Once done done

BLISS OUT NOW

https://drainpuppet.bandcamp.com/album/bliss

https://open.spotify.com/album/0JiHPRFrhRF9ypnLgrfNSJ?si=GIserlpmQcSnI-WDEC6dfg

this is it! this is the big one. i've been working on this on and off since 2013. i was 16 when i started this album. i was a completely different person but in many ways, especially artistically, i was the same. worse at some things and better at others but. still just an emo dweeb writing synth solos over major chords. 

i began promoting this album under the vague title "my magnum opus" in 2015 or 2016 and a lot of my following has rotated out since then but im sure a lot of people will be familiar with some of these tracks. they feel a lot different to listen to when theyre all in a row, it is very much greater than the sum of its parts. the story bliss tells is a long one but every piece was necessary i think. im trying not to get too emotional writing this but. this record means a lot to me. it will be a long time before a record means as much to me as this one. 

by pre-ordering you get the three singles as well as the opening track. a little taster EP almost, and then a download link will be in your inbox the moment it comes out. nifty. CDs and cassettes will be coming soon also, so be on the lookout! i worked really hard on the designs and theyre going to be super pretty. 

i want to thank anyone who's ever bought or streamed or told their friends about my music. i want to thank everyone who ever believed in me. i want to thank everyone who ever believed in this album. i hope you enjoy it as much as i do. be kind to each other. love you. thanks

BLISS

BUY/STREAM

Deciduous (Interlude)

Terrane - Circles (Anzious Remix)

@skybr34kr

174 bpm

sounds like shit but whatever

s/phie + v/nce st/ples + k/ndrick + fl/me + k/cka - yeah right (cnri edit)

pre-save my new song "honeydew": https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/monikrr/honeydew

i'm paintin' pictures
on another frame of mind
tryna keep my distance
to let it subside

cos i don't want it
i don't want the me that lied
but i'm getting strangled
by the rope of which we're tied

and i'll lose my mind
until you forget me
cut the string
and let me loose but i doubt it

it's all my fault and
i should take responsibility
and apologize
but that's outta my abilities

yeah
wasted all my time
using music to confide in
no matter how hard i tried
now i realize

that i'm stuck
my visions getting starry
and my words they turn to dust
too busy spouting nonsense
but i don't really give a fuck

cos this shit is pointless anyways
so far gone in just twenty days
the walls around me begin to cave
and i'm crushed by the weight of my sins

and i might be out of my mind
that or i'm real fuckin blind
it took me this long to discern
that i'm wasting my time
yeah i'm wasting your time

everything i say has no meaning
and i've been all caught up in my inhibitions
tryna devise and write every word i sing
but i'm still chained up by the weight of the blame

and i'm confounded
cos i sat and watched it wither away
my ethics are clouded
amenity is not my game

if i weren't so adamant
maybe there would finally be a change
if i weren't so inadequate
maybe i'd finally find my place

but that shit's pointless when they see through you
and i lose focus, never carry through
don't wanna be relied on when i'm just lied to
what does it matter to [you]

and i might be out of my mind
that or i'm real fuckin blind
it took me this long to discern
that i'm wasting my time
yeah i'm wasting your time

everything i say has no meaning
and i've been all caught up in my inhibitions
tryna devise and write every word i sing
but i'm still chained up by the weight of the

inhibition

off the album "Ressentiment" - Out April 2021

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Lyrics:
there is no god in your loneliness
there is no pain in your forgiveness
when the roses bloom in mid-june
will they prosper and decay all life?

no more death 
filled with long days
no more ego 
filled with love
no drugs to 
kill you softly

no more numbness
(drown you slow)

you and i, always
endlessly playing
in a ballet of masochism
apple seeds of virginity
have begun to lose its taste

the truth of apathy is sewn
 
no more blood
filled with blind hate
no more highs
turnin’ slow
no flesh to
peel back softly

no more forgiveness
(kill you slow)

do you believe in hope
do you believe in hostility
obedient greed
tender affection being hopelessly bound

no naivety 
filled with dull days
no more 
broken shards to hold
and it feels so high
it feels so helpless 
i was blinded
now i’m cold
it’s always aching
it’s why i love you

the joy of your fragile oppressive hope

Hate Floods Slow (off "Ressentiment" - Out April 2021)

clinging on to whatever is left

kinda hate this song now but whatever

they run away from me when they see blood on my hands
all because i broke my braces on 100 grand
and by that i mean the candy, if i had money handy
i could pay for surgery to fix my teeth to put it blandly
or in other words to alter my identity
hide away my imperfections for the v/nity
to manipulate my image to appease a public vision
and preach about how i love my humanity

but what's the point when all we do is
run away from the people we're meant to be
and when all the lights we shine just burn us out
although i know i can't hide behind you forever
could you promise me
that you'll help me find who i could be

v/nity

00mud

Crammed as many good vibes as I could into this one :)

Original track:
https://soundcloud.com/jedwill1999/jedwill-garden-prod-camoufly

Garden (prod. Camoufly) [lvcy remix]

Jedwill - Garden (prod. Camoufly) [lvcy remix]

1 hour challenge @ fl1pz0n3 (@fl1pz0n3)
@polygoncove crafted a ghostly loop, lzy flip'd dat

ive been so lost in my head
kinda wish that i was DEDDDDD
ive been in graveyards w ghosts
i tried 2 sell them my soul

blood in ur eyes guts in ur lies

graveyardswghosts [+polygoncove]

i love youuuu and you are my beautiful friend and lets enjoy the sunshine while we can

Deciduous (Interlude)

Drainpuppet :)