my head
is all over the place
its not getting better

i cant
seem to make a change
ill be like this forever

23
whole years i
feel retarded all the time

any longer im confined
im gonna lose my god damn mind

staring at the words again 
i cant make sense of anything 
all i see is static in my brain 
need a way to end the pain
id give the whole world to be
a normal boy eventually
instead im rotting to the core
i cant take it anymore

breakdowns
from anxiety 
i hate being alone

wasting all 
my energy 
staring at my phone

cant focus
for 2 minutes
even if i try

yet another day goes by 
and im still here but i wanna die

staring at the words again 
i cant make sense of anything 
all i see is static in my brain 
need a way to end the pain
id give the whole world to be
a normal boy eventually
instead im rotting to the core
i cant take it anymore

out to lunch

I Have No Mouth and I Must Scream

I Can't Go Back To Her

i should have killed myself that day
the girl I like is afraid of me.
i should have killed myself that day
My past haunts me every day.

And now I'm alone again,
watching my life go by,
I close my eyes and feel the pain.
There is no hope, I'm a living dead.

(X2)

i should have killed myself that day
i should have killed myself that day
i should have killed myself that day
i should have killed myself that day

I SHOULD HAVE KILLED MYSELF THAT DAY

Don't want a job or friends
Don't care about objects
Don't need a future wife
Don't care for shit in life

I don't care 

Don't need cars or money 
My room I'll never leave
Cuz we're all just physics
Played out in cosmic death

ive got a guardian angel
he invented murphys law
im full of shit now lets be honest
heres why ill never get too far
you dont acknowledge me
im like a blurred out license plate
when you come up and talk to me
its like you dont know my name
but i dont want to be another faceless grain of sand
and i wont initiate
cus i hate who i am

im sorry little butterfly
i hurt you oh so badly
i had u in my palm u flew away and i got angry
i got a brand new guitar
i bled on the strings
listen to pinkerton and then youll know my pain
ill never be kurt cobain ill still blow out my fucking brains

you dont acknowledge me
im like a blurred out license plate
when you come up and talk to me
its like you dont know my name
but i dont want to be another faceless grain of sand
and i wont initiate
cus i hate who i am (x2)

Blurredoutlicenseplate

Lyrics:

i hope you blow your head off
i hope you fucking die
i really hope you suicide
i hope you hate your life
i dont really care if you cry
just please fucking die
i really hate your fucking guts
why do you fucking try

please die

I Hope You Fucking Die

song with @edgemaster42
we've been married seven times
in my head
just wait till i get the courage
to picture you in my bed
love or not its plain to see
youre just not the girl for me
my true match is a loaded gun
pointed straight at my head
hate my guts 
why do i destroy my everything for you 
hate my guts 
why do i destroy my everything for you

Why did i fall for your atupud grace
You clearly have no horse in this dumb race
Theres no continuity in emotional promiscuity
I can guarantee that

when
i realize 
im not an object
you
fall apart
hate my guts 
why do i destroy my everything for you
hate my guts 
why do i destroy my everything for you
you fuckin hate my 
fuckin hate my guts

h8te my guts (with edgemaster42)

leave you be

I don't play well with others
It's something that I learnt from my mother
Being nice to you is just a cover 
If you try to get close to me you'll suffer

There's nothing special about you
I do this to everyone I talk to
I'm immature and have bad trust issues
One day I'll ignore you out of the blue

I think you really need to understand
I'm totally incapable of romance
if you hear me giving you compliments
it's just me trying to get inside your pants

I don't play well with others
It's something that I learnt from my mother
Being nice to you is just a cover 
If you try to get close to me you'll suffer

I don't have any actual friends
I treat people as a means to an ends
I don't care if my words offend
Forget about me ever making amends

I'm narcissistic and I'm borderline
You see people I see dollar signs
If you ever see what I'm like inside 
It will send shivers down your spine


I don't play well with others
It's something that I learnt from my mother
I don't get along with my father
If you try to get close to me you'll suffer

OH SHIT YOU WEREN'T MEANT TO HEAR THAT

Baby I'm just joking; I would never gaslight you
I swear you know the real me, and I'll always be true
I promise i'm not a psychopath, I don't wanna see you hurt
And when things get tough you know I won't leave you in the dirt

I Don't Play Well With Others

straight edgy

drinking by myself in the dark
its easy to see, im pretty fucked
wishing i could be happy but i guess i forgot
to snort up the good times and blow out the snot

idontdodrugs at least not that much
i'd rather be doing you instead
im fucking ugly, nobody loves me, 
at least i can still get fucked in the head

relationships always come down to simple economics
when you figure out why youre not wanted
nothing will even matter cause reality is fake 
a 2d projection on a 3d holographic display

idontdodrugs at least not that much
i'd rather be doing you instead
im fucking ugly, nobody loves me, 
at least i can still get fucked in the head

I Don't Play Well With Others

dumb as rocks