i want another chance i want a motherland i fall in love again

you're all i ever loved....

hope u guys enjoy the song, this one is rly meaningful to me

HUGE thanks to @itschrismarek for going crazy on the beat as always <3

lyrics:

guess you’re right i need help cuz i’m not alright 
playing with the cards that she dealt hurting down inside
i been getting sick of it, i don’t even wanna try

i’m numb
i been so damn numb
from the day you said “we’re done”
you’re all i ever loved
you’re all i ever loved

when i thought i hit my best, we’re breaking up
every time i try to go to rest, i’m thinking of
all the times we had
thinking of all the times we had

i know i know 
i’ll be sitting on a silo, silo
i’ll be doing this on my own, my own
don’t wanna hear you fucking call

(i’m numb)
(i been so damn numb)
(from the day you said “we’re done”)
(you’re all i ever loved)
(you’re all i ever loved)

guess you’re right i need help cuz i’m not alright 
playing with the cards that she dealt hurting down inside
i been getting sick of it, i don’t even wanna try

i’m numb
i been so damn numb
from the day you said “we’re done”
you’re all i ever loved
you’re all i ever loved

i’m numb
i been so damn numb
from the day you said “we’re done”
you’re all i ever loved
you’re all i ever loved

(i know i know)
(i’ll be sitting on a silo, silo)
(i’ll be doing this on my own, my own)
(don’t wanna hear you fucking call)

if ur still reading this ily :)

all plats

sick of it [prod. chrismarek]

BURNING IN THE DANGERS OF THE LIFE I WANTTTTT

hope u guys like this one, put a lot of emotion into it

HUGE shoutout to @b_murph for the fucking amazing feature ily dawggg

lyrics:

(oh, ohhhh)

i been tryna right my wrongs
turning to an angel in the sky i fall
burning in the dangers of the life i want 
never been a stranger to the life in the dark

i want another chance
i want a motherland
i fall in love again 
(i fall, i- i- i fall)

one step too close to the edge
now im falling back down, yeah
im falling in love again
but you're not from the motherland
im in love with a motherfucking demon

i hide the cuts on my wrist, promise im just tryna feel sum (something)
she said that she loves me but she said she never feels nun (nothing)
i hide all my pain with tequila and some white rum
the closer that we get the more i just wanna run

so tell me your intentions before i give me all to you
cause i dont wanna lose you, like i always fucking do

i been tryna right my wrongs
turning to an angel in the sky i fall
burning in the dangers of the life i want 
never been a stranger to the life in the dark

i want another chance
i want a motherland
i fall in love again 
(i fall, i- i- i fall)

angel w/ bmurph [prod. branwen]

:(

thank u @itschrismarek for the amazing beat ily dawg 

hope u guys like this btw, tried summ different 

lyrics:

cut my wrists and burn me down
you’re all i think about
you’re all i think about
you’re an angel from the clouds

ohhh
i don’t wanna fall
all the time i lost
tryna find my love

i gave you all the fucking world
i guess you’ll never feel the same 
i’m done with all these fucking girls
i never wanna feel this way
i gave you all the fucking world
i guess you’ll never feel the same 
i’m done with all these fucking girls
i never wanna feel this way

(i gave you all the fucking world)

did you miss me?
cuz you left me with these scars like i was sixteen
fucking crying in the car and sippin whiskey
i remember all the times you would kiss me
that you would kiss me

ohhh
i don’t wanna fall
all the time i lost
tryna find my love

i gave you all the fucking world
i guess you’ll never feel the same 
i’m done with all these fucking girls
i never wanna feel this way
i gave you all the fucking world
i guess you’ll never feel the same 
i’m done with all these fucking girls
i never wanna feel this way

i gave you all the fucking world
i guess you’ll never feel the same 
i’m done with all these fucking girls
i never wanna feel this way
i gave you all the fucking world
i guess you’ll never feel the same 
i’m done with all these fucking girls
i never wanna feel this way

feel the same [prod. chrismarek]

happy birthday to me :)

out of everything i dropped this year this song was defs my favorite so enjoy the slow, sad version. thank u to everyone who made 17 the best year i ever had <33

thank u @itschrismarek for producing this, we the best duo in the state fr hehe 

alsooo i plan on venturing far from my roots this year. expect some rly sad, alternative sounds.

woebegone </3

feel the same [og]

IM DROWNING IN MY PAIN AGAIN AND HIDING WITH THE DRUGSSSSSS

@zupehr i am literally SO FUCKING GLAD we tapped in again. i missed workin with u so much dawg, everything we make is super deep and our vibe is just gjdhjgdjhkg so good ily brobro

i went to war with myself mixing this so ur welcome for posting this btw lol

lyrics:

i don’t know what’s wrong with me like right now 
i keep on loving and loving right out
i keep on falling and falling back down
i keep on falling and falling back down

fuck love
i’ll never be enough
i’m drowning in my pain again and hiding with the drugs 
i’m like, “the fuck’s up?”
you never told me wrong
i blame myself for everything and hide it in a song

i don’t know what’s wrong with me like right now 
i keep on loving and loving right out
i keep on falling and falling back down
i keep on falling and falling back down

i been fighting
but the razor blade is looking so inviting
all the memories we made are coinciding 
in my brain again my skin is just dividing

fuckin it up and i just blame it on the timing 
nobody loves a man without a silver lining
down to my gut i feel that i won’t be surviving 
covered in cuts i been a mess that i been hiding 

i don’t know what’s wrong with me like right now 
i keep on loving and loving right out
i keep on falling and falling back down
i keep on falling and falling back down

fuck love
i’ll never be enough
i’m drowning in my pain again and hiding with the drugs 
i’m like, “the fuck’s up?”
you never told me wrong
i blame myself for everything and hide it in a song

i don’t know what’s wrong with me like right now 
i keep on loving and loving right out
i keep on falling and falling back down
i keep on falling and falling back down

hiding [prod. zupehr x sadpra]

@ilysora </3

thank u for listening, this song means a lot to both me and sora

sc only :)

o ya btw i was like 15 when i made this hook lol i know it’s mid

for us w/ ilysora [prod. luciid x jkei]

experimental. 

huge shoutout to @kryst3n, my best friend in the scene for doin this feat. so glad we made a song finally ily twin <3333

lyrics:

one fight then we break up
then you’re coming back and you’re always tryna make up
do it all again, do it all again,
tell me you’re in love then you say we’re better friends

saying i was the other fuckin half of you
i don’t know why i was always running back to you
been alone i’m in my bed now 
fuckin hope you understand that
saying i was the other fuckin half of you
i don’t know why i was always running back to you
imma go and i won’t even say goodbye
i’ll dieeee

(SUICIDES MY ONLY HOPE)

im falling u dont even give a damn
you would rather focus on everything that i did wrong
your legs move running fast as you can
you were called out on all the bullshit that you said

I was the other fucking half of u
threw out good times im so fucking mad with u
now its bad habits we fell back into 
i hope all ur new friends turn and laugh at u i swear

saying i was the other fuckin half of you
i don’t know why i was always running back to you
been alone i’m in my bed now 
fuckin hope you understand that
saying i was the other fuckin half of you
i don’t know why i was always running back to you
imma go and i won’t even say goodbye
i’ll dieeee

back2u w/ kryst3n [prod. dercept x 80root]

@dylaanlotus
prod. michael harrison x ayoley beats
apologies for the hiatus, take this new song (─‿‿─)♡

(lyrics)
@byekento
i'm sorry i don't wanna fix it 
all these feelings i've been missing 
i've been fighting my addictions 
all alone for all this time
and i know you won't listen 
i can't say this any clearer 
but i'm done with all the visions 
that you put inside my mind
but i don't wanna lose you 
so i'll stumble back right to you
all the things that i did for you 
they were nothing in the end
and i wish i could fix it 
but these things aren't getting clearer
all the things that i hold dear all fall apart and turn to shreds

like wait how are we so opposite?
still don't know how it got like this
just leave it just the way it is
i know you don't care for shit
sorry i can't help it 
when i get so damn selfish
'cause i feel so damn helpless
i don't understand this now

@dylaanlotus
it’s like i’m stuck in prohibition
i been lost and so addicted
and i know that can’t fix it if i tried 
i been stuck in my position
i been fucked with my ambitions
and i lost all my nutrition, i’m deprived

no one can help it
i been so selfish
nobody knows my fucking life
words that i’m belting
i’m fucking melting
i’m in my pain and own demise
x2

shreds w/ dylan lotus

:)

produced by @zupehr

~ lyrics ~

pockets hurt from countin cash
meet my boys; they never lack
couple racks inside my bank account; this shits a fucking gag 
try my best; i’m blocking all the hate cuz i been in my bag
if i catch you talkin shit then i might fuckin get you back 

cut off my connections cuz i promised i won’t get attached 
fuck all of these labels tryna hit me up they gettin mad
i don’t want attention cuz i promised i won’t give it back
fuck your love, it broke me but i gotta leave you in the past 
pockets hurt from countin cash
meet my boys; they never lack
couple racks inside my bank account; this shits a fucking gag 
try my best; i’m blocking all the hate cuz i been in my bag
if i catch you talkin shit then i might fuckin get you back 

yeah we going up
like the trees we growing up
labels always gettin in my way and say i’m blowing up
trying to regurgitate the pain i wanna throw it up
light another blunt into my face; i like to roll it up

find a cavern in the light of day; i’m in my solitude
now i’m doing all the fuckin things i always wanted to
hope that i can understand the ways that i have fallen through 
hope that i can understand the ways that i have fallen through 

pockets hurt from countin cash
meet my boys; they never lack
couple racks inside my bank account; this shits a fucking gag 
try my best; i’m blocking all the hate cuz i been in my bag
if i catch you talkin shit then i might fuckin get you back 

cut off my connections cuz i promised i won’t get attached 
fuck all of these labels tryna hit me up they gettin mad
i don’t want attention cuz i promised i won’t give it back
fuck your love, it broke me but i gotta leave you in the past 
pockets hurt from countin cash
meet my boys; they never lack
couple racks inside my bank account; this shits a fucking gag 
try my best; i’m blocking all the hate cuz i been in my bag
if i catch you talkin shit then i might fuckin get you back

promised [prod. zupehr]

prod by me
all plats: https://ffm.to/byekento-morgue

(lyrics)
everybody treats me like i don't fucking know
freezing in the fucking cold 
i wish that i had a choice
fuck it i don't care no more
leaving me without a voice 
screaming out "please save me lord" 
i'm standing on your fucking grove 

i know they won't keep me close 
so i stay the fuck alone
tell me that its all my fault
i'm just tryna stay afloat 
walking down the same old path
find out where it fucking goes 
now i'm not the same as then
and i know it fucking shows

bleeding on the fucking floor
leave me at the fucking door 
take me for a fucking joke
god i hope you fucking choke 
fuck it i don't care no more 
promised me you fucking swore 
nothing but a fucking whore
take me to the fucking morgue

bleeding on the fucking floor
leave me at the fucking door 
take me for a fucking joke
god i hope you fucking choke 
fuck it i don't care no more 
promised me you fucking swore 
nothing but a fucking whore
take me to the fucking morgue

i can't even breathe your air
sware that this ain't even fair 
fucking had a heart attack
guess you had another laugh 
i can't even go outside 
wasting all our fucking time
live or die i can't decide 
i cant seem to make my mind

but i guess i don't need to
all this shit is see through 
they been tryna tell me what to do 
but i don't fear you
and i sware everything's a fucking curse 
when i'm near you
and i wish that you had the fucking nerve 
to come and see it through 

everybody treats me like i don't fucking know
freezing in the fucking cold 
i wish that i had a choice
fuck it i don't care no more
leaving me without a voice 
screaming out "please save me lord"
i'm standing on your fucking grove 

bleeding on the fucking floor
leave me at the fucking door 
take me for a fucking joke
god i hope you fucking choke 
fuck it i don't care no more 
promised me you fucking swore 
nothing but a fucking whore
take me to the fucking morgue

bleeding on the fucking floor
leave me at the fucking door 
take me for a fucking joke
god i hope you fucking choke 
fuck it i don't care no more 
promised me you fucking swore 
nothing but a fucking whore
take me to the fucking morgue

(screaming out "please save me lord"
i'm standing on your fucking grove)

up on all platforms <3

morgue

@1darza @ninewaters <33
luv makin music with my friends fr ily guys

--lyrics--
fucked up yet alive
i got money; that's on my mind
just to keep those thoughts away
they gon fuck me up til i die
i got nothing left to hide
up to luck; how i survived
in a room that's full of serpents
and i hope they never bite

hoping someone gets them off of me
im running for my life
want the peace the lord has offered me
im tryna catch a vibe
dont want attention, i dont want too many friends
forgot to mention, i cut off too many threads

hard for me to function, hard to feel alive
talkin all that tough shit, whyd i even try
i would run my mouth when i shoulda stayed quiet
i would run my mouth when i shoulda stayed quiet, ohhh

fucked up yet alive
i got money; that's on my mind
just to keep those thoughts away
they gon fuck me up til i die
i got nothing left to hide
up to luck; how i survived
in a room that's full of serpents
and i hope they never bite

bitch im on this perc and ecstacy im out my mind
fuck 12 i aint doing time
you can see the pain when you lookin in my eyes
waking up high, thought i died last night

my bitch put the coke in her pussy
you aint doin shit to me boy you just a pussy
pullin up with rick on me, got your bitch lookin
flexin all that cash, now he sad cuz i took it

im on demon time, yeah
fees in my line, yeah
i dont needa die, im already dead
pull up to your spot, we gon paint it red
i need all the percocets, i need all the meds, yeah

fucked up yet alive
i got money; that's on my mind
just to keep those thoughts away
they gon fuck me up til i die
i got nothing left to hide
up to luck; how i survived
in a room that's full of serpents
and i hope they never bite
fucked up yet alive
i got money; that's on my mind
just to keep those thoughts away
they gon fuck me up til i die
i got nothing left to hide
up to luck; how i survived
in a room that's full of serpents
and i hope they never bite

it's the worst day
sometimes i will wonder why i did this in the first place
i would get antagonized and treated in the worst ways
i just want an answer; on my own im always searching
THERE'S TOO MANY PEOPLE IN MY WAY

angel w/ bmurph [prod. branwen]

dylan lotus

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