I'm Geist

volume 1 on spotify, feb 3rd 

i don’t care if it’s lonely
i’m so sick of you just talking like you know me
and you could or you would if you didn’t go starting fires in this basement

oh…
hope you got everything you needed now
cause i’m burning every garden where we fell in love
and i’m killin’ every peasant that walks in this town
you know i’m painting the walls red till they scream for help

and i can bury every feeling that i’m feeling but i know that it’s just moments before i put the fucking gun in my mouth
you cut my heart and now it’s bleeding and i’m staring at the ceiling but the fuck do i expect when this is how it turns out?

oh why’d you go and make geist red
now he’s full of hate
i can’t stand to look at myself
not a fan of him
bodies scattered all across the hall
baby i don’t miss
so why’d go and makes me red
but i’m loving this...
i’ll fight an ego with a bigger one
i’ll hit another million
geistcord till the day i fucking die
but swear we’ve just begun
don’t care for anybody else
or anyone’s opinion
so go ahead and make geist red
red
red
red

i promise our love is dead [drma x lockhome]

@heylog @oc 

// geist
say you’ll change
words are worthless
baby you’re a fake
and i’m not for it
snakes stay in the lake
so go join them
don’t talk to me
i’m not your friend
darling

can’t stand to hate myself
need to fix my health
so i put the bottle down
and hit the gym instead
you gave it all for wealth
how do you face yourself?
you’re so caught up in your media
it’s so unwell

i don’t want to see your face
i swear show up and you will die.
put that bitch back in her place
can’t tell her ego from her pride
love to talk about your problems
but your life is such a lie
you’re not fooling anybody
swear to god i meant goodbye

// heylog
i was not afraid to tell her that she was being delusional
cause all her little friends just encourage her to be a hoe
well it's not hard to find someone who isn't modest
and with that i feel my brain slowly rotting
don't know why you gotta constantly talk over me
i used to let that go, now i say shut up when i speak
it's like you never have respect for anything i say
you try to lead me on, i can't be weak
i can't be weak

spotify

weak w/ heylog [oc]

1st song off my album "pity", out september 25th 

@lilskeleskrrt @bitekivibes @ytstatic
produced by me, guitar @ikarinan @tnvr555

lyrics:
i started running from you
too fast
n i fell to the ground
spilled out blood on the grass
you said you needed me
like you could never leave
and i fell for it dreaming
made it easy to breathe

but you broke it all
paper walls
you were supposed to be here
but you’re so good being gone
and i felt it all
8 missed calls
hit me up when u need me
and leave me hurt when you don’t

don’t act like you’re so innocent
like it’s not what you want
i gave u all that i had
while u were holding the gun
oh god
it was everything you said from the start
i was waiting on it falling apart

oh oh
what a waste of my time
but if it’s all with you
i’d gladly waste my whole life
oh no
i wish i didn’t say goodbye
the paper walls are burning down
our home is gone..

god damn
i feel my heart tear on every beat
the silence is deafening
truly it’s killing me
u try to forget who i am
i try to forget how your eyes were like thousands of galaxies..
oh, consumed i’m so lost in your stare
comfort i felt like i wouldn’t have fears
writing you poetry wishing you were here
if i held on longer would i still be scared

paper walls w/ skele

produced by i'm geist
guitar @hiraethsry
engineered @tnvr555

i suppose time will wear away the pain of not seeing you again
the memory of you
the loving of you
time won't take that away

it would be easier to die

i cant fathom
the fucking feeling in my chest
i inject the venom
hope it leads me to my death
i’ve lost all passion
this isn’t music i just vent
cause i can’t fathom
i take the blade and then i’ll rest
oh
cause i can’t fathom
how u breathe when i’m not there
cause i can’t have love
if it’s not u it’s nowhere
and at this point it’s not fair now…

i never want to fight love
i’ve made you so tired
if we can just rewind
and not get caught in the moment
i know now that our times up
but love you all the same now
yeah we cannot rewind
but i’ll hold on to the moments

i’ll write you goodbyes
till it feels like i’m not choking
but i can’t find the words
to show what was lost and broken
doesn’t matter now
how much wounds i still reopen
i’ll love you the same
even when the words aren’t spoken

i’ll write you goodbyes
till it feels like i’m not choking
but i can’t find the words
to show what was lost and broken
doesn’t matter now
how much wounds i still reopen
i’ll love you the same

i can't fathom // goodbye pt. 3

produced by i'm geist
guitar @hiraethsry
engineered @tnvr555

last single off my album pity out next week
thank you for listening :)

// geist
so let it all dissipate
there’s a lot on my plate
but you’re not on the list love

wipe the smile off my face
you just come and you take
like you want to let me down

but come on now, you left
so leave me alone
i smell the blood
spilled fresh, cut to a bone
and it’s all so tempting
the scent
pheromones
you stare at me
and whisper words like a ghost

"you look like a ghoul
the way that you walk
your eyes glisten red,
are you hungry my love?"

no i'm just a fool,
and i shouldn't talk
i'll sow my mouth and i'll give this all up
yeah i'll give this all up
cause i'm never enough

// yokai dreams
guess u havent had enough yet
havent filled ur gut yet
leave me to the crows
dead on the road
sight will make ur gut wrench
where her heart was supposed to be is just a silhouette
cigarettes and empty threats
tell me, are you finished yet?

stealing a look in the moonlight
ur alive now
and the moods right
im a night owl
til noon light
imma lie down
til the times right
my lover loves to make me believe
that she keep the peace on those good nights
second i'm sleepin
she's barin her teeth and
she could bite
but i don't mind

guess that i'm not used to falling in love
everyone i used to know has move on
and i know you will too
nothing has improved
said we're gonna change, just not any time soon
guess that i'm not used to feeling this way
everything i used to feel has decayed
got the heart of a ghoul
selfish and cruel
thought this was love but i was just a tool

ghoul w/ yokai dreams

@yokaidreams @tnvr555 

all black
nails, clothes
blacked out
coke nose
turned just for a second now she’s got me in a choke hold
pretty eyes you know it’s all to save face
i’m so used to all the acting 
i’ve got no time to waste

you’re a time bomb ticking baby 
i’m calling your bluff now
cardiac arrest you’re killing everyone you touch love
and for a mention you’d do ‘bout anything
but i don’t care for who you are so get the fuck out my face

kerosene love
i'm burning up at ur touch
i know the hate that u contain is so much more than i will
ever see love
so u should bite off ur tongue
and take the knife from my gut
cuz i've been bleeding out

left last night, didn't see u til the morning
scratch and bite ya, she's a fuckin animal
don't have a care at all
violating protocol
she's in my area code
looking fucking scary tho
but for you i swear that i could write another million lines
but we been running out of time

TIMEBOMB W/ YOKAI DREAMS [TNVR]

prod @tnvr555

// i'm geist 
try to prove yourself
but can’t do the minimal
don’t look at me
your eyes are so pitiful
took time took years
still invisible
just another day
fucking miserable

all stressed out
can’t numb it with nicotine
teeth drug stained
paranoia from the lsd
it’s all fake
all hate
making enemies
blood fresh red stacking bodies at the crime scene

i wake up dead
hardly functioning on caffeine
to the party everybody wants to fight me
swear to god i’ll put that bitch in the dirt
don’t dare you question my worth
or you’ll all end up hurt

// tnvr 
i just made a crime scene,
cut 'em up like denji
contract with my shadows
so they will not go against me
we're just wasting time see,
now i'm feeling empty
take take take all my energy
leave me with misery

feed them lies,
they won't ask you anything
push me off the edge
there's no empathy
it's all fake, all hate
now you're dead to me
you can find me at the morgue if you remember me

SPOTIFY

CRIME SCENE W/ TNVR

@decayinganyways @diskrypt

// decayinganyways
where does the time go, time go
it’s fucking so shallow, hollowed
were always out all night
we’ve never seen the light
we’re just the horror type
i’m saying i don’t..

saying i don’t mind
losing my mind like half of the time
in all day and out all night
silver shots and add some lime
tell me love i can’t ignore
how your distant more and more
leave it vibrant on the floor
dance alone, adore me more

// geist
i’ve got no time to find a potion
grind all on me baby
ride all on night until you’re soaking
and not a lot of people know me
cause i’d do you so slowly
till you’re dripping like a nosebleed

dance all over baby
say you’re sorry
i know
nail marks covering me
then you’ll put on a show
your smile is torture lately
engraved so deep in my bones
say you’re sorry baby
but bloods all over the floor

// geist & decaying
Saying I don’t mind
Losing my mind like half of the time
In all day and out all night
Silver shots and add some lime
Tell me love I can’t ignore
How your distant more and more
Leave it vibrant on the floor
Dance alone adore me more

dance alone

dance alone w/ decayinganyways [diskrypt]

@b_murph @tnvr555

// murph 
i'm way too drunk right now
baby could you just call me tomorrow?
cross out my face, i hate that shit
make sure i'm not in the photos
i'm numb, i'm broken and i can't feel a thing
i'm fucking hollow
i hate the way you play these games with me
it brings me sorrow
goddamn I'm so stressed out right now 

i hate
when you say that you're in love
my chest, it burns
when you then say you've had enough
like make your mind up before i fuck my life up
baby, i'm so stressed out
yeah, i hate
when you say that you're in love

// geist 
darling
you make it so hard go
it’s too difficult
don’t say you’re sorry
please you know that words mean nothing now
i fall apart
and you watched me burn to ashes love
so tell me what can i say to you when i’m breaking down

tell me how you feel
we crossed eyes and i had believed it oh
to me it was all real
but for you it’ll always be cynical
and i hate when you scream
so please don’t tell me now that you’re in love
i guess you made your mind
cause it’s clear to me that i’m not enough

// murph & geist 
i hate
when you say that you're in love
my chest, it burns
when you then say you've had enough
like make your mind up before i fuck my life up
baby, i'm so stressed out
yeah, i hate
when you say that you're in love

i hate
when you say that you're in love
my chest, it burns
when you then say you've had enough
like make your mind up before i fuck my life up
baby, i'm so stressed out
yeah, i hate
when you say that you're in love

baby i'm so stressed out

baby i'm so stressed out w/ b murph [tnvr]

Oh
I can see you when I fall asleep
You live in my head now you're haunting me
Holding my hand and then you cut my veins
Squeeze every ounce of my blood you can take
Oh...

YOU'VE GOT YOUR HANDS AROUND MY NECK 
AND YOU'RE TAKING MY LIFE :( 
TIGHT LIKE A NOOSE 
OH I CAN HEAR YOU SMILE...

OH OH OH OH OH
OH OH OH OH OH 

So shut me up
Go on sever my tongue
And if it's not enough
Then just cut my throat out
Hear me grasp for air
But I'll still stare
At how your eyes captivate
Everyone around you babe...

You said "what are we"
What are we??
I don't know love...
Cause it seems like you're somebody
To someone else now :( 
And don't act like it's funny
Cause I'm throwing up
Wiped the blood up
With money
Cause that's all I'm for

THAT'S ALL I'M FOR 
SIX FEET UNDERNEATH AND IT'S WHAT I DESERVE 
IT'S WHAT I DESERVE 

Into the shadows I go
I found my place in the underworld
Buried in ashes and smoke
One day you'll get just what you deserve
ONE DAY YOU'LL GET JUST WHAT YOU DESERVE 
YOU'RE BORN WITH THIS CURSE 
IT'S WHAT YOU DESERVE 
Into the shadows I go
I found my place in the underworld

Cut me up now, burn me in fire
Watch as i drown, love, don't you get tired?
Taking my life again and again
Twist in the knife, it's your only friend

I'm just another body to you
You're undercover, but I'm no fool
Out for blood, I know you are

I see there's murder on your 
MIND
DARLING 
I'M BARELY ALIVE
SO DIG MY GRAVE 
Parasites crawling away
Poltergeists taking my place

Into the shadows I go
I found my place in the underworld
Buried in ashes and smoke
One day you'll get just what you deserve
ONE DAY YOU'LL GET JUST WHAT YOU DESERVE 
YOU'RE BORN WITH THIS CURSE 
IT'S WHAT YOU DESERVE 
Into the shadows I go
I found my place in the underworld
IN THE UNDERWORLD 
IN THE UNDERWORLD

what you deserve

what you deserve w/ tnvr [tnvr]

@tnvr555

// geist 
take me home
i’m surrounded by ghosts
i’ve been haunted by my past too long
carry on

there’s no coming back
it’s what i had sworn
and then i saw your face
oh how i adored my
who you were
but you’re not anymore
sire me
make me yours
push me back to the floor
oh

if blood is what you need
you can take it from my veins
cause you know i would die for you
any fucking day
so take all that you want
oh baby, spit in my face
cause you know i’d give all for you
but you won’t do the 
same

// rik 
walking on my grave
there’s not much here we could save, save
cast your hex go on your way, way
woah woah
there’s not much here we could save, save
cast your hex go on your way, way

blood stains on the carpet once again
everyday is just another nightmare
some days i can see your ghost
it’s like i’m not always alone
this whole things like a fever dream
don’t wake me up when the bloods still clean
close your eyes
watch a madman disappear
it’s like you're mesmerized
i know everything you fear
super natural
that hungry look in your eyes
you're so beautiful
i’d kill to have you as mine 

// geist and rik 
if blood is what you need
you can take it from my veins
cause you know i would die for you
any fucking day
so take all that you want
oh baby, spit in my face
cause you know i’d give all for you
but you won’t do the 
same

walking on my grave
there’s not much here we could save, save
cast your hex go on your way, way
woah woah
there’s not much here we could save, save
cast your hex go on your way, way 

WALKING ON MY GRAVE 
THERE'S NOT MUCH WE COULD SAVE 
CAST YOUR HEX GO ON YOUR WAY 
WALKING ON MY GRAVE 
THERE'S NOT MUCH WE COULD SAVE 
CAST YOUR HEX GO ON YOUR WAY

walking on my grave

walking on my grave w/ revengeinkyoto [tnvr]

prod. @prod-oc 

// sewerperson 
the trust was removed from you and i 
you and i 
from you i 
still I thought about how u told me its till we die
like you and i
till the afterlife
now I sit alone inside this booth and I bleed
all the words on this page leave me shameful its free
i know
oh i know
you’re still awake just like usual
just like the photos
oh I know 

uh if no one told me different I would get by
if u just shared my feelings we would be more than fine
blood all over the floorboards i cant hide
u should’ve been all mine u didn’t have to die
i will say a prayer and ill go to sleep
if I die tonight lord take my soul to keep
i was way too wavy look at my cup it bleeds
bape pink on top my hoodie with yeezys on my feet 

// geist 
yeah you come to go 
to put on a show 
watch me die alone
when i need you most 
again 
god i hate this game 
the way it ends the same 

be soft 
it’s all so brittle 
squeezed tight..
now blood leaves every pore 
swore that you were my angel 
saved me to ruin me once more 

shut up i’ve got nothing left to say to you 
i shutout every word cause you don’t speak the truth 
crossed my heart and now you’re gonna pay for two 
the sky is ripping open
swear this time we’re doomed 

please don’t look 
i cannot stomach it 
swore it’s you & i 
until my heart stops beating 
bloods all on the floorboards
never meant for this
don’t look me in the face 
cause you’re not my muse darling 

i won’t try there’s nothing to save 
i’ve learnt you’ve got no shame 
and i don’t want to know what’s his name 
i’ll put him in the grave 
i don’t need nobody to say 
who am i to blame 
i call every shot that i take 
you’re all just fucking lame 

yeah spit on my face 
once you’ll clean it with yours baby 
don’t say my name 
and watch the tone you speak to me 
i’m not the same 
person you left groveling 
on my feet again 
kill all who dare looks my way


I'm Geist

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