stream "pluck"
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lyrics:

[intro]
I don't know I guess I fucking hate you now
You had my heart and it escaped somehow
But let's not get shit started
Go back to your apartment

[verse 1]
Try not to think about it
Just breathe, they'll all see, no way around it
Yeah
There ain't a need to doubt it
Don't give her the chance to wonder where you found it
Oh (I fucking hate you now)
Don't wanna mess this up (nothing you say could help me escape this hell and)
You never gave enough (you play the game so well)
You kinda fucking suck (trying to figure how not to break and tell you)
So

[pre-chrous]
I throw my phone against the wall
Yeah I hate it when she calls 'cause
She asks me what do we do
(um)

[chorus]
I don't know I guess I fucking hate you now
You had my heart and it escaped somehow
But let's not get shit started
Go back to your apartment

[verse 2]
Babe leave
Or I will
Guess you don't want me enough to care how I feel
I know you got places to go don't fucking lie to me
I saw the hearts on your phone so fuck your honesty
Honestly
Yeah maybe I should have listened
Maybe it was my fault there's some shit I've been missing
I guess you moved on but my hearts been conditioned
I'm sorry but baby I think I've made my decision
So I

[pre-chrous]
I throw my phone against the wall
Yeah I hate it when she calls 'cause
She asks me what do we do
(um)

[chorus]
I don't know I guess I fucking hate you now
You had my heart and it escaped somehow
But let's not get shit started
Go back to your apartment
She said I don't care I guess you fucking hate me now
I don't know how
But you lost me in your dreams
I wish I knew how it started
I'll go back to my apartment

pluck

collegeboy

stream "sun"
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lyrics:

[verse 1]
Started hating myself
I've been going through hell
I'm a terrible person
Is all of this worth it?
I'm headed back to my cell
Started hating myself
Make sure no one can tell
Forgot when I kissed you
That you're not the issue
I hope that you're doing well
Started hating myself
Missed a call on my cell
Or maybe a hundred
Lose track when confronted
I can't stop hating myself

Um
Fuck it I guess

[interlude]
Hey, hun
Oh hey what's going on
I was just about to call you
Just calling to let you know that I'm um
Uh I'm sorry you're like breaking up
I can't really tell what you're saying
Breaking up with you
Oh you're breaking up with me
Thanks!

[chorus 1]
Well that's fine
'Cause I don't need your love
I thought that it would heal me but I guess that's just
My mind again
This time you win
It's alright
Already over you anyway

[verse 2]
Already over it now
No time for thinking about
The shit that occupies your time 'cause you ain't coming around again
I won't be missing you now or then 'cause
I'm way too fuckin busy I've been
Coming up I know that you hate it
Got me fucked up
Yeah your heart is serrated
I fell in love and you fell in hatred
Stop calling my line
I'm wasting your time
Forget it

[chorus 2]
Well that's fine
'Cause I don't need your love
I thought that it would heal me but I guess that's just
My mind again
This time you win
It's alright
Already over you anyway
Well that's fine
'Cause I don't need your love
I thought that it would heal me but I guess that's just
My mind again
This time you win
It's alright
Already over you anyway

[outro]
That's fine
'Cause I don't need your love
That's fine
'Cause I don't need your love

now it's the end of the line :/
- the most massive thank you to @dezforman for helping me tell this story and to @bonddot for the mixing <3 love you guys fr

~ never been the type for confrontation 
i lost all my power, i can't even fake it
so complacent, no 
the way you worked your magic is so amazing 
i lost who i was, i got out of your gaze and now i'm saving me 
the odds had kept me from breathing 
i never tried to get even 
write about how i'm feeling 
to clear my mind, yeah im drawing the line 
stare at your likes and a view count 
all of our issues you drew out 
and i don't know what to do now
guess i gotta speak out 

i didn't mean to you love you 
i guess i kinda like the way that you would run to me 
i always hoped you come through
you kinda led me on and watched me drown in oceans deep
should have listened to all my friends 
cause you were using me for gain and i would play pretend, you were mine 
should have payed attention to the signs
now it's the end of the line 

thought about the night i left the station 
got off that train and left you all alone
oh how much did you grow?
the way you slipped back in, and got me again
i can't even shake you off
lost what i wanted, can't move all this weight, i failed in saving me 
is what we had really worth it?i
no need in tryna preserve it 
i know we're both probably hurting 
but it's easy sometimes, if you just drew the line 
fuck all the likes and the view counts
it's you and me that should figure it out 
and i don't know what to do now
guess i gotta stand my ground 

i didn't mean to you love you 
i guess i kinda like the way that you would run to me 
i always hoped you come through
you kinda led me on and watched me drown in oceans deep
should have listened to all my friends 
cause you were using me for gain and i would play pretend, you were mine 
should have payed attention to the signs
now it's the end of the line 

i didn't mean to love you 
in fact i never tried to 
but here we are, here we are ~

terminus

prod. chris marek and monto
mixed and mastered by ty lorenzo
artwork by @aletiune and monto

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bittersweet (w/ ryan hall & han.irl<3)

about doubt

lyrics:
One, two, three
Am I

Too cold to care about
Do you hate to talk 'cause it brings you down is it
Too much to say aloud
Are you tired of this
Can we fuck it out am I

Too cold to care about
Do you hate to talk 'cause it brings you down is it
Too much to say aloud is it
Too much to say aloud

"Is it me?" (Ion know)
"Is it different?" (Yup)
"Are you tired?"
"Am I anxious?"
We both asked and tried to respond but
Sleep deprivation's never been honest

So we sat
In silence (Sh)
"Why can't you talk to me?"
We both asked and tried to respond, but
I'm just quiet
I'm just quiet

Fucked up tough love getting upset
Try to ignore all the shit you told
Your friends about my broken thoughts and
What I said or tried to

Tough luck got fucked by the solitude
Blank walls, cheap room, creeping want
Of sensory content
Alone and at fault
I'm in tears on the floor
I know it's "just another freak out"

Little bitch sit down
It ain't really that bad
Won't you shut your mouth
'Fore you take another lap of the house

Stop pacing you're acting insane
All this talking to yourself won't help

"I'm well! I've never felt better than this!"
"I'm great! I've never felt better than this!"
"I'm well! I've never felt better than this!"
"I'm great! I've never felt better than this!"

Do you wish you'd settled down
Thirty, forty minutes out the city
Somewhere quiet, but
Close enough so that you could still go see your friends

You'd be working as a teacher
He'd be doing something stable
Twenty-seven, everything
Would be going according to plan

Do you wish you'd settled down
Somewhere quiet out the city
Finished study finally starting up your life like you had said

You'd be working as a teacher
He'd be doing something stable
Twenty-seven, everything had gone according to plan

Am I

Too cold to care about
Do you hate to talk 'cause it brings you down is it
Too much to say aloud
Are you tired of this
Can we fuck it out am I

Too cold to care about
Do you hate to talk 'cause it brings you down is it
Too much to say aloud is it
Too much to say aloud

'communication is the basis of every strong relationship'

prod. ilytwelve 
yeah no one to hold me down
i need amenity my friends they all enemies now
i was never good enough to make anyone stick around 
but i think im better now they hate to see what comes around
( i love you )

i dont know what to feel anymore 
stuck in anonymity don't know who i am no more
only took a couple months you walked right out that fucking door
yeah, like what the fuck was it all even for?
if this is how to live then i don't want to live at all
i just wind up all my feelings then i let em go
and it was never for the worst but that's just how it goes 
fuck around to fuck around probably just to feel something more
( i love you )

yeah no one to hold me down
i need amenity my friends they all enemies now
i was never good enough to make anyone stick around 
but i think im better now they hate to see what comes around

and i dont know if i miss you or i miss the thought of love 
im trapped in my consciousness need drugs to get out of touch 
you all diplomatic, im just a manic 
so whose advice do i take if i don't have an answer 
i just spend up all my time in my own mind 
the only friend i got is what i smoke to feel right 
i set the bar high 
a waste of my time 
caught on the deadline, in which im taught to be sure
i struggle finding what's sure 
don't need a hand and not yours 
take revelations it's straining to rip out the sword
i wasn't distant before 
but now i'm distant and more 
my personality inside of me 
it makes me contort 
( i love you ) 

yeah no one to hold me down
i need amenity my friends they all enemies now
i was never good enough to make anyone stick around 
but i think im better now they hate to see what comes around
yeah no one to hold me down
i need amenity my friends they all enemies now
i was never good enough to make anyone stick around 
but i think im better now they hate to see what comes around

fuck!
but i ain't going out sad
do it by myself 
i dont need nobody bad
i remember i was down 
ain't nobody had my back so
now when i go up
ill be up until my body bag yeah.

amenity

Crossroads ft. oldcollin

Calling w/Veohuh

produced by elroy and carson thatcher

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terminus

Dylan Longworth