literally been on replay for the past 2 days, help I might be addicted to your music <3

@dercept @remghost

and i dont know what i care for anymore
every single person turn tail and they ignore
all the time and dedication that we swore
that shit sent me burning flames straight into my core

and all those pretty lies
i get
that my time's compromised
i walk
towards the purple lights
bleached hair
and my life's a landmine

time keeps tickin away
dont stall just cut right to the chase
cold dead eyes on a pretty face
got me out gunned an arms race

and im wasting every day
i dont really fuckin know
what im doing anyway
so (i dont know)
i stay up to 3 am
melatonin in my head
cuz i just cant go to bed

and i cant
just be myself
but i hate
that someone else
in my head
is always somewhere
fighting
against my conscious

landmine

i know all your friends and they're abusing me...

@88strait thanks for carrying me lol, ilysm dawg <3

shoutout @branwenmusic for da youtube beat hehe

lyrics:
i’m all alone now
i’m on my own now
i’m left to suffer
inside my hometown

my friends are gone i regret it
i feel so lost and dependent
i don’t know what path i’m headed
(i don’t know what path i’m headed)

i know it is never how it used to be
i know all your friends and they’re abusing me
i don’t know how to find the rest of me
i fall to the ground so desperately 

it’s best if i feel the fall
i don’t really wanna fuckin feel at all
i was doing better then i hear you call
when i hear you call…

i’ll fall apart when it’s all okay 
don’t fucking tell me you know my pain 
i’ll fucking try but it’s always the same 
300 thoughts running right through my brain 

i’m fucking drowning everyday like don’t you get it man? 
i can’t even swim, i need a hug, i need a helping hand 
i fucking hate how i look, how i feel now 
all of the drugs and the pills i abuse now 

oh no oh no 
i don’t wanna feel now 
bleed out my heart 
body on the floor now 
find a way into my head 
i’ll fade away until i’m dead

oh no oh no 
i don’t wanna feel now 
bleed out my heart 
body on the floor now 
find a way into my head 
i’ll fade away until i’m dead

i know it is never how it used to be
i know all your friends and they’re abusing me
i don’t know how to find the rest of me
i fall to the ground so desperately 

it’s best if i feel the fall
i don’t really wanna fuckin feel at all
i was doing better then i hear you call
when i hear you call…

all plats

used to be w/ 88strait [prod. branwen]

you're all i ever loved....

hope u guys enjoy the song, this one is rly meaningful to me

HUGE thanks to @itschrismarek for going crazy on the beat as always <3

lyrics:

guess you’re right i need help cuz i’m not alright 
playing with the cards that she dealt hurting down inside
i been getting sick of it, i don’t even wanna try

i’m numb
i been so damn numb
from the day you said “we’re done”
you’re all i ever loved
you’re all i ever loved

when i thought i hit my best, we’re breaking up
every time i try to go to rest, i’m thinking of
all the times we had
thinking of all the times we had

i know i know 
i’ll be sitting on a silo, silo
i’ll be doing this on my own, my own
don’t wanna hear you fucking call

(i’m numb)
(i been so damn numb)
(from the day you said “we’re done”)
(you’re all i ever loved)
(you’re all i ever loved)

guess you’re right i need help cuz i’m not alright 
playing with the cards that she dealt hurting down inside
i been getting sick of it, i don’t even wanna try

i’m numb
i been so damn numb
from the day you said “we’re done”
you’re all i ever loved
you’re all i ever loved

i’m numb
i been so damn numb
from the day you said “we’re done”
you’re all i ever loved
you’re all i ever loved

(i know i know)
(i’ll be sitting on a silo, silo)
(i’ll be doing this on my own, my own)
(don’t wanna hear you fucking call)

if ur still reading this ily :)

sick of it [prod. chrismarek]

:(

thank u @itschrismarek for the amazing beat ily dawg 

hope u guys like this btw, tried summ different 

lyrics:

cut my wrists and burn me down
you’re all i think about
you’re all i think about
you’re an angel from the clouds

ohhh
i don’t wanna fall
all the time i lost
tryna find my love

i gave you all the fucking world
i guess you’ll never feel the same 
i’m done with all these fucking girls
i never wanna feel this way
i gave you all the fucking world
i guess you’ll never feel the same 
i’m done with all these fucking girls
i never wanna feel this way

(i gave you all the fucking world)

did you miss me?
cuz you left me with these scars like i was sixteen
fucking crying in the car and sippin whiskey
i remember all the times you would kiss me
that you would kiss me

ohhh
i don’t wanna fall
all the time i lost
tryna find my love

i gave you all the fucking world
i guess you’ll never feel the same 
i’m done with all these fucking girls
i never wanna feel this way
i gave you all the fucking world
i guess you’ll never feel the same 
i’m done with all these fucking girls
i never wanna feel this way

i gave you all the fucking world
i guess you’ll never feel the same 
i’m done with all these fucking girls
i never wanna feel this way
i gave you all the fucking world
i guess you’ll never feel the same 
i’m done with all these fucking girls
i never wanna feel this way

feel the same [prod. chrismarek]

happy birthday to me :)

out of everything i dropped this year this song was defs my favorite so enjoy the slow, sad version. thank u to everyone who made 17 the best year i ever had <33

thank u @itschrismarek for producing this, we the best duo in the state fr hehe 

alsooo i plan on venturing far from my roots this year. expect some rly sad, alternative sounds.

woebegone </3

feel the same [og]

IM DROWNING IN MY PAIN AGAIN AND HIDING WITH THE DRUGSSSSSS

@zupehr i am literally SO FUCKING GLAD we tapped in again. i missed workin with u so much dawg, everything we make is super deep and our vibe is just gjdhjgdjhkg so good ily brobro

i went to war with myself mixing this so ur welcome for posting this btw lol

lyrics:

i don’t know what’s wrong with me like right now 
i keep on loving and loving right out
i keep on falling and falling back down
i keep on falling and falling back down

fuck love
i’ll never be enough
i’m drowning in my pain again and hiding with the drugs 
i’m like, “the fuck’s up?”
you never told me wrong
i blame myself for everything and hide it in a song

i don’t know what’s wrong with me like right now 
i keep on loving and loving right out
i keep on falling and falling back down
i keep on falling and falling back down

i been fighting
but the razor blade is looking so inviting
all the memories we made are coinciding 
in my brain again my skin is just dividing

fuckin it up and i just blame it on the timing 
nobody loves a man without a silver lining
down to my gut i feel that i won’t be surviving 
covered in cuts i been a mess that i been hiding 

i don’t know what’s wrong with me like right now 
i keep on loving and loving right out
i keep on falling and falling back down
i keep on falling and falling back down

fuck love
i’ll never be enough
i’m drowning in my pain again and hiding with the drugs 
i’m like, “the fuck’s up?”
you never told me wrong
i blame myself for everything and hide it in a song

i don’t know what’s wrong with me like right now 
i keep on loving and loving right out
i keep on falling and falling back down
i keep on falling and falling back down

hiding [prod. zupehr x sadpra]

experimental. 

huge shoutout to @kryst3n, my best friend in the scene for doin this feat. so glad we made a song finally ily twin <3333

lyrics:

one fight then we break up
then you’re coming back and you’re always tryna make up
do it all again, do it all again,
tell me you’re in love then you say we’re better friends

saying i was the other fuckin half of you
i don’t know why i was always running back to you
been alone i’m in my bed now 
fuckin hope you understand that
saying i was the other fuckin half of you
i don’t know why i was always running back to you
imma go and i won’t even say goodbye
i’ll dieeee

(SUICIDES MY ONLY HOPE)

im falling u dont even give a damn
you would rather focus on everything that i did wrong
your legs move running fast as you can
you were called out on all the bullshit that you said

I was the other fucking half of u
threw out good times im so fucking mad with u
now its bad habits we fell back into 
i hope all ur new friends turn and laugh at u i swear

saying i was the other fuckin half of you
i don’t know why i was always running back to you
been alone i’m in my bed now 
fuckin hope you understand that
saying i was the other fuckin half of you
i don’t know why i was always running back to you
imma go and i won’t even say goodbye
i’ll dieeee

back2u w/ kryst3n [prod. dercept x 80root]

@dylaanlotus

prescription and drugs
i’m not enough 
then i told myself that i’m fine
everyone worried for me
told myself that this shit won’t last a lifetime
smoking that marijuana
and i’m taking these pills 
and now it’s my lifeline
thoughts; they come out in the nighttime
i’m think that i’m on my last life

nobody worry for me
i’m nothin more than a burden, you see?
think of the things that i never will be
free of anxiety, feelin complete
every time that i get up on my feet
wiping the blood off my teeth
somebody’s ratting me out and it’s dragging me down
that shit got me back straight to my knees
holy shit i was going thru a time

dylan lotus - last life [+ skellington]

feel my world just decay as i'm growing up . . .

huge shoutout to @byekento for carrying tf outta this song, u one of my best friends bro ilysm <33

>lyrics<
i been through too much
tryna do too much
feel my world just decay as im growing up
sprials swirling away; brain is blowing up
tryna hurl all my pain; i been throwing up

i just been too fucked up to remember
the times i gave soul back up for the devil
i take a couple puffs; im not more than a vessel
im thinkin way too much; i'll just go fuckin mental

i just wanna be me again
chemicals that im breathing in
blowing problems out through the smoke
just an inhale and exhale
im nothing more than a joke
stab my heart; that shits impaled
my words stuck in my throat
trying so hard to get them 
i just wanna be me again
chemicals that im breathing in
blowing problems out through the smoke
just an inhale and exhale
im nothing more than a joke
stab my heart; that shits impaled
my words stuck in my throat
trying so hard to get them

and i been tryna find my way back
if you really love me 
why the fuck ain’t you just say that 
i know im still caught up in my head 
i can’t escape yet chase a paycheck 
still alive but im looking for my fucking grave damn 

and i know that its still gon be the fucking same 
i know i won’t ever change
i know i’m the bad guy 
so i stay inside my lane
fuck no i ain’t reaching out
but i still wish they heard me now 
i know that i let ‘em down

its all my fault so i stay alone 
never had a place to go 
never had a place like home
always somewhere dosing off
i could never let it show
nothing but a sacrifice 
know its all inside my mind 
all this time to figure me out

i just wanna be me again
chemicals that im breathing in
blowing problems out through the smoke
just an inhale and exhale
im nothing more than a joke
stab my heart; that shits impaled
my words stuck in my throat
trying so hard to get them 
i just wanna be me again
chemicals that im breathing in
blowing problems out through the smoke
just an inhale and exhale
im nothing more than a joke
stab my heart; that shits impaled
my words stuck in my throat
trying so hard to get them

impaled w/ byekento [prod. dercept x jolst]

@b_murph
p. yung spoiler
https://hyperfollow.com/stfu

lyrics:
(intro)

(bitch i'm too fucked up)
(byekento, haha)
(bitch i'm too fucked up)

Its 2 am you call me up to tell me i'm a bad guy
And I know you tell you're friends 
Every time I pass by
Spent the night thinkin' 'bout that time
And all I know is I don't wanna do this when I'm

(hook)

Wasted, bitch i'm too fucked up 
Imma pest, Imma prick
Imma shut the fuck up 
All my friends cut me off 
I don't think I was enough 
It's happening, I know that it's happening, woah 

They say, that I'm too far gone 
Took a shot to the head
Do you think that was enough? 
On my last dying breath do you think I give a fuck?  
It's happening, I know that it's happening, woah 

(verse)

(bitch i'm too fucked up)
(It's happening, I know that it's happening, woah)
(woah-oh-woah) 
(It's happening, I know that it's happening, woah)

After all this damn time you'd think I'd get my head right
Sorry baby I’m still out here telling all these lies
You still questioning my motives baby let me live my life
Uh, I promise you that I ain’t stepping outta line
Faded at the back of the club
You’re calling me oh my god, could you shut the fuck up
Uh, and I think that im over your love
The same way im over vodka when I empty my cup
I been chilling in the back living my best life
And you still coming over tryna ruin my night
Tell me whats the reason why you stuck in my mind
Cause im just out here drinking alcohol until I feel alright

(hook)

Wasted, bitch i'm too fucked up 
Imma pest, Imma prick
Imma shut the fuck up 
All my friends cut me off 
I don't think I was enough 
It's happening, I know that it's happening, woah 

They say, that I'm too far gone 
Took a shot to the head
Do you think that was enough? 
On my last dying breath do you think I give a fuck?  
It's happening, I know that it's happening, woah

feel the same [prod. chrismarek]

dylan lotus

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