credit to FrozenOrb) 

#22 Ruby Waltz

I Did All I Could

A therapeutic journey into a mix of jazz, classical, and a blend of types of electronica.  And a wry, gradual observation that promotion tends to only go as far as you push it.  At least I make my fellow musicians laugh a little.

Artificial Boredom

Doug Stoothoff