I just never understand
the way that life goes in my hands
breaking myself every time that I stand
I waited out back for a while now
they come and they go they all say
I aint been to parties in time now
wasting my life right away
I miss you cant show it I'm past it now
I think that I made a mistake

pushed you back, last call and I go
rip at myself after every show
I am not happy with how my life goes
there's people who love me the ones at the shows
but never the ones who I want there the most
its you
I think ima call on ur phone
see if you know me like you used to do
I really miss you the most

months of struggling
months of agony
I miss everything
ambience throughout the car ill kiss you again

think to myself every night
I wanna die
I don't wanna die
ima just sit here and cry
its cause my life is a lie

I just never understand
the way that life goes in my hands
breaking myself every time that I stand
I waited out back for a while now
they come and they go they all say
I aint been to parties in time now
wasting my life right away
I miss you cant show it I'm past it now
I think that I made a mistake

I think I'm at fault now
for us falling out
don't want to be around
cant find the one, its you no doubt

why do I do this to myself
every time that you go I just try and replace you

Life In Your Hands (prod. sk8miles x jeid_8)

08 [bonus track]

i see the house burn down over nite.
and id relive it all again in another life.. 

lyrics

face me 
the darkness will replace me

/

taste me
im overcooking tryna take heat

/

over done
is this how we are, is it over love

/

im tryna bring light to the things in the dark 
but it seems like it cant get any lower ugh

/

where were u when i called 
7am in the morn.
ran off w/ no notice
i swear i didnt leave those scars..scars

/

wanted its all i wanted x2

/

ik the walls r caving in
we cant b closed we're close to sin
ik the walls r caving in
ik the walls r caving 

/

pouring the gasoline all over the driveway
despite the fact we said we'd b living the right way
pouring whats left of the dark make me sideways 
its burning every edge of my soul in the right way

/

not a thing u could do could unblur in this high state
a fine face 
but no room, yeah no space 
its not much to me if i live well but dont die great

/

im changing, im changing, im changing form
and im changing
im taking off and im spacious
i love it here but i hate it 

/

in this lake i bleed my final form
ur words dont anything to me no more

/

wanted all i wanted was for u to save me
im not sorry, in this one life u cant redo shit

/

i been hella places
but nothing compares to the basics
the simple things in life we take for granted
its so hard to fake it

/

dangerous, but its so dangerous 
in this fucking storm
im taken by the wind
they'll take u in this form

/

theres not much
not much you can do about it 

/
let them take you how u are.
the world will be the same when you're gone.

your former

your-former [bonus track] (empty roads)

I was off pill till recently 
Didn’t know what to do, it almost killed me 
Then I popped another one hoping for saving 
Little did I know I tried but nothing comes cleans 
When I’m off of the drugs I feel amazing 
Faded while I’m drinking everybody see me hazing 
I was drunk or high when I wrote stargazing 
Only got worse when I really started dating 
Venting all my feelings on a track is nothing new 
So I dunno what I can do if I’m not living by the noose 
Cuz I every time felt something like love memories came loose 
Visceral reaction my body hated me to 
And everybody said something about the way I think
I don’t like the way I been feeling if you don’t disagree 
Evidently I been up to something that’s what everybody saying 
So I might as well just do it if Im really people pleasing 
Look to other people if I’m tryna get some meaning 
People say they love me but I can’t tell if they mean it 
Every time they say it usually ends up that they’re leaving 
I can’t do this anymore this something that I am not beating
But the only thing I can do is put my hand in the bottle 
If I pop another pill I swear everything will settle 
Then I’ll smoke a ton until I cannot feel a thing at all
I’d rather feel nothing than everything I don’t care if it’s wrong 

Yeah, I, don’t, want, something like this to happen to me 
Hurt deep down truly 
Smoke a ton leaf 
I can barely breathe 

Don’t know how to breathe when I’m around you 
I been looking for the one and I found you 
Wasn’t looking for the love but was bound to 
Said I need another plug to surround you 
I don’t wanna do drugs, not fun 
Smoke a lot of weed though, I’m done 
I don’t wanna think when the weed runs out 
Yeah super stressed out so I fucking drink now 
Hide my emotion with anger 
No one to talk to but strangers 
Got so much shit on my mental 
So much of that shit I can’t handle 
So I drown in my sorrow I can’t move
You know you got the love that I can’t lose 
I can’t take pain so death call on my name 
With all of this drank I think I’ll go insane 
These broken up memories scatter my brain
While doing these drugs I got nothing to gain
Made one song it went viral then I couldn’t do it anymore and spiraled 
Kinda got stuck up then I idled 
It’s getting harder to make music it’s vital

drugs are good for the soul (feat. wokely)(kerosin.wav)

(You're always..) 
When will you move on
(Holding on)
Please I'm sick of it..

I gave my heart and my soul
I let you take it all
The darkness it evolved
I thought you said that it'd go?
Please leave this isn't your home
(Please just go)

I've got nothing left to spare
My bones you've scraped, I'm aware
That you want so much more
But I won't be your whore

Oh you've had me for years
I'm done screaming through tears
You always whisper in my ear
I've bled too much, how am I here?

You broke me apart
Now I feel like a spare piece
Open my heart
See the memories of us
I just can't cope with the way this is going
I remember the days we would bloom love was flowing

Now I'm floating down, in a river on my own
Trapped inside these paper walls
Metaphorically alone
Just consider what you've done
And maybe change your mind before I go
'Cause I'm not coming back
Until this fairytale is over now

I've had enough with you inside my body
Reject your presense but you never resign 
Always lurking in the night

I've had enough telling others it's not me
Had enough crying abt how u got me
No you ain't got me, no more 

I've got nothing left to spare
My bones you've scraped, I'm aware
That you want so much more
But I won't be your whore

Oh you've had me for years
I'm done screaming through tears
You always whisper in my ear
I've bled too much, how am I here?

Gears are turning
I keep learning
Not to trust those around me
I'm just hurting
I'm such a burden
I'm lost at sea and I'm drowning

I'm beat up and bruised
Keep on being abused
I'm just fighting for my life
and I don't want to lose
Burry me, carry me
Tell me I'm okay
You kick me when I'm down but
I grew up this way

I've got nothing left to spare
My bones you've scraped, I don't care
I will mend my soul, my body will be whole

You may have had me for years
But I'm done screaming through tears
You always whispered in my ear
I've bled so much, but I'm still here

spare ft. Vails x Lunalis (prod. PartyAtTheMoonTower)

i want you
i want you

say it with chest i feel the tension
for us
hold that again and dont let it go 
no

coz i want you
all of you
i want you

i feel your heart its racing
so many stars so ill say this
a angel came from heaven and told me about you
so hold on
dont you got anywhere w/o me
coz i wont lose you
holding your soul so holy
im there for you

for you
for you
for you
for you

a angel came down from heaven and told me about you

https://open.spotify.com/track/2fOKenTYbA4h0s9mQQO40t?si=RYH60238TiOgzBDjjYutug

prod moneo
mix/master myself
ft @evergardens
<3 
lyrics:
if i could speak to you
what would i say
probably something thats stupid
or something thats useless
would you say the same
would you listen 
or would you just leave
i cant convince myself
that its meant to be

there has to be more
there has to be more
it cant just end here
why does it end here

evergarden:

if i re weave my words
in an honest regret
what would i hear
floating aimless

together:

there has to be more
there has to be more
it cant just end here
why does it end here

there has to be more (w/ evergarden)

prod. idly blare
lyrics

oh hows ur head doing baby
cuz u burned a hole thru mine
at the end of the day we all want more time
so no sleeping
baby im daydreaming
thinking bout better days
praying for a better way

i miss smoking tobacco
i gave u my gun with no ammo
just to see what u would do if one day i let go
u pulled the trigger back n hurt me little by little
its fucked up but nowadays dont sleep at all
im paranoid that one day u wont catch my fall
i kno its all my fault
but i gotta finish what i started
i dont even like recording make me sick to my stomach
i dont like what i make
n i dont like how u say that u like what i make
happy birthday
hope u got what u wanted
so happy
but i continue falling

oh hows ur head doing baby
cuz u burned a hole thru mine
at the end of the day we all want more time
so no sleeping
baby im daydreaming
thinking bout better days
praying for a better way

your eyes can actually shoot lasers if you try hard enough (idly blare)

/whatafuckingbitch - chorus pt. I/
what i miss is 2006
chillin playin wii all day
life was simple as a kid
sorry don’t mean to complain 
if i dont like dont need it
there’s no need to stay 
controller through the tv
i dont play it safe 

/emoflytrap - chorus pt. II/
ima slip away my heart 
broke the disk to mario kart 
they say things will get better 
difficulty set to hard
((hard))
i try my best but im fallin of the edge
i wanna restart but i think im at the end 

/lilcigarettess - chorus pt. III/
so, dont play wit me
i miss u faithfully 
no where that id rather be
then here u in my dreams 

/lilcigarettess - verse/
nostalgia, she the baddest
a filthy habit 
i saw her, on my travels 
she left me damaged 
she cut deep, left me lonely 
(lonely)
therell be no sleep 
the devil in my company

/whatafuckingbitch - chorus pt. I/
what i miss is 2006
chillin playin wii all day
life was simple as a kid
sorry don’t mean to complain 
if i dont like dont need it
there’s no need to stay 
controller through the tv
i dont play it safe 

/emoflytrap - chorus pt. II/
ima slip away my heart 
broke the disk to mario kart 
they say things will get better 
difficulty set to hard
((hard))
i try my best but im fallin of the edge
i wanna restart but i think im at the end 

/lilcigarettess - chorus pt. III/
so, dont play wit me
i miss u faithfully 
no where that id rather be
then here u in my dreams

nostalgia (w/ whatafuckingbitch, emoflytrap) [prod. prxbxt]

19 (mardee)

With a fellow hippo @glxsgxw
Also produced by us, thank you for listening <3 

mix/master by @farhantnvr 

Available on the following and more!
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/2qdEOIS5vc3PxkaZRkWF6U
iTunes: https://music.apple.com/us/album/nowhere-to-go-single/1542680792

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Lyrics:
// Geist
Kill me slowly
Hold me close cut the flow from my vitals
Feel my heartbeat
As it comes to a halt by the nightfall

Don’t hold on to the thought
The silence
Every night
I tried to find it
Burning like fires
I’m chasing higher and higher
But now it’s too far out my reach
I fall

// Geist x GLXSGXW
Cause My days feel shorter
And My nights feel colder
I have nowhere to go

// GLXSGXW
On the map yet i dont exist
Talk a lotta smack yet im full of it
I gotta half a bag of hate to match
My hateful past that i always carry with

Sit back
Kick down
Relax and
Skip town
Speed past
Old homes

Where
All the
Trees grow
Is where youll find me
Once im gone

Get aquainted with the soul thats tainted
Got a thousand corpses hidden in the basement
I know theres no saving once i bite the pavement
Only talk bout pain and hatred how is that creative

My lungs are ash my heart is dust
Cant handle that cant handle love cause i cant trust

Everyone who didnt want to jump at least once
To escape from this pain that she used to call love

Its you (x100)

Cause when your legs fail to work
And you lay there in the snow in the cold
The ground grasping your frail body
Fingers too stiff to put the blame on me
Will the last thing you think of be lost
In the howling of the wind
Will it sink in
That you are alone

// Geist x GLXSGXW
Can I cry on your shoulder
Can you try n hold me closer
I wanna feel like I'm home again

Cause My days feel shorter
And My nights feel colder
I have nowhere to go

there has to be more (w/ evergarden)

dyingforcertain