i forgot and was still first thats tragic

10/4

presave the gosh darn album: ffm.to/dramatrial
the vocals are overcompressed and sometimes more prominent on the right ear but i was too lazy to rerecord so

i dont wanna wait for you
i dont wanna wait for you
i dont wanna wait for you
i dont wanna wait
i dont wanna wait 
i dont wanna

i might go overboard
feeling left in the dust
(on my own accord)
might need to go out more
standing still
building rust
laying on the floor

when push comes to shove
i tend to lose my balance (lol)
words intent with malice
cutting deep like talons
i can't waste my talent
time to clean my pallet
throw the vote
no ballot
cause i dont wanna

(2x)

STREAM

idontwannawait

10/6
PRESAVE: https://ffm.to/dtre
one more step
fall over the edge
ill be thankful
for one last breath
our times uncertain
and death's a burden

relapse, replace
he don't wanna lose it all
relapse, replay
over and over again
was it something he said?
relapse, relay
the information to em;
relapse, decay
you'll never see him again
he was all in my head

(re)lapse

10/12
PRESAVE: https://ffm.to/dtre
let me just live 
out my life
i dont wanna
die tonight
theres no reason
to fight anymore
spill my blood
watch it sink to the floor
still dont know
who im fighting for
its not your fault 
quit wasting time
you're fading out
its not your turn to die
its not your fault 
its not your fault
its not your fault
its not your

dont tell me theres no reason to fight
cant stand the fuckin look in your eye
dont tell me theres no reason to fight
cant stand the fuckin look in your eye

i do what you want 
if you ask me 
dont know where to go 
so i follow you
i follow you
i do what you want 
if you ask me 
dont know where to go 
so i follow you 
follow you

(re)ason [ft. jauntsen]

10/18

presave the gosh darn album: https://ffm.to/dramatrial
huge shoutout to https://soundcloud.com/leytonmode for the feature they went insane i originally was going to have vox on this as well but i ended up scrapping them :3

lyrics:
i don’t wanna lose my patience 
but my face is turning blue from waiting 
every toll time is taking 
i don’t know if i can take it 
how do i live 
stayed up three whole nights i feel mindless 
wake up with my face where the sky is 
makeup left stains on my eyelids 

this is the part where i tell you not to go 
don’t leave me alone 
i can’t tell a soul 
you’re just like me 
you don’t wanna just be seen 
now im laying in the road 
staring at my phone 
will i ever grow old 
i know i’m free 
but i just can’t leave

patience [ft. leyton]

10/23

presave the gosh darn album: ffm.to/dramatrial
massive shoutout to @yazida-essia for going craz on the vocals :)))

lyrics:
i think i like you
but it’s hard to tell 
if it’s reciprocated 
i think i like the feeling
i might just lie to you 
cuz you can’t tell when I do 
that makes it easy for me 
but I will never be free 

boy i like you 
i don’t like to 
pretend i don’t 
cuz then i’d lie to you 
boy i like you 
i don’t like to 
just leave you guessing 
you might like me too 

cry on the side 
i die by your side 
i’d cry if you lied
you know better than to lie2me
cry on the side 
i die by your side 
i’d cry if you lied
you know better than to lie2me

you could get away with anything 
if you want to
cuz I like you

lie2me [ft. yazida]

10/25

kurtains cover :)

LIKE A FUCKIN BALLS!
LIKE A CEO!!

no magician (cover)

10/27

presave the gosh darn album: ffm.to/dramatrial
prod me & @ppparallex

i said hey (niztopia reference)
do you feel some type of way
you keep telling me to go
but you know im here to stay
is there something i should know
is there something you should say
cause this shit is getting old
and its kinda overplayed
listen i know its a lot
a little overwhelming
feelings bubble up
start to think im drowning in your secret
and i cant keep it

secret [prod. calder & dramatrial]

10/30

presave the gosh darn album: ffm.to/dramatrial

intention [ft. swazy*]

11/01

presave the gosh darn album: ffm.to/dramatrial

last song before a break, thank you for an amazing month and huge shoutout to @cmten for getting on this with me, as well as producing the back half :)
(also shoutout @chibaxf for spicing up the intro for me)

lyrics:
unsincere
i can tell that you don't mean it
but i guess i'll try again
next year
my hands a little shaky
guess i'm nervous for the backlash 
but sticks to ash
and the stones turn to pebbles
he loves me
he won't
so i'll rip all the pedals
and dispose all the wasted remains

try and try harder
again for myself, i don’t
care what anyone has to say
gigging a hammer around
yeah i’m finding the crux of myself where i lay
you didn’t tell them that I
care a lot more than I say
i didn’t learn all that info for nothing, babe

pedals [ft. cmten]

12/1

lyrics:
i talk too much
can't help myself
from running my mouth
it's one thing
after another
and it always ends poorly (for me)
took my hands
right off the wheel
but it was just for a sec
so sick and tired
always playing pretend
(playing pretend)

and i'm not who i thought i was
i am not who i thought i was
and i'm not who i thought i was
and i'm not who i thought i was

then who could i be?
any memories of me
they could rest in peace
(they could rest in pieces)
then what goos is he?
he's just a nuisance in his bedroom
singing the words he wrote on papaer
just last week

and i'm not who i thought i was
i am not who i thought i was
and i'm not who i thought i was
and i'm not who i thought i was

not who i thought

||you can't let go if you don't want to||

~track [2/10]

🦋 \\ featuring // 🦋
~+vox from
@leytonmode
+ prod me & @leytonmode

+ additional prod from
@anem0s
@assperrr

mix + master by me~

🦋 \\ lyrics // 🦋
{{tts}}
this scares me.
i feel like someone isn't fully telling the truth
maybe it's both of us who are lying

[verse] ~ @jauntsen
god damn
i guess it is up to me
overflown with this fear so naturally
but it's time to let this go
cos' i can't take it any longer
who's this girl you claimed to be yourself
you wronged her
here's the path you paved can't run away
it's not a offer
guess its up to me
i broke the mirror out of spite
just to find a clue
now the bloods all on my hands don't know what to do

cause you're see through
did i say something wrong?
didn't mean to
i'll think it over and over again
i took a step into this life
can't get back what i spent
it's all my fault
can't take the blame
like this was my plan

i forgot who to trust
who's lying
is it me
is it us?
cos' i can't read you
page is burning i might give up
how to think
watch it crash in front of me
it's just the thought of you leaving
i cannot fathom the feeling of letting go

[bridge] ~ @jauntsen & @leytonmode
i keep buying time just to waste it all
years keep flying by things don't change at all
if there were words to say
i can't explain the way
it's got me feeling
i have to let it go

it's all you ever wanted to be
take a look
mirrored vision
of the person that you see
that you see.

{{tts}}
you are know listening to butterfly effect

[verse] ~ @leytonmode
you left me down with my face in the street
had to be blunt u won’t face it with me
get you out of my head I been waiting a week
that’s some shit u can’t see, u did it to me
keep creeping up, u had me thinking I wasn’t enough
its tough, I really gave u my trust
ashes that turn into dust, im all out of luck

don’t fuss just let me pass away
cause I can’t fuck the past away
now ill say what I have to say
go in circles like baggage claim
this isn’t what we planned out, another man down
thinking how u left me down on the ground
chipping my teeth and ur breaking my crown

{{tts}}
it's only just your life.

[hook]~ @jauntsen
don't be scared
pick up your hands
you know it's bad to leave them on the ground
you're bound for something bigger than this

don't be scared
pick up your hands
you know it's bad to leave them on the ground
it's a fallacy that you'll make it out
you can't win if you don't even make a sound

{{tts}}
you can't let go if you don't want to

don't be scared!
pick up your ha-ha-ha hands!
you know it's
bad!!
to leave them on
BAD!!!
to leave them on (make it out)
you can't win if you don't even make a sound
it's a fallacy that you'll make it out
make it out!!
don't be SCARED!!!!

secret [prod. calder & dramatrial]

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