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lyrics-
You ant got a clue 
What I went though 
All this fuckin pain that
I hold never helped
You never learned to heal 
So you learned to 
Just Pop pills I
Was only 12 when it
Happen now I miss you 

Face turned blue when I
Heard you crashed that 
Car I didn’t even get
To see you now
Im turning 18 I
Don’t even feel it
I’ve been numb to pain 
I’ve been starting at
The ceiling 


Verse 2
Nah I can’t stand the 
Silence I can hear the
Static in the air I
Can smell the sadness  fill
My lungs when no one’s
Here I Can feel the 
void in My chest disappear 
When I smoke or i 
Drink never mind I’m just
Drunk again yeah I'm drunk 
Again yeah I’m numb again 
I can feel the void
In my chest come back
Yeah it hit me like
A train wishing I could 
Go back to the old 
Days where I never felt 
Like this

18 (nevrfall)

prod. moneo


seasons change, the fall of the dead leaves
walk outside, im feeling a cold breeze
deep inside, i know you dont miss me
but imma lie and say you wont forget me

i saw your mom as we crossed ways
then we went to talk and she said that your doing great
asked me how i was and i lied to her face
cause i dont wanna seem like im just a disgrace

and all of these days they crash
2 years has come to pass
and im still missing u
AND IM STILL MISSING YOU

my friends always ask
why im stuck in the past
and maybe im a fool
ill try and forget that

i wont change for you
and youll always know that
so while i play cool
theres a lot i would take back

seasons change, the fall of the dead leaves
walk outside, im feeling a cold breeze
deep inside, i know you dont miss me
but imma lie and say you wont forget me

i saw your mom as we crossed ways
then we went to talk and she said that your doing great
asked me how i was and i lied to her face
cause i dont wanna seem like im just a disgrace

i'm glad you're doing okay

mix.@Ztope
shout out @cyzun <3



prod.sorrow bringer

lyrics

swno-

All his friends tend to leave so He turn to a ghost
Pail skin pain deep in his
Soul heart broke and he’s rotting 
Like mold washed up on the 
Coast body cold yeah he’s been 
dead But he’s wishing for more
Body ache and he’s lossing this 
War yeah he’s hiding all his
pain in the inside yeah he
Left all the pain by his 
Bedside
by is bedside yuh everyone in 
his life turned a blind eye


Cyzun-

I’ve been through a lot 
Yeah you wouldn’t know
Take another shot 
Hide the pain it won’t show 
It will not stop 
So I lay on the road 
I don’t wanna talk 
So I’m muting my phone
I should go now
Isolate in my room I don’t go out
Soul empty as hell like a ghost town 
Staying up hella late like a night owl
All these thoughts running throughout my head
I don’t have no friends cause they leave in the end
Hate my brain wanna fill it with lead
Leave me alone cause I’m already dead

daunted w/ cyzun (sorrow bringer)

prod. dercept x ayoley

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rest in peace

i'm where you're supposed to be :/ (malloy x iof)

a song i wrote in 2019 and released in 2020. it's a song about struggling with addiction, and trying to love not only yourself, but another person. a failing relationship between two people because of addiction. the 2nd and new verse, is a letter to 14 year old me. and a memory for the older one. this song is a personal battle, the death and the aftermath of what's to come. thank you for listening.

chorus
i'm stuck in her eyes, and she's stuck in mine
turn off the lights
and i'll make her say
oh
yeah she wanna stay the night but i think that's bad
i don't wanna be attached unless you feel like that
oh

verse
klonopin, ativan is what i need girl
need a xan, need a bowl, just watch me breathe girl
klonopin, ativan is what i need girl
need a xan, need a bowl, just watch me breathe girl
she never come around, when i'm on drugs
idk what to quit. is it drugs or love?
i feel like it's too much to ask
i'd say i love you, but i'll never take it back
would you take it back, if you said so?
i feel like i can ask, but i'd rather not know
on the road
run away from you
scared of love i don't know what to
do
idk what to do

chorus
i'm stuck in her eyes, and she's stuck in mine
turn off the lights
and i'll make her say
oh
yeah she wanna stay the night but i think that's bad
i don't wanna be attached unless you feel like that
oh

verse 2
it's been years since i met you
and i've been trying to forget you
it's been years since i met you
and all i wanna do
is forget you
i gave it up for you, gave it up for you
i got sober for you, damn i got sober for me too
huh, i guess that's just the both of us
i guess we're growing up
go back to them days, poppin xans
i'll take another one
getting high with you, getting high with you
thought i'd OD, might just end up dyin with you
sobriety is something i could never do
i hope you're proud of me, the same way that i'm proud of you
i'm just tryna stay clean for my family
if i die young, then i'm dying happily
i don't wanna be here, not anymore
6 pills, now i'm falling to the floor

chorus
i'm stuck in her eyes, and she's stuck in mine
turn off the lights
and i'll make her say
oh
yeah she wanna stay the night but i think that's bad
i don't wanna be attached unless you feel like that
oh

Writing On The Walls (Hardstyle Remix)

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