tamaska: a hundred sins

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i dont know dont wanna go where the sun dont ever show

use my knife carve out my life my head is filled with strife

blow for blow and woah for woah and idk where ill go

and she said that when im dead theyll be nothing left
instead

when im gone put me on a mountain top and sing a song

say im still young so ill have some fun u must think im so dumb

so we shared a kiss i couldnt resist im a fuckin hedonist

yk i've been stuck in my sin need ur pretty cherubim

i've been scarred cant get off guard yeah its pretty fuckin hard

dumb+daisy

i thought it be fun i thought it be sweet i thought id learn things id never believe
well oh no not me
i was so fucking scared i was out of my head i thought for a second that i mustve been dead
but oh no didnt happen to me
the world opened up like a sunday church door
i didnt think that i could take anymore
well oh no why did it happen to me
i thought that it couldnt make sense
and u know ive been just a lil tense

but i tried again a second time the fuck was i thinking was i out of my mind
well i was and i did it to me
well i lied in bed waited for it to pass jesus had given me a second chance
i hope so, now i feel just fine
feel like a stupid waste of time
thought it would get better some time or then
but its still right here and i cant be myself again

i thought itd b fun

ullet through my brain cant block out the pain
emotions so real but still i cant feel

my heart is in my head youll love me when im dead
the drugs dont work im a stupid fuckin jerk

god wont you save ill try to behave
my heart is on fire with so much desire

death is gonna come im so goddamn dumb
dont care abt my heath cant save me from myself


i just wanna kiss with ignorant bliss
pretty pretty girl u make me wanna hurl

sure i have some friends thatll come to an end
mb if i pray itll all go away

im doing just fine
im doing just fine
im doing just fine
im doing just fine

bliss

nothing rlly matters she said
you wont be fucking happy when ur dead
lately jesus i aint been too good
i want to but i dont think that i should

my god im on my own again
i know ill see you sometime when
im not im being a being a stupid whore
i cant take it anymore

i dont care i dont mind im running out of time
theres a worm in my head no girl i dont wanna be dead
u hate me i hate you who cares pretty girl lets screw
in my brain im in pain stupid fuck now what did you gain
full of lead when im dead all i feel is constant dread

cantbhappy

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i dont wanna grow old
dont listen when im told
not a care in the world

i just wanna have fun
i know u think im dumb
stay away from the sun

but how come no one else is screaming why
am i the only one whos scared to die?

im not tryna sound dumb
just love it when im numb
i feel so fried.
i just wanna be a punk.
you're at my door.
im still in my bed.
am i in your head?
but is it normal cutting to feel alive?
im tired of waking up and screaming why

not a care In the world w/frëyaangel

im doing just fine
i think im running out of time

cant stop telling all these fucking lies
cant muster up the strength to say goodbye

i woke up and everything had changed
cant feel a thing exept this pain

i dont think i can take it anymore
cant ever feel the same as before

i dont wanna wake up

i just wanna go home

home

i don't wanna smoke 'til i die, i just wanna scream 'til i cry
every waking moment, i can't live without it
i shouldn't have to cry through my prime, take pills they'll keep me in line
you waste my fuckin' time, i feel like i'm dying

and it's all stuck on repeat in my head but i can't understand it
i don't wanna wake up to the sound of all my friends screaming at god

i can't wait to feed myself, increasing holes on my belt
i'll live with being hungry, you don't fucking love me
you don't mean the things you tell me, you forget about your family
and everybody else, you're putting us through hell

nothing really matters, nothing fuckin' matters

they said your head was full of pills and your heart couldn't take the damage
and i don't wanna be the one that's gonna be there when you're not waking up
and it's all stuck repeat in my head but i can't understand it
i don't wanna watch my best friends kill themselves so i can fall out of love

angel dust

it's like i woke up from a dream, i'm gonna get myself killed
i won't answer to anyone, except myself
my friends all tell me that i need my meds
kill the thoughts inside my head
burn a church because it's what i wanna do
i hurt myself because i need to
for you

i could run away from all this shit, i could kill my friends
all i need is love, i don't care how it ends
i don't care about anyone who says i'm mad
what makes me so fucking bad?
i don't care because it's what i wanna do
i hurt myself because i want to
for you

flowers for graves

i wanna be loved, i don't wanna go crazy
now i'm acting all shaky, but you probably knew
i can tell by the way that you style your hair, i can see by the way that you keep on starin'

i just wanna dance and i wanna be stupid, i think i'm dumb but you already knew this
i can't run from the future that's been set before me, i know what's gonna happen at the end of the story, oh

it's all like you said before, i don't wanna see you anymore
i don't wanna be stupid
it's like all my friends have died, i can't seem to get them out of my mind
i don't wanna be stupid

i look in the mirror and i feel like i'm falling, all of my calls they meant nothing to you, now i don't wanna live
i don't wanna go outside

mirror mirror

i’m wasting
time inside my head
i don’t wanna feel alive
i don’t wanna feel like i’m dead

i can’t stand the
way my mind is numb
i don’t want to let things go
i don’t want to feel so dumb

but why can’t i do
what i wanna do
why can’t i say
what i wanna say
i’m a danger to myself
and anybody else


i want it, i need it
don’t feel so defeated
the panic, the violence
i wanna die in silence

i’m dying in my head
i feel like i’ve been wasted
no thinking, retreating
they always end up leaving

i’m wasting
my time feeling down
what’s the point of feeling sad
someday i’ll come around

wasted

little hornets in my mouth and crawling out my eyes
take me back to winter, i can’t stand to see you cry
she said “i don’t want to leave you but this hornet’s gotta fly,
i don’t love you anymore, i don’t want to die”


break my heart into 6 pieces and throw them to the wind
let me be reborn an angel, let me start again
stab at me with stingers, wrap my arms and legs in scars
if that’s what it takes i’ll let you rip my limbs apart

little hornets crawling in my skin and in my head
leave my body here, i swear you’ll love me when i’m dead
wrap me up in linen, bury me with my guitar
now that god’s abandoned me return me to the stars

home

garden graves