Enjoy, word to guda and michael for producing this masterpiece!

Lyrics: 

Satisfy that crave my love 
Devour all that’s left 
I’ll be fine don’t worry, take that bite out of my chest 
I knew you would be the one to come and make it end 
Ok I’ll stop talking now, I seem to make no sense 
Do you see it on my face, all emotions are reset 
My files been corrupted, is that what you do to friends? 
Air it out, all that dirty laundry that you kept 
Pretty please don’t choke this time, it’s necessary for what’s next 
Sigh

Momentary happiness or temporary love 
A chemical imbalance made to fit me like a glove 
I’ve been stagnant in these waters but the worst is yet to come
The Sirens in the distance know exactly what I want 
Any moment I’ll go down and finally find the peace I crave 
Oh the simple sense of silence as I sink and meet my fate
The swell is warm this time of year just dive right in and have a taste 
It’s ok I had it coming all the sorrows been erased 

(I sometimes don’t feel like I belong here)

Devour (prod. guda + michael harrison)

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noooo i dont know whats wrong
you're fuckin everything up, i never wanted to
i swear ive gone through too much to fall in love with you
i swear ive gone through too much to fall in love with you

noooo you never tell me wrong
i'm left with all of these texts i ain't responding to
i swear ive gone through too much to fall in love with you
i swear ive gone through too much to fall in love with you

and she said "don't go, you were my everything"
gave you my heart but then you break it like it's anything
retrace my steps back to you
i'll tell you everything i couldn't do

and you walked away as the leaves would fall
and i reached my arm but you didn't help
and under my skin you'll uncover and hide
the darkest place that i can reside

and i replay the moment when you leave and depart
while i just lay in my bed with open arms
and i don't wanna hurt myself again and again
but it seems like the start of the end

noooo i dont know whats wrong
you're fuckin everything up, i never wanted to
i swear ive gone through too much to fall in love with you
i swear ive gone through too much to fall in love with you

noooo you never tell me wrong
i'm left with all of these texts i ain't responding to
i swear ive gone through too much to fall in love with you
i swear ive gone through too much to fall in love with you

too much w/ vislyn [prod. michael harrison]

prod, caves
Rip sleep… miss you brother

married in hell // cover

love, lotus. [prod. chrismarek]

no one is saving me [prod. sence x chrismarek]

Lyrics: 

everything you said to me 
turned out to be a lie 

im a mess 
i need to clean up my act
dried blood keeps attracting the flies 
no ones perfect i get that 
but with you i guess im ill-advised 

were built on shaky ground 
inside are the memories that we once had 
now they're burnt to the ground 
ashes on ashes 
black char adorned on our bedroom walls 
burned out thoughts flashing
but the spark we had wont light no more

I cant believe
what have you done
you didnt help me 
I cant believe
what have you done
you didn't help me 

BREATHE
whilst i cut on my lungs
BREATHE 
what the fuck have i done?
let it burn
let it collapse tonight
until there's nothing that can set alight 
BREATHE
BREATHE

were built on shaky ground 
inside are the memories that we once had 
now they're burnt to the ground 
ashes on ashes 
black char adorned on our bedroom walls 
burned out thoughts flashing
but the spark we had wont light no more


𝔟𝔯𝔢𝔞𝔱𝔥𝔢

you lied w/ b murph [prod. sence x betterluckmason]

prod by icantsleeplol & hvci
mixed and mastered by icantsleeplol & hvci

thank u @hvci for helping me with some of the layers to help my vocals more impactful ♡ 

and ofc w/ @xav0id

(i’m experimenting with my vocals and my voice in general to see what it’s capable of. i don’t wanna be limited to one genre. i wanna push past my comfort zone and explore different sounds with my voice)

enjoy:)

lyrics:

@icantsleeplol -
they asked me to smile
so i did
now i can’t tell when i actually mean it

i learned to read the room too well
picked up their moods, and forgot myself
said the lines they’d rather hear
kept my truth in second gear

they liked me better watered down
so i kept my head and voice low-bound
never asked them what they meant
just played the part and paid the rent

@icantsleeplol w/ @hvci -
they never wanted all of me
just the version they could keep clean
so i edited my every thought
to fit inside the mold they bought

@icantsleeplol -
empty tent, the lights still burn
but no one waits for my return
they loved the laugh, not the cost
they clapped so loud, i got lost

@icantsleeplol w/ @hvci -
empty tent, applause fades quick
left alone with what won't fix
i give and give, then disappear
while no one even shifts their ear

@icantsleeplol -
i swallowed pride and played polite
convinced myself it felt alright
but every nod, every demand
left another thing i couldn't stand

i tried to slow the spinning down
but silence just became more loud
i gave too much and asked too little
and broke apart right down the middle

@icantsleeplol w/ @hvci
they smiled, so i assumed it worked
but underneath, it always hurt
and though i tried to keep it smooth
the pressure cracked the parts i moved
 
@xav0id -
empty tent, still looks the same
but i don’t walk out how i came
they called it charm, called it grace
but missed the tremble in my face

empty tent, the echo's mean
i’m still stuck on what they’ve seen
if this was love, or just a guess
why did i fall apart to impress?

@icantsleeplol w/ @xav0id
i’ve memorized what pleases them
but not what brings me back again
i dance around their fragile moods
and call it kindness as i lose

they say i’m calm, they say i’m nice
but only when i pay the price
and every time i try to breathe
i wonder what they’d let me keep

@xav0id - 
empty tent, lights flicker slow
no one left to tell me “go”
but i still bow, still play it cool
still scared of not fitting the rule

empty tent, just me and air
i gave too much, and no one cared
the quiet hits a little late...
but louder than the love they faked

i’m still here
they just forgot
and that’s the part
that hurts the most

no one is saving me [prod. sence x chrismarek]

dylan lotus