April 2021 Update:
After a year of aggressively working on music and honing my production skills I decided to return to this song and rerecord/remix it. I'm very happy with the result and I hope you all continue to enjoy it.

Past Description (2019)
A tune ive been working on over the past 3 years and I am very proud of the end result and whats to come. 

I hope you enjoy the tune as much as I enjoyed making it and reflecting on the outcome. 

Cheers, HANKUS

Personnel: 
Everything - Me

Lyrics:
Let's talk about how you want to converse with one syllable words, faces and closed endings 
Cause I don't know what else I can still propose, there  are so many issues that you won't disclose to me, or anyone 

Let's talk about how you advertise, your desire to speak , well you aren't talk to me, or anyone

Should I pester you a little bit more, keep pushing for an answer, or just keeping asking more 
cause we're getting nowhere 

(instrumental chorus cause that's how i do it!)

Canceled dates and dynamic states
Searching for an anchor to bring you out of this 
The hopeful shift 

That slides it all back into place 
Gets you out there and brings you face to face with your evasions

then one day you'll take off from this, desperate, tired and over this 
of all the things you said you'd do 
I didn't think this one you'd choose 

I think helped you choose 

(bridge)
every conversation 
an interrogation 
mere frustration 
self isolation 

an adoration 
for contemplation
an aspiration
for devastation

meander around
up and down without this

lost and found 
stumble around without this

till ive taken care of that
hopeful shift

The Hopeful Shift (DEMO)

Lyrics:

I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go
To the Bardo

I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go
To the Bardo

Close my eyes 
Just for one second
Chewed up and shit out 
Into a new dimension
Slip into an ooze 
Of infinite creation
Free-fallen from the top
Straight into the basement
Infinite yet empty
That's the way you oughta be
Show me how to keep my nose
And my conscience clean
I know 
For sure
There's something pure
Inside of you

You lived your life with a subtle grace
And I still cry at the thought of your name
But when you live your life with a cold approach
You have no idea how much pain you impose
You're ignorant, you're just an ant
And you can forgive, and you can forget
But when you think, what good is that?
Why don't you refer to your epitaph?

Infinite yet empty
That's the way you oughta be
Show me how to keep my nose
and my conscious clean
And I pray that you'll pray for me
49 days and 7 weeks
Infinite yet empty
That's the way you oughta be
Show me how to keep my nose
and my conscious clean
And I pray that you'll pray for me
49 days and 7 weeks

I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go 
I don't wanna go
To the Bardo

The Bardo

Produced and mixed by Mikuláš Roubíček
Sound engineers: Derek Saxenmeyer & Nick Fox
Recorded at Studio Faust Records, Prague
Mastered by Nate Wood at Kerseboom Mastering
Cover design Copyright (©) Emma Walker

Inside Out (Got No Doubt)

From the EP 'Enthusiast' - free download from https://dudfence.bandcamp.com/album/enthusiast
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From the EP 'Enthusiast' - free download from https://dudfence.bandcamp.com/album/enthusiast
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From the EP 'Enthusiast' - free download from https://dudfence.bandcamp.com/album/enthusiast

Maxell Memories

This song was created out of curiosity and love for music.

Memories

The Tortoise And The Hare

Hope Lost In An Encirclement

lyrics:
there's a drought in the desert
nothing left to burn 
while you're out there 
waiting for your luck to turn 

got a pocket full of quarters 
gonna pay to play
they all like you better 
cause you never stay

wait wait
 till we stop spinning
count it on winning, here

in the heat, a mirage 
covers up the sky
and you fall to your knees
and you don't know why

wait for the fire
make me a liar
make me a liar, here

and there's apple pie
on the 4th of July
down to the desert where they made you lie
toxic elastic wrap your face in plastic 

out on road 
huffing dust and fumes
lost in your head cause 
there's too much room

in the hollow refrain 
of a bitter bet
can't explain 
and you won't forget

and you take take 
what they owe you
ask if they know you, here

down to the water 
that you never drink
stare in the sun 
till it makes you blink

breathe under water
 just like you taught her

who'd you find in California
were they everything you needed 
did they smile like they want you
do you wait until they bleed
yeah, who'd you find in California
was she everything you need
does it matter if they want you 
do you like it when they bleed

and there's apple pie
on the 4th of July
down to the desert where they made you lie
toxic elastic wrap your face in plastic 

so you get what you want 
is it what you need
they will follow you 
down any way you lead

in a circle and back again
what you've done and will not defend

where will they find you  
how they try to remind you
how they remind you here

all out of matches 
got a bridge to burn
beg for another 
cause you never learn

wait for the fire
make me a liar
make me a liar here
all wait...

apple pie fourth of July 
down to the desert where they made you lie
you are toxic elastic wrap your face in 
plastic...

wait for the fire
make me liar
make me a liar, here

and there's apple pie fourth of July 
down to the desert where they made you lie

you are toxic elastic wrap your face in 
plastic 
shave it off, sell it out

fade away

(fixed the compression 12/9)

Nothing Left to Burn

Godhead I feel indifferent 
Godhead I don’t know how I could believe in your lies 
Godhead I feel the imminence 
Godhead I know I’m being held back by my eyes 
Godhead I think I’m limitless
Godhead I’m aiming higher for your throne in the sky
Godhead you know I sinned for this 
Godhead it took a fall for me to learn how to fly 

No more of talk where god and angel guest with man
For seven days and nights I’m bursting with a plan 
The more I crave those pleasures more torment I feel 
In heaven all the more the pain to dull the light I steal 

Pagan Gods or fallen angels 
I kill em off like cain did abele
The son of I will echo the sin
Narcissus now I will let them in

Godhead

I’ll tell you something now
If I had half the chance I’d bail on this life
See who greets me on the other side
But then, why run when you can’t hide from the feeling that rots away from the inside?

How did you see me begging for a different life?
Was it that painting on the wall?
How did you find it - begging for a different life?
Was it all you wanted and more?
Could you even tell the difference if I was gone?
Nobody seems to understand

If you could do one thing different, what would you choose?
I think I’d go about my days without shoes and forget them
I’d forget them

How did you see me begging for a different life?
Was it that painting on the wall?
How did you find it - begging for a different life?
Was it all you wanted and more?

If I had gotten away with it I would have told you everything sometime or another
Now you’re on a different plane of existence
You’ve got a kid with a guy you barely even know
So I’m sorry
I’m sorry, Georgia

How did you see me begging for a different life?
Was it that painting on the wall?
How did you find it - begging for a different life?
Was it all you wanted and more?

I’m sorry
But I could have gotten away with it
..I kind of got away with it..

The Tortoise And The Hare

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